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You’ve grown into someone who would have protected you as a child. And that is the most powerful move you made.

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WIP game

Tagged by @locallegume because of course I was ( •̀ - •́ )

This is a sister oneshot to my first one Memento Mori, a follow-up of sorts.

Brace yourselves my dudes, this is going to be a long one.

#personal #tag game #ily kc can i punch you #affectionately 🖤

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Druid Grove ⟶ Murals

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Sorrow

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One day you think: I want to die. And then you think, very quietly, actually I want a coffee. I want a nap. A sandwich. A book. And I want to die turns day by day into I want to go home, I want to walk in the woods, I want to see my friends, I want to sit in the sun. I want a cleaner room, I want a better job, I want to live somewhere else, I want to live.

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i saw someone on reddit mention this and wanted to see it for myself, so here it is. if you initiate a romance with astarion, but then later pursue someone else, he’ll almost always be catty about it, imply that you have poor taste for choosing someone else over him, and will reject any offer of polyamory on the grounds of either personal standards (ew, you want him to be in a love triangle with who?) or self-preservation (he ain’t fighting lae'zel for your ass lmao).

but if his rival-in-question is karlach…

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he tells you that he hopes you’ll be a comfort to her and turns down your offer of seeing him on the side because he doesn’t want her to get hurt :`)

meanwhile, if you put karlach in the same situation (start out romancing her, then pursue astarion), she’ll also start out quite sweet…

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and then quickly devolve into (affectionately) taking the piss out of astarion for stealing her partner 😁

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“She likes Astarion but threatening to kill him for stealing her bf/gf is also funny to her.” 😂

in sum: they’re frands, your honor

#i love them 🥺

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#personal #mulberry don’t impulsively purge your entire internet presence challenge

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"but there is something that happens when you are told you are too much. you begin to ask everyone, "how small would you like me?""

#ouch

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#me

Alice in Wonderland (1951) dir. Clyde Geronimi, Wilfred Jackson, and Hamilton Luske.

#if that ain't me #i'm a clown

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There are SO many different ways to interpret Ascended Astarion and his relationship with Tav/Durge which is why I find myself so fascinated by that path. One angle I haven't seen talked about too much that I think is so compelling is a resist Durge who happily becomes his consort.

With the caveat that I haven't finished the Durge story in game (but have been spoiled for most of it), I think about a Durge who defeated their father, who is allegedly 'cured' of their urges from doing so, but probably still carries with them the trauma and terror of being controlled like that again. There's an argument that that would make a resist Durge less likely to let A!A turn them, but on the other side of it, what if it's a huge comfort to them?

They're handing control to someone they love and deeply trust as opposed to having the reins be held by some unknown force, or worse, by themselves, who they don't entirely trust, either.

Whether they should trust Astarion could have a hundred different answers depending on someone's HCs for the relationship, but lets roll with the angle that the love between them is genuine.

And Astarion knows that forgoing this control and handing it to him is a relief for Durge; they never have to worry about potentially succumbing to some rogue urge again, if they could theoretically be compelled or otherwise stopped from carrying it out. And I know the general consensus is an embraced Durge could eat A!A for breakfast, so I'm seeing this specifically for a resist Durge angle.

So Astarion hams it up in large part for Durge, because that display of dominance, even when it's somewhat theatrical, is part of that comfort. Reminds Durge they're in good hands, someone's looking out for them, they're not alone, in the sort of ways they need to be reminded of all of that. They never have to be afraid again; he did promise that, after all.

#resist durge x aa is everything #this was beautifully written #it’s my exact interpretation of the relationship

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Alice in Wonderland (1951) dir. Clyde Geronimi, Wilfred Jackson, and Hamilton Luske.

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Porco Rosso (1992) dir. Hayao Miyazaki