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Emotional Abuse

I have a little something to say to people stuck in a mentally abusive Realtionship. I was stuck in one for a year and a half before I finally escaped. At the start of the Realtionship he cheated on me and that should've been the end but he got me to stay. I was so worried he'd commit suicide without me so I stayed. I told him he could not longer see the girl he cheated on me with and I think that's fair. Slowly things got worse. I felt like I couldn't hang out with my friends. I didn't realize how he was slowly making me fully dependant on him. Like I had no one else. I slowly felt farther and farther away from myself. I found myself more depressed then ever before. Then he told me I couldn't talk to one of my guy friends. I snapped and broke up with him but he convinced me back promising he'd change. That's the thing, if they don't change the first time, they aren't changing. Time went on and I knew problems where getting bad. More and more of my friends encouraged me to break up with him. I agree you'll always have those few friends that don't support your Realtionship but if all of your friends are telling you to leave I highly suggest to at least evaluate the Realtionship. He began letting his anger out on me and yelling at me for things that weren't my fault. He'd deal with his problems by letting them out on me. I'd always tell him don't let yourself be alone. I'm not the only person here for you you have other people here as well let them in! And I understand it's hard to let someone in but he had alot more people there for him then he realized and maybe if he listened things would've gone differently. Time went on I was hurting like hell. Feeling like shit because of the things he said I felt useless like I amounted to nothing. Nothing I ever did was good enough. I started talking to someone and I did begin to like them but I never cheated. I could never cheat on someone I don't have the heart. Finally I wrote out a pros and cons list. I looked at the list in front of me and I knew I had to leave. Not because I liked someone else but for myself. I knew he was hurting me and I could no longer take it. It was breaking my heart day by day. So I left I left and I was free. I felt so happy. I never cheated I had no intention of getting back with him. I never kissed that guy I liked. I told him I did but I lied. I was hoping it's make him not want to be with me. Like maybe he'd let me be. It was wrong of me to lie but even if I had kissed him, that's not cheating, we weren't together. However he texted me again. Asking for another chance. Saying he'd change. I believed him. I went back again. I didn't have high hopes of him changing and why I put myself through it again I don't know. Finally my best friend got me to leave. I finally agreed I had to go. So I left. And now I'm free. I didn't let his paragraphs of begging get to me. I didn't go back this time. But anyone who thinks it's impossible to leave something like that, it's not. It's possible it's hard but not impossible. I thought I could help him but I couldn't. I failed. I really did care for him and I'm sorry they ended how they did. I hate how he now tells lies about me calling me a cheater. Telling people I manipulated him. But none of that's true. I tried with everything I had to make his day a little better. Try to help him anyway I could and I was shut out, I was snapped on. I was guilt tripped when things didn't go his way. Leaving was one of the hardest things I've ever done. And it's been so painful to hear the things he says about me and hearing these labels people are putting on me without even knowing me. All those promises tht he told me he'd keep he didn't. He promised he'd never get me labeled as a slut but he did just that so thank you. Thank you for all your lies and manipulation. But yk what. At least my story can be the truth and at least now I'm free. Now I'm happy. Without him.

#emotionalabuse #abuse #emotions #boyfriend #depression #sadness #my story

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Digital Notes: a how to

Alrighty guys I’m going to make a master post of how I use the app Goodnotes. Ive been getting some questions and I think this shoud answer a bunch!

*extremely long post- sorry!*

All of your files show up in your library organized to your liking.

You can choose whatever kind of paper that suits your fancy!

If you click the zoom tool at the top of the tool bar you get this handy dude. Its zoomed in box that you write in to make it easier.

change your pen color to whatever makes you happy…

You can even change the color of your ink after the fact! Use the little lasso tool in the tool bar to circle what you want changed. Hold down and some options come up- choose color and then go to town.

writing is super smooth because of this fantastic blue box- every time you get close to the edge of your ipad screen, it’ll come up. Simply start writting in it and the box will shift over.

If you use that lasso tool again you can convert your handwriting to text!

Click the 3 little circles in the upper right> search and you can search within your stuff!

Theres also an insert bubble for whatever glorious thing you want

use the shape guide tool to make perfect squares/lines/triangles/etc..

(You can import images too! ^)

Don’t forget your highlighter!

Change your line thickness under pen settings…

Print!! Perfect for getting physical copies of your notes to mark up.

Also export…

There you have it! Happy note-taking :)

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paintingalloftherosesred · 7 years

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So, yes, there is a Percy Jackson version of Mad Libs coming out May 30. Be honest. Is this not *exactly* how you imagined Percy looking?

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The fact that Head and Shoulders doesn’t have a body wash named Knees and Toes disappoints me almost as much as I disappoint my parents

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How To Study For Final Exams?

The secret for a successful final exam preparation is a plan! After three years of college, I developed a strategy for an effective final exam study session. Here it is:

1. How much time do you have left?

The very first step is to determine how much time is left and how much material you need to cover during this period.

Count how many days you have left before the final (e.g. 6 days)

Count how many chapters and sections in this chapters you need to study (e.g. 4 chapters with 5 sections in each => 4 ch x 5 sec = you have 20 sections in total)

You need to spread 20 sections through 5 days and leave 1 last day for a total review. Here you have 4 sections per day.

If your chapters are not broken down into sections you can either break them down into sections yourself or just use the number of chapters. You can also use the number of points in your study guide if you have one.

I like this strategy because it customizes a study plan for any class and time you have left.When I know what I need to finish every day in order to kill this final, it makes me less stressed and more motivated.

2. Determine what you know and what you don’t know

Let’s use your time efficiently. Don’t waste your time on what you already know, focus on information that you don’t understand or don’t remember.

If you have a study guide, look through it and circle points that you can’t answer from the top of your head.

If you don’t have a study guide, go over your notes or your student book, and analyze the material. Write down the topics that you’re not 100% confident about (you don’t have to be specific here, just make a simple outline). That’s gonna be your personal study guide.

3. Study Plan

When you know how much you need to study every day, you need to create a study plan. The study plan includes what do you need to do with all this material. It can be reading, rewriting notes, practicing problems, memorizing formulas, and etc. As you can see, the study plan will depend on the class and the chapter.

To create a study plan write down what you need to do every day.

E.g. Day 1: you need to finish reading 4 sections, rewriting and memorizing definitions you don’t know yet, then you need to practice 2 problems per section.

Do this sort of thing for every day and for every class you have a final for, and this is gonna be your final exam study plan.

4. Track your progress

It’ll motivate you

It’ll make you feel accomplished

It’ll make you stay on track every day

I usually track my progress crossing out the number of sections I’ve done. I draw it as a “download bar”.

Every class is different so they will have a different amount of material.

5. Switch subjects

Don’t study for one class 5 hours in a row! Switch subjects, give yourself a break, eat.. There’s a Pomodoro technique when you study for about 30 minutes and then have a 5-minute break, and then study for 30 minutes.

For me, 30 minutes isn’t enough for one study session. I usually study 1 hour and then have a break or I finish 1-2 sections (depending on their size), and then have a break and move on to another subject.

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