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lookism dump nyehehe

#jaeseok #jaeyeol with his blazer velcroed to his shirt is peak design hes beauty hes grace hell kick you in the face

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I LOST MY FEAR OF FALLING

CHAPTER 14: because if you were here, i'd never have to fear...

Fandom: 외모지상주의 | Lookism

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Relationships: Hong Jae Yeol | Jay & Park Hyung Suk | Daniel, Minor or Background Relationship(s)

Characters: Hong Jae Yeol | Jay, Park Hyung Suk | Daniel, Hong Jae Hye | Joy, Lee Jin Sung | Zack, Lee Eun Tae | Vasco, Choi Soo Jung | Crystal, Park Ha Neul | Zoe, Kim Mi Jin | Mira

Additional Tags: Character Study, Relationship Study, Pre-Relationship, Canon-Typical Violence, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Implied/Referenced Homophobia, Canon Compliant, Angst, Drama, Hurt/Comfort, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, It Gets Worse, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Additional Warnings In Author's Note, POV Hong Jae Yeol | Jay, Spoilers for Lookism

CHAPTER 14: BECAUSE IF YOU WERE HERE, I'D NEVER HAVE TO FEAR...

Summary:

“Why are you looking at me? Do I look like a girlfriend to you? Jaeyeol signs, utterly confused.”

#lookism webtoon #lookism fic #ao3 fanfic #hong jaeyeol #jay hong #daniel park #park hyungseok #jaeseok #fanfic update #international sunrise presents: i lost my fear of falling #IT'S BEEN FOREVER SINCE THE LAST UPDATE #in my defense i forgor #anyways here have like 15k words in a single chapter see you next month maybe

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Jar of Intentions: Updates!

Thanks to the support I've received, all of my bills through the month of March will be covered!! I can't thank you enough for making that possible, truly.

I've got another Ko-fi update talking about everything, but here's the quick rundown on the accessibility/quality of life items I'm hoping to get my hands on soon:

A u-shaped pregnancy pillow, currently on sale for $29.98 (usually over $60, no clue how long it'll be on sale), which will hopefully take some stress off my lower back, knees, and hips while I'm sleeping (hypermobile gang where we at)

A shower stool, for $29.99, because standing for an extended period of time isn't always easy, nor is balancing for cleaning your legs and feet (I still do it because I refuse to be That White Guy, but damn does it take a lot of physical spoons)

3 styles of pen grips, which are altogether around $35. I've asked others with joint issues and hypermobility what works for them, and I'd really like to be able to find out what works for me! I'm an artist, and I process info by writing it down, and both of these things are becoming a very painful experience as of late.

Buy me a coffee if you'd like/can, reblog if that's easier, and thanks for. Being cool people who help other people. [so much genuine gratitude in that but my autistic ass cannot verbalize it well]

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are u ok kid?

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I LOST MY FEAR OF FALLING

CHAPTER 13: ... will you carry me to the end?

Fandom: 외모지상주의 | Lookism

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Relationships: Hong Jae Yeol | Jay & Park Hyung Suk | Daniel, Minor or Background Relationship(s)

Characters: Hong Jae Yeol | Jay, Park Hyung Suk | Daniel, Hong Jae Hye | Joy, Lee Jin Sung | Zack, Lee Eun Tae | Vasco, Choi Soo Jung | Crystal, Park Ha Neul | Zoe, Kim Mi Jin | Mira

Additional Tags: Character Study, Relationship Study, Pre-Relationship, Canon-Typical Violence, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Implied/Referenced Homophobia, Canon Compliant, Angst, Drama, Hurt/Comfort, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, It Gets Worse, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Additional Warnings In Author's Note, POV Hong Jae Yeol | Jay, Spoilers for Lookism

CHAPTER 13: ... WILL YOU CARRY ME TO THE END?

Summary:

“Jaeyeol oversleeps, skips breakfast because his stomach feels funny, makes the executive choice to shower after school and rushes to the car without putting on his tie or his cologne. He almost forgets about his homework and most definitely forgets to put in a pair of matching socks.”

#lookism #lookism webtoon #lookism fic #ao3 fanfic #hong jaeyeol #jay hong #park hyungseok #daniel park #jaeseok #fanfic update #international sunrise presents: i lost my fear of falling #WE GOT 1K HITS WOOO #im not actually sure what that means but i like big numbers! #the document for this fanfic is just shy of 90k words already and we're not even halfway there #i should eventually update the tags to slow burn...

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I LOST MY FEAR OF FALLING

CHAPTER 12: when the searchlights find us drinking by the mausoleum doors...

Fandom: 외모지상주의 | Lookism

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Relationships: Hong Jae Yeol | Jay & Park Hyung Suk | Daniel, Minor or Background Relationship(s)

Characters: Hong Jae Yeol | Jay, Park Hyung Suk | Daniel, Hong Jae Hye | Joy, Lee Jin Sung | Zack, Lee Eun Tae | Vasco, Choi Soo Jung | Crystal, Park Ha Neul | Zoe, Kim Mi Jin | Mira

Additional Tags: Character Study, Relationship Study, Pre-Relationship, Canon-Typical Violence, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Implied/Referenced Homophobia, Canon Compliant, Angst, Drama, Hurt/Comfort, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, It Gets Worse, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Additional Warnings In Author's Note, POV Hong Jae Yeol | Jay, Spoilers for Lookism

CHAPTER 12: WHEN THE SEARCHLIGHTS FIND US DRINKING BY THE MAUSOLEUM DOORS...

Summary:

“But if his calculations are correct... Then this might hurt a little bit.”

#lookism #lookism spoilers #lookism webtoon #lookism fic #hong jaeyeol #park hyungseok #daniel park #jay hong #jaeseok #ao3 fanfic #fanfic update #I LIIIIIIVEEEEEEEEE #and i have developed a strong distaste towards travelling in a bus #seven days inside a bus does that to a bad bitch lemme tell ya #anyways heres the update hope you like it yes i know i updated last night technically but like i had no brain power to post the update here #for some reason #it makes sense in my brain you gotta trust me alright #international sunrise presents: i lost my fear of falling

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see, now this is more interesting. lookism spoilers below the cut.

imma be honest with you here chief I don't care about Vin Jin's backstory. i know i know it was a long time coming and a lot of people were waiting for it, i'm glad they're getting it! i'm just not interested in seeing the life and tales of two characters we know are currently dead, it feels like we're wasting time, the plot needs to move forward pleaseeee.

HOWEVER. The surprise b-plot of Charles Choi and this shaman having a feud over stolen land in Cheongliang? land that was stolen by none other than the Yamazaki, aka, Gun's clan, possibly during the japanese occupation? and the shaman and his family could be considered traitors to the country because they acquired that land through illegal means? shit like, those are real actual stakes. also, my gut tells me that the shaman might not be part of the picture anymore and that the land in cheongliang was key in building charles choi's empire, which would tie back with everyone looking for a window to bring him down.

sign me the FUCK up that's far more interesting than sob backstory nº347

#lookism spoilers #also i have this feeling that it'll be revealed that vin jin didn't actually kill anybody but was framed and he took the blame #possibly because if he didnt something far worse would happen

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I LOST MY FEAR OF FALLING

CHAPTER 11/? : we are so far from you...

Fandom: 외모지상주의 | Lookism

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Relationships: Hong Jae Yeol | Jay & Park Hyung Suk | Daniel, Minor or Background Relationship(s)

Characters: Hong Jae Yeol | Jay, Park Hyung Suk | Daniel, Hong Jae Hye | Joy, Lee Jin Sung | Zack, Lee Eun Tae | Vasco

Additional Tags: Character Study, Relationship Study, Pre-Relationship, Canon-Typical Violence, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Implied/Referenced Homophobia, Canon Compliant, Angst, Drama, Hurt/Comfort, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, It Gets Worse, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Additional Warnings In Author's Note, POV Hong Jae Yeol | Jay, Spoilers for Lookism

CHAPTER 11: WE ARE, SO FAR FROM YOU...

Summary:

“Well, Jaeyeol is good looking, smells like old money and doesn’t need help from Haneul to do his homework, so I definitely wouldn’t mind if people thought we were dating.”

#lookism #lookism fic #ao3 fanfic #hong jaeyeol #jay hong #park hyungseok #daniel park #jaeseok #lookism webtoon #fanfiction #fanfic update #international sunrise presents: i lost my fear of falling #i disappeared for a month???? no i didnt what are you talking about #anyways here have this before i move out again and become unavailable for another month #adulting is exhausting and so is writing fanfiction #hey did i tell you guys that i watched the live action it was so funny i liked it a lot

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if i had a nickel for every time a cult or cult-adjacent-situation has found its way into lookism i dont know how many nickels i would have but i would use all of them and then some to stop ptj from writing any more cult related arcs. just stop. get a new script.

#lookism spoilers #my man stop with the cults if you'll just use them for shock value #at this point if someone came and told me that he actually used a ghostwriter for the good arcs of lookism #i would believe it

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mild spoilers for lookism 480 below

me: i'm not that much into goo/gun. to be honest? i hate the two of them.

goo/gun chapter 480: "I dislike drinking. I only did it because it was with you."

me: so have you heard of this thing called "doomed by the narrative and also we'll split ways because the author fucking hates all of us" yeah its my favorite genre of relationship, anyways-

#lookism spoilers

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CHAPTER 10/? : and they'll clean up your looks with all the lies in the books...

Fandom: 외모지상주의 | Lookism

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Relationships: Hong Jae Yeol | Jay & Park Hyung Suk | Daniel, Minor or Background Relationship(s)

Characters: Hong Jae Yeol | Jay, Park Hyung Suk | Daniel, Hong Jae Hye | Joy, Lee Jin Sung | Zack, Lee Eun Tae | Vasco

Additional Tags: Character Study, Relationship Study, Pre-Relationship, Canon-Typical Violence, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Implied/Referenced Homophobia, Canon Compliant, Angst, Drama, Hurt/Comfort, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, It Gets Worse, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Additional Warnings In Author's Note, POV Hong Jae Yeol | Jay, Spoilers for Lookism

CHAPTER 10: AND THEY'LL CLEAN UP YOUR LOOKS WITH ALL THE LIES IN THE BOOKS...

Summary:

Love can't make you braver. It most definitely makes you stupid, though.

#lookism #lookism webtoon #lookism fic #ao3 fanfic #fanfic update #fanfiction #hong jaeyeol #jay hong #park hyungseok #daniel park #jaeseok #international sunrise presents: i lost my fear of falling #a fluffy one for the team!

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I LOST MY FEAR OF FALLING

CHAPTER 9/? : but i won't stop lying, and if you want, i'll keep on crying...

Fandom: 외모지상주의 | Lookism

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Relationships: Hong Jae Yeol | Jay & Park Hyung Suk | Daniel, Minor or Background Relationship(s)

Characters: Hong Jae Yeol | Jay, Park Hyung Suk | Daniel, Hong Jae Hye | Joy, Lee Jin Sung | Zack, Lee Eun Tae | Vasco

Additional Tags: Character Study, Relationship Study, Pre-Relationship, Canon-Typical Violence, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Implied/Referenced Homophobia, Canon Compliant, Angst, Drama, Hurt/Comfort, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, It Gets Worse, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Additional Warnings In Author's Note, POV Hong Jae Yeol | Jay, Spoilers for Lookism

CHAPTER 9: BUT I WON'T STOP LYING, AND IF YOU WANT, I'LL KEEP ON CRYING...

Summary:

Hyungseok brings out a man he didn’t even know existed within him. One that laughs at stupid, cheesy jokes and likes the convenience store, hundred won ramyeon.

#lookism #lookism webtoon #lookism fic #hong jaeyeol #jay hong #park hyungseok #daniel park #jaeseok #ao3 fanfic #international-sunrise presents: i lost my fear of falling #fanfic update #fanfiction #right so do you all remember when i said daily updates #yeah so i dont believe in curses and the like but i think the ao3 fanfic writer curse might just be a thing #a thing that is sorta real #anyways here's the update its a bit of a big boi to make up for the wait #this is my “hyungseok as jaeyeol's hyung” propaganda btw

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CHAPTER 8/? : if you wanna follow something, give me a better cause to lead...

Fandom: 외모지상주의 | Lookism

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Relationships: Hong Jae Yeol | Jay & Park Hyung Suk | Daniel, Minor or Background Relationship(s)

Characters: Hong Jae Yeol | Jay, Park Hyung Suk | Daniel, Hong Jae Hye | Joy, Lee Jin Sung | Zack, Lee Eun Tae | Vasco

Additional Tags: Character Study, Relationship Study, Pre-Relationship, Canon-Typical Violence, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Implied/Referenced Homophobia, Canon Compliant, Angst, Drama, Hurt/Comfort, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, It Gets Worse, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Additional Warnings In Author's Note, POV Hong Jae Yeol | Jay, Spoilers for Lookism

CHAPTER 8: IF YOU WANNA FOLLOW SOMETHING, GIVE ME A BETTER CAUSE TO LEAD...

Summary:

[17:09] You: first off rude [✓✓] You: second euntae loves the puppies and will b sad if i say no [✓✓] You: third bumjae will hex me smhow if i make euntae sad by sying no [✓✓]

#lookism #lookism webtoon #lookism fic #hong jaeyeol #jay hong #park hyungseok #daniel park #jaeseok #international-sunrise presents: i lost my fear of falling #ao3 fanfic #fanfic update #fanfiction #this update is the equivalent of the beach filler episode in an anime because all we have are sibling shenanigans and jaeyeol making friend #as we all deserve

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spoilers for lookism 474 below (n-n)9

listen. i tried. but i legitimately don't give one single flying FUCK about this kid.

so his entire family is made up of assholes, included himself but excluding the saint mother Theresa he's got for an older brother. i am legitimately more interested in how come yoojin has such a widespread network of informants at... age fifteen? it probably has something to do with charles choi, but to me personally figuring out exactly how is that yoojin managed to find all of the most fucked up little rich kids for his social experiment sounds bounds and leaps more interesting than yet another sad lookism backstory.

actually i think it would've been even more interesting if his family was like. normal. and yoojin somehow still convinced him to lock up his dad and murder his mom and turn his older brother into a fierce corpse meets frankenstein. you give me a sad, easily manipulable kid and throw him to the hands of The one character that somehow has read the script for everyone in this damn thing, and expect me to be swayed when this kid ends up being his lackey? lame, do it again and do it better. y'know what would've been more fucked up? if yoojin had been the one to set up the collapse, in order to kill (or incapacitate) the older brother and leave this kid vulnerable while simultaneously getting someone to experiment on. now that would've been fun. actually that's what i'll headcanon from now on.

that aside his "beauty is found in the unusual" is flawed since the beginning, but i am also used to antagonists with ankle-deep motivations. it's hilarious when you get the local crazy man to tell you to your face "man you're fucked up in the head aren't you" essentially. you don't have a candle in this funeral goo, you don't get to call anybody (except probably gun) a fucked up little meow meow.

now while i knew we simply wouldn't have anybody die in the hands of #1, i'm not so sure about tom lee chief. i still maintain that they're not going to get caught by this affiliate a-fucking-gain (the story! needs! to! move! forward!) but since we have to fill our dead man quota for this arc and tom lee decided to make a stellar appearance, i'm going to throw in a wild guess and say that goo will somehow mirror what happened to this kid's brother and sacrifice himself so that the rest can get out. that'll of course leave a fresh corpse/incapacitated man who's proeficient at killing at the hands of the first affiliate, who just so happened to lost their monster. how... convenient.

it would also set up the stage for a future gun/goo fight.

i appreciate the slightly more serious chapter but man am i getting bored of flat villains with a sob story.

i will admit it though. the idea that #1 slowly lost all of his memories and turned into a monster who would attack anybody, and still had the instinct to never harm his little brother, the very person who turned him into this monster, is kind of accidentally tragic. i hope the drugs wake him up with a total of zero memories and he also kills his own little brother before collapsing. if ptj wants to play fucked up games i am dialing it to eleven. i double dare him.

also not to get conspiratheorist but i still stand my ground on how lately there's been way too many "and it was the brother!" reveals.

#lookism spoilers #lookism theory #lookism 474 spoilers