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Anaïs Nin, from "The four-chambered heart" originally published c. 1950

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The devastating difference between how much time it takes to write something vs how fast people read it lol

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#scenery

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#jhéne aiko #quotes

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Small artists you need to understand that when you see an artist who you think has 'made it' tells you not to worry about the numbers and to not fret about getting more likes than reblogs they are not telling you it because they think you are stupid for caring or because they dont need to network to survive they are very likely telling you that because they have witnessed first hand the way the numbers game tears people to shreds in terms of mental health and motivation

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black lagoon aged kind of badly in a number of ways but like. balalaika. call me.

#her #her orbifrontal cortex so damaged but I love her sm #black lagoon

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to you, it’s a shitty sentence. to some random bitch 500 miles away, it’s a fire line that’ll haunt them for the next 17 years.

you don’t know how impactful your writing is because it’s been in your brain for far too long now. you’ve stared at it for hours and repeated “this sucks” over and over again to the point that you killed your capacity to feel anything about your work.

but trust me, once you get your shit out there, someone’s gonna go over that paragraph you hate and go “jesus fucking christ” and put the book down to have an existential crisis.

#esp when it takes you 3-6 months to write one chapter like it does for me

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online communities are so strange because people slip away so easily. you can be on here for years, folding people you've never met into the fabric of your daily life, and then they disappear, leaving only ghost posts scattered across tumblr behind. or their blog stays dormant, for weeks, months, years, until you're only still following them because you remember that they love sunflowers or they were kind to you when they didn't have to be or the last thing they posted was sad and raw and you still worry about them sometimes.

and sometimes they come back when you least expect it, years later, even, and there's this sudden rush of relief like there you are, there you are, even though you barely knew each other.

there's a strange kind of love to it. i don't know you and i want to hold your hand across miles and time zones and oceans. i can still see the imprint of you in this community you left. you don't think anyone will notice or care when you're gone, but we notice and we care and we wish you well.

i hope you're all okay out there. i hope the sun is shining on your face and you are breathing deeply. i miss you.

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Anne Rice on depression and writing:

"I get feelings of total defeat. I get feelings of total nihilism. I get so depressed sometimes that I look at my hands and I think why even lift them off the table...why turn on the computer...why touch the keys...why write anything? But what I do then is write about that. If nothing else, I turn it on and I write about despair, and I try to write my way through it. I think the most important thing, more than anything in the world, is to write, and use any excuse in your mind that you can to write. Don't ever let despair or depression stop you.

Remember this, that if you don't write it, it isn't going to be there. It's that simple. And, if you are really down and out and really sad, look at it this way--decide that you are going to write it, and if you don't like it, you are going to throw it away. I've done that quite a few times, and l've never wound up throwing the book away."

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there's a reason taylor swift called her new album the tortured poets department because it would literally torture any poet that listens to it

#we are singing a Taylor song in my choir and I die inside every time we have to sing it #it’s so dull

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All That Remains - Chapter 14

Fandom: Black Lagoon (Anime & Manga) Rating: Mature Relationships: Balalaika/Rebecca “Revy” Lee, Balalaika & Boris (Black Lagoon), Balalaika & Original Female Character Characters: Balalaika (Black Lagoon), Boris (Black Lagoon), Rebecca “Revy” Lee, Hotel Moscow, Original Female Character(s), Okajima “Rock” Rokuro, Balalaika’s soldiers Additional Tags: Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Balalaika & her unit, Character Study,  Eventual Balalaika/Revy, Canon-Typical Violence, Balalaika’s backstory, essentially Balalaika’s full metamorphosis from Sofiya to Balalaika and how it happened.

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Revy looked into her eyes, trying to find some piece to hang on to, something that was remotely human, something that was real. 

“There's another thing," Balalaika said, leaning over, her lipstick shining bright and Revy pressed herself closer. "I don’t know what you’re thinking, but you cannot have the life he has.”

#black lagoon #balarevy #my story

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“The world is so dreadful in many ways. Do let us be tender with each other.”

— Katherine Mansfield, in a letter to Dorothy Brett, dated August 14 1918

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caring about things is cool being passionate is cool being earnest is cool being genuine is cool being compassionate is cool

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Tag your favourite flower, fruit, colour, scent, season and tea!

#rose #pineapple (idc if it’s a berry) or pear #lilac & borscht red #lilac or vanilla #summer #black tea w apple cinnamon & vanilla flavour #or rooibos w chili & apple

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art takes so long and its so tiring but if i dont make art for the rest of my life ill die

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why write a story if no one's going to read it?

Sometimes you don't want to share a story with others. Sometimes you do want to share it, but no one clicks on the title. So why bother writing it down if the only person you can guarantee will read it is you?

You need to get it out of your head. It just keeps replaying in your imagination on a loop and the only way to get it unstuck is to pin it down on paper.

You need to figure out what the story is. You have a lot of disjointed scenes or lines that you know are connected but you can't quite figure out how.

There's something in the story that's important to you, and you don't want to lose that thing by forgetting it. Future you might find that thing important too.

You want to be able to go back to the story again and again. Maybe to make adjustments over time. Maybe just to revisit a story that gives you the emotional release you need in that moment.

You want to be able to use text-to-speech to read the story aloud to you. Maybe it's a bedtime story. Maybe it's keeping you company while you do errands and chores.

You want to find out whether you can write a story (because not everyone can).

You want to be able to have almost the same story, but a little bit different, and you want to have it 15 times with slight variations. Then you can go through your own personal menu picking exactly the combination of beats that will satisfy you most on this reading.

You enjoy the process of finding just the right words or phrases or scenes to paint the pictures you want to shape the scene.

You want to find the exact rhythm and syllables and structure to make a sentence really sing.

You don't really have any particular reason, but you know you want to write that story down.

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“i can’t do this anymore” says a girl who is not only going to do it but do it well