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Visual Development from Mulan by Alex Nino

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Templar had an animation planned for the conclusion of the Onu-Koro chapter of MNOG, but they didn’t have time to finish it. This is my take on it, based on their storyboards!!

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It takes a steady hand to restring a Whistling Glaive

#halloween goals #also what if helmet physics

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Dorian, mirror and …. ugh, I don’t know what I’m doing.

#da:i #this compo #yet these marks like life-drawing #<3

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Kreia(darth Treia) and female Exile (not canon, just mine)

#holy sith #sw

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Gegenees, card illustration

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etchesonstones said: I really miss seeing your ghb on my dash. If you’re up for this request, could you draw the big boy?

if you don’t wake up on the last day of All Colors Week with a pounding hornache and a hangover the size of the empress’s ego you didn’t fuckin do it right

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Hey guys! As I promised about a month ago, here is an early draft of the first chapter of the Price of Magic.

For those just tuning in, the Price of Magic is a fantasy novel I’m working on featuring a world in which all magic is sourced from emotions, but when a spell is cast the emotions used to cast it are consumed forever. A mage could use their enjoyment of their favourite food to create enough food for a whole city, but ever after the thing they used to love would give them no pleasure at all. Most mages have pets, temporarily. Few mages have children.

You can find some shorts about the concept here!

First chapter is under the cut! Feedback is always welcome.

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#phi brooch on white cloak is paladin goals #\empty = {} containing no elements #reactions tagged: #'hairstyles are a good loophole' #'the look on his face even though you expected exactly this' #'so why is she fleeing her apprenticeship to - oh' #'oh'

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Chapters: 2/2 Fandom: Mass Effect Trilogy Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Nihlus Kryik/Female Shepard Characters: Female Shepard (Mass Effect), Skye Shepard, Nihlus Kryik Additional Tags: Colonist (Mass Effect), War Hero (Mass Effect), Paragade (Mass Effect), Xenophilia, Xenophobia, Character Study, Backstory, Porn, Interspecies Awkwardness, Interspecies Sex, fanfiction means never having to justify your fantasy alien dong choices, yet another pwp that turned into a meandering worldbuilding character exploration, literally the backstory of every shepard I have ever played for the past ten years, sparring is how turians flirt I don’t make the rules, really leaning into that xeno weirdness because what else is there, Canon Compliant

#perfectly plausibly meandering #alien birdsong yass #miscommunication begets all tragedy & hence its mere insignificance is beauty #fic rec

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Cruel. Print available on Curioos / Inprnt

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Do you still write? I've just read up to chapter 5 of tsg, which is brilliant and I don't know if you've abandoned it or smthing because it's incomplete which i mean is fine. But I do want to know if you write still because your work is brilliant and it just makes me FEEL things and also your blog seems to be kinda inactive so maybe you'll never see these, but it's worth a shot.

Thank you so much for your Extremely Nice Words, which mean a great deal to me – making people feel things with a capital FEE is honestly the best thing I can ever hope to achieve. I figured your message was an extremely good jumping-off-point to note:

1. I’m so grateful for everyone who reads my writing and gets something out of it, even if that writing is the Animorphs parody I wrote when I was eleven years old that solely makes fun of the X-Files movie, a cultural touchstone that has not aged well;

2. I haven’t abandoned my fannish writing, and though TSG may not appear in the same format as before (I’m so happy fandom lately has taken to posting “What Would’ve Happened” outlines) it ain’t dead;

3. There are links in my ABOUT page to all my current work, though I gotta update it with a couple of reprints coming out that are nice and accessible. I am partcularly fond of the Pseudopod podcast done of a horror short story I did a few years back, “The Magician’s Apprentice”, read by the absolutely incredible Louise Ratcliffe;

4. Lastly, the reason why I have been inactive is because I have spent every spare moment of my last year that I could finishing up an extremely large project. I can only reassure you that this has been the inactive silence before a garbage storm of such huge and rubbishy proportions that it will make people reverent. I have been creating a huge trash receptacle, packed full of refuse. If you have ever enjoyed my bin leavings before, I can only assure you that this debris tub* is FOR YOU.

* I wrote a novel.

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civilization game manual

written using a predictive text emulator

source: original sid meier’s civilization manual

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2007-2017 : SINK OR SWIM #29 - Hewkii (Characters / Toa Mahri)

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basic shit is best shit, that’s certainly not articulated enough if it requires even the slightest expertise

regarding the not-literally-true (but realer than real, because unfiltered reality is almost entirely banal communication and its breakdown):

the metamorphic (see Latour, i guess) describes juxtaposition of (non)human actants as a productive source (!) - that science accesses but can’t admit to

although design knows this too

(and it remains generationally hard to get one’s lives all aligned and correctly labelled for communication’s sake.)

edited 3wks after

okay I made a discovery (?) today: whatever weird shit you were edgy about in middle/high school, that characteristic/type your self-insert OCs had, has something to tell you about your state of mind in that era, and you should read up on it.

I was/am fascinated by concepts of madwomen, mystic scientists, nature witches, devouring ambitious men. In hindsight I can pick out the things in my life and education and social conditioning that each of those were a response to. 

Anyway today I got out a book called “Meeting the Madwoman” and in the intro the author was like “in literature and myth, female insanity is a reaction to the patriarchy.” Which I kind of knew, but it’s been six months of re-reading Wide Sargasso Sea and out-of-print psychology texts and cussing out Tennyson and re-listening to Emilie Autumn to actually put all of it together and be like “oh hey you were obsessed with ideas of insanity and drowning not just because you were mentally ill and nearly suicidal, but also, you felt that way because your culture was killing you.”

I’m sure this is basic shit to you guys who are more familiar with literary criticism and sociology and psychology and stuff, but I am teaching myself this stuff by reading at the library, it’s interesting and it’s been helpful for me wrt understanding myself.

#are scientists not mystics? #science is a press-ganged word like nature #sufi mystics + 'how forests think' anthropologists + evolutionary cyberneticists all care about similar things #science is about how big the world is #literal religious awe #aware this is a super specific thing to latch onto but tbh how else to address the monster-selves in my head? #e.g. #animal facts are a pure expression of scientific myth-making memetic commons #what do i want from serpent-daughters and #crow-soldiers and #rats that slip between places?

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choice argument untangles causation in a three-way social context split, sans rehashing. political roles downthread, to excerpt one of four (two irl-side, two fandom-side):

* Write meta. At the fandom & community level, I think that meta is one of the things that is the most underrated in this discussion. Meta is part of what helped me realize that what was depicted in Twilight - and therefore what had happened to me - was abuse. If you see abuse, or other problematic things, in fandom, I think putting together a well-structured argument for why you think that is one of the best tools available for education. (In the current fandom climate it might be necessary to put a disclaimer of “This isn’t meant as a condemnation of people who enjoy this media, but just a discussion of it” might be necessary. I don’t think that takes away from its power at all.)

I’ve debated for a while about sharing this, but I think it’s important, and, to be fair, plenty of antis have shared the stories of their abuse.

So:

I support people creating romantic content similar to my abuse, even though that content contributed to my abuse.

Let me explain. I was very, very into Twilight when I was around 14. A couple years later a girl called me her lamb, and used the romanticization of jealousy and danger from that novel to excuse things like cutting me, stealing my phone, and demanding my passwords. Among other things. This continued until the end of high school, and it ripped apart every significant relationship in my life without anyone really realizing what was happening.

It’s definitely true that I didn’t recognize jealousy as abuse instead of romance. It’s true that I didn’t recognize “I love you” and “you can’t love anyone but me” as contradictions, and a part of that mentality came from the media I consumed. And she sure as fuck sent me fic - even forced me to write fic - which echoed those values. On a very base level, it is easy to blame my abuse on that fiction, on the unhealthy ideas of romance it gave me. For several years after getting out, I did blame romance like Twilight. I got angry when people I loved enjoyed it, and I thought I was protecting them by demanding that they stop.

But I was wrong.

Let me go out another level.

First of all, I grew up in a deeply homophobic town. There were exactly no adults in my life that I could have even told that I was in a relationship with a girl, let alone that I thought something was wrong. Abuse thrives in silence.

Second of all, I’d been homeschooled most of my life, which meant I had zero education on healthy relationships. I had no context outside of romance novels and fan fiction, which no adults knew I was reading. My view of romance was shaped by media because there were no other sources even trying to compete.

Third of all - and maybe this is most important - writing that fanfic, while in that situation, gave me a voice to things that I couldn’t even admit I was feeling. I wrote fic where a human loved a vampire, but they were scared, they were so scared, it felt like having a gun to their head all the time. They were so scared even as they loved the vampire, and they wanted them, and they wanted to help, and they wanted to be better. (She didn’t like that fic.) It took years before I would call what I experienced abuse, or seek out resources for victims. But fiction gave me a voice right then, when I needed one most.

Media didn’t get me abused. A society which failed utterly at telling me what a healthy relationship looked like got me abused. Parents and teachers and authority figures who were wildly homophobic got me abused. Fiction contributed, but if it wasn’t Twilight, it would have been something else - hell, apparently she repeated the same pattern after me with 50 Shades, and then with Captain America (somehow). Because above all, my abuser got me abused. She used fiction as a tool, but it could have been anything. If I hadn’t read Twilight, it would have been Johnlock, or Drarry, or Russia/America. All those things had more than enough content which portrayed danger and jealousy as sexy.

Do I still read Twilight? Fuck no, it’s a huge trigger. But I’ve stopped blaming it for what happened, because it was never Twilight’s job to teach me about romance. Nor was it fandom’s job to tell me, “if someone actually terrifies you, that’s dangerous, even if it’s sexy. If you love someone but they’re hurting you, you need help, not to try to fix them.” What hurt me most wasn’t fiction; it was the silence from every other quarter.

Media isn’t education on healthy relationships. It can’t be, and it never will be. “Fan fiction made me think that this was ok” means that there were no voices in our lives that we trusted more than fanfiction telling us that it wasn’t okay.

There will always be media that abusers can twist to make it look like what they’re doing is romantic and okay. Always. The abuse is still their fault, and the inability to counter harmful messages is the silence of society’s fault.

I’ll leave you with this: after I got out, I continued reading fic that featured jealousy and possessiveness as something hot. Because I did think it was hot; I now just knew firsthand that it was a kink to only be indulged in controlled situations. Firsthand experience is the harshest teacher, but it does work.

I just tag my own fic that features jealousy and possessiveness as “#abusive behavior.” Because if there is another girl like me out there, being sent these fics by her abuser, stuck in a situation she doesn’t understand - well, if it wasn’t my fic, it’d be someone else’s. The kink’s going to keep on existing. But maybe she’ll see the tag and figure something out.

Fiction is a tool, and taking one tool away won’t stop an abuser, because fiction isn’t causing abuse. If it wasn’t fiction, it’d be something else.

Stop blaming fiction for the actions of a cruel person, and the silence of the people who should have been protecting you.

It hurts to lay the blame at the feet of those you love, but if we deny the problems we will never fix them.

Be safe. Be kind.

#substitution prevalent in rhetoric #abusers reroute to meet their goals #the artifact is not causative #the context of the artifact is a safety net #up with artifacts that broaden horizons

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illustration to “The two monsters”. This style is starting to feel kind of overused, but I need to keep them unified. :{

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i’ve never done anything wrong ever in my life

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