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15:07 ✿ lee heeseung ⁝ 1.2k words

Heeseung stands at the gate of the school. his hands are tucked into his pockets as he shivers, his chin pushed into the deep warmth of his branded scarf and smoke comes out of his lips. It's freezing. Though the sun is out and it's shining painfully bright, casting shadows on everything, the weather is reaching below the positive range of temperature. But Heeseung waits.

Then when he hears the slightest bristle of sound coming from his right, he turns. And like a kid getting to enjoy his candy after dinner, Heeseung smiles the prettiest smile upon seeing you. He pulls his hands out of his expensive coat pocket and reaches one of it out to you.

In the gentlest way possible, Heeseung speaks, “You're here. Shall we go?”

His voice is void of annoyance or anger even though he waited for you for almost half an hour in this dying cold. He remains the sweet, patient him. When you don't walk towards him, he does it instead, then with no hesitation, pulls the scarf wrapped around his neck out and tugs it around you instead. “It's cold, you should be keeping warm,” he utters quietly, as if you don't aren't already. You don't fight him on it, and instead nod, grinning back grateful with tight lips.

Heeseung pinches your cheek gently, then slips his hands into yours, “Let's go.” He says, pulling you along with him. You find yourself doing so, as if it's natural to be there beside him and have your hands wrapped around his in the warmest way. Everything about Heeseung entrances you. You can't help going with the flow when it comes to him and you feel like you'd do anything he says.

You know you shouldn't, you know you can't, but you do it anyway.

“You're awfully quiet today,” he says.

“Am I?” You know you are, but you'll just play pretend for now.

“Mhm, everything okay?”

You nod, tightening your grip on his, forcing the best smile you can, “Of course. Just tired, y'know?” He nods. “But how was your day today? What'd you do?”

Heeseung ponders with a hum, then swiftly, he tugs you towards his side and lets go of your hand, then naturally, he swings an arm around your shoulder pulling you closer. “Not much, just the usual. But hey, my mom called me earlier at lunch.”

“Yeah? What'd she say?”

“She asked me to call you up for dinner tomorrow.”

That surprises you as you pull back in shock, “Me? Tomorrow? Your dad's okay with that?” Your reaction doesn't phase him at all, as he smoothly closes the gap and rests his head against yours. “Yeah, you. Tomorrow. And don't worry about my dad, I know he's mean and harsh, but we can simply ignore his presence.” He jokes with a laugh. You fake one in return.

You know you can't ignore him, especially with the way things had happened before, you know Heeseung's father absolutely despises you and your presence, but to Heeseung, what his father thinks doesn't and will never matter. And if this was some fairytale bullshit you'd agree but you can't — you can't be the reason Heeseung and his father are on bad terms.

“I'll tell my mom you'll be there. She'll be so happy, she loves you more than she loves me, I swear.” Heeseung says with a grin, “Come on, the bus is here.” You give a vague smile.

As usual, it's a pretty quiet ride, with the occasional pecks Heeseung gives against your hand in his. It feels warm now, and he is the reason for it. You fear the cold will get in between any time soon.

“Heeseung? Hey, man! It's been awhile, hasn't it?” An unfamiliar voice calls out. When you look up, it's a man with a wide smile, excited over bumping into your boyfriend on the bus. You glance over at the latter, and his eyes shine. "Jake! It's been awhile, yeah! How've you been?” Heeseung is giving off the same excitement, and it seems this Jake guy is an old friend of his.

Jake pats Heeseung's shoulder, “I've been good, bro. What about you?” He questions back, then with a gruff laugh, he continues, “Weird to see you on a bus, you used to have a driver to send you home everyday.” It's a harmless comment, something nostalgic for them to look back on, but when you look at your boyfriend, he's flushed red.

You wonder if he feels the same as you do.

“Nah man,” Heeseung brushes off the latter comment, “Just, you know, I've been good.”

“Oh that's nice. Well I would chat more, but this is my stop, so I gotta go. But let's catch up soon yeah?” Jake rushes off with a goodbye, and your eyes follow so until the bus continues its' journey then you look back at the man beside you. He's smiling to himself so you nudge him, “What's up?”

He shakes his head, like giddy, “Nothing. Just happy.”

You're not sure what he's talking about, but you chuckle, then you lean your head on his shoulder and shut your eyes. Whatever you want to say, you'll do it later.

It's as if time passes by in a blink, because the next thing you know, Heeseung taps you awake and tells you it's his stop and he needs to get off. He used to send you off to your house then route back to his place but after some time, you told him to just go back first, and he reluctantly agreed.

His stop comes in a few more seconds, but as he stands with his hand still linked with yours, you find yourself unable to let go. You don't know if you're ready, honestly. Heeseung giggles with tinted cheeks, “You're pretty clingy today. I think I like it a lot.” You wonder if he'll still like it when you tell him why later.

You follow him to the exit of the bus door, and he alights too quickly for your liking. He turns to face you on the outside, the door still open, and you know.

This. Is. It.

“Heeseung,” you begin softly. He hums, unknowing.

“I...”

There's not much time. It's now or never.

“Let's end this.” And then it's out. The door is beeping, it's going to close. Heeseung registers it a second slower as his smile drops and he goes, “What?”

The beep increases louder and faster and you push the words out of your mouth as the doors begin to come to a close.

“I'm breaking up with you.”

And then. Silence.

The door closes, and you're left on the bus in the chilly emptiness and Heeseung stands on the other side, still. He's looking at you, even as the bus drives off.

Your eyes burn as you drop into the nearest seat and then everything rushes out like a waterfall. You sob into your hands, glancing up for a moment to look behind, and you see Heeseung running. It's no use, he can't outrun a bus, but the look of desperation on his face completely shatters your heart into pieces you don't think can be pieced together ever again.

#kflixnet #k-labels #said i wasnt gonna write but here i am.#i luv this #what if.. full fic #lol! kidding #enhypen x y/n #enhypen x you #enhypen x reader #enhypen #enhypen heeseung #lee heeseung x you #lee heeseung x y/n #lee heesung x reader #heeseung x y/n #heeseung x reader #heeseung x you

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jaeminri · 11 days

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hii guys just wanted to come on here and say ive temporarily stopped writing. my third year in pre-u starts now and slowly im going to start going into production of films so i will have little to no time to write.

i'll mostly just be liking fics fhat i'll read in the next time but until then, see u guys soon :)

#bree !

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jaeminri · 2 months

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sunghoon as kento yamazaki

#STOP #THIS IS SO INSNAE #BOY WHAT #THIS IScfazyyy #LIKE OH MY GOD

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jaeminri · 2 months

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also. i LOVE dori like so fucking underrated akd for what. LIKE STOSJSKSK pls hes so good its insane

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jaeminri · 2 months

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came on here just to say.

imagine enha boys as w2e songs☹️

#bree !

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jaeminri · 2 months

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guys i feel so awful ☹️ first off my mind hasnt been it lately like, work has been crazy, and today i fell sick so when i went to work i was feeling so drowsy, then guess what ? I forgot it was my BEST FRIEND'S birthday.

my friend whom ive known for a decade. I forgot and I wven texted her the same morning but it didnt even process in my head that it was already 6 march. I didn't even realise march began. so i dodnf wish her until today 12am of 7 march.

i feel so fucking bad. what kind of friend am i to forget a friend's birthday? whom i practically see as family☹️

#bree !#sorry guys #i just feel really guilty #and all heavy hearted :(

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jaeminri · 2 months

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i hope it goes okay for you <3

stopp this is so sweet☹️ thank you anon, it turned out to be really fun<3

#asks !

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jaeminri · 2 months

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guys. im seeing w2e tomorrow. with this guy that i like. im so scared. What if i embarrass myself. what if someone shoves me n i fall????? what if he wants to go to the front but i dont. guys theres a reason why i dont go for standing pens. like fate tour. I HATE THE SHOVING AND ALL LIKE STOP IM SO SXARED

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jaeminri · 2 months

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hiii pls add me to ur tag list for "snap im in love" or even to all of ur works rly <33 ure good. and thx!! 🫶🏼

haylooooo sorry for the very late response but of course you can :) thank you for being interested in my works, this makes me so happy🥹

#asks !#w: snap! i'm in love

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jaeminri · 2 months

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omggg tell us how seeing enhypen goessss

HELLO IM SO SORRY FOR SEEING THIS SO LATE!! ive been very inactive :/

but! fate in sg was soooo fun!! even though my seat was fairly far but just seeing them made me so emotional🥹 i screamed so much my voice died i swear. they were soooo pretty and their voices oh my god☹️ i loved it sm!! i teared up at some point icl!!

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jaeminri · 2 months

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thank you so much😭 i was so scarwd cause this was different from my usual writing style but thank u for the compliment ☹️

00:26 ✿ park sunghoon ⁝ 0.5k words

sunghoon enjoys silence. he likes his peace, his alone time, his quiet time. he hates bustling crowds, chitters and chatters, social gatherings of which he knows barely a quarter of the people. he thinks loud is annoying.

but at some point, maybe he was annoying too.

with you, sunghoon felt like he could like all his dislikes. he could attend parties, talk to people whom he knew nothing about, weave through a sea of people on new years — he could do anything. for you, he would do anything.

because you were the exact opposite of him, sunghoon grew to love it all, because he loved you. he loves you.

he loves your overly bright personality, your wondrous eyes that shine, your tinted cheeks that lifted so much when you smiled that it crinkles at your eyes, your smile, gosh, your beaming smile every time you look up at him that he can't help smiling back at you. he loves your voice, how disastrously loud it is that he often gets embarrassed whenever you blurt something too loud in public he has to shush you. you would always giggle and apologize underneath your breath, snuggling into his chest in shyness.

sunghoon loves you.

he remembers vividly when he asked you to move in with him, and the way you just... laughed and embraced him your arms while nodding.

then it began. you started to fill up every corner of his apartment. it showed the first time when he came home looking for you, but you had been overseas for business. but for some odd reason, sunghoon could hear your cheerful laughter in the living room, as you cuddled up next to him on the couch whilst watching a movie.

then it went on when he walked into the kitchen and he imagined you teasingly bopping his nose with frosting and he chased you around the island whilst your words, accompanied with a million giggles, yelled insincere apologies.

he walked into your shared bedroom and he saw you on the bed, in dreamland, snoring away. and yeah, normally sunghoon cannot stand it, but he smiles fondly at the memory the first time he told you you snored and you could not stop whining for him to shut up.

in the bathroom, sunghoon envisioned you behind the shower curtains singing your heart away. you never seemed embarrassed about showing off your ridiculous singing, and he would join you all the time, even though his angelic vocals could never hold a ton to you.

you fill up every part of sunghoon's home and he hears it all the time.

he's heard it for so long, that now he hates silence. he needs to hear more of you, needs to see more of you. because you grew him out of his peacefulness.

and that's unfair, really, because you made him accustom to you and your presence, but you leave him all alone so cruelly and abruptly.

sunghoon think he doesn't enjoy silence anymore — not when he knows what's it like without.

#feedback !

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