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About last night…

Things went well I think? First go at working with Venus or making a pentacle correctly. Excited to see how it plays out.

Weird thing that happened while reciting the psalm was that my knees started hurting really fucking bad so I kneeled instead of standing while reading it and when I got up they were totally fine. Kinda assumed it was like a “if you’re gonna be asking for my help you’re gonna get on your knees and ask fucking nicely.” kinda deal.

After that I slathered on a bunch of flying ointment and performed a shadow bath on myself. Put on my clothes and took the trek to the crossroads. Still not sure about how that went but we’ll see in the next couple of days. Got real fucking lost on the way home which was fine because I came across that weird house in the picture above. Also saw this tree that was definitely like, not just a tree if you get what I mean? When I first saw it I just wanted to go up to it and like chew on the whole tree which was fucking weird and probably induced by the combination of fasting for the day and also the flying ointment. After looking at the tree for a little while longer I realized there was an unmistakeable face of an old old spirit in/on it. And it was for sure judging me for thinking about eating him.

I’m not gonna go into too much more detail because there’s a lot I still need to figure out for myself but yeah.

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"Do what works, worry about explanations after you leave the ritual circle."

So if you’re like me, you do magick sometimes, a sigil here, a ritual there, maybe making a charm or an amulet or a little jar filled with things. And it works. And you know why it works, right? It’s energy. Wait no, it’s spirits. Um, it’s all in my head? It works through some trick of psychology, we’re just reprogramming the human biocomputer, that’s it. I’m tapping into the collective unconscious. Reality is just information and I’m manipulating that. How about... quantum? There is no self. All of these at the same time. 

To quote a fantastic post I’ll be linking later on:

All the Gods are alive. They are not supernatural; rather, they are our inmost natures. They power our dreams and our art and our personalities. Theurgy and ritual can make them stronger, more accessible to the shaman. They can be evoked in a human being to teach, heal, inspire, or harm. Occasionally they manifest in spontaneous theophanies; the result may be religious conversion, creative inspiration, charisma, or madness.

Magic is loose in the world. It is not the magic of fantasy -- no would-be violators of the laws of physics need apply. Real magic acts in and through human agents. The two forms of practical magic are healing and divination. Healing works because human minds have more control over their bodies than we normally think; divination works because humans know and perceive more than they are consciously aware of.

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If my language is too "religious" for you, feel free to transpose it all into the key of psychology. Speak of archetypes and semi-independent complexes. Feel free to hypothesize that I've merely learned how to enter some non-ordinary mental states that change my body language, disable a few mental censors, and have me putting out signals that other people interpret in terms of certain material in their own unconscious minds.

Fine. You've explained it. Correctly, even. But you can't do it!

And as long as you stick with the sterile denotative language of psychology, and the logical mode of the waking mind, you won't be able to --- because you can't reach and program the unconscious mind that way. It takes music, symbolism, sex, hypnosis, wine and strange drugs, firelight and chanting, ritual and magic. Super-stimuli that reach past the conscious mind and neocortex, in and back to the primate and mammal and reptile brains curled up inside.

If you’re like me, then on some level you’ve decided to never really look too far into this. It works, and isn’t that enough? I don’t need to question this. If I find out it’s all BS, then it won’t work any more. Belief is a tool and I must preserve my belief! 

(A quick warning: I’ve been sucked into the rationalitst cult, and the rest of this post will be heavily drawing from that. If you haven’t read anything from there yet, this will all seem very new. Read the links.)

First off, let me shatter that one for you. Read “Belief in Belief” and “Belief in Self-Deception.” Actually go read them, they’re quite useful. If you find yourself feeling strongly averse to going and reading them, GO RIGHT NOW.

Do I believe that I can influence a coin to flip heads 60% of the time through sigils and rituals and calling down the gods? Not really, no. But I make sure I avoid my belief’s weak points in order to maintain it.

So, how do you extricate yourself from this mess? 

Step 1: realize things don’t have to be real to be useful. 

Step 2: recognize there are things beyond what is normal. 

Step 3: try pivoting to a different understanding, in a mental sandbox.

Step 4: notice the world of story is our world, and manipulating it requires entering it. Maintain slack in the web and experience story from the inside.

Step 5: Just Do It

Hopefully you have a better idea of how it all hangs together. If you didn’t read the links, please do, they’re the meat of this post. All I’m doing is stringing them together.

#magick #witchcraft

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So, I live in a household of magicians from various paths.

My landlord holds his focus in science (he used to work for NASA and Lockheed Martin) and is currently building psychic machines, specifically a plastic ball that works kinda like “Bop It” for witches. Don’t ask me how they work yet because the mathematical knowledge it takes to explain how is WAY above my abilities to understand or articulate. But a lot of the times I watch my landlord stare and argue late into the night with his whiteboard of math equations.

My partner is a sadboi wave producer on Soundcloud. They take streams of channeled information and weave them into spells constructed within the beat of their music. They recently began working on a Red Versus Blue-inspired track that expresses the ideas of a spiritual forge and have been testing out different clanking metal sounds. Very Hephaestus-y. If you’re interested in listening to their work, check out the artist “Mnemosyne”!

My room mate practices the art of shapeshifting and kinda has her own working paradigm going on. She is an active part of the magician group: DKMU (Domus Khaotica Marauder Underground) whose manifesto it is to reawaken tangible magic in the world. DKMU calls it the “assault on reality”. Personally, I dont care for the term but I do agree with it’s overall goal. However, my household and I believe reality is already pretty magical and surreal…it’s just a matter of bringing to visible awareness/coaxing it to the surface. To the person who recently suggested DKMU to me during the May 15th ritual event, surprise surprise! It was DKMU all along!

Which brings me to the topic of this post: last night we went “glamourbombing”.

What is “glamourbombing”? Basically you hide magickal objects, spell instructions, weird messages, or empowered sigils around your city or town for people to find. When a person finds it, it creates a circumstance where said person is approached by magic, and given an invitation to participate in it by virtue of finding it. It’s basically the equivalent of hiding Hogwarts letters all around. We hide them well enough to where a person has to be just a little curious about their physical surroundings to come upon them-so by virtue of that curiousity, the invitation was meant for them.

My room mate and I hit up a bunch of public parks last night and began hiding these little glass beads with sigils (the LS sigil which, in the DKMU paradigm, helps initiate seekers into finding their own path to magic) and red-letter invitations all around. There was this one park we found that had a particularly spooky vibe. Another park had thriving patches of flowering white clover all around and I could SENSE the Fey activity there! I gotta go back there some time soon.

We finished our job somewhere around 3 a.m. and made it back to the house where I passed out soon afterwards. But I woke up this morning feeling a little happier than yesterday musing over how many people might find those sigilized beads and letters and be inspired, even just a little, to opening up their intuition or doing their first spell…

Maybe through these tiny acts, the world can be a more magickal place to live in.

#this is great!!!

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Rituals sure are fun :)

This was a riff on the destructive ritual from the satanic bible, as a vehicle for catharsis and expelling the hatred and need for justice I felt. The main circle is of my own design, the other two are from the lesser key of solomon and are just there for the imagery/aesthetics. Also, since I didn’t have a physical satanic bible, I just used my copy of the Principia and called down Eris as well. I used some ideas that I think are pretty novel with regard to sigil making and wand-making as a spell.

I can do a full writeup if anyone is interested.

#chaos magick #dkmu #linking sigil #satanism #sigil magic #magick #chaote #occult #witchcraft

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Workings with Ellis

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Photos from tonight’s ritual. This was a ward activating/protection ritual. I use it to activate the wards I place in and around my home. The design is mine, but it utilizes some of the “syntax” of alchemy circles, along with my alphabet symbols and phrasing. 

Each circle represents a step in the process, with the center one being the final threshold and within that is the ward symbol. The nodes are the gateways between steps (salt and candles on corresponding nodes), with lines being pathways. Around each circle the instructions are written for the step. At the end of the ritual I placed my divination tools in the center so they could also benefit from it. Afterwards I left the candles to burn out completely and erased everything for banishment.

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This photo was taken last Friday (23/03/18) in Poland during the “Black Friday” protest against further restricting the access to abortion.

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I’m making this my new header

I resisted but I seriously can’t find any excuse not to make this my header

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What the news media thinks happens in a satanic ritual: Blood drinking, bestiality, human sacrifice!

What actually happens: Several goths flip off a Bible, then have a beer.

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I guess my luck & money servitor really liked that dollar coin my husband got at the gas station during the lunar eclipse.

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[The Red Mage] Some really old work. Me messing around with symbolic language.

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When you’re all about that 3 a.m. chanting during a particular astrological alignment but also fuck with practical kaballah, alchemic circles, and chaos magick life.

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