It’s been so long since I came on here to post mehn! I have been told to love my self more but I honestly do not know how to do that. I am trying hard to tap into a higher calling but I don’t know how to do that and despite doing photography and feeling like that’s the only thing I want to do I still feel like I have no purpose in life.
i need to stop wanking & watching porn somebody help me! i think i’m addicted to wanking i wanna stop wanking before i stop smoking cigarettes. i hope i can eventually stop both! it’s how i wank atleast 4/5 times daily on days i have nothing to do. & once i start i don’t stop at first i thought i was wanking like this cause i didn’t have any love interests or anyone giving me attention sexually. but omo iono again mehn! i need help!
she’s got me so hard tonight but ama be shooting my crush tomorrow & I think I might make a move. Not the person in the picture but might be my next post on my photography account.
this time 2 years ago I was fighting for my life in rehab, they claimed I tried to commit suicide twice in one month which I don’t believe I wasn’t fully aware of most of my actions during this period well they also lied to my family to keep me longer I shouldn’t have been in rehab for 2 months but after being in for a month I came out and in less than 20 days I relapsed again was paranoid and my dad sent me back in for another month. I know what this did to me. I’m so happy I didn’t spend atleast 3 months I know what just the two months did to me! I’m so happy I’m kinda over it now!
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Honestly in a great space I ain’t depressed I don’t think so hard as to why I’m getting rejected but then again I’m not going to give anyone the chance to reject me anymore ama feel things and keep ‘em to my self I’m sorry but I think my vulnerable phase is over!
I’m done looking for my fave person I’m currently watching a show for the first time in like 2 months.
On the 7th of April 2022 I become a dread head, I wanna be referred to as dada boy as my late mums maiden name is dada. I love my late mother so much everything I do is related to her or is meant to remind me of her.
On my weight loss journey it’s been hella crazy didn’t expect to lose weight this fast that people ask if I’m sure I’m not sick well I am not I’m just working out & not eating like the monster I am.