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IGNORE THIS I’M REALLY NOT IN A GOOD FUCKING MOOD AND I JUST NEED TO VENT 

I HAVE NOTHING AGAINST ANYBODY ON HERE I’M JUST REALLY SOUR AND PISSED AND THIS IS THE ONLY PLACE I CAN SCREAM INTO THE VOID

I NEED TO JUST SCREAM.

my whole fucking family did NOTHING for years in terms of emotional support or help while i was going through some very low depressive periods.

I had to manage myself, get to a psychologist by myself as soon as I hit 18, and act like everything was fine for a long fucking time, and I apparently successfully did that, since my own fucking brother came into my room and simply tried to just....pep talk me?????? saying that i just need to get my shit back together???? Saying that he’s worried I’ll become like my schizophrenic hoarder aunt? THe same dude who just fucking screamed at me and just fucking never lets me speak when we debate?????

my fucking mother has to basically try and pry any type of information from me because she realized she missed the time when we could’ve built a good relationship, so NOW she wants to try again. Fuck her. I’m tired, I don’t want ANYBODY closer than what I want. And most importantly I don’t give a flying fuck about her. NOt anymore. I am civil and polite, because that’s what I know is the right thing to do, BUT i can’t fucking wait to just get the fuck out and never see them again.

They never cared, they never will, and if NOW they act like they ever did I will never believe them. I’m fine with having a cold relationship with them, roommate-ish, but if they fucking dare to get closer than that I’ll lose it. I’m lying through my fucking teeth to them. I don’t even fucking care anymore. 

My bed of lies will forever be more comfortable than the bed of thorns THEY want me to lie in.

I am not scared of ending all of this, I just need a fucking push and that’s it. I have nothing to my name, and nobody will shed a single fucking tear for the worthless piece of garbage that I am. I have the letter ready, I’ve had that since 2018, Just need to tweak a few things and that’s it. Or maybe I should just do it without leaving anything and just disappearing.

I’ve done nothing of note, I haven’t wrote anything that I can proudly claim as mine, just stupid fucking poetry of a fakely depressed dumbass who has had their heart broken a couple of times and decided to ultimately isolate themselves, one that can barely bring themselves to answer an email or a message, one that has lost every single ounce of lust for life. I’ve always thought I wasn’t even supposed to reach the mark of my 18th year on this planet, so maybe I’m just a little bit late and can still catch up with the promise I muttered when I tried to die the first time.

#tw suicide #tw suicidal thoughts #tw family #tw death #mery's ranting #please don't judge me or interact with this post #hell don't even fucking read it and just skip it this is solely to avoid a complete mental breakdown

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Blog: *goes inactive for a couple of months*

Random inactive porn blogs:

#lmao #mery's vibing #still kind of on hiatus

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So guess who just "finished" minecraft for the first time bc they had always thought it was a cringy kids game and never played it before

#this game and the witcher really cockblocked me from studying <3 #fuck dude I'm sad #mery's vibing #still kind of on hiatus

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Yes i had to use them for this 😂

Heelstylerollins follow forever

I've been on tumblr for 6 years and never done one of this, might as well start doing them.

I know this year was rough for a lot of people, I'm fortunate enough to be healthy and in good spirits (hope you all are too).

This year I created 2 side blogs and made a lot of friends, so I wanted to let you all know that i appreciate each and everyone of you, even if we've never talked, I love you and you deserve the very best 💜

@junglecassidy @wxstethenxght @brodieleesclothesline @omegabaybay @hootyhoobaybee @yahtzeekick @bastardkingbrutalizer @musicismylife120191 @silverhardted @dustinandgreg4ever @your-darkdiva @linziland13 @meteora-fc @insaneelbow @sniwstrom @lghockey @orangechuckiet @savenas-wrestling @furiarossa @abadamn @darbs @yourprincessisinanothermoshpit @gingergidget @sadie-deegan @mandrewsjr @notoriouscrown @flawlessglamazon @sassymox @marekbrave @blackiechuu @dreambig63 @litasmoonsault @shinyfalcon4 @ilovesamizayn @comeasyoudar @mostlywrestlingstuff @bigdunneenergy @noflipsjustmills @iiconiclifepartners @thebrunetteavenger @babebaszler @pebblesagainstaewswindow @leelakoiwolff @hanakimura @poohbear1410 @snarkandsarcasmftw @drewsmcintyres @hungmanhorsecarriage @rusevday @bonzogonzopod

Tumblr only let's me tag 50 blogs, sorry if you're not included here, and sorry if tumblr doesn't tell you I've tagged you, you know this things don't work.

Still, much love.

-K

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Come get this dick-fil-a

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how are yall coping with the tumblr/facebook merger. god we really are in hell aren’t we

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via gracespelman

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THIS IS YOUR FINAL WARNING TO GET YOUR MEDS BEFORE THE PHARMACIES CLOSE

they are going to be CLOSED OVER THE HOLIDAYS and so will the DOCTORS WHO SIGN YOUR PRESCRIPTIONS.

if you don't have enough meds to last the next THREE WEEKS, put in for your repeats and refills tomorrow! that's Wednesday! do it! don't go to hospital at New Year because you ran out of stuff!

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I think about this all the time

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this is the curry man. like if you appreciate him. reblog if you would eat his hand-crafted meal. ignore to spit in his artisanal curry and make his 10 children go hungry.

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Triplemania XXVIII

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nice frontal lobe :)

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writing playlist: on

google docs: open

mind: ready

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Just an experiment. Reblog if you actually give a fuck about male victims of domestic violence and rape.

Of fucking course

What sick bastard doesn’t

#tw sexual assault #tw domestic violence #tw rape