relatable-psychosis

[relatable-psychosis]

Tfw when you know every random word that seems out of place means something, and you have to put it together so you can get back to the real world

#tpfw #psychotic #psychosis #unreality cw

[relatable-psychosis]

tpfw you doubt if you are actually psychotic bc you yourself arent even real let alone your thoughts/feelings/memories

#tpfw #psychotic #psychosis

[relatable-psychosis]

*decay mention* tfw touching my own skin disgusts me because that's not actually my body™,,, it's just a decaying corpse that I'm trapped inside as punishment for something awful that I did but can't remember ://

#tpfw #psychotic #psychosis #death cw #body horror cw #corpses cw

[relatable-psychosis]

#imagery #for holidays #not a feel

[relatable-psychosis]

Tpfw you’re just telling me they’re delusions because I’m not supposed to have this information

#tpfw #psychotic #psychosis #actuallydelusional

[relatable-psychosis]

Tpfw you hallucinate bad smells but people don’t know so you can’t say anything about the smell because it might not be real. So you have to try to look at people’s reactions to see if it’s real. But they might be smelling it and just not reacting for some reason so there’s no way to know if it’s real

#tpfw #psychotic #psychosis

[relatable-psychosis]

This is really really late but my first experience with psychosis was knowing that everyone could read my mind. I’ve known this since at least 14 and I never told anyone so I never knew that not everyone thought like that

Ask answering a request for what the early symptoms of psychosis were for individuals.

#not a feel #community post #am I psychotic #psychotic #psychosis #mind reading cw

[relatable-psychosis]

It’s been a while! >_< This was posted in May. I’m adding the comments others made to this now and shortly after, an ask someone sent in answering this shall be posted. - Mod Alex

@andthenshewentonliving: I started experiencing auditory and tactile hallucinations at 14. It wasnt very intense. Just a man that would follow me around. I actually didnt knkw it was a hallucination. For years I just thought it was my brain registering my more or less untreated depression weird. Actually my depression was probably also a big teller that I was schizophrenic as a teenager but because no one knew I was experiencing hallucinations it was just treated as teenage angst

@birbonify: I told myself my anxiety created monsters. I just thought it was anxiety. I always felt that i just saw the world differently or had an active imagination. Once ir began to negatively affect me is when i realized it was so much more. I also believe in ghosts so it was hard to distinctively tell them apart but now i know how to. When i began to visually hallucinate more, it always physically hurt to see them and i would heavily dissasociate and be so hard to talk down

@happybecchen: My psychotic smyptoms are part of my bpd but I didn’t know they were psychotic at all until i was an adult. I have always had voices in my head and they always spoke in different languages and screamed at me (still do). I was absolutely positively SURE that both of my parents died in a really graphic, bloody car accident whenever they went away for longer than half an hour. Screaming and panicking and grieving sure. Frantically running after them in pyjamas sure. I started getting auditory hallucinations while in my teens, but I still didn’t get what that was. It was mostly people mumbling and laughing in the distance. And now and then I am absolutely, positively sure to smell gas in random places and that it’s gonna blow up any second. It combines weirdly with my constant dissociation. Like constant floaty unrealness yet in that moment positively ‘knowing’ that this (smell/sounds) is happening in that moment 🤔

If it's not a bother or trigger for anyone, I'd like to hear from people who have psychosis how they first notice it starting or how were their early states of psychosis before it comes to what it is now, because, I've heard a little about the early symptoms and they fit quite well for me so far, and it'll take some time til I'm able to go to a psychiatrist, so I'd like to search a little from people who experience and see if I can relate to their experiences

It’s not a bother at all ^^

These were the first droplets of psychosis and my eventual diagnosis in general for me. I’m going holistic in case it helps you more, and ‘cause I don’t mind doing so~

I began having trouble organizing thoughts in my mind. Words would jump and wilt, thoughts would run into and over each other, sometimes just streaming of random ideas and words for lengthy periods of time keeping me from falling asleep or focusing on anything. Then it began affecting my ability to speak, so my grammar would get messed up and it really was the epitome of the phrase “word salad.” It also began to affect my ability to read in a way I’ve outlined here. These things started to occur suddenly and progressed rapidly.

I began to have more odd perceptions more frequently than ever before. Hearing footsteps while home alone, loud bangs from other rooms, balls of light floating, muffled whispering in my head, human noises from a hairdryer, breathing from my bookcase, etc. These have been periodic issues for as long as I can remember in my life, but then they started happening basically every day.

Around the same time, lack of motivation - avolition - hit me hard, I started isolating myself more, and insomnia hit an all time high.

There were issues that started while growing up which were recognized but there wasn’t a context for them. When the above started cascading, a new context became clear: catatonic behavior (scroll to abnormal motor behavior), lack of emotional expression (reductions in the expression of emotions in the face, eye contact, and movements of the hand, head, and face that normally give an emotional emphasis to speech) and a monotone voice, painful sensory overload, and illogical thinking leading into delusional thought and poor behavior. Like for years off and on since elementary school, I’ve believed there’s a dead girl in my closet and it makes it harder for me to fall asleep, I try not to be in my room as much, pile things up outside the closet door, think I have to act a certain way if I am in my room, etc.

If others wish to chime in, I’ll post their asks/submissions as I receive them, and also reblog any comments left. And to you, feel free to keep writing here as you await your appointment and at any time, really ^^- Mod Alex

#not a feel #community post #am I psychotic #monsters cw #ghosts cw #death cw #tracking cw #parents ment #family ment

[relatable-psychosis]

Being heavily medicated and still having hallucinations that just won't go away

#tpfw #psychotic #psychosis #medication cw

[relatable-psychosis]

Delusions

Does Anyone else always think their ex or crush is in your closet watching you?

#community post #submission #watching cw

[relatable-psychosis]

Tpfw your friend was never your friend & has been using you as a filler for her life. You are just space to her. Everyone is looking out to steal your soul. You must be guarded & hypervigilant at all times. Smile & you're weak. Don't smile & you're crazy\ too uptight .Your parents don't love you & have no spiritual ties to you. You must escape into yourself further away from others & closer to God. Most people are wrong & your voice is right . I don't feel psychotic I just feel the truth.

#tpfw #psychotic #psychosis #parents ment #family ment #god cw #religion cw

[relatable-psychosis]

Tpfw you had been doing so well for a weirdly long amount of time but you suddenly start hearing and seeing things again

#tpfw #psychotic #psychosis

[relatable-psychosis]

tpfw someone jokes that they can read minds so then you have to do the thing to block your thoughts from them because they’re telling the truth

#tpfw #psychotic #psychosis #mind reading cw

[relatable-psychosis]

tpfw you start reading this page and start to believe other people’s delusions

#tpfw #psychotic #psychosis

[relatable-psychosis]

Tpfw you decide to stay at an air bnb but you have to be very careful because you know the host put tiny cameras everywhere

#tpfw #actuallydelusional #psychotic #psychosis #cameras cw #watching cw

[relatable-psychosis]

tpfw you're not even really yourself, the actual owner of this body died two years ago and you've been possessing it since, and you feel like you're lying to their friends every day by pretending to be them

#tpfw #actuallydelusional #psychotic #psychosis #possession cw #death cw

[relatable-psychosis]

*Trigger warning* tpfw the voices in your head are perverts and want to rape you.

#tpfw #psychotic #psychosis #rape cw #violence cw #sex cw