fourthofgemini

[fourthofgemini]

Okay, I have something to say.

I remember a few weeks ago there was discourse about the topic of Day getting his eyesight back. There were a lot of people against it (me included) and people not against it.

Among all of that, I saw tweets from disabled people but the one that stayed the most with me was one from someone who's blind, and they were mad that people were so against the idea of him getting his eyesight back and I wondered "Why is that?" because I thought it would be better to show Day could be happy without it.

Then I saw that this person said they were mad because if they had the opportunity to get their own sight back they would take it and then I understood. Up until that point, we hadn't really gotten to the episodes where Day was starting to accept and realize he could live a good life even if he was blind.

After seeing those tweets, I started to think "If Day undergoes surgery and if it's successful at the end, I won't be mad as long as they show us that he can be happy and successful while being blind." And they did show us that.

And today, when I started having certain opinions on the ending, I remembered this person and I thought "Day being able to see again doesn't erase all he went through, it doesn't erase the person he became after living with his blindness and it never will." People find hope in different things.

I understood I should not, I should never speak above those who are actually going through this. I don't know how it is like, and I will never understand unless it happens to me. What I think about that doesn't matter.

We can talk about the story, sure. But in this case we can't talk above disabled people, not our place. There will be many different opinions, and we should respect them.

#last twilight #<3 #i was thinking the same!!!

[fourthofgemini]

was confused by Alan being called uncle until the moment he presented Jeff with matching split heart bracelets with magnets to rejoin them and their initials. he truly is a child of the early 90s, cursed (or blessed, you decide) with the amorous prowess of a teenager in the mid to late 2000s

#pit babe the series #alanjeff #old fuck alan confirmed #that 2004-2009 school crush rizz #<3 tags

[fourthofgemini]

I didn't dare to read a TON of the pots in the Last Twilight tag but I think I have a good sense for what people disliked about the finale. It seems to be Day getting his sight back with the opinion that the show didn't set it up and therefore betrayed the message of the series.

There are things I would have liked to be different in the finale but Day regaining his sight is not one of them. I also think the show has actually set up that Day could and might get his sights back from early on. The cornea transplant option was created for a reason. If they had wanted to truly have him be blind forever they could have found a way. There has to be something that permanently destroys one's eyesight. But the idea of a transplat was planeted early on and even right after the first failed attempt the mother said Day will get another one. So the show didn't kill that possibility for good.

Why do I not think it betrayed the message? Because Day only got his eyesight back after going through the process of acceptance and living a successful life as a blind man. He fullfilled his dream of running a book shop. He reunited with Mhok because he loves him and wants to be happy. He dared to take the risk. Just like everyone does when it's about love. Nothing is certain but it might be worth it. To me seeing a person go through all of this and get to that place is something inspiring, it gives hope. Could the show have ended here? Totally. It could have. But I guess the writers wanted to give this ultimate hope that what seems totally impossible can actually happen for you. It might be years down the line, you might not succeed the first time, you might stumble and have set backs but you might still get there at the very end. At least that's what I took from it.

What I personally did not like about Day getting his eyesight back was actually the pacing for us viewers. I would have liked to see more of the process, the anxiety, the hope, the anticipation. I would have liked the moment of Day finally seeing Mhok clearly to have more emotional weight. It felt rushed when we know this show is good at hitting you with the big emotions.

Other stuff I wanted to see but sadly didn't get was Mhok's trauma get adressed again because I am still convinced his behavior that lead to the break up stemmed from his trauma. It was more of a trauma response than pity in my eyes. So I wanted to see this get adressed somehow but it was played off as pity and that it was Mhok's big mistake.

Also I would have liked to see Day be the one who flirts first since last time we saw these two Day dumped Mhok right in front of his family. That stuff has to do some damage but Mhok's confidence was bigger than ever for some reason.

Overall I love this show, I love these characters, I love the performances and emotional punches. I will need a few weeks or months to see how I will feel then but right now I think I can say it's my favorite BL ever.

#last twilight #glad there's some positivity to be found #<3

[fourthofgemini]

i think a lot of the conversations around the last twilight finale are lacking important nuance. it's important to recognize the different experiences of disabled people. for disabled people who have no chances of "recovery" or becoming nondisabled, this kind of plotline can be incredibly upsetting, as it frames being cured as the thing that leads to a happy ending. especially after the series focused so much on learning to live a good and happy life while disabled (blind), to have the character suddenly cured of their disability – that hurts. living good, happy and fulfilling lives with lifelong disabilities is possible, and is the reality for so many disabled people.

it's also not the only reality. there are a lot of people who become temporarily disabled, and have to find ways to live well while they are, but then later recover. this kind of plotline reflects their experience, and may be comforting.

but there needs to be nuance and respect in the conversations about it. permanently disabled people are allowed to be upset and hurt by the way the disability plot was handled. it feels like a kick to the gut for a lot of us. but we still need to acknowledge that it does accurately reflect the experience of many people who experience temporary disability. both of these things can be true

#last twilight #last twilight meta #i agree #well said op!!!

[fourthofgemini]

I loved how the show didn't get preachy about blindness and in general disability - like yeah if there was a treatment available that would get me rid of the disability - does not mean i was ashamed of being disabled or being disabled is bad.

just as the fact if treatment isn't available - life tho difficult because society and the world is not accessible doesn't mean you give up on your life. you, as a person with disability, as all humans do, figure out how to take up your space in the world and live your life

the way they showed day accept his blindness and live a full life when most people show people with disabilities as miserable and sad was amazing

once again paof and team, great job

#last twilight #last twilight the series #last twilight series #i am in favour of how the show ends #no means to disregard or disrespect people of disabilities #we are all human #yes #sometimes we lose hope #but the other times we gain hope

[fourthofgemini]

#film is getting bolder by the day 🤭

#namtanfilm #pluto the series #last twilight cast

[fourthofgemini]

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!FERBRUARY 9TH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#finger crossed #it’s my girls’ time to shine #23.5 the series #milklove #gmmtv

[fourthofgemini]

flirtatious little bumps

#last twilight #last twilight the series #last twilight series #mhokday #last twilight gif

[fourthofgemini]

I can see you through touch.

I can see you through voice.

I can see you through smell.

#last twilight #last twilight the series #last twilight series #mhokday #jimmysea #jimmy jitaraphol #sea tawinan #last twilight gif

[fourthofgemini]

Small details I love from Last Twilight Final EP:

Read Every Day: braille and wordplay with Day’s name

A car with a scar: P’Rung’s car no longer covered with bandaid

Savouring cake successfully: cake has been brought up a lot throughout the show; as the most intricate consumption at the end of the meal course; legendary cigarette in the birthday cake; sharing with love ones; celebration of special occasions

#last twilight #last twilight the series #last twilight series

[fourthofgemini]

I'm sorry.

Okay.

#last twilight #last twilight the series #last twilight series #mhokday #the handssss #angst

[fourthofgemini]

The care is in the details (15/?):

The first time Mhok really paid attention to Day was when they met in the elevator, Day oblivious to Mhok's presence. That time Mhok was feeling defeated after being rejected by another employer again. He was going down in the elevator to leave the building. But then Day took the elevator and he was going up to the library of the building, probably to find the book Master Aon had recommended to him: The Last Twilight.

Mhok took his time to observe him and really saw Day, without his moody attitude, struggling to get by. And we know that Day impressed him because, once he realised Day had lost the library card, he didn't call him to give it back. He followed him to the library. And the moment he saw Day there, he made a choice: he chose to keep following him to see if he could be of any help, somehow dazzled by Day.

And in the last episode, probably after years of separation, they meet again, this time in the escalator, Mhok going up and Day going down, both different people with different experiences, but still, still, Mhok follows him with his gaze, like a sunflower will always follow the sun, and I think, how can't he help but go after his sun again?

Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3/ Part 4/ Part 5/ Part 6/ Part 7/ Part 8/ Part 9/ Part 10/ Part 11 / Part 12/ Part 13/ Part 14

#last twilight #mhokday

[fourthofgemini]

Alan : Jeff is a really young man, and he works for me, and he's been taken advantage of before... I'm walking a thin line here I don't want to put him in an awkward position... I want to prove I have his back but I can't let my crush on him show, that would be immoral and unprofessional...

Jeff : flirt with me faster old man I don't have all day.

#pit babe the series #alanjeff #this cracked me up

[fourthofgemini]

Last Twilight, episode 11: reflections

Okie-dokes. Just finished this now-infamous episode and my thoughts are rolling, especially with what I've seen posted throughout today. I think this is going to be more of a musing than a concrete Big Meta, because I am ultimately not going to be surprised if a lot of what was left on the table here will be addressed in episode 12.

One theme that I think an episode 12 will NOT be able to address, is the sudden change of Mhon from episode 10 to episode 11 in regards to her accepting Mhok. As we recall, episode 10 started off REALLY HEAVY. Mhon IS the reason why Mhok leaves as a caretaker in episode 10 and has to find a new job -- that's a fact.

Last night, I reblogged some important and interesting commentary on Mhon from prior to today's episode, especially in terms of examining her actions from an Asian/non-Western lens. I think this commentary was super important to understand her mindset as a work-first single mom up to today's episode. I think an Asian lens absolutely contextualizes her actions up to episode 10, 4/4. But I don't think today's episode helps to offer further context of her actions from a non-Western lens.

Mhon states in episode 11 that she doesn't want to be a "silly mom" who keeps her son from dating; when, unfortunately, she was depicted as doing exactly that in episode 10, to the point that Mhok was in fear between episodes that she'd break them up after seeing them at Christmas dinner.

This a bad plot hole -- and her words, her past, anything, could have been used to save that inconsistency.

I think her sudden acceptance of Mhok in today's episode came off as soapy. And her doubts about Mhok being able to take care of Day without the family's help were a touch condescending. I don't think this episode does enough to place Mhon's last monologue in a place of accurately relating to others. It was clunky and not good.

Aof Noppharnach, I feel, knows how to bridge Mhon's changes better. If episode 12 DOES address these changes -- please, let it be with context and grace. I don't want soapy tropes here, especially because we know that Noppharnach shows have done parenting so much better than this.

Here's one bit that I think the episode did well. While I see a lot of the internet protesting the break-up: in my opinion, I think Day made the right decision for himself at this moment in his life.

Day's life paradigm in 2/4 is repeating itself: as his past caretaker in his mom was the same, his current caretaker is a chef who works morning to night, and Day is alone in his room, eating by himself.

However, Day revels in being in a relationship, finally, where someone isn't taking pity on him, and he can be seen as a potentially self-determining person.

Day's recognizing that he has a path of self-advocacy and self-sufficiency to work on here, as he gets himself out of his hotel room with the use of the cane, and ends up playing with children. Yes, this is happening while Mhok is battling his fears about caring for Day while leaving him alone during work -- which, we learn, is something Mhok cannot ultimately bear if they're together.

A lot of the discontent I'm seeing about the episode on my dash is about Day's not empathizing with Mhok in the moment of the break-up. But Mhok doesn't previously reveal to Day his panic attacks -- the car accident, the search for Day before finding him on the hotel grounds. Mhok only explains to Day his panic reactions regarding Rung at the moment of the break-up. Bro. Communication is a dance for two in a relationship.

What motivates Mhok to be near Day now? Number one: the caretaking, which was a job. Number two: the current nearness, which should now be a relationship, but Mhok's motivation isn't quite the relationship alone, as we learn with his story about Rung. In my opinion, vis à vis Mhok, I think that's a touch disingenuous for Mhok to only be talking about this now to Day, on the cusp of a break-up. This is heavy!

Mhok's motivation is ALSO, now, his being consumed with his perceived economic need to support Day, along with the reality that while Mhok works, Day will be alone... which is something Mhok clearly will have difficulty handling anyway. I'm not sure what the difference is here, between Mhok working a hell of a job in Thailand vs. in Hawaii. Day will still have to learn to be self-sufficient in a relationship with Mhok. Day says this himself.

Day calls Mhok out on exactly this, and breaks up with him. I would argue here, for Day's perceived path to learn to be self-sufficient, that dumping Mhok was the right thing for him. Day is seeing a cycle repeat itself -- someone who is going to "sacrifice" their life for him, and keep Day in a stasis. Day only needs an equal partner to live a blossoming, broader, and independent life -- as we see happening between Aon and Pla. I did not appreciate Mhok's lying, and I agree with @bengiyo's Stray Thoughts on this very much (in which he says this FAR more succinctly than me, ha).

While I think Day made the right decision... I think the execution of all of this was just so clunky. We can do better than this, the tropes, the lying, everything. Imagine an episode of Mhon reflecting on her past, with her monologue reflecting on lessons she's learned by caring for her boys while figuring out the vagaries of an adult needing to be loved in the context of life's complications. Imagine Mhok telling Day about Hawaii right away -- as an equal partner who doesn't PITY his partner would do. Imagine Mhok telling Day about Mhok's panic attacks as they're happening -- and Day, as an equal partner, helping Mhok through that pain.

At least between Mhok and Day, those are growth patterns that can certainly be explained in the long-term course of a relationship. Not everything gets solved in love right away.

But. BUT. We did NOT see this side of Mhok in previous episodes. In previous episodes, Mhok WAS Day's strong and equal partner. In previous episodes, Mhon WAS struggling with her demons. What happened to all of that?

This episode 11 threw too much new and non-contextualized... stuff in the pot, to reach a climatic episode 12. This is heavy family and love stuff that I know past Noppharnach shows have handled deftly, and I'm just a little deflated by it....

...ESPECIALLY because Day's self-advocacy journey is a hell of a storyline that doesn't need scripted curveballs thrown at it by the need for a drama to be "dramatic."

#last twilight #last twilight meta

[fourthofgemini]

"I will let you know."

#pit babe the series #alanjeff #sailubpon #sailub hemmawich #pon thanapon

[fourthofgemini]

Comfort in Pit Babe the Series ep 10

#pit babe #pit babe the series #x hunter really are one family :<

[fourthofgemini]

If you really think about, pit babe being this good of a show makes total sense. Since the very beginning it was earnest and balls to the wall forward with everything it wanted to show, be it omegaverse bullshit, mpreg or xmen trafficking ring.

And so, the love between characters, their connections to each other as part of one big found family, the pain of betrayal, the devastation at losing someone who became your everything are also there, very much shown in all its beauty or ugliness.

It also helps that actors are putting their all into these scenes and these characters. And while we all here on this webbed site make jokes each week at the expense of the show's ridiculous plot points and insane dialogue choices, they themselves take it so seriously that it works IT JUST DOES.

(Also as a member of fatherless squad i never expected Alan as a character to heal my daddy issues a little in the course of this show's run.)

Isn't it nice to have this be our first on screen omegaverse show?

#pit babe #pit babe the series #i’m loving the plots and charaterization #can’t help but praising pavel and nut for their hard work #other casts play well too #pavelpooh is also sneaking into my favourite pairing lists