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Echoes of the pervasive talkback decide to collaborate in famous new resonant frequency

wah wah pedals

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basics

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/0

I don’t ask you to click. Zero, it’s the lowest number. Make sure that you know it!

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Painting meditation (at B&M Baked Beans)

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Don’t you hate when this happens?

"He feared that if he were to permit his self-imposed defensive walls to be breached by the sublime beauty and power of art, film, music and literature, he might lose all control of himself, go berserk, become mad, psychotic, be overwhelmed or destructively possessed by the daimonic. So he carefully steered clear of such circumstances, concealing his artistic sensibilities behind a crude persona, impoverishing his quality of life and starving his soul."

Why We Love Music and Why Freud Despised It

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W.R.L.D, “Ambrahab USB Bacterium” 2015, phatoshop W.R.L.D, “Dali Neural Hair: Circuitly Bored” 2015, phatosoop

#art #illustration #up #coming #deer in headlights

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Usher: Kool Keith is the greatest rapper alive, fight me if you think something else.

Movie Gogurt: Don't make it about that, you twerp. Hip Hop's most recent ancestor is Civil Rights! http://www.thehiphopproject.org/site/pdfs/hhp_civilRights.pdf

Attila the Hun Solo: Roots and Culture! And then, might it not come from even further in humeng history? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0PCsYktWGiI

Usher: hip hop hooray! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Dqt1BRHRYk

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The Vohrr by B. Catling fast appears to shine brilliantly. I decided with a description of Muybridge, a real life famous photographer and inventor, and his understanding of film/photography. I quote the Vohrr, it says, "Observation was not the primary function of photography, but a side effect of its true purpose. The constant gathering of pictures of life was only a harvesting of basic material. Deeper meaning lay within the next part off the process, a kernel waiting to give up its flavor after being savagely reworked: The camera was a collector not of light, but of time, and the time it cherished most was in anticipation of death. It could look between the seams of existence and sniff out an essence that was missed in the daily continuum. It fed on the spillage between worlds that was denied to common sight and ordinary men."

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Selling people is not an entirely new business model. There was once a very financially-rewarding global business built on selling people’s bodies. We called it slavery. Today, we frown upon that particular practice in polite company. It’s about time to ask ourselves, however, what are we to call the business of selling everything about a person that makes them who they are apart from their body?

https://aralbalkan.com/notes/the-camera-panopticon/

this dude reaches out to the truth of his life. he still has a facebook account.

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War, God, and the Bible.

The earliest Yahwistic traditions reveal that Yahweh was a Bedouin war god from the deserts of Odom and of the surrounding regions. His essentially warlike characteristics are demonstrated by his name, by cultist celebrations of his mighty deeds, and by his ark.

I learned from Japanese game Persona 3 that the Abrahamic God was actually a warrior god that defeated other gods, earning the title of Supreme God. Then he has a son who is mad chill hippy-anarchist kind of guy who wants everyone to drink wine and eat toast because he knows they're about to be pummeled aka tested by their War God again. This article also says that the Islamic God is more peaceful than the one in Jewish and Christian religions. I don't buy that right off the bat, because I heard from my brother that all three: YHWH, God and Allah are the same frickin' god. That is my bias. Now I will finish reading and find out. Comment if you read and say what you think about this "development".

Yahweh was not always God in Israel and at every social level.  Rather, initially he belongs only to the storm and war gods like Baal, Anath, Hadad, Resheph and Chemosh.

Now I face out I hold out I reach out to the truth of my life Seeking to seize on the whole moment to now break away -Billy Halibut

#Persona 3 #abrahamic religions #God #YHWH #yahweh #war #war god #god of war

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Young Agrarians Needed. Green Chemistry.

I have no gifted insight I have no presumption that the way I see the world is correct. It just happens to be the way I see. And I can just share that with you, the background that I've had got me to where I am. The way I see it we don't have to have that need to compel people to agree or disagree.

The more backgrounds you have to draw from, the closer to the truth you become. Make sure and learn from people who have different backgrounds and specializations than you!

This guy says homerun points that I have tried to express before. Great speaker!

Walter, this video has mention of bio-mimicry in asphault production! What is asphault "gravel with sticky material holding it together. We've come up with a way to process old pavement and use it again." I think I might want to work at a biomimicry firm...seems like a place that experience design could occupy. But maybe I need a PHD in bio/chem/somethin.

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transmetropolitan

We are co-opt ed!  Culled into separate bubbles through specialization and a need for meager money.  To pay for our ability to visit our friends, and because of the The Way Thugs Are, we must become mutually exclusive, unable to communicate except among our specialties.  I say, cocktail bowels to that $!!#

That energy we could use to harness a new economy with a new social structure slip out of grasp daily...even our multidisciplinary video game friends become more entrenched in delightful subculture by day, insulated and categorized for easy blog write ups and fake triple a reviews for destiny.

Rich sick tars flop into our pizza joints and sneer at cashier's food stamps while bank rolling beautiful new lawyers who have to pay off law school entering careers of inertial ineptitude, inevitable genitalia rebelling against its respective owner. They should be picking up our cases! Our science phreeks penning new paradigms for us, our experience designers crafting new pathways for new combinations.

Muddled and suffocated!

There hasn't been a journalist alive since Spider-Jerusalem that dared to become a character sacrificed at the cross for truth in style!  Where are all those documentary students inspired by Hunter Thompson,  hopping fucking trains in the desert of tomorrow? Farming in co-op farms in the Netherlands?

Saddled with debt and culled into a regulated post college school, our best and brightest are being crammed into ideological positions in industry, reduced to students of funkies grinding insolent routines into the genitals of our studs stallions mares and nightmares!  Oh yeah Bob is a nice guy, a hardworking fickle baby boomer who used to be cool.  He helped weed get corporate, congratulations,  traitor!

And why? I have been dreaming about this for years, tears in my eyes as I awoke to white walls stuck with posters of whatever. Specialized mind wrenches replace the cunning and comprehending minis I fell in deranged lust with over and over. Their skills are wasted on uncaring overseers. Their art overlooked on white walls in some art school building instead of carried and left on the floor of stores, the butt cracks of yetis , and the beer of Israel.

Nomnomnom hmm yes delicious, let us explore the New Frontiers: the Airwaves Among Us.  We will repopulate our minds with the harsh brutality of tribal togetherness! We will throw away our locked-identity simulacra and rejoin Fucking HUMANITYYYYYYYY AHAHAHAHAHAGGGGSGGGGHSHBHHHHH&HH HE HUMANITYYYYYYYY This message brought to you by onomatopoeia.

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Boks I Red Before

The Circle by Dabid Eggars The Angel's Game by Cablos Ruiz Zafon The Wind Through the Keyhole by Stephen KingThe Tommyknockers by Stephen King Colorless Tsukaru Tasaki and his Years of Pilgrimage Japanamerica by Roland Kelts Transmetropolitan by Ellis & Robertson

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Hey Enutrof, I hope the period of change went well, or is going well enough. Vague but sincere.

Wanted to give you an update, since timing didn't work out.

I quit smoking and I quit drinking.  While this hasn't exactly catapulted me from an amotivational to a type-A power do-er, I'm standing by the decision firmly, apart from some beer foam that exploded while pouring my mom a beer.  I did feel tempted a few times but the urges don't last much longer than a few moments.  Except the one for adderall, which was a bottle-pick-up-and-check and it turned out that the bottle wasn't adderall, but I didnt go looking for it after, and since I already knew that was the most addictive thing I've used, it was easy to think about where it would get me, which wasn't any further than I already was.  Run on sentences are back in my language arts...so that's there.

I'm not so sure anymore that I'm an artist.  My ego or I'd or something feels like I broke the seal on its cage, and my self-esteem has risen.  I can see that there is something great about me. I fear it is not my ability to attract attention or produce writing or art that gets me places. But there is something tangible for me in people I care about.  There is something that draws people to me, and talking to these friends fills me and them with joy.  I

..my tutoring business is suffering a mite as well from my lack of drive.  I cannot yet identify what trajectory I want to take.  So I'm reading a lot and watching a lot of film and documentary, recently slavoj zizek, laegerkvist (the dwarf), werner herzog and klaus kinski films, and some about how global politics works and about anonymous and their activism.  I'm hoping I discover some purpose this way.

I do not have much long before my health insurance is gone....a mere seven months.  Gotta pack in all my illnesses now.  But that doesn't fly worry me.  I am beginning to dawn that perhaps I ought to get a company job, as I need to pay off my loans and let's face it, the ppl who own my loans are gaugers who I'd prefer not get a dime more than they deserve with my accrueing interest.

Unfortunately I didn't much get involved in the town up here, or manage to join any clubs other than helping out my mom with counting alewives for a fish ladder project experiment.  Takes time I spoze.  I've had some new York city guys visit me the other week, and we had a vigorous workout hiking or walking everyday, playing soccer, was good.  I wish there were a soccer league here.  I'm expecting a few more visitors. And planning a couple weekend trip a in the next month, and a wedding  to attend in November.

A group of friends in western Massachusetts are trying to convince me to soon move nearby them. They're great, and I think I would love to live there.  I have no idea when, because mormor is still struggle bussing.  I don't know if its wise to move so soon and quickly.  But I really would like to, especially after I think of some direction to take.  I hope it doesn't take my whole life to choose one.  Because they wont be around forever, and they'd really love for me to live there, they found me an affordable apartment and even a job!!!  I was dumb/lovestruck by their wish for me to join them.  They're fantastic people and I went camping for 5 days with them this last summer.

Another development, I signed up to get certified in Deep Listening/Dream Listening/Qi Gong.  My friend said the requirements are extreme, and I refused to look at them.  I'm jumping IN!  The certification begins online in January.  I don't know what to expect, but I'm excited because I do feel welcome around them.  Of course I was using weed brownies during the conference and volunteering and there were some weird interactions but also some exhilarating ones, and I can tell their disciplines make a deep impression o. Me because they're so playful and they all remind me of forest animals.  None of them are like Klaus kinski but that's okay for now.  I hope to be around someone as passionate and determined as kinski and Herzog, but they're famous for a reason and that might never happen.

Meanwhile my brother needs a travel partner, and to go on a trip where he can experience alternate reality, because he's never ever really done anything crazy one his own, and obviously it is squelching the unbridled absurdism of his pidgeon-chasinf, tap dancing insane lovely existence.  I just haven't worked up in myself to go with him yet, because I feel like I'm holding him back...but maybe he just needs a push from one of the few who see him as a leader, and a strong minded beautiful person, rather than a crippled fuck up or the result of an observor's failure to save him from this or that.  He doesn't see this in himself yet either.

I just looked through a bunch of old photo albums of my parents in their younger days up to my own childhood pictures...my dad took such good care of my, my whole family did, I really need to keep in touch with them.  Its like the family broke up.  I don't want to be the one who has to keep it going, what the hell!!!! It always ran fine without me, I don't understand why suddenly I have to rally the family and stay in touch, I've never been prepared for this role, I've always been the kid who was there and contributed my bit...now I have to get adults to talk to me??  I don't get why they stopped talking to ME, is it my age?  Its not like anything actually changed....I'm still here, they're still here...maybe people just need a boost sometimes.

Anywhozzle, I'm glad to know I can still go on like this about my life like it's newsworthy, because that's the part of my ego I like best, it swells my throat with laughter to write this down and go on and on about this stuff like I'm writing for the New Yorker.  It seems like absurdist irony that my talent for writing centers around gobbledygook that's what I'm thinking about.  Hah maybe I have something there, after all the only thing in writing you can really trust is fiction and a description of my own experience.  The rest is grasping at abstract realities that have to be measured and quantified, people interpreting history, or predicting the future or promising things or lying about other things or the same things, and other silly dallies like that.

Oh! One last thing s:  I'm drawing a shower curtain for someone, a famous musician for $100 and having frequent discussions with two friends/thinkers I admire and I might be coauthoring a paper with a biologist I admire.

And I mean,,,I don't really have to rush because my family and I are living pretty comfortably, despite the obvious leeching it feels like sometimes, at the same time I feel like I'm helping a lot.  And actually I'm publishing ebooks right now for people, so that's a random skill. 

Talk to you later, Let me know how your existence is going too.  I think hearing that stuff would help me picture how people do things...just saw an old pic of my dad installing insulation and it filled me with the desire to do projects and initiate change on my own...it just seems hazy!!  Real life, where are you? Hahah

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madness & dreams

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dreams and madness

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kingdom of dreams and madness