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𝘐   𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦   𝘵𝘩𝘦   𝘤𝘰𝘭𝘰𝘳𝘧𝘶𝘭   𝘤𝘭𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘴   𝘴𝘩𝘦   𝘸𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘴  /   𝘈𝘯𝘥   𝘵𝘩𝘦   𝘸𝘢𝘺   𝘵𝘩𝘦   𝘴𝘶𝘯𝘭𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵   𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘺𝘴   𝘶𝘱𝘰𝘯   𝘩𝘦𝘳   𝘩𝘢𝘪𝘳   /   𝘐   𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳   𝘵𝘩𝘦   𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥   𝘰𝘧   𝘢   𝘨𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘭𝘦   𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘥  /   𝘖𝘯   𝘵𝘩𝘦   𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘥   𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵   𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘵𝘴   𝘩𝘦𝘳   𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘧𝘶𝘮𝘦   𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩   𝘵𝘩𝘦   𝘢𝘪𝘳     [ … ]    𝚊𝚜 𝚊𝚍𝚘𝚛𝚎𝚍 𝚋𝚢 𝚖𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚘𝚠𝚎𝚜 .

#im over here now :))))) #plz give it a follow if u are gay for taurus women 🥵🥵🥵

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i just realised that rping basically cannot survive without the validation from other people. it’s gotten to a point where i feel i can no longer create characters without having to keep in mind that it has to be something that someone else wants to write with. it doesnt necessarily matter how much you adore your character or how much work you put in because at the end of the day ur trying to get other people to write with you. 

#im not sayin that everyone thinks this ofc #im sure some people have a relatively healthy mindset when it comes to this lmao #but i just..... #i feel like any character i start getting excited about dies out so quickly #either because i have a complete lack of people wanting to interact or ive created a character that is completely based off of #what i think other people will like!! #and im not saying like 'omg my characters are amazing why is nobody paying attention to me wah wah' #its just the whole principle of it all like #i dont think a lot of people realise that roleplaying is about entertaining other people #as much as its supposed to be fun for u #u have to attract ur own 'audience' if that makes sense? #idk #thats why i havent rlly been on here recently lmao #i just get immediately burnt out every time i think about it

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social experiment reblog with your ethnicity, whether or not your parents are divorced and if you sleep with the door open or closed

#ashkenazi jewish and scandinavian #parents are still together #i sleep with the door closed

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soft update:  im doing better.  i recently upped my dose of adh/d meds and already feeling the positive effects :) atm i’m just trying to hit uni deadlines but hopefully i’ll find time to come on here.  if not i’ll probs see you all after all my courseworks submitted - at the very very latest that will be the 19th, but i’m pretty confident i’ll be done before then.  

#god work is kicking me up the arse #obvi i left it all last minute but thats ok bc im adhd :) #last minute pressure produces the best work from me and i actually enjoy it lmao #anyway stay safe and see yall soon!!<3

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soft update:  im doing better.  i recently upped my dose of adh/d meds and already feeling the positive effects :) atm i’m just trying to hit uni deadlines but hopefully i’ll find time to come on here.  if not i’ll probs see you all after all my courseworks submitted - at the very very latest that will be the 19th, but i’m pretty confident i’ll be done before then.  

#also been watching dragon prince with my bf for the first time and thinking of rping as one of the characters.. #havent decided which one yet but i got a couple in mind!! #hope everyone is doing ok and staying safe<3 #also happy new year :) love u all

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soft update: i’m not doing great mentally which is why i havent been particularly active :/ i also have uni deadlines to meet in january which i need to prioritise. i’ll be lurking just.....not posting much

#doing quite bad had another depression meltdown today #might have to up my meds again which is.....fun #out . #/ depression #/ medication #/ mental health

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reblog this and tell me in the tags how bad your spotify is

#liberal-arts-hip-hop-tommy-bahama-aging-boy-bander bad #fuck meeeeee

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𝐎𝐏𝐇𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐀'𝐒  𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄  𝐀𝐓    𝘛𝘏𝘌  𝘏𝘌𝘈𝘝𝘌𝘕𝘓𝘠  𝘎𝘙𝘌𝘠  𝘋𝘖𝘝𝘌𝘚 .

#. * 𝙸𝙸. 𝙸𝙼𝙰𝙶𝙴𝚂 * ❪ AES ❫ : MAY WILDES . #. * 𝙸𝚅. 𝙳𝚈𝙽 * ❪ H.G.D. ❫ : MAY WILDES .

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may’s personality is completely constructed by one person’s ideal of what grace & beauty looks like .   the way she presents herself, the way she talks and moves, it’s so ingrained that she’s not 100% certain she knows who she is .    only certain people whom she trusts wholeheartedly will see her loosen up and feel more comfortable expressing herself in her own unique way rather than what was constructed for her

#. * 𝙸𝙸𝙸. 𝙴𝚅𝙰𝙻 * ❪ HC ❫ : MAY WILDES .

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𝔐𝔞𝔶 𝔚𝔦𝔩𝔡𝔢𝔰: 𝔬𝔯𝔦𝔤𝔦𝔫𝔞𝔩 𝔠𝔥𝔞𝔯𝔞𝔠𝔱𝔢𝔯, 𝔣𝔞𝔫𝔡𝔬𝔪𝔩𝔢𝔰𝔰 .

from the age of 7-19,  may wildes and her family joined a cult (the heavenly grey doves) soon after emigrating to scotland from jamaica.  it was here where she was indoctrinated into the ideology of prophecies and angelology, and told that any one of the underage members could be the Angel Seraphim - one who would eventually part from the community alongside their family and the promise of infinite wealth and comfort.

several young girls were selected as ‘possibilities’, or as the mother dove liked to call them, her archangels. may wildes was selected and nicknamed ‘ophelia’ .

since selection, ophelia went through rigorous training, all in attempts to win mother dove’s favour .  they were informed that the results would be revealed once every participant turned 18, and so years were spent mastering numerous fields such as language, music, sport, and academia  (many parts of history were blanked out ‘for their own safety’)

by the time ophelia turned 18 she was fluent in seven additional languages (french, german, spanish, italian, arabic, and latin), grade 8 in piano, black belt in karate and jiu-jitsu, an accomplished ballet dancer, and achieved top grades in her academic subjects .  she was told by mother dove that she was by far her favourite, and that she was confident ophelia’s efforts would gain her enough favour to put her in good stead, maybe even win .

and yet one by one each member turned 18 and no mention of a winner. mother dove assured them that she was merely waiting for ‘the right time’ and these things couldn’t be rushed.

a year passed and ophelia grew restless.  if she were truly mother dove’s favourite,  why was she taking so long to announce it? every three months she would have a private audience with her angels, still everyday ophelia’s agitation grew.  desperate to know why, ophelia decided to listen in on one of her fellow angels.  she persuaded the guard outside the office that a member had been sick and needed attention, and once he left she pressed her ear to the door .

mother dove had repeated everything she said to ophelia, about ‘being her favourite’ with ‘a lot of potential’, she realised her leader had been lying to her - to all of them.

ophelia was caught outside the door by the returning guard, brought to mother dove, and forced to disclose what she had heard. since she had spied and acted ‘unforgivably sinful’ she was informed that by tomorrow she would have her angel status stripped, and henceforth banished from the community for her crimes.

the ‘clipping’ ritual was traumatising in itself. it involved being dressed in white with a pair of feathered angel wings, meant to be crafted by the victim from scratch, and forced to walk from the topmost part of the house to the bottom whilst the members of the house shrieked names associated with the devil at them.  they are then led outside to a bonfire, where blood relatives and/or close friends tear the wings off their back as they kneel, and throw the feathers into the flames.  mother dove then concludes the ritual by declaring the member’s crime and their punishment .   the clipped is then left outside as everyone filters away.  to interact with the clipped is now considered a serious crime and is punishable by isolation or exile.

#MAY WILDES INFO . #taken from my old blog :) #. * 𝙸𝙸𝙸. 𝙴𝚅𝙰𝙻 * ❪ META ❫ : MAY WILDES . #/ cult #/ abuse #/ violence #/ trauma

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andromeda / did they feel rejection or affection as a child?

It’s complicated. In one way I think Andromeda felt somewhat unimportant in comparison to her sisters. Bellatrix was the eldest and therefore more was asked of her; she was betrothed to the older Lestrange son before she learnt to walk, and as the eldest was told she carried a huge responsibility for their family’s reputation. Narcissa was different because she was unique. She was the family’s flower, ever sweet and loyal and appropriately passive. Her silvery blonde hair was striking against her family’s chestnut brown and obsidian black - it was difficult not to notice her. Andromeda was in between head and tail. Strong minded enough to have her own edge, but static enough to blend into the background. 

Andromeda seemed the least threatening of the three because she hardly asked for much, only books to read and the occasional solitary excursion into town. She was incredibly independent, which her parents took as a virtue because they assumed they didn’t need to worry after her so much. They saw no reason why she would be disloyal when, ironically, it was her independence and wandering mind that led her to betray the family ideals in the first place. 

As for affection the Black’s aren’t exactly the...cuddliest bunch. Physical affection came in the form of handshakes, cheek kisses and the aloof pat on the back. If anything it was her sisters that displayed the most affection, which usually came in the form of acts of service like braiding her hair or offering to do a chore for them. This dynamic with touch led her to become very sensitive to it. It took a very long time for her to be comfortable with Ted’s tactile behaviour even when married, and it wasn’t until Nymphadora was born that it finally felt somewhat natural to her.

#. * 𝚅𝙸. 𝙴𝚃𝙲 * ❪ ANS ❫ : ANDROMEDA BLACK . #. * 𝙸𝚅. 𝙳𝚈�� * ❪ BELLATRIX ❫ : ANDROMEDA BLACK . #. * 𝙸𝙸𝙸. 𝙴𝚅𝙰𝙻 * ❪ META ❫ : ANDROMEDA BLACK . #. * 𝙸𝚅. 𝙳𝚈𝙽 * ❪ BLACK FAMILY ❫ : ANDROMEDA BLACK . #. * 𝙸𝚅. 𝙳𝚈𝙽 * ❪ NARCISSA ❫ : ANDROMEDA BLACK . #. * 𝙸𝚅. 𝙳𝚈𝙽 * ❪ TED ❫ : ANDROMEDA BLACK . #. * 𝙸𝚅. 𝙳𝚈𝙽 * ❪ NYMPHADORA ❫ : ANDROMEDA BLACK .

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AND  YOU  MIGHT  THINK  I’M  WEAK  WITHOUT  A  SWORD,   BUT  IF  I  HAD  ONE  IT’D  BE  BIGGER  THAN  YOURS .      /    ANDROMEDA  BLACK  VISUAL  STUDY   1  /  ?

#the way i love this woman #ughhh alksdjklasjdka #bait quote but if the crown fits what can i do #. * 𝙸. 𝚅𝙸𝚂 * ❪ FC ❫ : ANDROMEDA BLACK .

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different ways to say ‘i love you’. 

‘i’ll make you something, yeah? your favorite dish, just for you.’

‘let’s get you back to bed.’

‘shh, it was just a nightmare.’

‘you like this, don’t you? i remember you saying that.’

‘i drew up a bath for you.’

‘you need rest.’

‘you ought to be asleep.’

‘i bought two.’

‘here. you can have the rest.’

‘i thought of you when i saw this.’

‘i like your smile.’

‘you have a cute laugh.’

‘stay there. i’m coming there to get you.’

‘it’s okay, i’m here, we’re okay.’

‘be careful.’

‘look both ways.’

‘you mean so much to me.’

‘i can’t lose you.’

‘i thought i might have lost you.’

‘how to you feel about the nickname, (insert nickname)?’

‘it looks good on you.’

‘i’ll make you soup.’

‘ah-ah-ah. you’re sick. you need to stay in bed.’

‘are you okay in there?’

‘that’s it, that’s it. get it all out. shh.’

‘it’s a remedy i knew. helps with your throat.’

‘it’s a lullaby. would you like me to sing it to you? would that help you fall asleep?’

‘i’m worried about you.’

‘what do you want to watch?’

‘where would you like to go for dinner?’

‘close your eyes and hold out your hands.’

‘we’ll figure it out.’

‘oh, it’s not big deal. you’re fine.’

‘i brought you some medicine for your cold.’

‘you’re important to me.’

‘this is your favorite song, right?’

‘you’re like a son/daughter to me.’

‘good luck!’

‘you’re like a mom/dad to me.’

‘don’t say that about yourself.’

‘want to come with?’

“wow! you look really nice.’

‘goodnight, (insert term of affection).’

‘it’s okay. i couldn’t sleep anyway.’

‘you can have half.’

‘come here. let me fix it.’

‘your tie is crooked.’

‘c’mere. shh, it’s okay.’

‘i’m not going to hurt you.’

‘can i touch you?’

‘can i kiss you?’

‘can i hug you?’

‘promise.’

‘would i ever lie to you?’

‘i think you’re very beautiful/handsome.’

‘hey, good-looking.’

‘of course i care. you’re my family.’

‘one more chapter.’

‘i love you.’

#. * 𝚅𝙸. 𝙴𝚃𝙲 : ❪ MEMES ❫ #pblease?

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i can imagine how furious andromeda was after being estranged and meeting all these women her age who had all these interesting hobbies and skills that she never got to develop because her family dictated that the only 'skills' that were of value were limited to what she could contribute as a wife and mother. so her and ted's tiny house soon became filled with all sorts of various activities (a lot of them muggle!) ranging from chess to wood whittling to archery etc. she lost interest in most of these hobbies after a while and the turnover seemed endless...but ted never told her to stop because he understood that this was necessary for her growth as a new woman, as well as proving an effective distraction from her family's abandonment .

#andromeda: im fishing today :) #ted: oh? #andromeda: yes i bought a fishing rod #ted: what about the wardrobe u were building? #andromeda: that was so last hour keep up smh #. * 𝙸𝚅. 𝙳𝚈𝙽 * ❪ TED ❫ : ANDROMEDA BLACK . #. * 𝙸𝙸𝙸. 𝙴𝚅𝙰𝙻 * ❪ HC ❫ : ANDROMEDA BLACK .

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ok u persuaded me im adding miss honey from matilda onto my muse list 

#ive literally never mentioned it before but ok u persuaded me i'll do it #like u dont need to keep mentioning it im doing it omg #stoppppp omg stopppp

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PRIDE & PREJUDICE 2005 | dir. Joe Wright

#. * 𝙸. 𝚅𝙸𝚂 * ❪ FC ❫ : ANDROMEDA BLACK . #. * 𝙸𝚅. 𝙳𝚈𝙽 * ❪ NARCISSA ❫ : ANDROMEDA BLACK .

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idk if this is just me but i dont see much sense in pureblood wizards taking part in smoking cigarettes? like whenever i see hcs about blood supremacist characters smoking (or drinking) what is clearly a muggle invention it just......idk it doesnt make much sense to me? like why would they take part in anything other than the culture they were raised in? isnt that the point? 

#no hate to writers who do hc their character smoking cigs i just dont personally see it aklsjdklasj #i can see it as like a rebellious thing #like i can imagine sirius doing it but.....yeah idk #does this make sense????