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he keeps crashing procreate

#Jiang Cheng is Tired #it’s another terrible day to be Jiang Cheng! #the untamed #Jiang Cheng #his expression is sending me op

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it's always quietly very funny to me when people look at Tolkien and go "old white guy? and he was catholic!? welp obviously he was a generic conservative dope lmao, imagine the pearl-clutching if he saw us getting our grubby deranged woke fandom hands all over his stuff" like

even if you don't take the time to learn anything about his life and friendships, research his history interacting with publishers and the public, read any of the letters, or dig into his own area of study,

his actual writing is still right there.

#🙃

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#hey #the untamed #Jiang family

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Nothing gives the same kind of random ego boost like managing to finally clean up your home and making it nice. Like ooh look at me, I'm living like people do, I made myself iced tea and I am eating my snack from a real plate. I got floors and shit.

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#Ranma 1/2 but that was sort of us giving the anime a shot after getting very into the manga #gundam wing was the first anime I ever watched properly I think

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We all deserve this kind of support.

#mine cannot compare to this #but I was working at a terrible terrible temp job for truly horrible people #I specifically opted NOT to go perm because they were awful even though I could have made $$ in mandatory paid overtime #well also I didn’t want to work twelve hours a day #but I gamely stuck it out for several months while they looked for someone who would go for perm under those conditions #and actually watched them interview my putative replacement in a conference room next to my desk #without them ever saying a word about what was happening #I wasn’t really surprised #when my contact at my temp agency called me up and went ‘uh. bad news. I just found out today is your last day there.’ #‘this one is not about you and im already looking for your next assignment’ #(she was legit blindsided) #the other perm admin who hated her bosses was SEETHINGLY angry on my behalf #meanwhile I was like nw I was expecting them to do this and I liked the $$ but I do want out of here so I just gonna finish my hours and go #1/2 before my final shift ended #one of the bosses sent me a trip he needed me to organize and print materials for for two days from then #0 chance the new hire would be up to speed enough to handle that task #I COULD have done it #it would have taken me the whole time I was still there but I could have done it #I would have done it for a boss I liked or who’d even treated me with the basic courtesy of being honest about what they knew I could see #(that I was likely to be out of a job by the end of that day) #but they didn’t #so I spent the last 1/2 of that job twiddling my fingers and unable to read email

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#I only tangentially go to a place related to here

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that’s it that’s the whole show

#I don’t even go here

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New discourse: it's actually predatory to date someone with a different star sign than you, because the differences in your personalities means you'll never be able to have exactly the same life experiences, thus leaving a knowledge and power gap between the two of you which will inevitably lead to an abusive relationship!

also if you're a Sag and you're dating a Taurus, that means you're secretly seeking a May-December relationship, which is age gap coded!

#I’m crying

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I still regret that I spent over a decade Not Writing Fanfiction due to burnout and then personal hangups, because that’s a solid ten years plus I could have been improving my fanfic writing craft. But. It’s also a little liberating to have taken up narrative writing again, more seriously this time, only when I was well out of my 20s, and approaching my present Do Not Give A Fuck era.

This is also because I also spent a lot of that time writing poetry (so helpful! everyone should try it! I am quite serious!), and reading not about narrative fiction or about writing narrative writing, but about language and linguistics, and just generally getting a little bit usefully cynical about certain types of writing advice/dogma—about all the things you MUST do, about all the things you CANNOT do. I am still, now, learning how to write; I am still evolving as a writer. I sometimes look at something I wrote a year ago and wince because I’d make a different choice today. I’m also still not great at structure and I don’t think plot is ever going to be my gift.

But I also feel very liberated in writing exactly the way I want to write; writing the way that feels instinctively correct to me! I’m glad I took up writing fiction again at a point in my life when I have a lot more confidence to ignore people telling me things about writing that I don’t think are useful or true. (Sometimes I go back and reread a thing I wrote and go, “you know what, X was exactly right, this would have been stronger if I’d taken their advice and done it the way they suggested” but also? That’s just as helpful for me to think about after the fact as it would have been for me to take that advice in the first place, if what I want to do is to learn and grow.)

I try new things, I work at old areas I know I’m weak at, I make mistakes, I produce imperfect work. Writing is sometimes exhausting; it is sometimes a slog; it is sometimes frustrating. But it’s also just…such joyful freedom! I know I can do whatever I want with my writing! I’m not trying to please someone else or to get a passing grade in writing! I’m just enjoying myself exploring what I’m able to do with words. Every bit of community and every bit of joy that comes with sharing my very learning-in-progress writing is such a gift to me—and that is due in large part to not giving a fuck about other people’s writing rules.

#unexpected gem as I troll through my own writing tag lol #I stand by every word of this #I enjoy becoming a better writer by exercising the craft of writing #in ways that bring me deep satisfaction and joy #and never feeling like I ‘ought’ or ‘must’ or ‘should’ be approaching my hobby in any specific way #this is indeed my hobby and not my vocation #and that makes all the difference doesn’t it Mr frost

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I will be 70 years old and I still will never have gotten over the time the Mythbusters used a rocket powered steel wall to - and I use this word as literally as possible - vaporize an entire car into red mist

#shut

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A small victory to celebrate for today

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There are no stupid questions

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wei wuxian literally tackling jiang cheng after yu ziyuan and jiang fengmian have a fight over him just so there's no bad blood between them

wei wuxian and jiang cheng are so determined to love each other through everything im literally sobbing. they aren't brothers by blood, they're brothers because they love being brothers, and because they love each other

#the hold they have on me #the untamed #yunmeng bros

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🐟🐡🦈🐠🦐🪼🦞🦀🐳🐋🐬🦭

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