goldammerchen

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¡yo sé que un día va a ganar pero necesito escribir mis weás primero!

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picture me grabbing my wrist to stop myself from posting negative and depressive shit

#bad month!!

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update: i woke up every 1-2 hrs and at 4am i couldnt sleep again

bed early, lets see if that fixes me

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fur baby on lap, mind empty

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damn i wish i had my fic ready to be published

#my lietpru always ALWAYS has pol but still sdfsfd #now i actually leave but brb #back. only 22 mins out

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Do people still fuck with wingtalia?? No??? Just me??? Okay.

Anyways. Vampire bat Gilbert. Yes he sleeps upside down and yes he sucks ur blood.

#au

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More nasty Wingtalia vampire Gilbat

#au

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Okay one last doodle yes Gilbat hangs upside down while he sleeps

#au

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gil writes. And he's great at writing it but unlike what you'd think he mostly writes fluff and heart breaking stuff. Fran mostly reads but you'll find him lurking and writing small bits in french of the things he really really likes which are random as hell

(about this)

awwww (also owow ow 💔), i can see this, i like these hcs! more reasons to try to keep his acc as a secret. and yeah fran would like a variety of stuff.

i was thinking both could write nasty (as compliment) smu.t, one or both bd.sm in specific, but the unexpected is better! sdfsdf

#self rb

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I'm convinced that Fran and Gil would have AO3 accounts, now the questions are: would they only read or do they also write fics; if they write, about what and from which pieces of media; would they only write in their first language(s) or in English too.

Also every now and then Fran blackmails Gil by telling him he will reveal Gil's acc to the world unless he helps him with [insert here what Fran wants]—Gil regrets every time sharing his acc with his, friend.

#self rb

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maybe i will come back to laptop to do this today, maybe not (other time)

wanna write something [hashtag] prewall later. later.

#text wip #to remember

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care to share your preferences for how Gilbert is written👀

I'm tired to really go into it but it's like I'm flexible, I've always embraced the unique diversity this fandom allows us to have in our interpretations but there is a vibe that really tickles me that I look for because this is what I personally find fun and enjoy.

I just need him to be eccentric, stern, disruptive, loud, insolent, mischievous, chaotic neutral, unhinged and a bit insane. I play Gilbert very intensely, he's a guy who can function very well in society, yes, but I need it so that he is also a problem when he chooses to be. I need him to be a record scratch in a narrative, a head turner. He steps into a room and the whole energy shifts, he is a source of chaos and order at once, he takes command of a room and it is difficult to take it from him once he has it.

I want him to be concerning, disarming, constantly calculating, a guy who very is always reading the room, always examining you, poking and prodding for your weaknesses, for something to laugh at. I just need him to be A LOT, I want him to be sensitive and at times vulnerable but not too much so, I think his emotional state is volatile but not accessible for everyone's tampering. Prone to anger and to tears.

I always just want him to be naughty, incorrigible, a bad-ish person with a twisted morality but an underlying kindness that is inconsistent, unreliable but persistent, he knows when enough is enough. Capable of a human moment but you have to chip at a hard heart. Merciless but not compassionless. I need him to talk rough and rashly and be charming in a caustic way, terrible but lovable, worthy of pity, hate and affection at once.

In ships, I don't really like too much ease and fluff, I want whatever relationship he is in to have conflict and tension, because all relationships have conflict and tension. I don't care abotu the details but I need to see some struggle because he is like a belgian malinois of a boyfriend, that takes work because he has teeth and he likes to bite.

Does that make sense?? I need him to be a toxic mess, it doesn't matter the degrees or the detail, I just need to be taken for a ride.

#hws prussia #yesyesyesyes aaaaaa

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Who do you ship prussia with?

Everyone ✌️

#THIS IS THE WAY

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I love u. Can i plz request any of your takes on loser au?

I wnat to do more but life is beating me up, but two things I thought were funny

1. Bran/Dietrich's eagerness to take in a teenage cousin because he's broke, G/ermania having ONE SOLE incident of his kid not behaving and being like get the fuck out of my house (but i made it sadder bc HRE being sick is something i like to see transfer into human Aus with ludwig)

2. During college days: Tolys being a crazy ex and checking Gil's phone when he was sleeping just so he can be a hater on his and Ivan's dramatic teenage breakup texts makes me laugh

I want to really flesh out my b/randenburg, but I need to draw and compile and think so I'll save some ideas for later. Loser AU overview for anyone who wants more.

#omgggggg #comic #not just one strike out aahhhhhhh #tolys is super ripped aaaaa #also #lietpru #right? right? with past uh #rupru?? #au

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pruliet comm for @doomspiral <3 oh to begrudgingly help dress your enemy's wounds

#lietpru #ohhhhhhh i love the setting(?) and the expressions!!

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oh btw i bought slaughterhouse-5 comic instead of book by accident lmao (that could explain why it was cheaper in that page compared to the others), but catch-22 is the actual book (in spanish)

i think eventually im gonna buy slaughterhouse in english, thats cheaper than spanish, at least in that page... i should check other pages.

#im still gonna see the author's writing but is not the same obv. art!!! art tho :D #book tax here is bad

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in my notes someone has "i voted for romano" icon, and right above it another i voted icon, this time for cecil palmer