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EVEN IF THE WORLD IS AGAINST US CHAPTER 3

Kangin stared at the empty dressing room for Kagin around ten minutes trying his best to process what his brain had just seen he racked his head for other explanations of this outrageous thing. He had just witnessed one of his team mates stick their tongue down someone’s throat and not just anyone but a man an actual man and this wasn’t one of those moments where they acted gay for fan service, it was an actual kiss of love and affection, but it made no sense. There had to be another explanation for this outrageous thing.

FLASHBACK

“Hyu- “, Kangin was about to say, it had been a long day and when he saw Siwon come back without Yesung tagging behind him he decided to go and drag the older man himself because all he wanted to do was go home that was when he saw Yesung grab the groups youngest staff member and kiss him. His eyes doubled at the act of affection, did Yesung just kiss a guy “Bye Babe”, he heard Yesung say making him hide quickly so that Yesung couldn’t spot him and then watched as the two exited the room one after the other. He let out a breath he didn’t know he was holding.

Kangin couldn’t keep his eyes of Yesung the whole car ride and entered the pitch-black dorm after everyone else after trying to sleep for about 30 minutes he decided to speak to after everyone else after trying to sleep for about 30 minutes he decided to speak to the strength of the group and went straight to the leader’s room. “Teuki Hyung”, he said make Leeteuk look up from the scheduling briefing for the next day. “Something wrong?”, asked Teuk. Kangin sat on the bed and looked up to the leaders’ gentle eyes. Leeteuk would believe him, would he? He took a deep breath and said “today I saw Yesung Hyung kiss a boy”, “What do you mean”, Teuki asked “I mean I saw him kiss Jin Hyun in an empty dressing room after the concert”, “Are u sure?”, Teuki asked “one hundred percent I was extremely shocked do you think this is something weird or am I just imaging things”. “No Kangin you are not but Kangin you cannot tell anyone about this Yesung will be thrown out and Jin Hyun will loose his job”. “You knew!”, screamed kangin “You knew his dirty secret how could you remain quite are you protecting that freak”, “He isn’t doing anything wrong love isn’t a crime”, “Love! You call that love he was making out with another man what kind of freak is he I get that it’s a trend now a days but- “, “seriously a trend”, Leeteuk said raising his voice to defend his bandmate. “You think that Yesung’s love is a trend”, “It’s going against everything nature, god”, “Don’t give me that bull crap” Leeteuk said shutting kangin up “it’s just love”. “well, he has got to stop he is bringing the whole damn group down”, “Oh really you’re one to talk did you think of the group when u drove drunk”, Teuk said without thinking and immediately regrated when he saw Kangin ‘s face drop “That was low Hyung”, “I’m sorry kangin I didn’t mean that”, “I know”, Kangin said “But we have worked to hard for Yesung to ruin us like this”, “It’s not Yesung’s fault Kangin please let it be”. He walked out of the room and into his room closing the door behind him. He took out his phone,” Hello mangaer-nim”,

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EVEN IF THE WORLD IS AGAINST US PART @

5 years ago

28-year-old Kim Jin Hyun walked up the stair of SM entertainment, he had just got the job of being super Junior's cinematographer and a part of the Super Junior staff. He had met all of his future colleagues at SJ label, he had yet to meet the world star kings of K pop. he nervously chewed his lip and stuffed his hand in his pockets before entering the meeting room where Super Junior were shooting the first few episodes of SJ returns season 1. The members were being themselves and goofing around when a little angel with label hair entered, Jin Hyun felt his heart stop and his knees grow weak. again, as expected Yesung hyung is wearing black Shindong said while Eunhyuk frowned and exaggerated a small “Hwah” which made him receive a few colourful swear words in return. But that didn’t matter to Jin Hyun all he could do was stare at the white-haired artist.

Jin Hyun had to force himself not to blush like crazy when Yesung's met his eyes and gave a huge smile. Oh, we have someone new here today Yesung said smiling at Jin Hyun, Jin hyun politely bowed and introduced himself, “oh your poor kid gets out of here as fast as you can if u ever get stuck with Yesung Hyung he won’t stop talking till you go crazy”, said Donghae which rewarded him with a slap at the back of his neck “Don’t listen to him”, Yesung said “It’s nice to have you here”.

“Oh, he could talk to me all day long and I wouldn’t mind”, Jin Hyun thought. The whole day all Jin Hyun could do was stare at the artist, He felt annoyed when the others teased him and felt his heart melt every time Yesung would smile or laugh, even during break he made sure he was the one who gave Yesung a bottle of water or the script and every time Yesung said thank you he had an over whelming urge to kiss and hug the man.

That night when he went home, he laid awake in bed reviewing the events of the day, he didn’t understand what he had felt. He had seen Super Junior on TV many times before and always had a special corner for Yesung’s voice, if he considered himself a Super Junior fan Yesung would definitely be his bias no doubt about that. maybe that was it he was just star struck nothing more, Yesung was a boy and no way in hell would he have a crush on a boy that was not normal and people who did have a crush on the same gender were mentally ill at least that’s what his parents had told him his entire life and he was okay not like them, it was just him being star struck. that was his last thought before he drifted to sleep. Deep down inside he knew this had happened before but, in a society, where it’s looked down upon it takes a while for you to admit it.

Yesung POV

Yesung couldn’t sleep again, it wasn’t something new it happened every night. He starved himself a couple days before an album jacket shoot which kept him awake at night. but this time it was something else he knew it; it couldn’t be hunger. Hunger would just make him stare at the celling thoughtlessly but today he was thinking, not about terrible things anti fans had said or how his team mates tease him but about a certain newbie. that boy was adorable Yesung said to himself he was fan struck today even if he denied being a Super Junior fan a million times. Yesung didn’t blame the boy he had seen many male fans hide their love for Super Junior because they were supposed to like only girl bands, he didn’t mind hopefully working with Super junior would get rid of those horrible thoughts from the boy’s mind, there was something special about the boy Yesung just didn’t know what.

Present

“Yesung someone is going to see us”, Jin Hyun complained as Yesung pulled him into an empty dressing room and pushed him against a wall. “Let them”, Yesung replied “I’m not afraid of showing the world how much I love u”, with that he sealed Jin Hyun's lips. “Do you really love me that much”, “Yes, I do I love u more than anything on planet earth”, “I just wish we could tell the world about us”, Yesung sighed “One day we will”. Jin hyun reached up and kissed Yesung again and again.

The had been doing concert and Yesung and the rest of the members had ripped their shirts off shocking everyone in the audience and Jin Hyun. it wasn’t strange for Suju to be acting different but seeing his boyfriend shirtless had made Jin Hyun's eyes pop out. he could hardly say a word to Yesung after the concert hence the small kidnapping.

“How did Leeteuk si”, act when you told him Jin hyun asked “He was supportive thankfully”,Yesung muttered to involved in kissing Jin Hyun, that’s when the door handle opened someone was trying to enter “Quick hide”, Yesung said shoving Jin hyun in the small bathroom. “Yesung hyung”, someone shouted from outside “Yes coming”, Yesung said, “Sorry I was changing”, Yesung said after opening the door to reveal Siwon “Oh”, he said “We are leaving come quick”, “will do”, Yesung said as Siwon walked away Yesung rushed back and kissed Jin Hyun one more time “bye babe”, he smirked which made Jin Hyun melt all over again.

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CHAPTER 1

It had been a long day of schedules and the leader of Super Junior crashed into his bed and sighed at the feel of his soft sheets hitting his skin, it was another successful day for Super Junior but the day had ended extremely late and he could get exactly 3 hours of sleep before the next day’s schedules would start and he intended in utilising every minute of it for sleep. He replayed the events of the day in his head like he did every night, when one particular event stuck. It was that morning when he was reviewing the schedules with the others.

Couple hours before

“Has everyone gone through the script of today’s show”, he asked looking at his team mates, they all nodded and answered in various ways of yes. When Yesung caught his attention. He was staring into blank space with a gentle smile playing on his lips, obviously day dreaming, “Yesung”, the leader sighed, “Yesung”, he said louder when the younger didn’t respond, “Yesung!”, he finally shouted snapping the other out of his daydream, “Huh?”, yesung said. “Did u learn your script”, Leeteuk replied while rubbing his forehead, “oh um no I was busy”, “What!”, he exclaimed “busy with what I told you specifically that we needed to learn this script its important for our promotions”, “Oh I-I-“, Yesung tried defending himself when Leeteuk interrupted “You know what I don’t even have time for this you can just stay quite through out the show we don’t need anyone bringing us down and I have no time to deal with a nuisance of a member”, he shouted which made yesung take a step back “I’m sorry Hyung I wont do it again”, Leeteuk just glared at him “lets go guys let him do what he wants to do”, he said storming out of the place.

Leeteuk sighed he hadn’t meant to be harsh on the younger but he had a lot of pressure on him and couldn’t help but lash out, he tried closing his eyes but Yesung’s hurt face refused to leave his mind, he sighed again he could think of 1000 excuses but that didn’t justify his behaviour Yesung worked as hard as any of them, he knew he wasn’t going to get any sleep unless he spoke to Yesung so he jumped out of bed and made it towards the other’s room. When he heard Yesung’s voice. Yesung was laying on his bed holding a small picture frame in his hand and smiling

“I love you”, yesung told the photo frame softly. Leeteuk hid silently deciding to overhear what Yesung wanted to say, “I love you so much”, Yesung said “I would always find it ridiculous when my parents said that they couldn’t live without each other now I know what they feel, you bring me so much happiness that its physically hurts, you wont believe it but it has been a long time since I was happy I can’t stop reading all those hate comments about how I dint deserve to be in the band and it has gotten so bad that I hardly get sleep without popping a few pills I often feared that I would land up in an hospital because of it but after our date yesterday I actually slept and dreamt. I love you so much”, he pulled the frame closer to him and gave it a kiss.

Leeteuk was shocked not only because Yesung was in love but he had never known about his sleeping problem or that fact that he consumed pills to help him sleep. If made Leeteuk feel even more guilty of the incident that had taken place that morning and made him feel like a bad leader for not noticing something this serious how couldn’t he have noticed. How many other things like this were the others hiding from him.

He couldn’t bear it anymore he entered Yesung’s room which made the younger shoot up and hide the photo frame behind his back, “you don’t have to hide it from me”, Teuk said “I heard a lot of the conversation”. “Oh”, Yesung said confusion leaving his face “What were you doing outside my room?”, “I-uh”, Teuk replied sitting next to Yesung “Came to apologize about what happened today nothing justifies my behaviour I’m sorry”, “oh thats ok Hyung you were stressed I get it”, Yesung replied with a real smile. Yesung hadn’t taken what the leader had said to heart he knew rhat teuk hadn’t ment it Teuk was a great leader but it and often the management would put extra pressure on him which not only made yeung mad but all the other members they had often seen teuk fighting tiredness and over working himself which worried all of them. “Yesung why didn’t you tell any of us about your troubles or that you were taking pills”, Teuk said pulling Yesung out of his thoughts “oh-I-I didn’t think any of you would care”, Yesung whispered. Teuk felt his heart clench and he pulled his younger brother into his arms “You matter Yesung”, He cpuldnt imagine Super Junior with out their main vocalist it would be incomplete. “You are a vital member of this group and we cannot do without you, each and everyone of us love you even if we tease you”, They both smiled at the dozen memeories they had of Yesung’s unpredictable reactions.

Yesung smiled at his Hyung “Thank you so much”, he said which made Teuk smile wider. “So”, Teuk said putting an arm around Yesung “Who is the girl?”, “Oh!”, Yesung said, “um no one”. “Yesung you don’t have to hide ,falling in love is the most natural thing even if it is banned in our world you don’t have to hide it from us”, Yesung looked down” Hyung?, he asked suddenly his face becoming serious. “Love is love right?”, “Yes of course”, Leeteuk replied immidiately “And no mater what I’ll still be Yesung right”, “yes?”, Teuk replied not sure where this conversation was going. “Hyung what if I told you about the person, I loved”, “I would be delighted to know about her”, Teuk replied extre,ely confused at the the conversation, “I’m in love with someone amazing Hyung someone who makes me extremely happy and someone I promise to make as happy as the person makes me”. “I’m glad to hear that”,Teuk said smiling at Yesung glad that Yesung had found someone so special. Yesung got up and paced around his room for a few moments while Teuk silently waited, “Hyung”,Yesung said “I’m-I’m not in love with a girl’, “what do you mean the”, leader replied, “I’m in love with a with a..”,say it Teuk demanded “With a guy”, Yesung whispered clenching his fist and looking down.

A whirl of emotions went through Yesung’s head ever since he was a kid he was always taught that men fall in love with women, every fairy tale had that story and so did every TV show, so when he felt something for a guy what people described as love he was confused, he pushed down his feelings and suppressed It for a long time until he met someone when he was in high school, when he revealed it to his parents they quickly rejected the idea calling it a phase and telling him that it wasn’t possible. For a long time, he believed it until he realised that it wasn’t a phase it was just who he is and nothing could change it, but every time he had revealed this to someone, they had turned his back at him, He looked at the man who had led the group for so many years who took the role of a big brother in his life, he wouldn’t turn away would he? and most importantly Yesung wouldn’t be kicked out would he?. He looked up and Leeteuk preparing for an insult. “Are you telling me that you are Gay?”,

Yesung took a deep breath and nodded tears filling his eyes for some reason he hated himself for it and he had no idea why he soon felt to arms circling around hi holding him and sobs rocked his entire body. Yesung stop crying its okay its okay Teuk said holding him close. Thank you for sharing this with me Yesung looked at him as Leeteuk smiled at him its love Yesung and every human has the right to love in their own way. A smile cracked through his face while he buried himself in his Leader’s chest.

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