raine-but-irl

[raine-but-irl]

its raptonin time !

its raptonin time !

[raine-but-irl]

[raine-but-irl]

:3

[raine-but-irl]

you ever just feel like youve fucked up like, a tremendous amount, and theres no going back whatsoever? yeah...

#vent #its kjust like #i had this friend awhile back who i rlly admired but one day they randomly blocked me #annd all ive wanted to do since was just know why or get some closure or something...

[raine-but-irl]

I think I shld log off of tumblr for like, ever…

#Context: nyadailydoodles grimace shake post… #cw for suicide joke… #It’s not funny it’s fucked up and if any of you fuckers rb it it’s on fucking SIGHT #This post is nsrs it’s just the doodle ruined my whole night homestly like… seeing my favorite character like that fucking… #Jesus Christ…

[raine-but-irl]

I decided I might be doing next week of school too actually. I did NOT realize there would be this much fun. gonna bring UNO I feel just to have some fun, maybe ask my mom if I can bring any treats of any kind idfk

#I realized the reason im always so sad ab school is just WOWEEE do all schools treat students poorly.. #only when teachers just let kids have fun and chat.. wow Ive never felt this alive in school EVER jesus fucking christ... #only con is i have to do math work still bc i cant just SKIP class and he wants to prep us for next yr...

[raine-but-irl]

whilst im complaining ab. school and shit. I cannot WAIT until next year when the halls are even MORE monitored and rules are STRICTER just because some people CANNOT wait till the end of the school day, off school grounds, to fucking throw hands.

#LIKE 1st period thursday is fucking insane #mfs couldve waited till the end of the day but NOOOOO #one of them punched a sweet old lady teacher IN THE FUCKIHG EYE #i hate my school why is there always a fight around exam season what the fuck dude. #grroar !!!!! #i hope they can actually address it rather than just stop by classrooms for a tiny bit liek 'hey everyones all good right ye ok cool' #LIOKE #dude that shit was happening RIIIIGHT outside of my clasroom !!! #I WAS FUCKING HESRING IT ALLLLL GO DOWN !!!! #WHAT THE FUCK !!! #im still p shook tbh #my school needs 2 better communicate everything and that includes their obscure-ass policies and whatnot

[raine-but-irl]

as happy as I am that tomorrow is the last day Im obligated to go to school by any standards, I have such a weird knot in my stomach. I KNOW some kids im friends with/know will be coming back next year but I cant help but feel... weird. Idk how to explain it I feel scared kind of that maybe something could change over the summer and one of them will just not be there anymore

#note: I am one of the few ppl who lives rlly close to my school #I know someone else who lives rlly close #but other ppl live in whoooole other towns!! #god I hope they dont just leave.. #ik at least 2 ppl im #friends-ish with r returning bc student council stuff #but what about the one friend i reaaally have/only person i rlly care ab.... #vent #im jusat. scared. #idk #i always worry smth could happen... #i hope next yr im more like. open/social or whtvr and can actually make more than one friend...

[raine-but-irl]

you ever see SUCH a display of "how the fuck can u even do such a senseless thing" it makes you lose your fucking mind??

#this is ab my city's teachers union deciding to blame our principal for issues THEY caused #ALSO ab how apparently the teachers have been VERY unprofessional #im talking 'hour-long session to say things they hate about this guy' unproffessional #AND most of it is behind his back #hes literally SUCH a great person he doesnt deserve this!! the lack of communication is not solely HIS fault!! #hes not the only one at fault for every issue this damn school has !!! #'im so pissed #bc WHYYY bring up these concerns only at the end of the year ???? like #AND almost no one outside of the student council even KNOWS ab this whole issue #like theres chalk and papers set up on the outside of my swchools enterance to educate students #I bet these fuckers are gonna use the several fights that've happened as 'a display of incompetence' on the principals part #like miss me with that shit tbh

[raine-but-irl]

I GOT A 30% ON MY FUCKING SCIENCE QUIZ HOW THE FUCK DOES THAT EVEN. FUCKING HAPPEN. IM GONNA FAIL THIS CLASS 💪💪💪💪🔥🔥🔥🔥💯💯💯💯

#FUCK !!!!!! #WORST SHIT EVER !!!!!!!!!

[raine-but-irl]

fucking forgot I have like two quizzes today.

#gonna cry #wtf

[raine-but-irl]

goddamn bro my mom reaaaaaallllly needs to take a chill pill or 2 bro

#this is a certified unpog moment #pogn't #shitty even #vent #anyways ngl I think these white american sayings are actually the funniest way by default 2 deal w shitty situations mann #take a chill pill #cool it pal #slow your roll

[raine-but-irl]

bro why am I still even paying a semblance of attention in Science class if I got a 43/100 on a science quiz what??? like nothing we learn in that class properly ties to what is on the quiz, even the best kids got low grades ????

#SHE DOESNT EVEN HAVE A SCIENCE DEGREE APPARENTLY ??? #SHE WAS AN ENGLISH TEACHER??? #WHAT IS SHE DOING TEACHING SCIENCE LIKE IM SORRY WHAT??? #raine's rambles

[raine-but-irl]

Sometimes I genuinely feel absolutely useless and like I can't do anything right no matter how fucking hard I try I always fuck up something I can never do anything properly and I fucking hate it and I fucking hate it so much

#this whole day all I've done is fuck things up no matter HOW hard I tried to do even the simplest thing #all I can do is fuck everything up... #my stupid fucking knee hurts and my back hurts and I burnt my hand and hit my fucking leg in the car and I fucking hate it all...

[raine-but-irl]

Totally fake, hypothetical, unreal scenario; what to do if you find out a few kids in a higher grade think you, your crush, and one of your crush's friends are a polycule

#GIRL HELP THIS IS CRAZY... #totally didnt happen

[raine-but-irl]

I may be bitchless, I may be a simp, I may be a silly goose incapable of ever asking anyone out, but at least I can hold hands with my super cute crush

#Idk I just think I deserve to gloat at least ONCE on you meanies!! >:( #it just seems like a cool thing to talk about? #Idk. just wanna share my feelings....

[raine-but-irl]

you ever have that feeling, like your arms are too empty and you wish you had someone to love or hug?

I guess this is why stuffed animals exist... to fill the gap between arms every night

#Ik I shouldnt even be complaining rn esp bc Im 'too young to care' or whatever but idk... sometimes I just want a hug yk? #I just want to embrace someone...