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tbh i was trying out a little more personal posting with the desk posting stuff but honestly, not really my thing. I think I'll pivot it over to a place to discuss stuff I'm reading instead.

#snapshot some pics of studies etc. main art blog vibe is more chill so i might be more informal/candid there but eh. EH #life is an ongoing journey of discovery and i discovered i dont wanna keep doing it. so i wont

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the problem with being an artist online is that people will sometimes start to treat you like you're a thing to demand content from instead of a person, which is the main reason I don't want to have a 'personal identity' on an art blog, like I'm so disinterested in letting people feel too comfy about being even ruder than they are in my inbox on my history blog. I also singled out my history blog here, but I also keep getting anons demanding more musketeers are and it's pissing me off. you are not exempt from the I Dont Take Requests statement in my pinned. either give me a book about french architecture and room interiors from the relevant century or begone

thankfully. that is a very small drop of water in a very large ocean. like, if it was exceedingly annoying, I would not be rewatching the show. the agrippa/octavian people were so fucking rude that they're banned from my blog unless it's as a thank you piece for someone

#like i fully feel way more casual about interactions on my main art blog #or even on twitter! i reply to DMs on twitter semi regularly!! usually it's just other artists but the casual nature of twitter is like #yeah okay i'm cool with this. anons on tumblr assuming a demanding tone as a joke is Not Cool and I Dislike It Immensely #it only EVER happens on my history blog tho like what is in the water that brings that attitude out #it could also be that the fandom i draw most art for on my main art blog #is mostly inhabited by people in their 30s or have long established fandoms #like the jsamn fandom has been SO nice and i am having a very good time so far #but the three musketeers fandom keeps sending rude messages demanding more art from me. i usually delete it #my favorite tho is the tomb robbers one. i like it there #ANYWAY. i spent too much time navel gazing abt how i feel in two different spaces #but this is in fact why i originally split those two blogs up. i KNEW that history tumblr was going to annoy me

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also the other part of why I have a small roster of names on my art blogs that don't really sound like names and periodically change it up is that I intensely dislike demanding tones /over familiarity from total strangers and this is my way of establishing a measure of distance ahead of time (iasip voice) wildcard, bitches. yehaw

#it's very 'address me by my title' altho filipinos get a pass for it #i also hate it when people make assumptions that are categorically incorrect or get too comfy assuming a joking tone w stuff that's #really fucking weird to say around a total stranger

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updating the list of names I'll answer to on my other blog without providing any kind of context feels like tradition at this point

#i'll tell you guys tho bc it's not like. a big deal. literally it's just how i sign letters i send to a friend #we both go thru names like clothes through a washing machine but i sign off with jester more often than not now bc its fun #tbh i should take valens off and replace it with shades or sunglasses but valens is fun #me 🤝 valens: being way out of our depths #also it's following in tradition of all those old ancient rome forums where people picked a roman name lmao #i decided if i had to pick one i'd go for an emperor BUT i picked the one that everyone considers a fuck up so it balances out

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thankfully as a comics artist doing historical fiction and not academic reconstructions, I am afforded a space of bullshit, which I will embrace wholeheartedly because my personal threshold is a certain level of visual coherence but never at the expense of dramatic flair

#once i finish up note taking on the gladius im going to start creating the actual reference part of this (figures in motion) #and then. second punic war comics. we will Begin

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doing my own artistic reconstructions of the middle to late republic (and eventually, late empire) army and lemme tell you. if I ever have to draw chainmail ever again (I will) I'm going to scream (I am)

also I miss the era of forums. shout out to all these guys in a larp/reenactment forum from 2006 for posting close ups of their armor reconstructions from multiple angles to show how it all comes together, I owe you my fucking life

#TRAGIC that spaces like that don't exist anymore and also google is useless and youtube only goes so far because the search #function there sucks too #academics on twitter will act like snobs because the general public has a skewed image of what roman armor looks like #but doesn't actually make any effort to show people visually things would look like. they just want to complain that books #that are easily accessible to the public are wrong and it's so cringe that people have based their associations off of that #like i get the frustration but if you aren't going to try and rectify the situation yourself then shut the fuck up #the average person won't understand the specifics of chainmail patterns and it's actually deeply frustrating when visuals #ARENT provided except for the crustiest scan of a photo from a magazine like you are less than useless god fucking bless

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Iain M Banks: What is a weapon? What does it mean to use a weapon? Can a person be a weapon? Is there a difference between using a weapon and being a weapon? Is this difference meaningful? What kind of person would choose to be a weapon?

Also Iain M Banks: Here's a sapient starship with a scat fetish.

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the way my dash on my other blog posts about cicero is how I talk about caligula

#im not even exaggerating. am i proud of this. no. will i change my ways. no.

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Valerius Catullus, a young man of a consular family, publicly proclaimed that he had violated the emperor and worn himself out in commerce with him

I think about this constantly like wow hello. y'all want an audience. can I watch. I'm free whenever.

#honestly if i was a young man of a consular family i would also brag about this

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everytime someone tags a caligula post with 'he did nothing wrong' I roll my eyes because obvious problems with that sentiment aside, you're going to make him so boringggggggg

#free my man he didn't do some of that but he did do a bunch of other stuff

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died and came back exactly the same but something was so so so wrong with me before and now I have an excuse to really lean into it

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deleting files makes me so scared what if i Needed That

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#mrc #obsessedddddd with this lineart style

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I should make court jester OCs

#i was writing a short comic about some of hannibal's spies and realized. court jesters. would make an excellent spy network

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men should look disheveled and be on the ground more often

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Horniness is not intrinsically less pure than any other human motivation

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sometimes. I'll read something. about hannibal. and I'll be like, wow that's a similar pattern of description that I've read for crassus! and then I will gently put that thought away because there's a lot to unpack there and we'll do it later

#(head in hands) yeah okay we'll dissect it in depth and do. something. i guess. with the result