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My 3rd attempt to capture lightning. This storm was 30 km away from my location so I had to crop the photos.

[lesbianologist]

omg thank you so much! 🥹

November 2023 fanfiction recommendations

Whispers by @the-man-becky-lynch

Before we run out of time by @darkenedreaper

It's alright it's okay by @murdadixon

Bickering by @its-deputy-caleb

There's that smile by @bbygirlky18

Now stop moving darling by @02sdoll

Stolen moments by @allthetrek

I tried by @romanreignkisser

Miss something by @darling-i-read-it

Uninvited by @frost-queen

Kissing in the bathroom by @aalyssah

To be you by @heliads

Matchmaker by @the-man-becky-lynch

Hospital visit by @maggotonafaggot

Steal by @paperrretro

Robot by @peach-and-bugs

Bloodline's own angel by @darbyallinsskateboard

Different by @mrsdanirojas

Dress up by @thediaryofcrowmartin

It's alright by @darkenedreaper

Back kisses by @romanreignkisser

Childhood promises by @heliads

Soft kisses by @romanreignkisser

A disintegrating prayer by @lesbianologist

Here by @obisimpkenobi

Mess you up by @the-man-becky-lynch

A perfect world by @lost-gladiator

You're different by @bbygirlky18

That should be me by @ladieslovingladiesandfics

Flirting game by @fangirling-allday

Home with you by @the-man-becky-lynch

Starved knight by @canaidliafail

You're beautiful by @chubbyreaderchan

Gently by @fict1onallyobsessed

Bonfire by @stratossphere

Slow burn by @xthescarletbitch

Heartbeat by @the-man-becky-lynch

Break on through by @smartycvnt

Unlikely alliance by @lunarwritesthings

Baking and hot chocolate by @make-me-imagine

[lesbianologist]

i am so fucking happy. like… endlessly happy. i have the best girlfriend in the entire universe, the best friends, i have an okay job, and now i am learning how my body and brain works with regard to being autistic. it just… life could not get better than this, frankly.

#personal #lil check in #also a lil bit of a gloat for the ppl i know who stalk this blog to check in #hi! i can see you visiting my blog!

[lesbianologist]

PRIDE CELEBRATION 2023: FAVORITE COUPLES

AVA & SARA ♡ LEGENDS OF TOMORROW (2016-2022)

[lesbianologist]

[lesbianologist]

So things are a lot worse than I thought

I've been poor as fuck lately thanks to numerous factors, the primary one being that my old job sold us all out to a venture capital firm that announced the closure of the factory as SOON as we filed with the labor board for a union election. We all got laid off at the beginning of May. I started a new job recently, but my first paycheck won't come until two weeks from now, and even then it's not gonna be big since I had to delay starting work. My roommate was out of town for longer than planned due to a shooting (he wasn't hurt, thank god), and I had to take two days off to continue taking care of his pets and doing chores.

A few months ago I had to pay my rent with a credit card, now even that backup option is closed off to me.

I'm a broke af black transfem, I just spent my last $20 on bus fare so I can even GET to work and back. All I have is the $92 in savings, and I can't even spend it because overdraft fees will immediately swallow it up. I know everyone is going through it, but I feel like I'm going to vomit. I'm currently picking through my things to find what will be the best to sell, but if anyone can donate ANY amount of money I would be so so so thankful. I could even write you a little song if you'd like. I don't have enough money to even pay for immediate needs, let alone rent in a few weeks.

Just, anything you can spare. Please.

$app: $Uboathulhu

PyPl + Vnno: @ deadryn

[lesbianologist]

you know Michiru's a violin player because of how she plays Haruka like a fucking fiddle

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Good morning/afternoon/evening/whenever you’re reading this, I’m Sierra unclefather and I am still in a bad place. We have until august 15th to vacate our home and find somewhere else to go. Myself and my 2 children. We received a 90 day notice in may and the days are winding down and I really have no real direction or plan as I don’t have the funds to do anything. Like I stated in a previous post, I don’t have great credit and I only have a short amount of time to find us a new place to go. It feels like my only option is to try and make as much money as possible so I can put down a larger down payment on a new place. I am still paying rent and bills in our home and will have to do so until we leave. My paychecks at my job are helping with the bills but I have nothing extra to go toward leaving. And with the days counting down I don’t know what else to do. I am hoping I can find a place that will accept my credit. Even if I do that I need help with an application fee, security deposit, first months rent, etc. the point of this post is that I am trying to make as much money as possible so that I can move my family and have a place to live.

I sell advertising, spicy content (click here), bad drawings, tarot readings, etc. I have applied for government help, work from home jobs and all of that stuff it more than likely will not come before the time is up for us to leave. I apologize for having to use my platform for this, I just don’t really have an option right now and anything helps. I appreciate everything even if it’s just a share or some advice. Thank you guys a lot. Our cashapp and Venmo are unclefather

[lesbianologist]

“cool i finally organized all my art,

hey so just how much fanart did i do for danny phantom”

(FUCK this doesnt even count the stuff that i didnt save as a png, or the stuff i deleted, or the stuff that i drew on paper, or the stuff i never finished)

#capitalism drained you of energy and tries to monitize your enjoyment of your own art #rb from a pal ^

[lesbianologist]

[lesbianologist]

yes, big fan of all of the above, though, not dead things or bones. but everything else yesyesyes!

Any other autistics who love collecting things? I’ve collected things for as long as I’ve been able to pick stuff up off the ground. My collections include:

Seaglass

Shells

Trinkets

Crystals

Plush toys

Goose pottery

Clothes and shoes

Books

Notebooks

Rocks

Dead insects and specimens

Bones

Bottles and vials

Stickers

I’ll post some pictures of my hoard when I get home!

[lesbianologist]

in this order: social anxiety disorder, depression, gad, ocd, bpd, and bipolar. the worst was being misdiagnosed with bpd, hands down, due to the abuse and mistreatment.

late/self diagnosed autistics, reblog with what you were misdiagnosed with.

[lesbianologist]

(via @valentinesfrog)

that's not my mutual. that's my babygirl

#i simply need to know which one i am #thank you for your consideration #also for me they are: #lil beans #adversary (affectionate) #Parental Figure

[lesbianologist]

[lesbianologist]

that's not my mutual. that's my babygirl

[lesbianologist]

[lesbianologist]

lil memo to future me…. when people purge themselves out of your life: thank them. or rather, thank the universe. 🦋

i mean, obviously go to therapy because it will make you a better person (i encourage this to everyone) anyway. but sometimes (a lot of the time) that loss is necessary. why? it’s weeding negative and toxic people out of your life.

losing friends is a normalcy in life. we all lose friendships, especially if we don’t maintain them. it doesn’t mean you have some raging personality disorder, that you are a horrible person, that you’re a menace or monster, that you’ll never be loved, or that people will always leave, etc. those are lies you have been fed by people who do not care about you. your lengthy list of long-term friends do care about you. that is your evidence.

consider it a blessing that these people are just showing you who they are before they dip, ghost, cold shoulder, retort to you with venom in their replies, block you, etc. it’s just a showcase of their behaviour. the silent treatment, gaslighting your reactions, dismissing your feelings, insults, threats to end the friendship, etc. it’s all just a showcase for who they are.

and frankly it’s pushing you towards better people; people who have remained constant in your life. not only in presence, but in their actions, their words, and how they uplift you and support you. it’s pushing you to let go of old toxic behaviours in yourself (especially including the ones in recognizing how you deserve to be treated by others). it’s pushing you to finally not let yourself be walked over by people or treated like you’re nothing (or less than) because a few other people assumed (and decided) that they knew who you were from conversations through texts, DMs, and chat groups.

you didn’t “ruin” anything.

you’ll log back onto this silly little website and it won’t matter anymore. you’ll notice things have changed and you’ll laugh because you’re in a healthy relationship for the first time ever. you’ll smile because she puts an effort, she listens, she communicates, and she genuinely wants to be around you, because of who you are. you’ll smile and laugh because you have friends that love you and adore you, and could not imagine their lives without you, and you’ll remember that not everything matters online. you’ll remember that you matter to people. that you have worth.

you’ll log online (now) and realize that it was all worth it. all of that loss was necessary for the growth you’re experiencing. so keep going and keep growing, little butterfly. spread those brilliant, bright, vibrant wings.

#personal #update #butterfly effect