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everytime i breathe i feel this feeling of a hand inside my guts trying to pull me apart.i tried to sew it all up but then with every bite of my lover's heart i eat the stitches melt and now its all gushing out.

im crying out loud with all the love leaking out of me; what if im drained of all the love i ever possessed. what if i unbecome what i am today.what if one day my lover realises that feeding me her delicate little heart cut into however small pieces wont stop the stitches from breaking apart.

#desi academia #dark academia #body horror #desi romantic academia

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Hans Bellmer, Untitled (Hands Triptych)

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musings on hands

Ocean Vuong, Don Snyder, Richard Siken, Masao Yamamoto, Franz Kafka, Hussein Chalayan, Sylvia Plath

buy me a coffee

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when will someone say "hona hai tujmei fanaa" to me. god me when.

#desiblr #zindagi jhand hai phir bhi ghamand hai #someone please hold my hand #desi academia #desi romantic academia

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i need to hold hands with a girl romantically in order to be happy. i need to hold hands with a girl romantically in order to be happy. i need to hold hands with a girl romantically in order to be happy. i need to hold hands with a girl romanti

#someone hold me #girfriend #desiblr #imlgtv #hmu desi women of tumblr #i have officially lost it

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havwnt talked to my dad properly in like 2 months now

#desi culture #happiness #bhaimaihikyun #desiblr

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bhagwan aise kab tak lack of cuddling ko oversized hoodies se compensate karti rahungi??

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Pardon my french but

Louvrè lâg gayé

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✨Sab chutiya hai✨

Reblog if you agree

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#boobs #titties

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first time in forever i feel like im much more than what others make me feel

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I honestly love it when I'm holding hands while walking and they start to swing our hands its so cute 💪😼

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Fiction & Poetry:

A Life Apart, by Neel Mukherjee

A Thousand Dreams Within Me Softly Burn, by Sahil Sood

Babyji by Abha Dawesar

The Best at It, by Maulik Pancholy

Blue Boy, by Rakesh Satyal

The Boy and the Bindi, by Vivek Shraya

Bright Lines: A Novel, by Tanwi Nandini Islam

Cinnamon Gardens, by Shyam Selvadurai

The City of Devi, by Manil Suri

Cobalt Blue: A Novel, by Sachin Kundalkar

Funny Boy, by Shyam Selvadurai

High Noon and the Body, by Kyla Pasha

My Magical Palace, by Kunal Mukherjee

Marriage of a Thousand Lies, by SJ Sindhu

Mohanaswamy, by Vasudhendra

My Father’s Garden, by Hansda Sowvendra Shekar

Ode to Lata, by Ghalib Shiraz Dhalla

The Paths of Marriage, by Mala Kumar

The Pregnant King, by Devdutt Pattanaik

Quarantine, by Rahul Mehta

She of the Mountains, by Vivek Shraya

Stealing Nasreen, by Farzana Doctor

Swimming in the Monsoon Sea, by Shyam Selvadurai

The Tree Outside My Window is a Drama Queen, by Avinash Matta

Trying to Grow, by Firdaus Kanga

The Two Krishnas, by Ghalib Shiraz Dhalla

Valmiki’s Daughter, by Shani Mootoo

The World Unseen, by Shamim Sarif

Non-Fiction & Anthologies:

AIDS Sutra: Untold Stories from India, by Amartya Sen and various authors

Because I Have A Voice: Queer Politics in India, edited by Arvind Narrain and Gautam Bhan

Dirty River, by Leah Lakshmi Piepzna-Samarasinha

Gay Bombay: Globalization, Love, and (Be)Longing in Contemporary India, by Parmesh Shahani

Impossible Desires: Queer Diasporas and South Asian Public Cultures, by Gayatri Gopinath

The Invisibles, by Zia Jaffrey

A Lotus of Another Color, by Rakesh Ratti

Love’s Rite: Same-Sex Marriage in India and the West by Ruth Vanita

Loving Women: Being Lesbian in Unprivileged India, by Maya Sharma

Made in India: Decolonializations, Queer Sexualities, Trans/National Projects, by Suparna Bhaskaran

Me Hijra, Me Laxmi, by Laxminarayan Tripathi

Moving Truth(s): Queer and Transgender Desi Writings on Family, by Various authors

Neither Man Nor Woman, Serena Nanda

Out! Stories from the New Queer India, by Minal Hajratwala

Queering India: Same-Sex Love and Eroticism in Indian Culture and Society, by Ruth Vanita

Queer Activism in India: A Story in the Anthropology of Ethics, by Naisargi Dave

Sakhiyani: Lesbian Desire in Ancient and Modern India, by Giti Thadani

Same-Sex Love in India, edited by Ruth Vanita and Saleem Kidwal

Sexual Sites, Seminal Attitudes: Sexualities, Masculinities and Culture in South Asia, by Sanjay Srivastava

Sex Longing and Not Belonging: A Gay Muslim’s Quest for Love and Meaning, by Badruddin Khan

Shikhandi and Other Tales They Don’t Tell You, by Devdutt Pattanaik

With Respect to Sex: Negotiating Hijra Identity in South India, by Gaytri Reddy

A Truth About Me: A Hijra Story, by A. Revathi

Yaraana: Gay Writings from South Asia by Hoshang Merchant

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hi mimi! top five indian novels and top five bollywood movies please? ❤

ughhhh tumblr deleted your ask first time anyway friendship ended with tumblr now tejal is my new best friend 😠💜❤️💙

novels

anything by ruskin bond- this great benevolent mountain spirit has penned so many beautiful novels. i recommend the room on the roof/vagrants in the valley (#1 and #2 in rusty series), a flight of pigeons, time stops at shamli, a handful of nuts and the children's omnibus, which frankly to me is the indian literature equivalent of studio ghibli.

the lowland by jhumpa lahiri, (no i will not let americans claim this), absolutely the novel that changed my life. when sleeping at last said "space and time takes violent things, angry things and makes them kind" he had not read this book. I've never before seen such a raw, intimate portrayal of grief.

pather dabi (transl: the right of the way) by sarat chandra chattopadhyay, which is about a secret society of revolutionaries in colonial India. the most stellar, brilliant cast of characters + so much commentary about untouchability, feminism, and decolonisation. this book had been banned by the british, suck it colonials. I adore sarat chandra so much.

feluda series by satyajit ray is not a novel but a mandatory read for The Bengali Experience® and all of my childhood is encapsulated in this thriller/travelogue series set in post colonial bengal, starring the most adorable and iconic trio: a pretentious dark academia mystery-solving boi, his smart and pure little cousin/assistant and one comedy gold (1) thriller novelist. a landmark of bengali culture.

chiriyakhana (the menagerie) by sharadindu bandopadhyay (part of byomkesh bakshi series). whodunit!!! loads of memorable characters!!! the very agatha christie like humour and banter!!! a strange pick for a comfort read and yet!! oh also, *maeve wiley voice* complex female characters :)

films

jab we met (2007, dir. imtiaz ali): a disillusioned depressed mumbai businessman on a nighttime train meets a whirlwind of a punjabi woman planning her elopement. 100/100 everything. this movie shaped a generation and a whole subgenre in bollywood. invented romance methinks.

fitoor (2016, dir. abhishek kapoor): dickens' great expectations retold against the early 2000s kashmir valley violence. it was commercially unsuccessful because god hates me, but fitoor epitomises beautiful: beautiful visuals, beautiful soundtrack, gorgeous cast, katrina kaif and aditya roy kapur are too beautiful to be human, tabu ANSWER my calls.

wake up sid (2009, dir. ayan mukherji). refer here. good quality film right there. just a warm, comforting hug on sad days, this story hugely inspired elements in my wip. i love konkona :(

taare zameen par (2007, dir. aamir khan and amol gupte) it's about a creative, open hearted child named ishaan who is sent to boarding school after several heartbreaking little events and meets an art teacher who changes his life. this movie opened up conversations about mental health, learning disorders, neurodivergence and education systems in india. never tries to force sympathy. but you WILL CRY. be warned.

jodhaa akbar (2008, dir. ashutosh gowariker) hm best period drama ever to be honest, based off the irl historical alliance between mughal emperor akbar and rajput princess jodha (mariam zamani) begrudging enemies to lovers, political and historical intrigue, no black and white framing of any faction (*cough, slb's propaganda nonsense*), ar rahman went OFF with that ost....pls watch it.

if u read till the end of the post ily

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the eldest daughter urge to go absolutely feral at your family.

#desi academia #desiblr

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Bitches are able to read hardcore bdsm porn fanfiction with a straight face but start to grin and squeak like an idiot as soon there is the smallest fluff.

That’s me, I’m bitches.

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yor mommy