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The way you change your immediate reactions to things is that you catch yourself having an uncharitable/bigoted/overly judgmental thought and you catch it and replace it and then you do that a hundred times a day for your whole life and eventually one day like five years later you realize that you think differently now and you’ll always be working on something but that’s how life goes and that’s fine.

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Tried to design a character who wears her Health-bar and Mana-bar as stockings <3

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#jhfsjfsj SHE LOOKS LIKE THE CAT FROM KIKIS DELIVERY SERVICEEE!!!!!

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I went viral on instagram for being a Pro-shipper

Before I even knew what a pro-shipper was.

Around this time last year I had just gotten back to the states from being in Japan for 3-ish months. I posted a reel jokingly showing off some of the BL Manga that I had bought during my stay.

In the video I showed Volume one of Yarachin Slut club and volume one of Hitorijime, my hero.

If you don’t know these series. Yarachin is about a group of boys who run a high school sex club it also has various degrees of dubcon and gang rape. The other deposits an age gap relationship teacher/student.

The reel where I showed these manga went viral on the wrong side of the internet and In 2 months my instagram received over 80,000,000 views across all my reels and I’m averaging at this current moment 10-20,000,000 views a month.

the comments I was receiving and have been receiving since are beyond words.

Some examples of what the more tame comments

And if you think the comments are bad (not shown are the hundreds of comments telling me I’m not trans or gay, that I’m a cis woman pretending to be queer to garner support from the queer community, misgendering and deadnaming me, threading to dox me/send my address/personal info to people via DMs. Not to mention the newest group of people who found out I have a dead sibling and are using that as a way to attack me now as well. My DMs are also terrible.

These people are mad about two volumes of manga. Manga I bought in a brick and mortar store in Japan. Manga that have official anime adaptations.

They are calling a manga you can currently buy at Barnes and Nobel child p*rn and calling me a p*dip hole becuase i own it.

I don’t know what the point of this post is really, I’ve come back to tumblr and realize the entire internet does not in fact hate me, and people on here actually can logically think about things like this not in black and white.

Am I a pro shipper?

I’ve heard if the term, I’ve seen it around and always thought It was for extreme niche interests in fanfic, fictional media and general fictional content that I don’t particularly find myself reading or interacting with ever.

But then I looked into it after being called it 1000000 times a day on my social media and I relaxed it’s not about normalizing incestfics or spreading niche fan art around tags like antis would have you believe. At the end of the day it’s a group of people online with a very punk aligned mentality that censorship is wrong. Fiction is a place for self expression and understand that fiction is fiction. It’s not about individual tags on a03 or black butler ships. It’s about the freedom to express yourself thought fucking fiction. Weather it be to cope with trauma, or to just get some fucking weird feelings you are having out on paper through fanfciton, through projecting into a character from media you like.

I’m not big with labels, so I’m not a “proshipper” but I’m on their side, because it’s the right side.

You can argue all you want it’s not, that they are “horrible people” for the fictional media they consume. But the opposite side is literally telling me to “slit vertically” on a daily basis. You are no better than the people you hate.

Anywho, yeah. Going viral sucks.

#FIRST OF ALL;;; Op I am so fucking sorry jfc #SECOND OF ALL; WHAT IN THE ABSOLUTE FUCKERY #over two whole manga that is purchaseable #over two series that potentially and assumedly are VIEWABLE LEGALLY??? #These comments and the people responsible are absolutely the Worst #and no one has thought to just scream out to the void at them that “IF IT WERE THIS EASILY OBTAINABLE DUMBFUCK IT ISN'T CSEM FUCK OFF” #I'd imagine though A. none will listen to reason (because they see you as a virtual punching bag) #[[Side note: did anyone give these people the link to that one flashgame where you can bomb a 'buddy' or whatever]] #(And B. because you are the Virtual Punching Bag you need to be abused like one) #(Whatever is going on in the commenters lives right now does NOT warrant that kind of vitriol to be hurled at people) #(What they SHOULD be doing is hurling that pain and abuse onto a fictional character!) #(You know...the PROSHIP APPROACH)

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she,,,🏳️‍⚧️

#for the gallery

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I think one of the reasons that polyamory was a catalyst for my disaffection with large segments of the left and my suspicion (beyond just the demographic reality of people on average becoming more conservative as they get older) that most progressives are just republicans a generation ahead of their time, was because of the way it illustrated the mechanism at work in a lot of people's thinking about these issues. Not just their specific thoughts on polyamory and their treatment of poly people, but the way that in a more thoroughgoing sense they indicate a brazen embrace of prejudice.

There isn't usually a whole lot of deep reflection leading people in our circles to negative conclusions about polyamory and those who practice it. Most people in the LGBT community will admit if pressed that there's nothing intrinsically unethical about non-monogamy. Poly people just happen to be a group that mainstream society doesn't like in ways that trickle down even to people who think they're all "radical queer" and shit, because as it turns out nearly all of us are influenced by mainstream culture to some extent. Just a group of easy targets who are subject to plenty of negative stereotypes but aren't on the official list of protected categories. When people make jokes about how all poly people are ugly, or insinuate that we're all sexual predators, they're demonstrating that they would probably have done the same thing to similarly precarious groups they weren't a member of in the past, like trans and ace people last generation, or bisexuals the generation before that, and that they'll probably do the same thing with similarly precarious groups in the future. And they form rationalizations about this, about how poly people "aren't really oppressed," how it's just a bunch of cishet people trying to break into the cool kids' clubhouse, but by and large these are ex post facto justifications for prejudices they already held.

I'm not sure we can get away from that in a purely identitarian model of social justice, as opposed to just continuing to bolt on categories we recognize that we shouldn't be prejudiced against, always a bit too late. I'm not saying we should go back entirely to '90s big tent salad bowl cultural liberalism, it had its share of faults too, but if we could bring back the expectation that we judge these sorts of prejudices guilty until proven innocent I think it would go a long way to curing many of our present social and political dysfunctions.

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Transgender dog bot.🏳️‍⚧️

(he/it)

#for the gallery #[Beautiful piece OP you're a wicked cool dude]

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women’s right to respect isnt determined by how fuckable you think they are btw

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Butch werewolves >>>>

This is gonna be a postcard for all my Patreon werewolf tier members this month!

#not my stupid puppy ass fluttering my eyes at her #hahahahaha I am in DANGER I would be torn to SHREDS but like #I'm rolling on my back for her!!! I am showing my fluffy belly :3 tail is wagging like an autoduster can she be my fren?

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It's not the first time that has happened

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If you're having trouble keeping up with what's going on in Palestine because of US news coverage of university protests, here are some articles you can read and a video you can watch:

While CNN & all the other mainstream media try to paint the university protests as "pro terrorism" (which they're not, they're literally anti-war protests.) Palestinians are being slaughtered by the minute.

Please don't stop speaking about Palestine.

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antis: "BUT WHY WOULD YOU SHIP THAT?!??"

me, slurping my ice tea: "it fun :3"

#because some of us only learned love through neglect and abandonment issues so we sort it out in post #(post to be meant the same as one 'editing' a video behind the scenes...as they say! 'FIX IT IN POST!' ;3)

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since i needed the positivity, i am for once stealing a post concept from an anti.

so, here's to people with F/Os from obscure sources! be it if it's from a source no one ships with, or if they just simply don't have a fandom! even if it's something from long ago, a mascot, or a meme! they love you so much! (i love you too, platonically /gen)

and if you have one of them, feel free to reblog with pictures or a gush of/about them! i'd love to see them, as someone with some of them myself :]

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I just want to remind everyone that is your civic duty to jailbreak your Nintendo consoles and pirate every Nintendo property until the heat death of the universe.

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i dont know who needs to hear this but as a general PSA for those who pay people online for goods and services: KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT ABOUT WHAT YOU'RE BUYING. While it might seem funny to write a clever note along with your transaction, any sort of hint that you're buying something nsfw or even mildly suggestive poses a huge risk that the person you're paying is getting their method of payment shut down permanently. transaction services are stricter than ever. "thanks for the boobs" is a pipe bomb that only needs one pair of eyes to be noticed. loose lips sink ships

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this was a comment on one of my post from a recent live event. it was photos of joyful queer buckaroos celebrating together and proving love is real through creation, community, and a trot of love. most important I AM LITERALLY IN PHOTO AS A REAL FLESH AND BLOOD HUMAN

it got me thinking about how DEEP AND VICIOUS the irony poisoning of these early internet communities goes. the way buds like this cannot fathom someone just being a sincere person unrelated to their OWN old days of cynical posting. it is fascinating, and i will admit, sad too

despite a DECADE of work, countless live events, 350 tinglers written well before large language models were a thing, there are still people who cannot imagine someone like me could exist. it is a strange place to be. not just part of me, but my entire EXISTENCE is often gatekept

it is easy to say ‘well chuck your art IS strange’ but honestly i think it is more than that. magical realism is common. there are stories about dinosaurs and bigfeet and unicorns. this scoundrel reaction is about two unspoken things: my art is neurodivergent, and my art is queer

heres the thing: I WILL BE FINE. what concerns me is not an issue of MYSELF, it is a concern for the other young outsider buckaroos who see comments like this one and think ‘is that what they will say if i express MY unique way? will i be dehumanized like this at every turn?'

i will be honest, i cannot say that WONT happen, but i CAN say this: for as deep as this irony poisoning goes, it is slowly dying. the way i was treated at the start of my career is LIGHTYEARS DIFFERENT from the way i am treated now. there is a massive shift towards sincerity

BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY. to young artists trotting up, the things that i am harassed over and doubted for and made fun of for are NOT tangental to what has made me successful, THEY ARE LITERALLY THE SAME THINGS THAT HAVE MADE ME SUCCESSFUL. YES I AM STRANGE, WHAT OF IT?

the things that you tuck away for fear of a review that says ‘there is a PROBLEM with this art because it has always been done another way’ THOSE ARE YOUR SUPERPOWERS. the gatekeepers want you to tuck those parts of yourself away because THEY TUCKED AWAY THOSE PART OF THEMSELVES

never forget that your unique way is PURE UNFILTERED 100 PERCENT ROCKET FUEL. it will stick out (maybe, if you are lucky, scoundrels will even say that someone like you could never actually be real), but sticking out isnt so bad when you are waving the flag of love.

in fact, when youre waving the flag of love, sticking out is pretty dang cool. what are flags for, after all? LOVE IS REAL BUCKAROOS. thank you for reading, and if you enjoyed this long post then please consider preordering BURY YOUR GAYS.

LETS TROT

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Lil render I did of us as I just needed a distraction ;w; In a pretty rough mental state but at least I have Envy to keep me from completely spiraling <3

#fma #fullmetal alchemist #oc x canon #astridxenvy