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[gjesse]

do you often think about how lds thought the thing that still tied hjw to manyang and himself was his guilt for being the son of the man who had destroyed lds's life, thus pushed him away in hope of him finding salvation and true happiness somewhere else other than being stuck with a broken, damaged man; just because hjw had a future so bright that lds cant let himself taint it with his hands deep in blood of people he had loved. he didnt want hjw to become one of them. and hjw, still wasnt able to grow out of the little boy who had been wronged by both his parents, knew nothing about love and how to love and how to be loved. he was afraid of touching lds and piercing through the man's skin with his own thorns, especially when lds had already been hurt for too long, by too many people, including the man whose blood hjw carried in his veins. he came from poison and maybe he was poison, too. so they drifted away, compromising with an option that left both of them incomplete, missing a part of themselves and yearning as naturally as breathing. the holes in their souls bore the other's every gaze and smile and scowl and touch. eventually the pain became a dull ache that they carried with them for the rest of their lives or are you normal

#jwds #beyond evil #han juwon #lee dongsik #shin hakyun #yeo jin goo

[gjesse]

#house got confused and chose thot son

#house md

i want to kill myself ░M░Y░

░P░U░S░S░Y░

░I░N░ ░B░I░O░

[gjesse]

me when homicidal homosexuals

#rope 1948 #phillip morgan #brandon shaw #john dall #farley granger #james stewart

[gjesse]

[gjesse]

wish this wasn't so painfully relevant

[gjesse]

little freaks who need their boycrushes' attention so bad they do everything they can literally girlboss gaslight gatekeep their way to said crushes' sides, youll be famous forever

#saltburn #oliver quick #delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi #kabru #labru #cattonquick

[gjesse]

save me labru's yaoi size difference save me

#labru #kabru #laios touden #delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi

[gjesse]

do you think they've fucked because i do

#labru #laios touden #kabru #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon

[gjesse]

just some silly thoughts about what probably went on in house's mind as he watched wilson dying. was he relieved because wilson was finally put out of his agony after weeks, months of fighting against it or did he resent himself for not wanting wilson to finally have his rest, for, in a moment of irrationality, hating wilson for leaving him alone in the world he no longer held any love for as everything and everyone he ever loved had all left him and wilson was just the same as them? or was he just a void of any thoughts or emotions because his heart was dead and the pain was too much it deadens itself? idk just some silly thoughts 🎀

#hate crimes md #house md #greg house #james wilson #hilson #god forbid i ever feel sane about them

[gjesse]

has anyone seen felix and ollie

[gjesse]

dkdjsjhshsjsbs i kill you as i cannot have you and what you have so now youre dead and youre mine and everything that is yours are also mine ive swallowed you whole youre inside me youre gone i am you now and i made your blood run cold and then your body has gone cold six feet under im clutching at your headstone with the grief of a man who has destroyed his god and the joy of a moth burned in the blazing flame

#saltburn #oliver quick #felix catton #cattonquick

[gjesse]

that interview in Texas where John is checking Paul's behind and Ringo says they were in New Orleans the other day and it was very hot there and John repeats "very hot" after starring at Paul

gets me screaming every time

[gjesse]

Aaron Burr and Antonio Salieri really do share a "forsaken by God, mocked by God's prolific twink-prodigy" energy, huh?

[gjesse]

#jamilton #the cutest littlest thing ever #i wanna squeeze him #and swallow him whole #thank you so much i cant wait to see it

[gjesse]

people say "i love you" but alexander hamilton wrote "You should not have taken advantage of my sensibility to steal into my affections without my consent. But as you have done it and as we are generally indulgent to those we love, I shall not scruple to pardon the fraud you have committed, on condition that for my sake, if not for your own, you will always continue to merit the partiality, which you have so artfully instilled into me." to john laurens. insanity.

#historical lams #alexander hamilton #john laurens #amrev #my roman empire

[gjesse]

#theyre just little ducklings trying to follow their mamaduck's footsteps in medical malpractice

the house md girlies referring to house’s fellows (specifically cameron, chase and foreman) as the ducklings is one of my favourite things about this fandom

[gjesse]

but damn it disturbs me thinking about how all grantaire had ever wanted was about enjolras. he worshipped enjolras, sacrificed for enjolras because enjolras was the only thing that made any sense in his life, the only thing to give his entire existence a meaning. enjolras was the meaning of his life. he could not define himself without enjolras, he had no self of his own, his world was a blur of nothing and everything, he had wandered in an abyss before he met enjolras and once he found the long-desired consistency, he just simply could not live without it anymore. so he died with enjolras. as that man gave him a purpose, a belief, his death would mean the return of his former life in which he could not live anymore now that he had known the taste of having something to be the core of his life. he loved enjolras for himself, he needed to be near enjolras for himself, to call him a selfish man would be right and wrong simultaneously and damn hes so real for that

#enjoltaire #les amis #les mis #grantaire #enjolras #les miserables