I feel so damn alone
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Remembering the day my father drove home from work early because he thought I would have tried to off myself (I was sleeping till noon and not answering calls/texts)
They knew and still know how I feel and what I do, but they gave up and just give me disappointed looks when they see my scars
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Having a "I need a hug" moment, but no one to hug me
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How am I supposed to be comfortable with my scars, if even my mom's ashamed of them.
I'm looking for a dress for graduation (it's going terribly obvi), and she sends me this:
(Absolutely not my style, and she knows that because I've shown her what kind of dresses I like)
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why do us ana’s want to look SICK?? like where does that want come from?? ~normal~ people don’t want to look sick? but for us, looking sicker & sicker is an achievement in our game? what’s that about
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🎀todays food is tomorrows body🎀
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Can't even describe the state I'm in
Cutting etc doesn't help
No matter what, I can't lose weight
I've never been this fat before
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I'm always lightheaded, and my vision is blurry (I feel like I'm about to pass out)
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I'm so overwhelmed with life right now
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I've been being a fucking pig!
Breaking my Fast for a week straight and not getting over 24h :,)
I thought about a new punishment:
If I eat before I plant to break my fast, I will HAVE TO puke it out.
I need to get to 55kg before June!
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"Lipstick on a pick"
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Every time I think there's hope for me to get clean after so many years, I so it again wtf
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Every little bit of motivation has left my body at this point
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My mom today:
I need your help with this, I can't do it alone I'm not strong enough. You know ... helped me many times and SHE IS WAY MORE DELICATE THAN YOU are...
She is way more delicate than you
New motivation
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The fact that I was doing better at school at the time is insane!!!
the feeling of wanting to isolate myself so i can get worse is needed rn!!!! i can’t stop myself i miss who i was at my worse
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The first cut was so deep (it is small though) that it wouldn't start bleeding for solid 30sec.
I literally blaked out for a few secs :,)
This one is going to leave an ugly scar for sure :,D
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I want to cut SO badly but school starts on Monday and I have PE, I HATE having to be all sneaky and shit
JUST LET ME CUT!!!
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