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𝑂𝐵𝑋𝐽𝐽 - 𝐵𝑈𝐶𝐾𝑌 𝐵𝐴𝑅𝑁𝐸𝑆 𝑅𝐸𝐶 𝐿𝐼𝑆𝑇

Hi babes! This is my Bucky Barnes Recommendation list (plus some of the other characters Sebastian Stan has played it himself) that i wanted to put together. This includes my personal favourite drabbles, one-shots and finished or ongoing series.

These are in no particular order! A massive shoutout to the people and creators that write for Bucky, the work and effort you guys put into these is truly amazing and shouldn’t go unnoticed!

* = smut # = finished series

THIS IS CONSTANTLY UPDATED. so check in every so often :)

there is like 100+ fics in this post atm so have fun reading whores xo

MOST OF THESE ARE 18+ SO MINORS DNI XO

Last Updated: July 1st 2021

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➪ @whirlybirbs

buzz-cut szn

bucky trusts you with an important thing. tfatws Bucky x reader

birthday boy

domestic birthday celebrations w bucky

vacant mirrors; masterlist

shit’s been rough. shit was rough even before the blip. dr. hart shares an office with dr. raynor, and you share with waiting room with bucky barnes. set before and during tfatws; a friends-to-lovers, slowburn . tfatws Bucky x reader.

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➪ @soap-bubble-nebula

attached

while you guys are dating, Bucky learns that he may be more attached to you than anyone could have thought. or maybe he already knew that. Avenger Bucky x reader

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➪ @sinner-as-saint

questions *

while on a mission, you’re stuck in an area of a building with your fellow Avenger, Bucky Barnes with whom you may or may not have a love/hate relationship. and while waiting for someone to come rescue you, you both find quite an interesting way to keep yourselves occupied. Avenger Bucky x reader

we cant stop ,we’re enemies *

pure enemies to lovers Avenger Bucky x reader

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➪ @awhitewolfandhisvibraniumshield

drunk bucky blurb *

alcohol, and I mean asgardian alcohol, bucky being a dork and y/n being madly in love and teasing the life out of him. Also sam! Plus some touching and groping and mentions of smutty times!

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➪ @spilledkauffie

sex with bucky barnes *

nsfw headcanon

still having nightmares

bucky’s nightmares are forever following him

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➪ @shurisneakers

reform

in which bucky has a breakdown

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➪ @theonewiththefanfics

not you *

Bucky has loved the Reader for three years. She has loved him for two. Both are dumbasses, and Sam is fed up. Avenger Bucky x reader

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➪ @badassbuchanan

my girl *

frenemies to friends in bed, thanks to loki of course. Avenger Bucky x reader

risky business *

Bucky’s needy after a stressful mission day and Y/N is right there next to him. The only problem is, they’re not alone. Avenger Bucky x reader

taking care of needs - lance tucker x reader *

just pure filth

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➪ @buckysho

what we’ve been missing *

Bucky shows up at your house pretty banged up. You help him with his wounds and things get very intimate.

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➪ @starsvck Masterlist nsfw masterlist

behind glass walls

love is a peculiar thing but it’s nothing more than being in love with a super soldier with a metal arm and nothing is getting in the way of that; not even captain america or 117 countries. Civil War Bucky x Reader

among the layers *

bucky barnes attempts to live in a new future, he’s trying, he really is, but he’s got a secret, a pretty little secret with the sweetest of smiles and gentle of touches. tfatws Bucky x reader

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➪ @borkingbarnes

cockblocked *

Sam and Nat decide it’d be funny to cockblock the former Winter Soldier after his girl returns from a long mission away. Avenger Bucky x reader

cherry stem kisses *

they say if you can tie a cherry stem with your tongue, it means you’re a good kisser

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➪ @mcuimaginesandstuff

you seriously called my wife?

Bucky has a hard time opening up to Dr. Raynor about his nightmares. Desperate times call for desperate measures, call in Mrs. Barnes. Tfatws Bucky x reader

im real - sebastian stan x

Sebastian shows his daughter Infinity War, which she doesn’t take well. Especially after having a nightmare about her dad turning to dust

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➪ @celestialbarnes

love me harder *

you and bucky have been flirting and screwing around for months now, after seeing him getting frisky with someone else, you decide to do the same and bucky’s just about had enough.

sarge *

in which you and bucky have a quickie in the weapons room before a mission because after two weeks without your boyfriend, you’re horny as hell. Avenger Bucky x reader

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➪ @tropicalcap Masterlist

neon signs *

After a tough decision is made during a mission, Bucky decides he’s kept his feelings quiet for too long

the middle *

Friends, enemies, lovers… all at once or none at all. It’s all just one blurred line anyway, isn’t it?

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➪ @luciilferss

charming *

in which you’re a girl in need of protection, and Bucky’s the perfect man for the job. bodyguard!bucky x reader

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➪ @navybrat817

lose control *

Bucky tried his best not to lose control, but a man can only take so much.

it was only a kiss *

A kiss on the forehead can mean many things.

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➪ @sweeterthanthis Masterlist

exile *

You never really think that the last time is the last time. You think there will be more. You think you have forever – but you don’t.

i’ve got you *

bucky barnes is besotted with you. it’s about time be had a move, right?

‘tis the damn season *

It had taken you a year to get over Bucky Barnes, and a solid hour to fall back into that trap once again

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➪ @revengingbarnes

no script - seb stan x reader

Sebastian practices all his roles with you. This one is a romantic scene, and you don’t know how to conceal your feelings as just acting when they are so much more.

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➪ @buckybarnesdiaries

touch

you gave Bucky something to deal with his nightmares that he wasn’t expecting.

wakanda

Steve gives you Bucky’s dog tags for a reason

good morning

after a mission in Europe, you come back to the Avengers Compound, being received by a lovely surprise

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➪ @doctor187

my name isn’t

You find out the guys (Bucky, Steve, and Sam) have a bet as to who can kiss you first, so you confront them at Tony’s team building karaoke night.

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➪ @sagechanoafterdark Masterlist

codename lazarus; masterlist #

Things are complicated between you and James Barnes. For you, life doesn’t mean much when you never stay dead for very long. But it might just be an ex-soviet assassin that convinces you to start living again.

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➪ @msmarvelwrites

in you i find solace *

It wasn’t his lips you were kissing, of this he was sure. But in your need, you fit. Jagged with scar, but belonging all the same.

tease *

Bucky Barnes was a menace. But he was also your superior, and in turn, completely and unchangeably off limits.

about last night *

Bucky and you cant stand each other… But that’s the way it goes, isn’t it?

season of the witch; masterlist #

Your witchy abilities get you in quite a bit of trouble from time to time… But this time you don’t mind so much.

whatever our souls are made of

You had been an empath for as long as you could remember. But still, there were days more frequently than not that you wished you could turn it all off

for old times’ sake *

Years you had craved to hear your name spoken from his lips. Countless nights, forcing yourself to remember how it fell from his tongue

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➪ @wkemeup

the other side of the door

Bucky would do anything to keep you safe. Even if it meant sacrificing himself. Even if it took him to the bottom of the ocean.

double blind

Set up on what might be the worst blind date you’d ever been on, you find yourself captivated by the mysterious bartender instead - Bartender Bucky AU

by any other name ; masterlist *#

Special Agent Bucky Barnes has been known by many names. He’s used to taking on new identities and dismantling criminal enterprises from the inside. When he’s tasked with infiltrating Hydra and gathering evidence against its leader, Brock Rumlow, Bucky finds himself drawn to the woman who doesn’t seem to belong in this world of violence, the wife to the head of Hydra… you.

vengeful spirits

A year after the fire and the end of Hydra, Brock Rumlow’s ghost is still haunting you.

crawl home to her

Stranded without coms, alone, and bleeding out in the middle of a Russian snow storm, Bucky is content to let nature take its course. Only you won’t seem to let him go.

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➪ @sunny-reys Masterlist

one to another

When Bucky Barnes arrives at S.H.I.E.L.D. headquarters, he wasn’t expecting to meet an agent who had a similar past to him. However, their shared experience of being held by HYDRA will bring them together.

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➪ @sergeantbuckybarnes

unholy *

You love Steve, you really do, but somehow you find yourself every night wrapped in his best friend’s arms.

social casualty

When Sam calls you to let you know Bucky had been arrested you take a flight to see him, there you meet the new Captain.

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➪ @spiderbitchspiderbitch

to be a god or a hero; masterlist #

after being alive for a hundred and twenty some odd years, you think you’d have learned to be immune to the smile of any handsome, leather-clad man with pretty eyes … but Bucky Barnes isn’t just anyone, and neither are you. In fact, the two of you might have a lot more in common than you think.

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➪ @mostly-marvel-musings

all you had to do was ask *

Your ‘no strings attached’ deal with Bucky goes to shit when he requests you to stay in bed with him one night. The concept of cuddling alien to the super soldier, lucky for him you’re willing to help out.

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➪ @achillieus

remembrance

sometimes bucky thinks he’s nothing but a lost soul. if only he could see what you see.

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➪ @bitsandbobsandstuff Masterlist

pool balls and underpants

Bucky offers to teach you how to play pool, but he ends up in a slightly awkward predicament.

another kinky wager *

As he previously promised, Bucky helps you work out all those irritating little kinks in your pool game.

black lace and property damage *

With your messy work hours, Bucky’s consistently inconsistent mission schedule, and those basic life tasks you’re both ignoring (when was the last time he actually bought a new toothbrush?), the simple act of just being together has been shunted to the side. Bucky’s officially starting to panic.

the (not naked) pin up calendar

When you ask for a favor, Bucky (very) grudgingly agrees. What can you do to thank him? Return the favor, of course.

the midnight coconuts

Bucky and his girl take a trip to the grocery store. Several things are involved, including coconuts, a 25cent gum-ball machine, Avengers branded Jell-O, chocolate milk straight from the jug, and tampons.

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➪ @astro-rain

delicate

wakanda gets a visit from our favorite captain, two drinks is too much rum for a reticent psychologist, and bucky knows (& feels) more than meets the eye.

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➪ @wordywarriorwrites Masterlist

wicked cradle *

A new world. Another mission. A different partner. You and Bucky have the one-two punch combo down pat in no time and you’re winning. But as the stakes get higher and things become even more dangerous, things start to change, and you both quickly discover that the past no longer defines either of you and that together, you can overcome anything.

tightrope *

You’re sick of pretending it’s fine. Bucky’s tired of tap-dancing around it. And when push comes to shove, you both decide to stop playing games.

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➪ @mallowswriting

salt the earth; masterlist *#

brock rumlow is a slick, charming, wise-cracking businessman that you are lucky to have a claim to. brock rumlow is your fiance. brock rumlow is going to suffocate you.

brock rumlow is going to be surprised when you disappear, nothing left behind but a note.

but once you’ve gone through with steps 1-4 of your 5 step escape plan, you find out that the ‘friend’ nat told you to meet - the ‘friend’ who is going to drive you across the country to the utopia of safety that is new york - just had to be bucky fucking barnes.

oh, the weather outside is frightful ch 1

oh, the weather outside is frightful ch 2

oh, the weather outside is frightful ch 3

bucky barnes is a condescending, infuriating ass. your mission has gone terribly wrong. there’s no way this could get any worse. right?

safe keeping

you and bucky barnes keep getting assigned together on missions, despite bruce and nat’s concerns that you won’t be able to handle yourself against him if something goes wrong with the former winter soldier. but will you be able to show everyone else - and, most importantly, bucky - that you are not breakable, and can decide for yourself who you trust to have your back.

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➪ @marveliskindacool

here goes

you’ve been pining for Bucky Barnes for eight years. three years ago, you left the Compound. so, what happens when you get invited to an Avengers charity event at the Tower?

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➪ @justreadingfics

dangerous dalliance *

You were attending a party with your boring, womanizer CEO boyfriend. Everything was business and you could easily bore yourself to death. If it wasn’t for the pair of shameless blue-grey eyes trained on you ever since you arrived at the party.

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➪ @carolmaximoffs

crisp trepidation *

spreading you open is the only way of knowing you.

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➪ @nev3rfound

option two

after nightmares continue to haunt his nights, bucky knows there’s one person left who could potentially provide some form of comfort, but is she still willing to see him after all this time?

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➪ @heli0s-writes

take you there *

Sam plays a game called Fuck or Die. It’s like he willed it into existence as you and Bucky explore the basement of an old Hydra lair. Avenger Bucky x Reader

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➪ @burninmatches

mojitos and leather; masterlist *

a story about danger, self-love and alcohol: deep down, a story about how you met bucky barnes. he saves you from trouble once again, except this time it may compromise the friendship you two have - an older man taking care of you? blame it on your daddy issues.

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➪ @angrythingstarlight Masterlist

erase every trace *

Bucky had to sit back and watch another man touch you, but now that the ruse is over, he’s going to erase every trace of him off your skin. tfatws Bucky x reader

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➪ @babyboibucky Masterlist

obvious *

You and Bucky are more than friends but less than lovers.

elevate thy hate

Not a day goes by that you and Bucky don’t argue.

nasty *

You discover that Bucky, a black shirt and a wrist watch is a dangerous combination.

those days *

You find it hard to love yourself sometimes.

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➪ @blackberrybucky Masterlist

i don’t know if i could ever go without *

bucky gives you something good to wake up to

but it feels different when you’re with me *

bucky comes home sad and looks to you for comfort.

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➪ @divine-mistake

bitter fruit *

“The mission was already a success!” you say and you can feel tears burning the back of your eyes. You will yourself to blink them back. “You had the files, the base was set to detonate, I don’t understand why you didn’t just stay on the fucking jet.”

deny (with love) my labor *

“I’m here,” you sob, hand shaking. “I’m right here, Bucky. I’m here. I’m here. Bucky, please. I’m here. Please don’t leave me. I’m here. I’m right here.”

it’s just a curve upon the lips (a kiss)

“Did it really look like I needed your help?”

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➪ @cjsinkythoughts

TFATWS series re-write; Masterlist #

An Avenger yourself follow Bucky and Sam in their fight. Following the events of each episode of TFATWS

his only contact

bucky didn’t contact many people but he made to contact you

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➪ @marvel-diaries Masterlist

two servings *

Bucky enjoys two servings of his delicious breakfast… you.

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➪ @nacho-bucky

seven-thirty; Masterlist #

You were planning on a productive — if lonely — weekend, but the little girl across the hall has different ideas about how you and Bucky Barnes should be spending your time. Bucky x Reader AU

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➪ @loving-bucky-is-easier

straight through the heart

The reader needs a place to stay, and Bucky is heartbroken when he finds out why.

black coffee

Bucky becomes quite taken with the local barista, who is determined to help him figure out his coffee preferences.

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➪ @gogolucky13

medicine *

Bucky needs you like medicine

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➪ @puffberries

staying past dawn

bucky crashes on your couch and stays for longer than he means to. in the morning, you make him breakfast and he reflects on your relationship.

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➪ @anchoeritic

what he hated was what she loved

what he hated about himself was what she loved about him.

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➪ @baroquebucky

dont

in which bucky quickly learns that communication is key for a good relationship

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➪ @wicked-mind

sunshine girl

As much as Bucky tried to keep his feelings in check when it came to Y/N, it was becoming more difficult everyday. But Y/N has a boyfriend who she has been committed to for five years so he’s respectfully kept the part he had been given of being her friend. When Bucky returns from a mission to find out that Y/N’s relationship came to end while he was away and that she’s been a sulking mess, he’ll do anything to bring out the sunshine in her.

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➪ @chrisevansjellybeans

i love you, you idiot

“we’re best friends but we won’t say we’re in love”

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➪ @buckysblues

slow n’ steady *

You and Bucky have been dating for a month now, and having a discussion about his past leaves you more connected to each other.

baby fever *

Smutty fic where the reader wants Bucky to put a baby in her after she sees how he is with Sam’s Nephews

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➪ @cunaeparker

drunk off you *

asgardian liquor comes in clutch, sam’s a cockblock, and tony’s parties have a tendency to get spicy

deeper wounds

“character a cleans character b’s wounds after a rough mission. a’s fingers linger on the scarred muscle as they finish wrapping the bandage.”

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➪ @buckysbabygorl

blunt

Bucky’s flirting with Y/N seems to be going nowhere; but today he’s going for the win.

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➪ @tlcwrites

a shoulder to cry on

When life gives you lemons, throw them the fuck back and go cry on Bucky’s shoulder.

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➪ @syntheticavenger

hurricane *

Bucky Barnes is a storm of his own.

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➪ @forever-rogue

strawberries, lingerie *

a cute pink matching set and a few photos sent could lead to something, but that was your plan all along

point of view

You really don’t know know what someone like Bucky sees you in. But in you, he sees everything.

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➪ @cacoetheswriting

hell or high water

unexpected, and rather devastating news, bring you and bucky together.

a mutually assured attachment

the beginning of a friendship, or something more.

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➪ @cevans-is-classic

first aid

“Take off your shirt” “Ask me out for dinner first and maybe later you’ll see the goods”

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➪ @cherrygoldenharry

look after you

Sam asks you to join him and Bucky on a mission in Madripoor. When you get injured, Bucky feels the need to remind you more than once that he’s supposed to look after you now that Steve’s gone

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➪ @starshipsofstarlord

madripoor muse *

Bucky harbours feelings for you, but despite Sam’s inflatable encouragement, refuses to inform you of them. However, seeing you pretend to be Zemo’s girlfriend whilst on a mission, more so when the criminal knows what strings he is pulling at, happens to infuriate him inevitably.

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➪ @earlgreydream

shaky

shaving Bucky’s face for him with a straight razor because he’s too shaky

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➪ @itsapeterthing

green

three times bucky realized you were more than a friend and the one time he finally admitted it (based on events from tfatws)

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➪ @sventeen-daybreak

take me seaside

Bucky Barnes is many things to you: friend, coworker, pain in your ass. When you get sick on a mission, he takes on another role—overbearing caretaker. A friends-to-lovers, TFATWS!Bucky sick fic.

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➪ @loving-bucky-is-easier

in the right hands

On what should have been a routine mission, the reader’s life is put in jeopardy. Bucky must overcome some of his own demons to save her.

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➪ @writingcroissant

just friends * #

A friends with benefits story - It started as an arrangement between you and Bucky - a wildly questionable arrangement between friends - and it resulted in a confrontation with someone from your thoroughly buried past and therefore a long overdue mission to kill.

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➪ @petersspidey

laundry day *

Y/N needs help carrying her laundry down to the laundry room and Bucky steps in to save the day. But he also has a load of his own ;)

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➪ @honeysucklesteve Masterlist

12 am rendezvous *

quick car sex with bucky. - dads best friend!bucky

memories *

bucky gives you a piece of him to keep forever. - dads best friend!bucky

stranded *

when your car breaks down on the side of the road and your dad can’t come rescue you, he sends the next best thing. dads best friend!bucky x reader

if you want me to stay

Bucky doesn’t know exactly where he stands with you, but can’t leave you alone after a mission. Bucky Barnes x fem!reader

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➪ @starrysebastians

always tired but never of you

the five times you’re tired but never of bucky

painkillers and something more

lingering glances and subtle touches are fine, but all it takes is a little injury to turn whatever this is into something more

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➪ @sergeantxrogers

so many kisses, so little time *

Six different ways Bucky kisses you.

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➪ @buchanann

safe and sound

Bucky has a little calm after a storm

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➪ @drunken-imagines

the mission

a hard mission leaves bucky and you warn out and stuck in one hotel room

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➪ @marvelettesassemblenow

your touch

Bucky hadn’t been long at the compound when he noticed that others sought you out to calm down. So slowly he started too and had to figure out his feelings for you

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➪ @awhitewolfandhisvibraniumshield

movie night *

you and Bucky are left alone for a few minutes while Sam and Steve go to the store to buy drinks. Of course you can’t keep your hands off each other.

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➪ @19ana45

Looney Tunes

Bucky is shitwhipped for his pregnant wife.

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➪ @westcoastcigar

milk and honey masterlist

in a town like canyon village, the children chase fireflies ‎in the moonlight, the elderly sit at their front porches and gossip, and grumpy mechanics crush on waitresses in the local diner. ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎mostly bucky keeps to himself beneath the hood of a car, just waiting out the day as it drag‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ but every so often on the way to his best friend’s house, ‎ ‎bucky finds himself at reader’s doorstep to ask for some sugar mechanic bucky x waitress!reader

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➪ @bucksfucks

messy *

being a teacher means you encounter many dilf’s. dilf!bucky x f!teacher!reader

sweet and salty *

you & bucky had never gotten along, but when your ex-boyfriend ransom turns up at the same bar you’re at, bucky goes to every length to protect you. fuckboy!biker!bucky x f!reader, past fuckboy!ransom x reader

fake boyfriends real orgasms masterlist *

when bucky needs a date to sam’s wedding, he makes a deal with you. when it starts to turn into something a little more real, you realize how deep you’re in.

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➪ @pellucid-constellations

the shot heard round the tower

You just want to know if Bucky has feelings for you. Bucky just wants you to be okay.

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➪ @jurassicbarnes

saltwater kisses *

In which he whisks you away on a romantic getaway at his beach house. Bucky Barnes x Reader (DILF AU)

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➪ @coldfingers-warmheart

vita brevis *

you’ve had a small crush for the single dad next door, and a warm summer day can change it all dilf!bucky

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➪ @houseravenclaws

never again

natasha likes to touch bucky’s dog tags and bucky, well, he just wants to know why his favorite girl isn’t talking to him.

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➪ @nsfwsebbie

baby, but you *

He hopes you can feel it, because nobody else can heal it but you. Baby, but you

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➪ @coffeecatsandcandles Masterlist

welcome *

You are properly welcomed to the block by your new neighbor. dilf!Bucky Barnes x reader

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➪ @poisonbeauty

i hope he is a gentlemen *

james “call me bucky” barnes was attractive, annoying and your best friend’s brother. not particularly in that order. (bestfriendsbrother!bucky, slight enemies to lovers)

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➪ @onceuponabarnes

sweet as sugar *

reader gets stood up for dinner by her father and dadsbestfriend!bucky is there to make sure she’s okay

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➪ @loveaffaire

dark little paradise *

James Buchanan Barnes walked like a god and people couldn’t believe you made him weak. Oh, you really did make him weak. Mob Boss!Bucky Barnes x reader

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➪ @winter-james

injury *

Bucky being injured from a mission and reader doesn’t wanna have sex with him because she’s afraid to hurt him but he convinces her he’s okay?

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➪ @breadqueen95

dress

bucky and y/n’s relationship is new, and they don’t want to share with their friends just yet. but something as simple as a dress can change anyone’s mind, even the winter soldier. bucky barnes x fem!reader

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#thank you so much #lots of love

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onceuponabarnes · 3 years

Note

Imagine the Winter Soldier being given a little to take care of when he’s not on a mission. She was kidnapped and taken to where he is. He brings her toys and stuffed animals when he returns from missions. She’s extremely little every time he comes home because she’s all alone.

little dove

summary: you’re winter’s little dove. and he’d do anything for you.

w/c: 1k

note: i had a brainwave with this one so i had to start writing it straight away hahah😭 i’ll have another part of the bucky and zemo series out very soon!! and another part of their angel💞

The first thing that you remember are his eyes.

Those piercing blue eyes boring holes into your very soul; the rest of his face is obscured by a mask, and he stares down at you curiously, as though he’s never seen another living human before.

“Who a-are you?” you stutter through your tears and he cocks his head quizzically, as though he doesn’t have an answer to your question. As you begin to sob even harder, he scoops you up in his arms, sitting you in his lap and shushing you. For a so-called killing machine, he’s so gentle with you. He handles you as though you’re made of porcelain — as though you may break with a single touch.

He’s your only source of comfort, and you cling to him at all times. Except, of course, when he goes on missions. And then you’re left all alone.

You often cry when he’s not with you, because none of this makes sense without him. He’s your only person; he takes care of you and rocks you to sleep at night. He feeds and bathes and kisses you. And the longer he’s gone for, the less able you are to do those things by yourself. You lose the ability to do so much as string a coherent sentence together. You cry for him every waking hour that he’s away, trying your best to soothe yourself with stuffies, but it rarely works. You need him.

And that’s what you’re doing right now — cradling a stuffy in the corner of the cold, concrete cell, rocking back and forth in a desperate attempt to calm yourself.

By the time he returns, you’ve gone completely non-verbal, the only sounds you make being soft whimpers and whines.

“мой принцесса.” he coos quietly, holding his arms out for you; you immediately push yourself up on shaky legs, staggering into his waiting embrace and burying your face into his neck.

My princess.

He’d kill for you. He’d live for you and die for you and do anything in between. You’re the only one he cares about.

“Shhh.” he calms you, letting his unexpected warmth seep into your pores and settle in your bones, tranquility flooding your every nerve. He’s the only thing that can make your brain stop screaming.

“I got you something.” he whispers; he doesn’t often speak English, but he will for you. Because you find it hard to understand him in this small state of mind. You peel your face out of its hiding place to look at him curiously, and he pulls out a pink rabbit stuffy. The fur is soft to the touch and as he hands it to you, you hold it to your chest tightly, inhaling his scent from it.

“Tank you.” you mumble meekly, and he chuckles, carrying you to the hard bed and laying down with you draped across his chest.

“Dada…” you mutter quietly into the fabric of his suit, and he wraps his arms more tightly around you.

“мой маленький голубь.” My little dove.

You fall asleep like that, pressed against his chest with his arms around you, hands curled into his clothes in an attempt to mould yourself into him.

Every time he leaves you, you retreat back into yourself. No matter how many agents come to check on you or assist you when Winter’s gone, you don’t speak. You become a ball of anxiety and worry — anxiety that can’t be calmed until you’re back in your Daddy’s arms.

Generally, you’re so little by the time that he returns that you can barely stand or talk. When you catch sight of him, you cry. The feeling of being back with him is so euphoric that it’s unbearable. Overwhelming. You’re totally dependent on him, your whole being aching when you’re apart. He’s your rock and you’re his little dove.

When he returns from his next mission, you try to walk to him as he’s thrown back into the cell, but you’re so little that your legs give out and you crumple against the cold concrete. Soft sobs overtake your body and you collapse in on yourself, tears streaming down your plump cheeks.

“голубь.” he coos, scooping you into his embrace and holding you tightly as you wrap yourself around him, legs around his waist and arms around his neck, placing desperate kisses to the side of his face, saliva mixing with tears as they trickle first down your face and then his. His rough stubble scratches at your face but you can’t find it in yourself to care, pressing your face further into his as he hoists you up in his hold, carrying you to the bed and sitting you on his lap.

“‘m s-sorry.” you sob into the crook of his neck and he shushes you.

“You’re okay. Shh. Dada’s got you.” he croons, rocking you gently as you weep. You lift your head to look him in the eyes, pushing his hair out of his face and running your thumbs across his cheeks.

“Hi, маленький голубь.” Hi, little dove.

“Hi, Dada.” you giggle through your tears and his lips pull up into an almost smile. Your breath begins to return to normal, your ragged pants ceasing as you press your forehead against Winter’s.

“Better?”

“Mhm.”

“Clever girl.” he praises, tugging you further into his body.

“M-missed you.” you hiccup quietly and he chuckles. “I lub you.”

“I love you too, принцесса.” He taps his lips gently with his finger and you know what he’s asking immediately. You lean down, planting a kiss to them; he smiles into the kiss and traces his hands lightly down your sides, making you shiver. You whine softly, curving your body away from his hands.

“Dada!”

The only time he smiles is when he’s with you. Nothing else makes sense in this life. No one else cares for him as you do; nothing else is worth living for.

His life may be confusing and miserable and painful, but at least he has you. And one day, you’ll get out.

Together.

Just him and his little dove.

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