Mal | 21 | it/they/he/she | lesbianCurrent hyperfixation: AmphibiaI draw and write sometimes tags are #mal arts and #mal writesPlease send me asks, i crave human attentionEggMonstor on AO3
i would've fucked so hard as a court jester in ye olde i would've jangled my balls and done a little dance and sang my silly tunes i'd be so good at my job. alas i have to be on tumblr instead which is like a poor imitation of it
Call Me The One Chapter 10: The Three Gems Part 2: Persistence
Summary: A little pink frog meets a little pink gem
Hiiiiii guys. The long awaited Strength chapter is finally here!!!! I’m FINE.
I can FINALLY share the very first concept CMTO art I ever made back in December 2021! You have no fucking idea how hard it was to keep this one under lock and key. It’s no longer 100% accurate to the chapter, but it’s so close I’m sharing it anyway
Along with that I have another funky lil art I made the other day,
And because of the huge gap between this chapter and all the content I’ve made for it, I’m also adding as much of the other old art of this chapter as I can to this post for your viewing pleasure :3
As strength chapter’s release date draws near i have been forced to reckon with the contents of the chapter, all that I was able to include and all that I wasn’t able to include, and just how much that affects me mentally. There are many, many sections that get glossed over due to the length of the chapter, but despite how fast they come and go, I sit there in those scenes as if they had lasted forever. Strength and Leif have lived rent-free in my head for years now, and it feels like I know them like the back of my hand. It feels like I’m doing them a disservice by not including everything. It feels like I can hear their cries for help and their prolonged suffering in every single moment that passes by in mere sentences. What I have to sit with is the fact that it’s not just me that neglects pieces of their story—but the other characters too. The very narrative itself neglects them, and that’s all by design. They were meant to suffer alone and largely unheard. They were meant to be pushed aside and covered up like an ugly blight on an otherwise reasonable and sensible story. There are things that I know about these characters that will never see the light of day. There are words of dialogue I can hear so clearly in my head that will never be put onto paper. Somehow, I have to live with it. I have to live with the choices I’ve made just as Leif and Strength have to live with theirs. I have to love them so deeply that it’s painful when I end their story so abruptly. I have to remind myself that this story is not perfect, I am not perfect, and they are not perfect. The only joy and solace I can find in them is knowing that they exist in my head, that I know them, and that their presence will carry me forward until the very last word I ever write.
Forgot to post these little goobers with chapter 9 so here they are now, and while I’m at it, here’s a doodle dump for my tumblr peeps who are starved for content
I may or may not have been brainrotting over the gems because of the upcoming Strength chapter shhhhh
Plus a little doodle of Pozole, who you will also meet in Strength chapter. He appears in exactly 2 scenes and will never appear again but i love him so much