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Thinking about JB and Jude lately…

JB, who was Jude’s first friend. JB, who carried Jude to the college hospital when he witnessed him having an episode in their dorm.

JB, who shouted and made a scene in that same hospital until a doctor finally saw Jude - and that doctor was Andy, the only physician Jude ever allowed to care for him for the rest of life.

JB, who helped Jude move into the apartment he shared with Willem on Lispenard St. JB, who brought along his friend Richard to help that day. Richard, who later sold Jude his beautiful apartment on Green Street that Jude loved so much. Richard, who secretly looked after him more than Jude ever imagined, who at one point saved his life, and at another point reminded him his birthday was worth celebrating, when Jude himself had forgotten and his world was bleak.

JB, who envied his life, his looks, his career, his relationship (even his limp!). JB, who saw him as competition, rather than someone to pity. JB, who thought he was beautiful, who thought killing something small and adorable was worth it if it meant looking like Jude.

JB, who brought him to parties, who showered him with laughter and provocations.

JB, who asked too many questions and wanted all the answers but got none of them. JB, who then asked Harold to back off from asking all the questions and wanting all the answers as well.

JB, who captured his life in galleries, on canvas, on film. The good and the bad.

JB, who’s art invaded and celebrated and decorated. JB, who’s art froze Willem in time for him.

JB, who was Jude’s last friend. JB, who Jude resented, who Jude hated, who Jude never forgave, who Jude wanted dead.

JB, who found him at last, who put away his suits, who handed out his letters.

JB, who outlived his friends, who was left alone, with his pictures, and his paintings, and his pain.

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I DAMN SURE NEVER WOULDVE DANCED WITH THE DEVIIIIL

i saw a tiktok about would’ve could’ve should’ve being about addie larue and it’s so perfect I’m upset I didn’t think of it

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Me after every book i read, every movie i watch

just finished invisible life of addie larue and needed to be back on tumblr immediately

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Me listening to Down Bad:

Teenage petulance ❌❌❌ teenage flatulence ✅✅✅

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The “I am nothing if not for the bits and pieces stolen from every fictional character Ive come across” list

1) I need to have a favorite line from the Iliad and the Odyssey!!!! (Which means I also have to read them) - Courtesy of Willem, A Little Life

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Capitalism has failed us!

You’re telling me that we have brought it to such a point where a NEW TAYLOR SWIFT ALBUM COMES OUT ON FRIDAY and I still have to go to work??? I cannot take ONE DAY OFF as Miss comes in to wreck my plans (that’s my man) ?????

SCREW YOU ALLLLLL

#why do I have to work 😭😭😭😭😭

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I am Emma. I am Lacy.

The only person those songs remind me of is me.

#i am the sweetest thing on this side of hell

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I thought my love language was words of affirmation cause well im Indian which is synonymous to i was never told “i love you” or “im proud of you”

But I just realized that this shits also given me vulnerability issues so whenever i do get those words of affirmation from my boyfriend i shy away and do an awkward laugh *pls stop* kinda thing :)

IS THERE NO WAY OUT?????

#mommy issues #indian parents #happy realization

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Yikes….

Glad that fantasy stayed that way

#1989 taylors version #vault tracks #this bitch

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Taylor lyrics that makes my heart scream ME HE HEEEE

1) I know my pain is such an imposition

2) I think about jumping off of very tall somethings just to see you come running and say the one thing I’ve been wanting BUT NO

#taylor swift #1989 taylors version #vault tracks #lyrical genius

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Gotta overthink the shit out of this and make a categorize every person in my life into ‘loves me enough’ and ‘doesnt love me enough’ but no time rn!! So saving this for laterr

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First pins on home inspo board???

These obviously cant stay cause im cleansing my Pinterest but NOSTALGIA!!! I wanna be 13 again!!!!

#no i dont #just saying

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Of all the Taylor Swift songs i could relate to how is it that ‘Invisible String’ is the most applicable to my life right now????

#miss swift #obsession #folklore

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So many feelings….

leonard cohen, take this longing

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Get him back is great but its not HITTING cause i need to relate to it uk…. And trust me im tryna relate but….

“I wanna get him back”? No thankyou🙂

“I wanna key his car”? Idt he has a car👀

“I wanna make him lunch”? I cant fucking cook!

Work with me here Olivia… make me something i can feeeeel

#i think I’m hilarious #olivia rodrigo #get him back #GUTS

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My contribution to the world.

#taylor swift #psychotic #swifties are enablers #1989tv

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I think I’m obsession material

Dont u think so?