So I realized, I need to develop a more intimate relationship with my devata, because if I don't confide in him then it's like I'm asking him to help me then I run off and try to handle whatever problems I have by myself and he's there like "ab Kiya karu"
Short one but quite important, I even got a post on Instagram from Hanuman ji and it said "talk to me like I'm your friend not just your god" and Bhagwan gives me alot of signs like this, I'd be scrolling and randomly a reel will pop up that answers a question I've been pondering.
I want to sit at Shri Rama's feet and look at Him. No words , no wishes and no rants. Just watch the Divine serenity of His face and lose myself His eyes. He is an ocean of peace. I don't have the merit to dive into it but what I can do is sit on its shores and admire it.
And this is my Bestie. All I want to do is barge into the gardens where He is sitting and pour out all my problems to Him. He would listen to it all and pat my head and tell me "Don't worry Sakhi. Your Sakha is there, always has been"