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nervouswizardcycle · 13 days

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⚠️ READ: Please do not repost/reupload any of my art here or to any other platform, or I will be forced to do anything to get it annihilated.

Two further test pics under the cut:

I MADE IT! After nearly 2 years of waiting and thinking and what not I sat down last night and eventually made Hizumi.

I said before they will probably look different compared to me. After all Hizumi is half Japanese and half American (I am neither of the two) and my hair style simply doesn't exist (also not in my color combination).

So deal with it Hizumi looks different compared to my 'cosplay' pics. Idk how much I will change on them, maybe the hair color, make up or not. Also not sure is I want to use any UV framework as bruh I simply have no vigor to read through all this stuff. I'd like to have small boobs to flat chest but it won't help me much and give me only less clothing mods as flat chest rare compare to the entire opposite.

Guess Hizumi has to deal will the small vanilla boobs and the curvy hip (like I have to as well). I'd need an entire customized body for them that simply doesn't esist. so yeah. enough rambling.

I'll shower you with Hizumi in the future as well!

#oc: hizumi chigasaki #yaaas welcome to the gang #finally all together

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nervouswizardcycle · 13 days

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Valentin & Mitch | 673/?? 💚

#OTP: High Voltage #Mitch Anderson #Valentin Da Silva #so soft and pretty

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when you're out missing your rat and you gotta go home to see him

#heey dagger #lookin fantastic

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nervouswizardcycle · 14 days

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Happy birthday Queen

#oc: vanessa vergara #cyberpunk 2077 #cyberpunk screenshots #oc: vijay steyr #oc: ryder #oc: arki #happy birthday #that first one goes right into afterlife to the rest of pictures

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nervouswizardcycle · 16 days

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You wanna touch it.

#male v #cyberpunk screenshots #cyberpunk 2077 #oc: arki

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nervouswizardcycle · 19 days

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——HIZUMI CHIGASAKI's 2075 LOOK——

lorebit:

Hizumi has already heard rumors about the Golden Demon of Kabuki as Tyger Claws brought the neighborhood legend back to Japan, that some mysterious demon is fucking up their clan rapidly overseas in the NUSA in their favorite trafficker metropole Night City.

Hizumi immediately adapts to the Kabuki demons look so they can cause mayhem and confusion amongst the Tyger Claws even in Japan, as they hate them to the bone. They are only missing the samurai mask yet (they will have later as keepsake of their dead brother who was dumb enough to join the Claws and didn't make it).

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I bought cyberpunk like stuff in Tokyo for pimping up some real life Hizumi outfit that is before 2077. I love Japan has an official shop with stuff like that as I only know etsy shops selling similar gear. In this shop, located at Laforet in Harajuku, I was allowed to try everything on if I wanted to and look at it to be sure to throw my money at them without a doubt. I could have bought so much more but I had to restirct myself a little with it as it's really not that cheap and you still have to be careful as it is mostly plastics that can break easily.

Ladies and gentleman, the loot:

mask

bracelet

cardholder

ears

key holder

earring

by the brand:

中央町戦術工芸

Chuoucho Senjutsukugei

Already did a small shoot in Japan but I'm not so content with it (as I was tired but wanted to at least have some shots done in Japan).

So this is probably going to be an earlier outfit/style Hizumi had when they still haven't traveled over to the NUSA as they only start doing it once their brother joins the Tyger Claws in 2077 with Hizu tailing him to try and talk it out of him and for bringing him back home.

So that's why Hizumi has/will have no face cyberware and uses red contact lenses (no kiroshi). The golden clawed glove is their own interpretation of the one that the Golden Demon of Kabuki is said to have. They will eventually cross path with the mysterious cryptid of Night City in 2077.

#oc: hizumi chigasaki #cyberpunk 2077 #arki is so proud. keep the good work

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nervouswizardcycle · 19 days

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Dark OC Asks : 1 for Jay, 5 for Vijay, 6 for Ry and 12 for Thyjs <33

1. Excluding murder, what is the worst thing your OC has ever done?

With him not murdering anyone? Well, he hacked numerous people and programmed their brains to make them murder each other. Does that count then? Other than that I cannot think of something better. He once hacked himself into the NCPD security net when he was bored during the time he was doomed to stay in a netrunner chair in the HQ. He caused an entire blackout with prison cells all opening that held some cyberpsychos in there who ofc tried to get out violently. They needed to call Max Tac back in. It's definitely not the worst he's done but the worst non lethal in his career as cop.

5. What is your OC's moral code?

Vijay tends to be guided by his own moral code rather than strict adherence to the law, and he believes that individuals should be free to make their own decisions as long as they do not harm others. But he follows a few law rules still; e.g. he sees it as it is not for him to decide to kill a person bc they murdered someone else. As a merc V would always hand them over to the law in the first place. He acts based on his moral compass, which is guided by the desire to help others and promote good in the world. He also has a strong sense of personal responsibility for his own actions and takes a balanced approach to problem-solving, weighing the pros and cons of each situation. There is a difficulty with morally grey choices: Vijay as a mostly neutral good character may find it challenging to navigate morally ambiguous situations, as he is more likely to seek a solution that benefits the greater good. This may as well lead to internal conflict or even trouble with fellow party members in some situations (he's the only one who goes first with "thou shall not kill, whiel the rest of the team kills either mercilessly or when the situation is so tricky it's the only way to do).

6. Would your OC make a deal with the devil?

Ryder may look like he would do that but he certainly would not. The burden he's got to carry on his shoulders each day sort of feels like there was deal made with an evil netloard anyways – only the didn't ask him if he wants to.

12. If your OC was arrested, what would the charges be?

His charges not only would be, they have occured in the past: – for electrifying a commanding officer almost deadly because the dude has been very inappropriate* to his assigned recruits. *Thyjs doesn't tolerate outdated drill behavior that is nothing but bullying the newbie soldiers for the own ego and because of being of a higher rank. - for having shocked a potential taliban member during interrogation so hard they fell into a cardiac arrest but have been brought back immediately by Thyjs using his electric cybernetic hand as defibrillator* *the captive took no real damage though but this wasn't the given order to do so, yeah, charged for that – accidental explosion of an ammunition depot caused by his grenade launcher during a field training session* * This happened when Thyjs had his cyberarm and the launcher brand new unable to fully control it yet. Noone died but nontheless he got charged for it as the whole depot with tons of ammunition exploded.

#oc asks #loooreeee

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nervouswizardcycle · 19 days

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WIP Wednesday

Got tagged by noone and making a new one!

But I tag: @dreamskug and @astarionhistears, @gloryride, @nervouswizardcycle, @streetkid-named-desire, @koda-shoulda-woulda-but-didnt, @robininthewoods90, @ouroboros-hideout, @wraithsoutlaws, @dustymagpie, @therealnightcity, @elvenbeard, @heywoodvirgin, @86maylin and @itzsassha – also everyone who likes to do it as always and no pressure!

Today I'm gonna talk about Thyjs on my wip as these unfinished thoughts have been sitting in my drafts for quite a while, so expect only a long text post — my mind still circles a lot about him how to portrait Thyjs the best way — mostly in writing but also in pics.

I know he looks all sweet and cute when he's together with Ryder, and I imagine he can be funny as well especially with his cute Dutch accent, but I think he definitely needs to have some negative trait too, since he's definitely 'the most sane' when it comes to uh … 'problems as a Night City citizen'? – as he's not from NC – and Europe being different than NUSA.

Since he's a soldier I think he should definitely have some form of ptsd. There is no way he doesn't have that.

The sudden loss of almost all of his squad definitely was the most traumatic event that happened to him, but also eventually led to him accepting he has to talk about that and accept and allow his emotions to come through, too.

I'm no expert (more likely a noob) when it comes to ptsd but I think losing his father two years prior made him more 'unemotional' than before as he was also drilled by Militech to be a war machine — to be strong, have less emotions to the point to shut them down. Maybe also combat stims provided to bring emotions into the background? (have to look it up).

He didn't see it happen how his father died, but he found footage later after he began to try finding out why and what really happened (Cynosure) that eventually leads to the traumatic end of his squad the more he found out. He always thought his father was indestructible. He looked up to him.

His tie with his father and mother was good, so no trauma through his childhood except when he got mobbed by other young teenage trainees for his albinism at first <- turned him into the direction: "show them you can do it nonetheless, that you can beat them in training", which led to Thyjs being one of the best soldiers in the end -> brought him to KCT and into the international spec ops team after many deployments worldwide.

So I think along his way to become a soldier and various events more or less traumatic (as he's seen a lot of death, destruction and had to kill on command, without mercy and even torture captives for information, was struck by lightning and the loss of his left forearm) he started developing some emotional numbness or psychical numbing. His affectivity went into the background (as he is not interested to form special bonds or a love relationship) and he's more distant towards the normal life as he doesn't have one (e.g. may not have spent his free time with typical army spare time activities like his other mates did. Instead he used it to train/educate himself even more). He cannot enjoy simple daily life and has to learn how to integrate again after the accident as his soldier career has ended. The loss of his future expectation lets him have no perspective at first and he feels empty inside and utterly betrayed by Militech. The army was his life.

Thanks to Ryder he is able to join the merc team and finds a new purpose (help and mostly protection of the team). Through Ryder and the others he learns to integrate himself into 'the normal' life (as I don't see merc life on the same level as soldier life). Night City is at first ofc too much for him so he often goes back out into the badlands to find some 'peace', away from the noise, time to think and breathe, process it all, grapple with all the new impressions and emotions that hail down on him. He needs some time-out once in a while to process the 'daily life' he consumes now every day as well. That may explain why he’s still a bit more distant towards Ryder/the team for a certain while as he has to learn how to get around with each of them and especially the impulsive character Ryder has until he knows him better, as he got offered to live in Ry’s flat.

Then he discovers he slowly develops feelings for Ryder he never had felt before ever. They are subtle at first but get stronger and he accepts them eventually and starts to allow himself to show them to him. He rediscovers what feelings truly are, what joy is and how you laugh with a bright earnest smile on your lips and what it is to be in love with someone.

Last time he may have felt real and pure joy was when he was a child. As a small boy, before Militech school started, he was always obsessed over flowers and loved to draw. Now that he's a merc with having more spare time he begins to pick this up again and that's why he goes (and even asks Ryder to come with him) to art galleries and starts thinking about making art as well or just buys a bouquet of flowers he looks at for hours. Goes back to listening to classical music too. I think this is sort of his 'own' therapy choice to get back into normal life. He definitely sees a MedTech for treatment as well who may have suggested to him to just do that once they found out what Thyjs 'does enjoy'.

This will probably be super hard to write and I'll never reach that goal in perfection either but I try at least to steer it this way, be it only details or Thyjs talking about it.

Thyjs also opens fully up only to Ryder. He may be friendly to everyone (as he's learned to keep a fake 'joy' smile) and also likes everyone in the team but he only talks about his true insecurities in every detail with Ry. The rest of the team only gets a superficial version of it. That is my plan.

I always picture him more like a peripheral figure when the team enjoys e.g. a billiard play in The Afterlife. He's the one who just sits in the corner and watches rather than plays billiards. He's trained to watch the area and surroundings nonstop, so it's hard for him to let go of that fully — at least for a while.

Idk if Ry and Thy will ever argue about something. It's likely to happen but I can't think of any situation yet. I really do see them as one heart and soul and that they complete each other. Thyjs, being totally reserved, learns Ryder to be calmer while Ryder, being totally impulsive and full with all of kinds of emotions, helps Thyjs to rediscover and let out his emotions as well on top shows him how to live more normal (as merc life also is not that normal).

In fact I think everyone of my boys (except Jay maybe - maybe not, maybe he's got it too) had their own ptsd moments they have to fight with more or less each day. I don't want to analyze it entirely but thinking about it is just very interesting. But as said I'm no expert in that but I doubt there will be someone pointing their finger at me telling me "this is false what you wrote" in the end, so I spent my time with thinking about it and write down and share some bits and pieces.

Kudos if you read all this <3

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*I've watched a video about a German former KSK (Kommando Spezialkräfte) soldier not long ago who has ptsd that came along with psychic numbing and he told a bit about what he did and still does to integrate himself into normal daily living, surround himself with people, regain his emotions (like to laugh) and for him it is working with animals as he has now four dogs. Hard to explain. But I got inspired by that and now I'm trying to figure something out for Thyjs what might be good for him to get back into a 'normal' life as he's no soldier anymore.

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nervouswizardcycle · 19 days

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