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anyway lately i've been binging d.ead bo.y det.ective.s and let me tell you being quirky, queer and deal with murders is absolutely right up pudding's alley ghgj

#ooc.

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inbox call: you like this post and i will leave 2-3 prompts for you to choose and reply! goes without saying never feel like you have to answer to all of them!

#inbox call.

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“ someone told me there's no such things as bad thoughts, only your actions talk. ” (from katakuri)

something has shifted, that much pudding is already aware of. what? could be a few things, her life being all about the strangest twists and turns after her failed wedding. even that specific moment in time feels so far now, so foreign to person that seem to have come out of the golden cage. whether it's a good thing or not she is not sure. endless maze of thoughts ends when a shadows casts over her, sunlight momentarily disappearing until her brother finally takes a seat by her side.

SOMEONE TOLD ME THERE'S NO SUCH THINGS AS BAD THOUGHTS, ONLY YOUR ACTIONS TALK. statement feels so sudden if not for the fact that pudding knows exactly what katakuri is referring to. mother. mind tells her she should be more aggravated about the woman's death, yet somewhere in her heart a weight has lifted in a way pudding never expected could happen. it feels wrong, even now that her sight is clearer and can recognise that she didn't deserve any of what big mom put her through. none of her siblings deserved it either.

"it is a bad thought though," she counters after a while, eyes burning with tears. she should be mad at those who lead her mother to certain death. but they're friends of the straw hats so how bad can they actually be? endless doubts of own opinions will be her death one of these days. "but it needs to be different this time." they surely can't go on they way they have so far. "if actions talk then we have to be better," mother's desires where in the right place, her execution not so much. "right the wrongs once and for all."

#d3vilfruit #what if i offer you angst

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*leaping from the gallows and levitating down the street* alright let's try to get something done over here

#you know the gist friends i always need some time away gjhj #ooc.

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taylor swift lyrics, the tortured poets department edition, part two

guilty as sin?

▸ my boredom's bone-deep. ▸ am i allowed to cry? ▸ i'm seeing visions, am i bad? or mad? or wise? ▸ one slip and i'm falling back into the hedge maze. ▸ oh, what a way to die. ▸ i keep recalling things we never did. ▸ how i long for our trysts. ▸ how can i be guilty as sin? ▸ i keep these longings locked inside a vault. ▸ someone told me there's no such things as bad thoughts, only your actions talk. ▸ they're gonna crucify me anway. ▸ what if they way you hold me is actually what's holy? ▸ i choose you and me religiously.

who's afraid of little old me?

▸ the "who's who?`" of "who's that?" is poised for the attack. ▸ you don't get to tell me about 'sad'. ▸ if you wanted me dead, you should've just said. nothing makes me feel more alive. ▸ who's afraid of little old me? you should be. ▸ the scandal was contained, the bullet had just grazed. ▸ at all costs, keep your good name. ▸ you don't get to tell me you feel bad. ▸ is it a wonder i broke? ▸ let's hear one more joke. then we could all just laugh until i cry. ▸ i was tame, i was gentle till the circus life made me mean. ▸ they say they didn't do it to hurt me but what if they did? ▸ i want to snarl and show you just how disturbed this has made me. ▸ you wouldn't last an hour in the asylum where they raised me. ▸ isn't that what they all said? that i'm fearsome and i'm wretched and i'm wrong. ▸ you lured me and you hurt me and you taught me. ▸ you caged me and then you called me crazy. ▸ i am what i am 'cause you trained me.

i can fix him (no really i can)

▸ the jokes that [you/they] told across the bar were revolting and far too loud. ▸ they shake their heads, saying "god help [them]" when i tell 'em you're the one. ▸ i can fix him, no really i can. and only i can. ▸ i could see it from a mile away. ▸ you had a halo of the highest grade, you just hadn't met met yet. ▸ come close, i'll show you heaven if you'll be an angel all night. ▸ trust me, i can handle me a dangerous [man/woman].

loml

▸ we were just kids, babe. ▸ i don't mind, it takes time. ▸ i thought i was better safe than starry-eyed. ▸ i felt aglow like this. never before and never since. ▸ you and i went from one kiss to getting married. ▸ you said i'm the love of your life about a million times. ▸ a conman sells a fool a get-love-quick scheme. ▸ i felt a hole like this never before and ever since. ▸ what we thought was for all time was momentary. ▸ i wish i could un-recall how we almost had it all. ▸ the coward claimed he was a lion. ▸ i'll still see it until i die. you're the loss of my life.

i can do it with a broken heart

▸ i can show you lies. ▸ i'm a real tough kid, i can handle my shit. ▸ they said 'you gotta fake it 'til you make it' and i did. ▸ you said you'd love me all your life but that life was too short. ▸ i can do it with a broken heart. ▸ i'm so depressed, i act like it's my birthday every day. ▸ i cry a lot but i am so productive, it's an art. ▸ you know you're good when you can even do it with a broken heart. ▸ i can hold my breath, i've been doing it since [you/they] left. ▸ i'm miserable and nobody even knows!

the smallest man who ever lived

▸ was any of it true? ▸ now you know what it feels like. ▸ i don't miss what we had. ▸ in public, you showed me off then sank in stoned oblivion. ▸ you didn't measure up in any measure of a man. ▸ were you sent by someone who wanted me dead? ▸ good riddance 'cause it wasn't sexy once it wasn't forbidden. ▸ i would've died for your sins. instead i just died inside. ▸ in plain sight you hid but you are what you did. ▸ i'll forget you but i'll never forgive.

the alchemy

▸ this happens once every few lifetimes. ▸ these chemicals hit me like white wine. ▸ what if i told you i'm back? ▸ the hospital was a drag. worst sleep i ever had. ▸ ditch the clowns, get the crown. ▸ what if i told you we're cool? ▸ honestly, who are we to fight the alchemy? ▸ where's the trophy?

clara bow

▸ all your life, did you know you'd be picked like a rose? ▸ i'm not trying to exaggerate but i think i might die. ▸ this town is fake but you're the real thing. ▸ take the glory, give everything. ▸ promise to be dazzling. ▸ you're the new god we're worshipping. ▸ beauty is a beast that roars down on all fours, demanding more. ▸ it's hell on earth to be heavenly. ▸ them's the breaks, they don't come gently.

#askbox.

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#music. #the harmonies toward the end make me feral honestly #i wish they could put this song in live action w.ci at some point tho i feel like ot would be too expensive lol #Spotify

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"you wouldn't last an hour in the asylum where they raised me"

#crack. #tswift wrote this song for miss charlotte pudding clearly

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#music. #omg it really is pudding i'm on the floor #Spotify

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mark my words, who's afraid of little old me? by tswift is going to be so pudding coded 😩

#hello friends!

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HOW DID I GO FROM GROWING UP TO BREAKING DOWN? // ON GROWING UP

Mother Mother Mamma Told Me // unknown // 어른들은 몰라요 Young Adult Matters (2021) dir. Hwan Lee // Kristin Chang Churching // unknown // Salman Rushdie East, West // Lorde Ribs // Cameron Awkward-Rich The Child Formerly Known As _____ // Lorde // unknown // Leanna Firestone Least Favorite Only Child // リリイ・シュシュのすべて All About Lily Chou-Chou (2001) dir. Shunji Iwai // Richard Siken Crush // unknown // Hala Alyan I'm Not Speaking First

#study.

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you ever feel like you were born with something rotten inside you and if people get close enough they’re gonna find out

#study.

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i made it, congratulations everyone and happy boop day

i want the black cat paw but theres no way ill get to 1000 boops in a day ghgj

#ooc.

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THE BOOP-O-METER

#hi 😂

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#why is this modern verse pudding 💀😂

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#study.

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i'm actually very normal if you ignore everything i have ever said and done

#study.

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love hides in questions, you cannot ask a thing without giving yourself away. how was your day? (i hope it was good) when can i see you again? (i pray it's soon) do you feel safe with me? (i feel safe with you) what is your favorite color? (i wish to enrobe you in all that makes you smile)

#study. #🤧