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Erika L. Sánchez, from Lessons on Expulsion: Poems; “Amá”

[Text ID: “In One Hundred Years of Solitude, / Márquez wrote that we are birthed / by our mothers only once, but life obligates / us to give birth / to ourselves over and over.”]

#words

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Richard Siken

#poetry #reunion au

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siken, four proofs

#yeees #trust the narrative #the process #words

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So, okay, fun fact. When I was a freshman in high school… let me preface by saying my dad sent me to a private school and, like a bad organ transplant, it didn’t take. I was miserable, the student body hated me, I hated them, it was awful.

Okay, so, freshman year, I’m deep in my “everything sucks and I’m stuck with these assholes” mentality. My English teacher was a notorious hard-ass, let’s call him Mr. Hargrove. He was the guy every student prayed they didn’t get. And, on top of ALL OF THE SHIT I WAS ALREADY DEALING WITH, I had him for English.

One of the laborious assignments he gave us was to keep a daily journal. Daily! Not monthly or weekly. Fucking daily. Handwritten. And we had to turn it in every quarter and he fucking graded us. He graded us on a fucking journal.

All of my classmates wrote shit like what they did that day or whatever. But, I did not. No, sir. I decided to give the ol’ middle finger to the assignment and do my own shit.

So, for my daily journal entries, over the course of an entire year, I wrote a serialized story about a horde of man-eating slugs that invaded a small mining town. It was graphic, it was ridiculous, it was an epic feat of rebellion.

And Mr. Hargrove loved it.

It wasn’t just the journal. Every assignment he gave us, I tried to shit all over it. Every reading assignment, everyone gushed about how good it was, but I always had a negative take. Every writing assignment, people wrote boring prose, but I wrote cheesy limericks or pulp horror stories.

Then, one day, he read one of my essays to the class as an example of good writing. When a fellow student asked who wrote it, he said, “Some pipsqueak.”

And that’s when I had a revelation. He wanted to fight. And since all the other students were trying to kiss his ass, I was his only challenger.

Mr. Hargrove and I went head-to-head on every assignment, every conversation, every fucking thing. And he ate it up. And so did I.

One day, he read us a column from the Washington Post and asked the class what was wrong with it. Everyone chimed in with their dumbass takes, but I was the one who landed on Mr. Hargrove’s complaint: The reporter had BRAZENLY added the suffix “ize” to a verb.

That night I wrote a jokey letter to the reporter calling him out on the offense in which I added “ize” to every single verb. I gave it to Mr. Hargrove, who by then had become a friendly adversary, for a chuckle and he SENT IT TO THE REPORTER.

And, people… The reporter wrote back. And he said I was an exceptional student. Mr. Hargrove and I had a giggle about that because we both knew I was just being an asshole, but he and the reporter acknowledged I had a point.

And that was it. That was the moment. Not THAT EXACT moment, but that year with Mr. Hargrove taught me I had a knack for writing. And that knack was based in saying “fuck you” to authority. (The irony that someone in a position of authority helped me realize that is not lost on me.)

So, I can say without qualification that Mr. Hargrove is the reason I am now a professional writer. Yes, I do it for a living. And most of my stuff takes authorities of one kind or another to task.

Mr. Hargrove showed me my dissent was valid, my rebellion was righteous, and that killer slugs could bring a city to its knees. Someone just needs to write it.

#on writing #oh to have teachers like this #a soft life

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I really feel tremendous grief for friendships that kind of petered away in the face of life's currents. There are people with whom I formed deep, unique, vibrant, life-changing connections, and then we had to go our separate ways and it was too hard to maintain long-distance. There wasn't a fight, it just sort of faded. And I feel like I have more friendships like this than friendships that have endured, so maybe I just have to get used to it. But if grief is all the love we have left over - well, I never did get to finish loving them. I love them, and I miss them, and I probably always will.

#uf #on friendship #words

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Fabio Quartararo at the 2022 MotoGP Awards Ceremony.

#fabio quartararo #prettiest boy

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(Aron Canet via Instagram Story | 29.05.2022)

#fabio quartararo #THIS CAME TO MY ATTENTION AGAIN AND I AM INSANE ABOUT IT #stupid boys (affectionate) #it's a three-way street au

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This is why I love them ❤️

#them them them #rosquez #precious boys

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what art does for us

john berger and our faces, my heart, as brief as photos \ larissa pham the limits of the viral book review \ frantz (2016) dir. françois ozon \ johann wolfgang von goethe the sorrows of young werther (tr. david constantine)

kofi

#beautiful #a soft life #on writing

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love is found in the kitchen

@bumble-meadow \ amy schmidt (via @metamorphesque) \ william matthews selected poems and translations, 1969-1991: “onions” \ joy harjo the woman who fell from the sky: “perhaps the world ends here” \ lucille clifton the collected poems of lucille clifton: “cutting greens” \ @foxesdontscareme​ \ alfred corn present: “wonderbread” \ ella risbridger in the kitchen: essays on food and life (via @girlfictions​) \ aimee nezhukumatathil lucky fish: “baked goods” \ @librarybi​ \ @entriesee​

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#oh god i have tears in my eyes #this is extremly gorgeous #food is love #a soft life #web weaving #reunion au

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history keeps pulling me down

Falling, Florence + the Machine // The Fall of Icarus, Rene Milot // Fallen Angel, Andreas Birath

#ouch #web weaving

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Unknown / Down In A Hole - Alice In Chains / Devil In Me - Halsey / To the Countess of Blessington - Lord Byron / The Lament for Icarus - Herbert James Draper / Angel On Fire - Halsey / Cocoa Hooves - Dave Bayley / Bloodsport, “When Rome Falls” - Yves Olade / Stone Milk, “The Myth of Medea” - Anne Stevenson

#web weaving #reunion au

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After 25 years in the sport, Valentino Rossi has officially announced his plans to retire at the end of the 2021 season.

He leaves MotoGP as the rider that has arguably had the most impact on two wheel racing and with an immense legacy behind him. Across all categories, Rossi currently has 424 starts, 115 wins, 235 podiums, 65 pole positions, and 9 world championships. The Doctor’s last race will be in November at the Valencian GP.

This era of motorcyle racing ends and a new chapter begins.

#valentino rossi #oh op these are gorgeous #i adore them so much

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Fabio Quartararo - B3tter podcast

Fabio did a podcast with some of his friends. Seemed like it was filmed the first week of March. I took a couple of notes that you'll find below.

He was in Mykonos on the 14th of July (2022) when he was named “Chevalier de la Légion d’Honneur” (an honorific title that’s given to people in France), he says that it was an additional reason to party.

He explains that he speaks so well Spanish because he lived in Spain when he was young and he’s been living in Andorra for over 5 years.

His parents sacrificed a lot between his 8 and 13 years old (because they didn’t necessarily have a lot of money) and after that, a year of competition cost about 150 000 euros but he was lucky to have a team supporting him (without this support, he would have had to stay home).

His dad put him on a bike when he was 3 and Fabio already knew he wanted to be a MotoGP rider. When he was 6-7, he already had the dream of being a World Champion.

When he was 8 years old, his dad bought him a replica helmet from a Mundial rider and the helmet had a devil drawn on it. Fabio explains that all the kids were calling him “El Diablo, El Diablo” and it stayed. He says that he likes the fact that it can have different meanings. El Diablo is especially when he’s on his bike (when he puts on his helmet). Outside of it, he’s more of an angel (“mas o menos”).

Before every race but especially the ones outside of Europe, he eats a B3tter cereal bar (it’s the brand of his friends who he’s doing the podcast with) (favorite flavor : peanuts).

When asked what he thinks about when he’s on the starting grid, he says “Nothing but winning”. Obviously, you get nervous when you’re winning a championship but it’s a good experience. He says, with a laugh, “you think even less” when you’re in the straight at 350 kph.

Having a good lead in the front of the race is the easiest way to make a mistake because your mind can start thinking about stupid shit (“what I’m going to do after the race, where are we going to eat, what are we going to drink, etc”). The most random thought he had was “what am I going to have for dinner tonight” in the middle of the first race he won in Moto2 (he doesn’t remember what he had for dinner that night but he remembers what he had to drink and has photos from the hungover the next day).

Fabio says that after he won the Championship, there were about 10 days between the two remaining races, and he must have partied 8-9 of those days. They celebrated a lot.

“You don’t think you’re a World Champion, you think about all the bad things that have happened before.”

His mother can’t watch the races, she goes for walk and sometimes checks the live rankings. His father has to be alone and walks a lot around the room. His brother watches with friends, tense too.

(after winning) : “I cried, I don’t know, a liter of tears.”

He spends as much time with his family as he can. When he was 14 and living without them (in Spain) at first he thought it was cool but then he realized it wasn’t that easy.

Every time he makes a big purchase, he talks about it with his family (mother, father, brother).

When asked about how the press was talking about him when he was struggling in Moto2/Moto3 : “It’s not that they were talking badly about me but I was 15 and they were comparing me to the 2 legends of this sport, Rossi and Marquez. It was motivation but also a lot of pressure.”

When people were saying that he didn’t deserve to be in MotoGP and that he was taking the sport of another rider, it wasn’t easy. He explains that if 999 people say something nice and one person says something bad, the bad one will stick. He explains that with time, he learned how to put critics aside. He says the critics did make him stronger in the end (and that people critic really easily).

At the beginning of 2022, if he’d been told that he would finish in the top 3 of the Championship, he wouldn’t have believed it with the trouble they were having with the bike.

He says the bike from the last 3 years was almost identical but the one of 2023 is very different.

When asked if he believed he was the best, he said: “I don’t want to be arrogant but you have to believe in yourself and dream, dreaming is free. He considers himself one of the best but it necessitates a lot of work.” When he won the championship, he kept wondering if he was training enough.

One of the hosts says “when I don’t see a story of Fabio sweating on the treadmill, I worry” and he was joking but you know, valid.

How does he train when they can’t be on the bike? Physical training, motocross/dirt bike (during the winter).

Fabio explains that he’s worked with several nutritionists but it costs him a little mentally. He eats correctly and healthily but he knows it’s important to have a good balance (and for example, he’ll have a pizza if he wants one).

He says that over the last years, the motos have changed a lot and they’re becoming more and more important (compared to the driver). He prefers how it was before.

What’s the motivation after having won the Championship? Win it again. As many times as possible. The feeling is so good when you celebrate (the week post-win is the best week of his life) that you want to experience it again.

He’s currently building a house and he already has room in mind for his 2021 bike.

He still feels happy about winning in 2021. Of course, he was angry when he didn’t win in 2022 but he still remembers that he has that one title already.

Fabio lost his voice for two weeks after the celebrations of his title. They talk about it a lot but he really had a good time back then.

He says he deals with fame alright on his own but it’s harder when he’s with his family and he would just like to have a quiet time with them, especially when he's alone with his niece and his nephew.

When he was a kid, he waited hours in front of Valentino’s hospitality to catch a photo with him.

The advantages of fame? Having the chance of meeting so many people that he couldn’t have met otherwise (football players, singers), getting messages when he won from people that he admired as a kid (MBappé, Neymar).

He’s investing his money in a lot of stuff but he’s also enjoying it a lot and he doesn’t want to be someone that doesn’t spend any money (he quotes the french saying that goes “no one wants to die the richest man”). He’s just not spending more than he can afford.

He offered his dad an M3 car that he won thanks to (one of) his poles. He wants to make his mother cry (with happiness) for all of her birthdays. And it brings tears to his eyes to be able to make his mother happy like that.

They did a round of spicy questions when it was either answering or taking a shot of spicy sauce.

“How many cars do you have and you have to name them all” : took the shot.

Driver on the grid that he gets along with the least? Maverick.

He’s never been partying the day before a race but he went out until 6am after winning Barcelona, he slept for two hours and then did testing.

“Before doing a big effort like a MotoGP race, it’s recommended to not have sexual relationships. Do you follow that rule or not?” : “I’ve skipped it. I’ve skipped it because the first time I did it, I had the best race of my life.” 

Most famous person in his phone? Neymar.

#fabio quartararo #adorable baby

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hello its me the rosquez fic anon and im in need of rosquez lore 🙏 sound off do we think marc hated valentino after sepang? bc i feel like yes bc of that crash and bc valentino blamed him for it, but also no bc he wanted to reconcile right?

JSNSJDHJSHSHS HELLO BESTIE SORRY I JUST SAW THIS well...

i mean he was pissed obviously. like ?? "i was racing ??? if u were faster u could pass me and leave me behind?? but u didn't? so??? i didn't know why you were annoyed and talked shit about it???"

but i don't think he immediately hated vale i think he was like oh yeah that was shitty of vale but people clashed sometimes, tension brew but it was nothing new in motogp. but then, vale talked shit, blamed him for losing the championships, indirectly flaming the hate against him, and culminated into him and his family being attacked in their own house by italian media and i think for a brief time he did hate vale.

before then, i feel like marc thought it was all blown out of the proportion and he was just racing, you know? and he was, well, of all people, vale would understood, in a way. i think he believed that it would blow over, new season will start and maybe it'll take time but you know things will turn back a bit normal. and he was hopeful that they could reconcile and all.

then he arrived to a new season, everyone booing him, cheering when he crashed, vale somehow still not over it and saying he can't control his fans' action toward marc (and jorge), and maybe at times marc resented vale for it. but i don't think marc is type of person who lets it fester, he just used it to fuel him forward and then he won the championship, and another one, another one, and he just stopped caring about vale eventually? like maybe he fucked up, maybe vale did, it was all in the past, he moved on, if vale wanted to reconcile then good, if he doesn't then okay.

tldr: for me, i think marc did hate vale for a while, and it shimmered down into some sort of resentment, before it turned into indifference and he just stopped caring.

#rosquez #cleaning my likes and finding gems like this #god i wish i was there for this

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okay heres the rosquez history™️ im fully copying this from dms i sent my bff so- do not judge how it looks. i am truly sorry for this monstrosity and that you have to read it

okay so vale dominated the mid-2000s, he has 9 world titles, 7 from motogp (or 500cc back then) marc is uhhh 14 years younger i think? and he looked up to vale. like a lot. (he mightve had a poster of vale in his bedroom growing up)

and then marc starts riding in moto3 and moto2 and its like ‘holy shit that kid is so good’ but also he’s insanely aggressive ?? like so aggressive that he essentially develops a new riding style. and around that time there are a bunch of riders in motogp, namely vale and jorge lorenzo (who marc DID ACTUALLY have a poster of i think) telling marc to calm down and ride cleaner.

in 2013 marc moves up to motogp and life is good for him!! so good!! he becomes the youngest race winner ever and then the youngest motogp champion ever and hes like in love with vale and keeps making heart eyes at him but thats ok!! bc vale makes heart eyes at marc all the time too.

so in 2013 and 2014 everything is great 🫶🫶 theyre in love, vale invites marc to the ranch, blablabla theyre gay whatever. but then 2015 it all goes to shit

marc has a bunch of retirements so it becomes pretty clear that hes not winning the title again. but vale is very much in title contention (hes fighting jorge) plus marc and vale have fought like a lot of times on track and uhhh… things arent that great between them? but whatever bc at least its still cordial. until sepang where they’re fighting again and marc crashes and oops!! it looks like vale kicked marcs bike. vale gets a back of the grid penalty for the crash and he cant recover from that so jorge wins the 2015 title! and from that point marc and vale hate. each other. vale thinks that marc fought him so hard bc he didnt want vale to be champion/wanted a spanish rider to be champion and obvi marc is mad about the kick/alleged crash.

in 2016 they seem to make peace for a lil while? but then in 2018 argentine theyre fighting again. and like i said marc is really aggressive so he kind of crashes vale out? ( im biased towards marc he can do no wring sorry) and after the race marc goes over to vales motorhome to apologize but uccio (vales bff/truck driver/idrk hes just always there) sends marc away. vale later says that he did it bc he knew it wasnt a genuine apology ?

yeah and from that point on they just dont talk. they hate each other for a while, sure, but that fades to a dislike, and dislike fades into indifference and they just do not. care anymore

also there are a lot of other moments like the infamous handshake press interview thing, but also they apparently shook hands in private later? and them in 2020 marc crashes, misses a season, comes back in 2021 for like half a season, then vale retired blablabla they just don’t interact anymore but motogp still liked making them sit awkwardly next to each other in press conferences. uhh yeah that’s basically it but marc did talk abt vale recently and he talked abt how vale had a giant impact on the sport and also he said that he wouldnt act differently in 2015 bc vale was the one who lost his temper 💀💀

omg they really are strangers to hero worship to friends to lovers to enemies to reluctant colleagues with history to enemies again to strangers what the fuck. what is in motorsport water that makes men act like this

#rosquez #the history #they fascinate me it's making me insane #yeah im cleaning my likes again

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By popular demand (meaning @remapped-soul and no one else) here it is Valentino Rossi's interview from 10 days ago where he talks again about Marc Marquez.

I titled this clip: "Vale being so very NOT over Marc even after 8 years (and he knows it)"

English translation under the cut!

Full interview here

(Talking about rivarlies)

Interviewer: "When something happens, like the Marquez thing, when you stop the bike, what do you feel inside? Don't you have the need to lash out? It looks tough..."

Valentino: "Well, first of all, with Marquez it was totally different, because it wasn't an on track sporting rivarly anymore. At some point, after the on track rivarly and all of that, he decided to make me lose the championship, letting another rider win, a rider who wasn't even his teammate; actually, he was my teammate (A/N Jorge Lorenzo, the driver who won the championship in 2015). He (Marc) invented a lot of excuses for this, saying that i had done something to him, but the truth is just that, for him, i was the one to destroy, the myth to destroy so that he could become what i was. But thing is, this is something that never happened before: a rider, a champion, who drives to make another rider win. In professional sport, this never happened; that's absurd. That was bad, that was a terrible moment because i had not been able to fight for the win with Lorenzo, during a spectacular year, an year when i had the chance to become 10 time world champion, which could had been the icing of the cake of my career. Not having the chance to fight for the title, and maybe losing it too... I would have been so angry, but in another way, but this, it was such a big injustice, a sore spot that will never go away. Also because, even now, if i think about these last 3 races of 2015, i have the exactly same feeling that i had back then when i crossed the finish line. And it's been 8 years. It's a very deep wound. I think about it even too much, luckily after that i did a bunch of other things in my career that made me happy, but that one thing... That was bad, bad. It was a shame, because i think that at the end it could have been a great fight with Lorenzo, maybe i would have won, maybe not...But it had been a great year so far"

Interviewer: "Well obviously, this is the same thing that all italians think... I remember i was following the race too, and when that thing happened, i was so sad... Everyone felt that way."

Valentino: "Also, it was something that was waiting to happen. It was very clear that he (Marc) would have done that, but the organisation wasn't able to control him, they could have done so much better. I told the stewards too. When we were in Malaysia, he annoyed me during all the race, he tried to make me fall down, then i pulled closer, there was a contact, he said i kicked him, but i didn't, anyway he fell down.. After the race, i thought the stewards would made him start in last position in the next race, but no, they made me start last, after he ruined my race, a crucial race for the title, the second to last of the championship... A championship I was fighting for with another rider, another rider that wasn't even his teammate! So I told the stewards: "look, he will do this: he's going to arrive in Valencia, he's going to defend behind Lorenzo all the time, at the end he won't even overtake him and he will make Lorenzo win the championship and make me lose it". And the stewards looked at me like i was crazy, like they were thinking: "what the fuck is he saying? This is not possible". And yet he did it for real. They should have managed it in a better way. It was a shame, especially for me but for the championship too."

Interviewer: "But in that moment, it didn't occur to you, or maybe you did it, to speak to him and say: "Why? Why are you doing this to me?"

Valentino: "Oh, I talked to him. We were together, and I told him: "Are you realizing what you're doing? You're making a fool out of yourself, everyone will remember you for exactly this thing. Is it worth it? To ruin yourself for making me lose a championship?". But he just looked at me, absent minded, and he didn't answer.

#rosquez #vale's mind is so fascinating to me #i wanna study him under a microscope