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i’ve been trying so hard to recover but i can’t stop weighing myself. i hit 131lbs/59 kg today and i got so excited

i need to start gaining so that i can be healthy by august but FUCK dude.

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my mom stood over me as i weighed myself and it said 132.6 and she begged me to eat something today and she knows i’m going to be near the cafeteria today so she sent me money and everything

i ended up getting a slice of pizza and a soda with some friends,,, i think i’m done for today

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I GOT A NOTIFICATION THAT ONE OF MY MUTUALS POSTED AND IT REFERRED TO THEM AS MY CRUSH???? THEYRE 16 LMFAOOOOOOOOOO

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Hi I’m so sick and tired of tumblr mudering 4n4 accs some of us need this. This is the only place I can talk ab my disorder without people ignoring me. Im neglected in my home life, and am not in a situation where I can help myself. My ED physically disables me but I can come on here and talk to people who care and understand me

If other mental disorders get to have a safe space on here why the fuck can’t we?

#i’ve been nuked twice #this is my safe space #i can’t talk to anyone about this #but i can here

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opened up to my mom about my body/weight/dysphoria issues today

she suggested that if losing weight only makes me more feminine looking but i don’t want to gain FAT, how about i start weight lifting again?

i do have marching band coming up and will most likely be wearing a lot of tank tops, and DEF shorts, so if i can work on my arms and legs and look really good by then, maybe i won’t mind eating more?

i like the idea in theory, but it’s just so scary to me. not only does gaining muscle = gaining weight = scale number goes up, but i don’t really have the stuff for a home gym and would need a membership. I have really bad social anxiety so that sounds like a nightmare, but my mom really wants me to get better and i love her more than anything

until then though, i just NEED to lose more. maybe i’ll start looking more masculine if i lose more weight? maybe my hip fat will get less and i won’t look as feminine? we’ll see.

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feeling like a winner ‼️😻

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YAAAAAAYAYAYAYAYA

WHEN I WOKE UP I WAS 135LBS/61KG BUT I JUST WEIGHED MYSELF AFTER ONLY HAVE ABOUT 500 CALS TODAY AND IM 133 LBS / 60KG

I WAS SO UPSET ABT BEING 135 WHEN I WOKE UP BUT IM BACK TO 133 / 60KG

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WHEN I WOKE UP I WAS 135LBS/61KG BUT I JUST WEIGHED MYSELF AFTER ONLY HAVE ABOUT 500 CALS TODAY AND IM 133 LBS / 60KG

I WAS SO UPSET ABT BEING 135 WHEN I WOKE UP BUT IM BACK TO 133 / 60KG

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went up to 135 :( i was so happy about the 133

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i'm looking for 20+ y/o people to follow or even become friends with! 🎀

please reblog this if you have an active EDBLR account as of: MAY 2024

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In case anyone else is here, I have something to say to you. If you've gotten off track, especially severely off track, please read! It's gonna be ok. Whether you gained a couple lbs or 10 or even more, that isn't going to stop you. All it can do is slow you down. You are stronger than you know, and it'll be ok. Just do your best, take it slow (or jump straight in if that's how you work) and you'll get back in time. I know how much it sucks to relose weight you've already lost, especially a significant amount, but it's possible and the only way to make progress is to start. So start!

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tapping on them has become a stim atp

i love feeling my collarbones

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my ask box is open asf for questions about medical transition and it’s affect on the weight/the body/3ds and stuff

(specifically when it comes to testosterone and stuff)

im almost 1000 days on T so i’d hope i’m considered experienced

#ana b0y #tw a4a #a4a diet #a4a motivation #boy ana #ed male #trans a4a #trans ed #a4a diary #a4a tips

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i know that i have a little bit of tummy because of my uterus but like FUCK dude that but of pudge makes me so insecure and dysphoric :/

no matter how many lbs i drop or how often i restrict it literally won’t go away unless i get it removed, which is like, expensive and scary

a uterus doesn’t really fit my vibe lollll

#you’d think that getting top surgery would make me less scared of surgery #not in the slightest #ana b0y #tw a4a #a4a diet #a4a motivation #boy ana #ed male #trans a4a #trans ed #a4a diary #a4a tips

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People with €ds who dont fit into the th1n$p0 beauty standard,,,,, ilysm

You are so valid if u

-got bad acne

-are hairy

-are poc

-are physically disabled

-not actually thin yet

-literally anything else you could be insecure about

I love yall so much and even if u haven reached your goal yet I promise you I think ur gorge ❤❤❤❤❤

#as a (proudly) hairy transmasc this makes me happy #i love my hairy tummy and happy trail #but not a lot of thspo has hairy ppl like me #so i just post my own /j

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"fatspo" and then its the most gorgeous woman youve ever seen in your entire fucking life

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i allowed myself to go a little over today because i just really needed it. I’m still eating way less than i should be (5’6 man, been eating <1300 cals on average, recommended is about 2200,) so i guess i thought it would be ok ig

idk now tho.