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WHY HAVE ALL MY FAV FANFIC WRITERS TURNED TO WRITING ANGST I CANNOT HANDLE THAT GUYS ILL SLIT MY WRISTS.

Me when I only got back into fanfic to distract myself from an awful like purely awful breakup and relationship so I'd distract myself with reading sum just pure smut or fluff which also makes me miss them but like it distracts a little only for my fav writers to start writing angst (o can't handle it guys)

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Me when I crave to have messages from them but they barely ever text me so I'm just gonna give myself an ounce of self respect and realize they don't actually love me and only talk to me when they're bored so I won't message back. I literally user to wait for a message from them for weeks at a time with nothing from them and I'm tired of it

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Me when I'm on the verge of killing myself

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Another morning of me not waking up to ritualistic chanting and tied to a cold stone altar. But whatever. It will be fine.

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Sometimes when I'm jerking off I have to really get into it and whimper and whine and punch my nipple just to cum

Like im usually not too vocal doing sex but to cum I need to ??? (Sorry if this doesn't make sense I'm autistic)

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how to not bully a guy you like into suicide

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thinking about assisted suicide

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People being upset because I'm a homosexual, wait until they find out I'm a necrophillac.

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Do it for the

Thin legs

Skinny waist

Visible ribs

Dainty shoulders

Elegant hands

Striking collarbones

Feminine neck

Hollow face

Sharp jawline

🦋 🦋 🦋

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I'm scared when tiktok gets banned the weird (degradatory) girls from there come here and ruin my enclosure(tumblr)

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Would you guys still love me if I was problematic

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i’d sell my kidney to look like alana champion⭐️

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Kys(flirting)

<33 kill me yourself

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Sigh thinking about cults. And my religious truama tw.

Just imagining being super depressed and very emotional and having someone come into my life that is so normal and unassuming at first. Slowly they become a part of my everyday life and their little gestures make me trust them more and more and they are so caring that I become so codependent on them so when they start asking for weirder and weirder things I don't think anything of it. They start managing my diet but I assume they're just trying to help me and they know I want to lose weight even if they feed me weird things.

Or they start having me wear a certain thing almost as a claim. Before it turns into me being so dependent on them I'd do anything and so when I get so sad and sleepy but have the urge to cut I don't see it as a problem when they offer to do it for me. Slicing at my legs before kissing them. At this point they're so friendly and guiding they love to brush my hair and give me things and do things I'd usually do by myself like bathe me. Until I'm just some little lamb for them.

I'm so trusting of them when they say they have smth for me I think nothing about why I need to dress in the white gown they got me and all the jewelry they got me in the past as well as eat a piece of bread thay hes me woozey. And how they want me to wear bows in my hair and be bathed in a certain soap they like until we get into their car and they blindfold me for the surprise it's already Evening when we leave and once we get their they carry me to the surprise.

At first I assume we are just having a little romantic fire in the woods. I can hear the crunch under their feet from the leaves and the birds and other wild life. And the crackle of fire and the heat as we walk past it and I'm placed on smth like stone. When my blindfold is taking off I'm on an altar of sorts and there's a fire ahead of me as well as a bunch of people in masks. Of course I'm frightened holding onto the person I came with arm before they shush me. There's candles and statues around me as well as flowers and by the atlar is a bowl for offerings. The person sits beside me unphased as I cling to them, scared of what's happening. And they address the people. Not realizing he's a leader of the cult and all the jewelry and clothes they've been giving me are actually not only from them but his people as well. All their followers have known a out me for a long time giving them offerings to give the cult leaders little pet, his lamb. When he's done speaking to them he turns to me telling me to lay on the altar stone as he gets on top of me as the watchers look on. He cuts open my wrists while I whimper and shake and push against him confused. He cuts his wrists as well mixing his bleed with mine before licking at his wrists and he puts his wrist by my mouth for me to lick up as well.

Some of the followers that are dressed differently go on to give a spot of sermon as if I'm not whimpering behind them as the leader continues to assualt me and push up the white gown. The sermon is about needing to view the leader take what's his and have smth resemble the lamb and religious symbol of their cult and how I'm the image they should look up to cause the leader has chose me as his lamb to mark infront of them to make me his forever. Him cutting me open by carving his name into my stomach as he fucks me on the altar while his people watch

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GUYS PLEASE I NEED TO YAP TO SOMEONE ABOUT THIS HYPERFIXATION I GOT BACK INTO

(stu x billy is a phenomenal ship and the comfort I feel reading being in a relationship with the too of them makes me feel heard and welcomed every time I read a good one and I need them widnejjeehd I need to hangout with them and cuddle and watch horror movies)

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Okay but being a lamb to a cult would be so nice rn no thoughts no nothing or just in general being sacrificed rn. I want to look so pretty and pure that they have to make me the sacrifice ykyk or even just the thought of being like a navie little church girl that gets manipulated and corrupted

My religious truama is going hard rn

#gore lover #autassassinophilia #murder kink #erotophonophilia #actually obsessive #gore nsft #cnc stalking #knife k!nk #knifeplay #n3crophilia #hierophilia #cult kink #corruption kink #mind corruption #religious trauma #religious kink #religious imagery #tw religious themes #obssesive #dumb wh0re #dumbification #dumb puppy

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Istg if I went missing and they use a picture where I look fat I'd make me kidnapper kill me