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Gone

Guess this is it. My last words. I don't even know what to say here. I've been fighting my demons for a long time, and they finally won. My life has been falling apart lately, and it's just too much. I'm so grateful for all the friends I've made the past few years, and I want you all to know how happy you made me. Without all of you, this would have happened so much sooner. You've all been the light of my life during my time here, and I'm sorry I have to do this. Just know that none of you did anything to contribute to this, it was my own demons that killed me. Please don't cry over me, my suffering is finally over. Whatever happens next, I'm finally at peace. Maybe I'll see you in the next life. But until then, I love you all. I'm sorry it had to end like this.

Goodbye

-Ash

#i'm sorry everyone #but i couldn't hold on anymore #suicide tw #suicide note #i'm queuing this for after the fact #so i'll already be gone by the time anyone sees this #queued: #apr 13

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i hope all mutuals who i never talk to are having a good day

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Red Doc>, Anne Carson

[ID: Memory is exhausting.]

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Inside me, something seethes. Inside me, some feral animal claws at my ribcage, trapped.

Molly McCully Brown, from Places I’ve Taken my Body: Essays

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Every day I hold myself back from committing terrible acts of violence

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i swear to god if i weren't so scared of the pain i would've already killed myself by now

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w h y c a n t i m o v e o n f r o m p e o p l e

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my only talent is appearing calm and emotionless when in reality i am on the brink of death

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richard siken, the worm king’s lullaby; from “war of foxes”

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looking at old photos of myself thinking not only is that girl dead but i killed her

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i say ‘anyway’ and ‘so like’ to start sentences the entire day as if i were havin the same conversation even though i am speaking to totally different people and the truth is i am having one conversation it is just a constant dialogue with me and the universe and whatever victims it offers me

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Having abandonment issues is so funny because someone will be like "I love you. I care for you. Your heart is safe with me. I won't leave you." And no matter what I'm just sitting there like "Sounds fake but okay."

#i've seen this post a million times #and it still hits like a freight train every single time #ow #avpd #bpd

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it scares me that you never know what someone is thinking or feeling towards you and everything that they say could be one massive lie

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i’m struggling to hide how damaged i’ve become

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