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Day 405

26/03/2023 - Sunday I had forgotten this blog that I created when I was feeling really sad and kinda depressed. Woke up early today, at around 8AM. Feeling kinda good. I’m stressed because I don’t have potable water in my house, it’s been 2 weeks and it hasn’t been solved yet. Really sucks.

Funny that in the previous post I was anxious because it was already the 4th month of the year and I hadn’t done anything. Guess what? It’s the 3rd month of 2023 now and everything is still the same. Only thing that changed from last year is that I finally moved from the old apartment, started going to the gym although it’s been a month since I last worked out. I really need to start studying so I can get a job this year. I’m feeling way better this year than last year for obvious reasons but things are still bad. Gotta change it.

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Day 37

Thursday, another day of therapy.

Insights today were about fear of rejection keeping me from acting.

I must find ways to integrate myself in groups if I want to be disciplined and start studying.

I feel good, very different from the first post, maybe it’s therapy helping, maybe is me being able to run from my feelings and reality. Time is passing by and we’are already almost at the 4th month of the year. That gives me a bit of anxiety, but manageable.

Well, until the next one.

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Day 1

14/02/2022 Monday

Woke up at 10:30, feeling very unwell as always, anxious, heart beating fast, stomach hurting, after a while trying to go back to sleep I gave up, noise construction, the reason I woke up in the first place. At 11:30 I get up and go to my computer, load up YouTube on my browser, put my cellphone to charge. I stay watching random things on YouTube as expected until 13:30. I don’t feel much better, don’t know if I’m feeling worse or not, kind sleepy, also don’t wanna feel bad so I go to bed again, wake up at 16:30. At 16:30 I’m feeling very very cold, kinda nauseous, don’t know if it’s because of my health, the fact that I haven’t eaten anything all day or because of anxiety, I have two layers of covers but I’m still shivering.

At 17:00 I get out of bed, shaking a bit, I’m feeling so sad, God I just want to feel better. I just want to not feel like this, I just want to solve things. I’m tired of being isolated, so lonely, no one to talk to, no productive things being done, not investing in my future, procrastinating everything. Since I don’t have anyone to talk to I decide I’m gonna start writing here, having a sort of diary to keep in touch with myself, my feelings, having a way to track things, I really don’t want this year to be a blur, I can’t afford that, I’m getting old.

I hope I don’t mess up and at least keep this updated.

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