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Hey Everyone

I truly apologise for the radio silence, just know that everything is slowly getting complete.

You all deserve an update, so here it is:

I'm struggling. Mentally, emotional, you name it I'm not doing well at all. It has nothing to do with writing, I adore it and still do it, unfortunately irl events have been causing me to neglect it due to just trying to stabilize my life.

To make a long story short, financially I'm suffering and it's taken a toll on the luxury care I've been able to give Toast my bearded dragon. Multiple nights of losing myself to my mind has convinced me she deserves better and should be rehomed, but I'd like to try and get my life together before thinking too harshly, as she is my ride or die. The reason I've been able to push through life's struggles as awful as they have been.

So I've made the decision to open writing commissions through Ko-Fi, it was hard to decide this and it's no pressure to do so. It's just added benefits for a few things, and also skip the queue benefits and exclusive content/early peeks at my wips.

Again, it's no pressure to join, it's just so Toast can have a stable source of income until I can stabilize a couple jobs on top of my current one to ensure she can be taken care of so nothing drastic like rehoming can happen.

thank you all for your patience, and I promise to work hard on tumblr requests. They won't be closing, but won't have as high of a priority compared to commissions or Ko-Fi requests.

#boosting!! #love beani lots #please help support!!

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kill yourself

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Also how are you guys? Hope everyone is doing okay <33

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I've been pretty silent recently, but I feel like it's time to finally update everyone.

As of now, I plan to move all my longer fics onto ao3. I will link to my account once I actually start doing it. If there are any fics you desperately want to be moved please let me know- because any that aren't moved might be deleted. You can just send me an ask with the title. I'm not abandoning this blog, I will post updates of fics I write with links to my ao3. I will probably use this blog for requests too.

Tldr; I'm moving my fics to ao3. Please let me know if there are any fics you want moved so I don't accidentally delete them from existence

#tumblr making some pretty questionable decisions #its time i move away from posting my writing here #hope you all understand #socks updates

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*heavy southern accent*: terfs aint got no friends

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Hey mutuals- things are getting kinda hard again and I might take a little break. If anyone wants to stay in contact I'd love to chat more on discord! Just message me, or interact with this post and I'll reach out <33

#realized that some of you dont follow my main account #but yeah i wanna stay in contact with you guys but im too shy to ask directly lol

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LinkLeKo-Fi

After my friends supported my harebrained idea to do so, I now have a Ko-Fi where I currently offer character letters! I'm hoping to offer more shortform writing options later on, but I figured this would be a good start. Prices range from $7.50 to $20.00 per letter delivered via email within 72 hours! LinkLeKo-Fi

#reblogging for my new followers #i seriously cannot explain how beautiful their writing is #go check them out!!! #socks faves

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I just don't know what 'real' looks like.

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drew him in a skirt last week, now it's time for a suit once again

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my lae'zel doodle for today

#shes so pretty #begging for a single chance

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Happy Valentine's Day! Here's what I think the bg3 companions would do for you!

Gale celebrates Valentine's Day with a nice dinner. He makes sure everything is perfect. He cooks your favorite food, sets flowers up in the middle, and even writes you a little poem about how much he loves you. It’s so sweet, and very old fashioned. At the end of the night you find yourself in his arms, cuddling up next to a fireplace.

Wyll, ever the romantic, surprises you with a trail of flower petals leading to a beautiful candlelit room. He offers you his hand, and sweeps you off your feet with a little dance. He takes things slow, especially if you can’t dance well. It’s romantic, and beautiful. You end the night with your head rested on his shoulder as you spin around in lazy circles, him humming some small tune.

You’re the one to set up a date for Astarion. He’s still learning about intimacy, and so you think it would be nice to do something special for him. A picnic under the stars is your go to, and while it doesn’t go to plan (The food isn't quite right, it's a bit cloudy, and someone tries to steal your basket) it still is a lovely night. He appreciates the thought, and all the work you put into it. He hugs you close. “Thank you, Darling.” He’s glad he has someone like you in his life. 

Karlach would take you out to the carnival, excitement in the air. She would spend all night trying to win you the biggest prizes. At the end of the night she would walk you home, making sure you get there safely. Perhaps she would even come inside to hang out for a little while. When you share a kiss, it’s almost magical. 

Shadowheart sets up a blanket under the stars with you. You lay by her side, fingers laced together as you look up to see the wonders of the galaxy. There you share your deepest secrets, and perhaps a bottle of wine. You end up staying up all night just talking. By morning she’s got her head resting on your chest with your arm wrapped around her torso. 

Lae’zel doesn’t quite understand the holiday, but when you mention that you want to celebrate it she does what she can. She buys you a new weapon, one that’s sharp enough to cut through your enemies. She might even offer a small duel. You end up laying on the ground with her, while you both try to catch your breath. When you look over, you find she’s already staring at you. “You’re beautiful.” she whispers.

#bg3 x reader #gale x reader #wyll x reader #astarion x reader #karlach x reader #shadowheart x reader #lae'zel x reader

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working on the requests i have slowly- i got a little sick so my energy is real low right now

#rambles #just want you all to know im working on them!

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I never put much thought to the sick.

The chronically ill, the lethally injured, those living off of life support. Like most people, I knew of it, and unlike most people, I did research as a wannabe doctor. Starry eyed and shooting as high as I could, because I had been given the luxury, the privilege of reaching decently high.

When I was 14, when I had been suspended from track, I had thought I had some bad UTI. I had only been to the ER once, when I was 3, I shoved a bead up my nose. Nasal exploration. Fun times.

It never occurred to me, truly, what sickness could look like. How different it can appear for so many. Sure, I read, but there’s only so much one can experience in passages, textbooks, research papers.

It’s the same way for a lot of people too, I think. Like when my fatigue sunk in so much more, that it was such a burden for me to get up to get the door for my Spanish class, my freshman year.

“Can you get the door for me?” I’d asked to the guy beside me, “I’m sick.”

I’m incredibly dense, but far from an idiot, because judging by the snickers I heard, nobody believed me. I wasn’t coughing, I wasn’t sneezing, I didn’t have a hospital bracelet on my wrist and I wasn’t hairless. I appeared in optimal health, to anyone who passed me by.

I got the door myself, every time, for the rest of the year. Nobody believed me.

It wasn’t until all the potential futures I could’ve led up to- a college scholarship for throwing, weightlifting in my free time, that those possibilities were ripped away from me. That when the diagnosis that hung in front of me never sunk in, until almost a year later.

So many appointments. So many results that just ended with more medications shoved my way, because there’s nothing else left for me to do. My adolescence, gone, in one fell swoop. That it will never go away.

And I guess, while a diagnosis offers closure, it also offers a mourning of what you could’ve had. It also demonstrates what people just assume out of you, especially to those young and unfortunately sick, “you’re so young, you’ll understand what pain feels like when you’re older,” Being shoved my way, when I take more medications than my grandpa.

Even clinicians sweep me aside. My own “friends”. And I’ve never pleaded more to be sick, to show my sickness, for a break. Or perhaps to just further the belief that I am valid in my struggle, and so many others are, because I am not lazy.

Diabetics are also chronically ill, you do realize.

It is physically exhausting. Just because something is so common, so normalized, doesn’t mean it holds any less weight. Just because you may see it frequently doesn’t necessarily make it less dreadful for those that suffer. Just because someone appears in optimal health does not invalidate their struggle. You do not have to be diabetic to understand, I’m not, and I try. I make an effort.

But I guess the only way to truly understand is to be sick, or to listen, and many people do neither.

It’s not even been a year. And I’m already used to it.

#this is so important #please please read #socks faves

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hi do you still write for trigun?

The short answer is not really. At least not right now.

The long answer is I've been really burnt out on Trigun. I was basically forcing myself to write for it for a little while there, and it seriously hurt my love for the series. I'll probably write more of it eventually, I just need some time to focus on other things for a bit. You're always welcome to send in requests for it, but I may not do them for a little while.

#ask box

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Hiiii! i was wondering if you have a wip list?

I dont have an official one- but I currently have a few things im working on. If you are interested in me making a wip list I totally can!

For now though I have one series im working on- It's an exes to lovers Astarion one and here's a little bit from it;

“I love you.” You say out loud. You’ve said it many times before now, but this time it feels different. Before, there was no way to know for sure if you would be alive the next day. It felt like you were saying it out of necessity. Now you are safe (well as safe as you can be). 

Astarion stiffens slightly at the words, tightening his grip on you for a moment. When he pulls away, you notice there’s something different in his eyes. He’s a little more guarded than he was a mere minute ago. The look makes your blood run cold. He lets go of you and sits up, facing away. His next words are said without a trace of emotion in them. 

“I think we should end this.”

And everything goes cold.

#i just need someone to beta read the first chapter and it will be out hehe #ask box #astarion x reader

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BG3 MASERLIST

Astarion

Jealousy Blurb

Gale

Jealousy Blurb

Secrets - Fluff , After a night of spilling secrets, you open up about never having your first kiss. Gale offers to fix that.

New Year's Kiss - Fluff , You somehow end up kissing your rival at midnight OR you seriously misinterpret the vibes Gale is giving off (modern au)

Wyll

Shadowheart

Karlach

Lae'zel

Halsin

Other

The Emperor Fluff Blurb

Omeluum Fluff Blurb