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Tw: rant, vent, negstivity

Alright let’s face it, Gavin ain’t coming back as a muse. This also will most likely be my last message. My life is a hot mess rn I don’t feel like I have any control over it and it’s wearing me down to the point I cannot do basic tasks. That being said, roleplaying isn’t possible for me anymore.

Sure, I’ll miss it. Maybe the motivation will come back which is when I’ll make a new blog. But the thing is, I am uncertain of my future. It’s black when I think about it. So who knows if I’ll even still be here.

I’m not gonna try and sugarcoat it. With the lockdown of the country, the cancelling of psych appointments bc they’re redeemed as unimportant, and having no access to help and being stuck in isolation with an abusive parent. It takes its toll on mental health. Who knows I will survive.. Or might not. Like I said, my future is uncertain. One thing I am certain of, is I want peace. I want peace with myself and the evil voice inside my head to be gone. To experience peacefulness. Quiet. And calm.

How? I’m not sure yet as help isn’t available. I do not wish for your pity. I do not wish for your advice. I know very much I need help but alas that isn’t possible at the moment. I do not wish for you all to worry, if you even care that is.

I’ve been living day by day. Constant anxiety looming in the corner. I get sick of it. Sick of the heart palpitations and feeling of someone sitting on my ribcage, squishing the air out of my lungs. Either way I shouldn’t dump all this on you guys.

Who knows, maybe everything will be fine later? And I’ll be back on this blog? Or it’ll waste away and become forgotten, or even deleted.

Right now, all I want is to rest and have a quiet mind. I will be fine. Do not worry.

After all, what’s important is that you stay safe.

#my mind is so contradictory #its frustrating and I want to be normal #but i cannot be normal and never will be bc of my dumb brain #this is basically a goodbye #im sorry I let you all down #but dont mind me #im just a number among the rest #tw:vent #tw: anxiety #tw: mental health #tw:negativity

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//hey uhh, I’m gonna take a two week break. I really want to do replies but I cannot seem to focus enough due to the stupid virus going around and I am in a risk group. I’m getting constant anxiety attacks due to the news that shows how quickly it is spreading and killing people in Belgium. It’s freaking me out and I do not wish to be next. I’m self-isolating so far in hopes it might help. I get bored, I want to roleplay, but alas I do not find the energy to do so. Not now at least.

I will always be reachable through discord so if any of you want to add me:

I hope to be able to return to this soon

#ooc #personal

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Favorite way to receive affection?

Soft sunday meme | Still accepting

To receive? Hugs, kisses, it doesn’t need to be a full blown out makeout session. Surprisingly he likes the gentle things, he even might enjoy cheesy pick-up lines or romantic jokes or notes that can be left on his desk or on his fridge at home.

#denied-deviancy

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Non-sexual thing that always makes the muse melt? And are they loud and proud about their relationships, or do they keep it private?

Soft sunday | Still accepting

Non-sexual? Honestly, gentle touches ex.: brushing hands, doing the thumb caress over the hand, a hand resting on his legOr a firm hug can work too.I have answered the other question but Gavin is certainly loud and proud, he cherishes his partner.

#swat-cptn-allen

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Are they loud and proud about their relationships, or do they keep it private?

Soft sunday meme | Still accepting

Yeah, Gavin is rather proud of who he loves, and isn’t afraid of showing some PDA. Of course he is capable of keeping it private if his partner wants to. But it isn’t going to be easy.

#Anonymous

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Do they like being called a nickname?

Soft sunday meme | Still accepting

Honestly? Yeah, anything that goes from Gav, babe, honey to.. kitten. He doesn’t like to admit it straight away but he takes pleasure in having nicknames. As long as they’re not insulting.

#Anonymous

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when was the last time you came in your pants?

Send in some dirty anons | Still accepting

Gavin squinted at the anon, for a moment he took some time to think about the question. “The fuck should I know?? I don’t think it ever happened.”

It has in fact happened, more than once in his teenage years due to uncontrollable hormones. But, he wasn’t going to give that information out just for free.

#◤ nsfw — all i ever needed is here in my arms ◢ #Anonymous

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// y’all go ahead and keep sending those asks for sinday or soft sunday. I’m gonna head to bed and answer them in the morning!

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Soft Sunday meme

Favorite way to receive affection? 

Favorite way to give affection?

Non-sexual thing that always makes the muse melt?

Places they don’t like being touched non-sexually?

Do they like giving nicknames to their significant other?

Do they like being called a nickname?

What’s something their significant other can do to make them feel safe?

What’s the best way to calm down your muse when they’re angry?

Little things your muse does to show their significant other they care?

PDA that’s a definite ‘no’?

Does your muse want to have kids? If so, how many and what’s the reasoning behind the number?

Are they loud and proud about their relationships, or do they keep it private?

Do they workout or put on makeup for their significant other?

Do dirty jokes go over their head, or are they the one making the dirty jokes?

Do they find a need to be in a relationship, or do they have a ‘if it happens it happens’ feeling?

What food or drink can be given to them to show that their partner really cares?

Is your muse good with kids? What ages?

Would your muse be the one doing most of the cooking or not?

Is your muse good at housework? 

#memes #aw this is cute

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It’s Sinday! Send dirty anons for my muses to answer to!

#anon or not #sinday #i need to get new tags

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"Hey, my name’s Microsoft. Can I crash at your place tonight?" Nines winked cheekily at the detective

Cheesy pick-up lines

That was the exact moment, Gavin accidentally inhaled some coffee, choking on it as he bent over and smacked his chest a few times, coughing until he could clear his throat. It was merely a start to his laughter, letting out short giggles as he tried to stiffle his laughter. God that was.. So cheesy. It was such a bad pick-up line that it ended up being good.

“O-oh my god. Nines, your jokes are killing me. Almost literally.” It seemed that his laughter had calmed down, wiping away the tears that had welled up in the corners of his eyes, letting out a long sigh nefore he was able to face the other again.

Wait, the android wasn’t serious was he?

#seems like y'all are getting a suprisingly happy gavin #hope this works! #an-unlikely-duo

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Your hand looks heavy, let me hold it for you…

Cheesy pick-up lines

To be fair, Gavin wasn’t paying much attention, raising his hand up before catching himself in the act and the words finally seemed to register in his brain. Bringing his hand back to his side, couldn’t believe he almost fell for that. Turning his head to look over at the android, squinting. Did he hear that right? Did he just use a horrible pick up line?

Furrowing his brows, he finally spoke, “... That’s the worst pick-up line I’ve ever heard, Nines.”

But then he thought, maybe this could be amusing? It seemed to be that Gavin was in an alright mood today.

“If you want to hold my hand, you should try harder.”

#have a tired but playful Gavin #hope this is okay! #rk900-niles

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Send  ☕ for my muse to spill hot coffee on yours (Send  ⏪ for reverse)

#memes #let gavin spill hot coffee on your muse #or vice versa

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reblog if your muse AAAAAA

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

#mun too honestly

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To do list

Finish answering asks

Check for possible ongoing threads

Make Gavin’s ra9 verse

Optional: New promo?

#doing this so I see this whenever I go on my blog just fyi #and to keep y’all updated I suppose #to-do list

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Cheesy Pick-up Lines as RP starters...

Various pick-up lines from various media and from drunken louts from Pizza’s past, adjust what you need to…

If you were a fruit, you’d be a fineapple… 

Your hand looks heavy, let me hold it for you…

I promise to always be by your side, or under you, or on top of you…

I’m not Rapunzel but I’d let you pull my hair.

So, I hear you like water. Good you already like 70% of me

What has 36 teeth and holds back the Incredible Hulk? My zipper.

My lips are like skittles. Wanna taste the rainbow?

Roses are red, violets are blue, how would you like it if I came home with you?

Your lips look so lonely…Would they like to meet mine?

I’m no photographer, but I can picture us together.

Are you from Starbucks because I like you a latte.

Do you like science because I’ve got my ion you. 

My feet are getting cold… because you’ve knocked my socks off.

I’ll give you a kiss. If you don’t like it, you can return it.

If you were a vegetable you’d be a cutecumber.

Feel my t-shirt, it’s made of boyfriend material.

Your name must be Coca Cola because you’re so-da-licious.

Hey, my name’s Microsoft. Can I crash at your place tonight?

Was your dad a boxer? Because damn, you’re a knockout!

Hey, you’re pretty and I’m cute. Together we’d be Pretty Cute.

#┌ memes ┘ — ❝ ʷᵉ ʷᵉᶰᵗ ᵇˡᶤᶰᵈ ᵍᵒᶤᶰᵍ ᵉʸᵉ ᶠᵒʳ ᵃᶰ ᵉʸᵉ ❞

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