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[h2ujis]

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bangchan angst. reader’s gender is not mentioned. overworking. chan treats reader like shit.

i also really hate this but woke up a while ago and had nothing to do, decided to open a blog.

“(name) you have to leave him, he treats you like shit!"

“i'm telling you, chan isn't always like this, he's just tired from work you know, he's been so busy lately"

“it's not the first time you tell me how he snaps at you, and he doesn't say the sweetest things"

at first it was something little, like telling you to leave him alone to asking you politely to stay quiet, but as the pressure of work got stronger his tolerance grew little and sadly you've had to learn to be careful around him when he was getting ready for a comeback or organizing schedules, which was almost always.

this time you visited him during work hours, which already felt like a mistake, but sometimes you can't blame yourself from missing your boyfriend.

your plan was to only give him the food you bought and leave as quickly as you could to not bother him, you entered his studio and saw the same view as always, black t-shirt, black cap, sitting a bit hunched and eyes on the computer, him seeing things that you don't even understand.

"hi baby" you greeted him hoping to catch his attention

"oh hi" he said without looking at you, uncomfortable silence growing, you stood there thinking what to say "what are you doing here? you know i'm busy during these days" he said without much thought

"you're always busy" you said to yourself, but it was loud enough for him to catch it.

"what's that supposed to mean?" he asked, finally turning around to see you, meeting his sleepless eyes and pale face.

you flinched at the question, re-thinking on why did you say that but decided to finally talk about it

"nothing, jus’ tired of seeing you here locked up by yourself all the time. i don't even get to see you anymore chan, and we live together" you said with the sweetest voice you could.

he sighed loudly, "it's my job, (name)"

“i know chan, but all the burden is on you. your bandmates allow themselves to take actual breaks to see their loved ones while i have to come and beg you to come home for two hours"

“i’m not doing this today, (name)" he said while dropping a sarcastic laugh

"but i will do this today chan, i'm so tired of not seeing you, tired of you ignoring me and tired of you closing yourself every single time you don't feel available anymore"

"can you be anymore selfish right now? why can't you just do as i say and leave me alone? maybe i°m here from day to night because i can't fucking stand you and your savior complex." he said, turning around once again to meet your now teary eyes. "my job will always be more important than you, learn to live with that"

"i’ll just get going, we can talk when you get home. i know you are overwhelmed, and i hope you didn't mean what you just said" you said with a broken voice, now tears rolling on your cheeks. remembering why you never confronted him, no matter what you say, it would always end up with you crying and him not giving a shit.

“i don't think i'm coming home tonight, have something to finish" he said, as if nothing had ever happened, ignoring your whimpers.

“fine, i brought you food by the way. have a good night, chan" you said, leaving the food on the couch and closing the door behind you, cleaning the tears from your face and finally leaving.

it made you angry, so angry that you were so attached to him to even think of leaving.

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