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journal entry - 8.17.22 

“what is something that is always true?” 

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johntenyang (+ jeno)

#family tree #ALSO #johnny is so strong he could save everyone in a burning building #but he better put me FIRST

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HIIIIIIIIII (with the intention of winning you back)

HOW IS EVERYONE? 🥰 I hope you all are doing well. I'm sorry for my period of zero contact, I'm busy with university! 😭

I just wanted to announce that I have something BREWING UP as for my official comeback lol. 🤠

#haeigoo will REVAMP #tune in tonight at ten lol #but WOWWWWWWW #i really miss reading aus #as a bz college student every day makes u wanna KYS but thank god for amazing authors and appreciative readers yall keep me going #<3

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“morning after” look

#the OG is back. #my mind went completely Blank #like actually #CHENLE #THE FUCKS WRONG WIT U BRO #🥹🥹🥹 #i been missing him so bad n i think it’s actually magic that this update flashed right before my eyes #zhong chenle... #😭😭😭 #i FUCKING Love 🫵 YOU!

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JOHNNY ON TAEIL'S ROLE IN NCT 127 ✦ NCT 127: THE LOST BOYS EP. 2

#TAEIL WE MISS YOU!!! #☹️☹️☹️

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everyone likes talking about haechan like he’s some sex-crazed dom but i’m fully convinced he gets talked down to one time and he’s the easiest man in the world

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230913 TAEYONG IG Update

"Incredible Taeyong (When does the work end) 😒😩😤"

Translated by SM_NCT

#that’s babygirl right there fr #my princess! #bubu 💚 #i need him to keep that haircolour for the rest of time.

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toxic ex!chenle is gonna fuck me up so bad 😓 wish me luck y’all 🤞

#ako na nbsb #LIKE BFFR #shutting my eyes for now but my brain can’t seem to shut the fuck up #conjuring up ideas on how i’m gonna paint him as a villain in my next fic is insane actually #i’m your resident lilsun and here i go blabbering nonsense #whatever happened to me writing simply DRABBLES #??? #i’m getting too brave it’s scary

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I love my friends I love my friends they deserve the world and everything I hope that both sides of their pillow are the desired temperature I hope a meal they eat next makes them feel happy. I hope they get to see their favorite movie or play their favorite video game. I hope they are filled with happiness and joy.

#dear friends... I LOVE YALL SO MUCH

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fanfic should be fun fic. if you are not having fun, please step away, take a break, do whatever you need to in order to have fun with this hobby we share

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''Useless'' Writing Reminders

Save your documents. Strive to be safe, not sorry.

Back-up your documents. Strive to be safe, not sorry.

Placeholder names can quickly turn into forever names. Picking name(s) on a whim can lead to great things, or it can become your worst nightmare (😁).

Your writing has value. Yes, even the most inadequate of writing. You don't have to boast or even like everything you've ever written, but even the most questionable of writing will have contributed to your growth as a storyteller. Cherish it for what it is.

You can take a break. It is absolutely okay.

First drafts are scary. But you know what's more scary? Not having a draft at all.

Using clichés or ''overdone'' tropes will not kill your story. Firstly, tropes are building blocks. Secondly, humans actively search to consume stories revolving around these tropes.

Write your heart out. Boast about your writing. Boast about your friends' and fellow writers' writing. Everyone deserves recognition, even you, from within your own heart. (Sorry. That's really cheesy. But it's true).

#oh i <3 these :)) #currently hv another 1 brewing up i js dk when i’ll post it lmfao

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thinking about men who start babbling out the cutest promises when they’re inside you. supporting themselves on their hands that are planted on either side of your head, hips moving in heavy thrusts and hair falling over their face and just endless moans of “‘m gonna marry you angel, fuck, and ill buy you a big house…ahh, gonna give you babies…we’ll grow old together yeah? make you so happy-” all while your back is arching and you’re creaming around him, nodding rapidly at his words and knowing his words are true when he pushes in to the hilt with a final groan of your name against your lips

#HAECHAN af #i’m gonna fucking combust #i shouldn’t be alone with all these thoughts running through my mind all day #i’d marry him in a heartbeat

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[13:14 pm]

word count: 1,085

a/n: i came up with a new word, haechanitis, and i think i have it. i’m severely into this dude… like i know mark is my man but haechan … it was the concert that did it for me, if you guys had seen the pictures i got and the amount of times he looked at my camera, you would understand me （◞‸◟） not proofread btw !

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“so, how’s it going with your little crush on haechan?” your friend asks as she scrolls through her phone.

“dude, it’s not a crush,” you say as you push her shoulder. “i don’t even talk to him.”

you’ve learned a lot from observing him, not to be creepy but every time your head turned to look at him, he was always doing something new. like when his friend jaemin is feeding him, he shakes his head when he opens his mouth. or when his other friend renjun, shoves him away whenever he gets too close to him.

you could honestly go on about haechan but you prefer to keep it to yourself. he’s way too out of your league and you’re too introverted to ever find the confidence in going up to him. unlike him who seems to strike up a conversation with whoever he comes across.

your friend notices that you’re lost in thoughts when she asks, “should i invite him over? i mean, he is my partner for this project we’re working on.” your eyes widen and you feel panic strike as your heart rate goes up.

“no! i will kill you and then myself,” you threaten while holding both her hands down, which in fact were about to wave him over. unfortunately for you, she still has her mouth.

“hey haechan!” you shut your eyes so hard and you feel your heart about to explode because you know he’s gonna walk over any second. he can’t resist talking to anyone who calls his name, that’s how he is.

“i’m leaving,” you state as you let go of her hands and rapidly grab your stuff, shoving just about anything into your backpack. you need to leave before he steps foot in your space.

“y/n, you cannot be serious…” she trails off as she watches you put your backpack on. all you can do is huff in frustration.

“i’m 100% serious. you know i can’t be in the same vicinity as haech-“ you’re cut off by the legend himself.

“woah, what did i do?” haechan questions with his eyebrows furrowed in confusion. you look at your friend and all she can do is offer you a sorry smile. you’re gonna do what you do best, which is to disappear any time something embarrassing happens because right now, you want the ground to swallow you whole.

“i gotta go, i’ll see you some other time, bye!” you exclaim to your friend as you speed walk out of the scene. you don’t turn your back once to see their reactions, all you know is that you have to get out there before you have to see haechan’s face up close for longer than five seconds.

“fuck, that was close,” you whisper to yourself as you lean against the wall outside. you had finally calmed down a bit since you were nowhere near him.

“what was close?” you let out a loud yelp as you turn around to see haechan standing behind you. well now you were definitely fucked. you must’ve killed a god in your past life because why was this happening to you?

“jesus, you scared me! what’s wrong with you?!” you exclaimed as you held a hand to your chest. you probably look like that spongebob meme right now. haechan just stares at you in amusement while crossing his arms.

“what’s wrong with me? what’s wrong with you?” he asks while nodding his head in your direction.

“i don’t know why you followed me, but i’m leaving. bye.” you say as you turn your back to him. you don’t mean to be an asshole but since you’ve never spoken a word to him, this is all that can come out.

his hand grabs ahold of your wrist before you can even walk two steps. “tch,” he tuts. “where do you think you’re going, y/n?” your eyes widen because how does he know your name. but then you relax as you realize your friend probably told him after you ran off.

“i’m going to study, now if you could let go of my wrist, that would be amazing,” you smile at him and watch as he lets go of your wrist before letting out a small ‘sorry’.

“i just wanted to know,” he starts while holding a finger under his chin showing his thinking face. “why you can’t be in the same vicinity as me, as you said.” he finishes while looking at you. you can’t look him in the eyes because if you do, you’ll confess right then and there. but then again, you’ve always been blunt since your middle school days.

“because i like you,” you state bluntly. haechan looks taken aback not expecting a straight and honest answer from you considering you were running away a few minutes ago. “now can i go? you don’t really know me so it doesn’t matter.”

“w-well-“ he stutters, still in shock from your confession. who would’ve thought you’d be the one to gag him. you sigh and stare at the ground bored. it’s not like you’re not used to rejection, you’re just tired of them wasting your time doing it.

“i’m gonna go now…” you trail off, taking steps backwards and pointing behind you. haechan, still in a slightly frozen state, nods but quickly shakes off the dazed state.

“wait, can i get your number?” he asks while quickly pulling out his phone, hands slightly shaking. you must be hallucinating at this point because there was no way lee haechan was asking for your number.

“mine? why?” you quickly ask. he shoves his phone in your hands and smiles encouraging you to type your information in.

“so we can get to know each other, duh,” he says while playfully rolling his eyes. now you’re the one in shock, he just pulled an uno reverse on you. you type in your contact name and phone number knowing there’s no way to get out of this.

“i might not know you at all or like you, but i’m sure i won’t have a hard time falling for you.” he says while giving a loving smile.

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#IM GONNA KILL MYSELF #😭😭😭 #so that’s swell huh?! #god i love haechan and his silly little quirks

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Please be nice to the people who are giving you free content.

You'll be the reason why there are no writers left here if not.

#LOUDER!!!!!! #BEING KIND COSTS $0

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When people come at fic writers with "logic"

--A cock that big would not be pleasurable

--No one has sex that much

--That is unhealthy

--Gross

--Being stalked is scary/dangerous

--That much cum is unrealistic

--His cock wouldn't be THAT big

--??? kink is nasty (non con, bondage, etc)

Let us have our FANTASY. We know what reality is, and this is our escape. Seriously, you can't tell me every book you ever read, or movie you watched is 100% factual. We are just trying to have happiness and have some fun. 😊

#FR #to think that people can just dictate a writer’s work is disgusting to me #as my friend said #“i don’t care if you write monster porn”

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missing you - jaemin x fem!deceased!reader

synopsis: your boyfriend, jaemin, visits your grave on your anniversary.

genre: angst

word count: 468

warning: mentions of suicide

author’s note: finally uploaded my first angst fanfic! the writing’s prolly rlly shitty but i tried,, 🥹 hope u enjoy n tysm 4 all the support on strawberry kisses!!

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jaemin slowly walks up to your grave, a bouquet of flowers in his hands. he kneels down in front of it and slowly starts to speak.

“hey, babe.. happy third anniversary.” jaemin starts. “i can’t believe you aren’t here with me anymore.. you know, it’s been really difficult without you.” he states.

“sometimes, i find cute restaurants we can visit together and i’m about to call you to tell you only to realize you aren’t alive anymore.” he chuckles, though nothing’s funny.

“you know, i’ve been wanting to ask you something.” he says. “it’s just.. why did you commit suicide? how didn’t i notice?” he whispers while tearing up.

“was it me? was it my fault? did i do something to you? you never showed any signs of suicidal thoughts. you were perfectly fine to me..” jaemin utters, not being able to hold back his tears.

he breaks down into tears in front of your grave, his tears falling from his cheeks onto his neck. he wipes them off with the sleeve of his shirt.

“words can’t describe how much i miss you.. my love, my girlfriend. my baby, my everything. the reason i’m still pushing.”

“it was.. it was all for you.. just for you.” he mumbles, choking on his tears.

“i miss you… i miss you so so much. nothing is the same without you here by my side. gosh, just why couldn’t i have stopped you?” he sobs, his eyes red from crying.

“i just can’t stop thinking about you,, you’re always on my mind.” jaemin says.

“i miss the way you made me feel.. i was so incredibly happy with you. like we were at the top of the world, just you and me.” he cries out.

“it’s like a part of me is missing without you here,, you made me the happiest man on earth. i gave you everything i had in me, and to just acknowledge the fact you’re gone absolutely wrecks me from the inside and out.”

“why didn’t you tell me you were feeling this way? i could’ve helped you. given you the support you needed..” jaemin adds on.

“i miss you.. i miss you. so fucking much. no other girl on earth could help me get over you. my first love. my only love..”

jaemin stays silent for a while as he sobs, his face now burried in his shirt. “gosh, i love you so much.. why’d you leave me?”

can be heard coming from him every once in a while.

he regains his composure and places the bouquet of flowers on your grave, forgetting he still had them in his hands.

“goodbye, my love. i’ll visit you again very soon.” jaemin plants a kiss on your tombstone and walks away, the overwhelming feeling of guilt swallowing him whole.

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