sadistcatgirl

[sadistcatgirl]

if you start getting follows/likes/etc from @shay-ooc that’s me. i don’t post to that account, so don’t unfollow this one (and no need to follow that one), i’m just changing the account that i do my reading from (maybe). i might end up switching back to this one later on, i’m just trying things out. getting silly with it.

but also, fwiw, my roleplay sideblog @shadowburgers has really been my main blog that i post from for a long time. it’s less ffxiv shit and more tabletop shit these days but it varies.

[sadistcatgirl]

Why I don't say "dead name."

I was born premature, and my parents' first child. I was a "surprise" as they say, but they still very much were happy to have me, as they were planning on starting a family, just not so soon.

They put a lot of thought into my name, or rather, my names.

I am named after my great-great-grandmother, whose name began with "E" in English and "א" in Hebrew.

I am named after my great-grandfather, whose initials were "E M" in English and "א מ" in Hebrew.

A few days after I was born, I lost consciousness, and was in the NICU for days. My father, in my naming ceremony in the hospital's chapel, breathlessly added a third name, the Hebrew word for "is alive", which begins with "C" in English and "ח" in Hebrew.

The English translation of my given name is roughly "Hidden Living Rebellion", which I embodied well.

My name now is Eitan Meshullam Chai. I kept the initials, both in Hebrew and in English. Its English translation is "Strong, Complete, Alive." I embody that meaning well today. I am strong, I am complete, and I am alive.

My given name is not bad, I have no reason to kill it. Is "Yaakov" dead to "Yisrael" just because he was renamed? Is "Sarai" dead to "Sarah" just because she was renamed? No. "Yaakov" and "Sarai" were different people that changed when they became "Yisrael" and "Sarah", but "Yaakov" and "Sarai" were never dead. Just transformed.

I accomplished many things under my former names. I was a creative, intelligent little girl, and yes, I was a girl, though I grew into a man. I wasn't a little boy, I was never treated as such and didn't embody the role of a boy. I was a girl, and now I am a man. But the little girl isn't dead. She lives within me, as all my past selves do.

My given names were gifts. It's said that parents are given a hint of prophecy when they name their child. My parents named we well. I was hidden, I did rebell, and I'm still alive. I wouldn't kill a prophecy they made.

Is a seed dead just because it grew into a flower? Is an egg dead just because it hatched?

My past names are not my "dead names". They are my given names, and now, I have my new names, my chosen names, chosen with the same gift of prophecy as my parents' had.

My past self is not dead. It is merely transformed, transitioned, you may say.

[sadistcatgirl]

i’m sorry

#holy shit

[sadistcatgirl]

Legolas: This forest is ancient and scary. I wish I could vacation here.

Gimli: Legolas you’re so fucking weird. I’d follow you anywhere.

#yeah #lotr

[sadistcatgirl]

I use Canva for work and I am losing my mind over this image when you search for “fellowship” and “teamwork”

idk man

[sadistcatgirl]

I'm a 16 year old fucking trans communist whatever you know how it is and im also taking ap lang and it's so fucking funny reading your posts it's like woahhh a tumblr blogger is like she's just like me fr and not a 30 year old stoner or whatever but also some of your opinions suck so hard like i watched american psycho for the first time with some friends a few weeks ago and GOD that film sucked so hard like it just hammered it's point home into your fucking head throughout the whole runtime. The only one of us who thought it was good was the theater kid stoner who like to give a better picture of this guy a few days ago he told me he wanted to buy one of those French artist caps and wear it all of the time instead of a beanie. Also like while your music taste isn't bad per say you're just pretentious about it like the post where you said you were walking with your boyfriend and a random guy driving by said something about whatever classic rock band shirt you were wearing and you "just started walking faster" like that is down with cis bus level of story it's so fucking funny. Sorry I'm not trying to be rude it's just like it's funny to see a popularblogger being like a human being like just some kid like me. . Also don't give me shit about it being spelled per se I'm not a fucking ball sniffing French accepter. Oh also im the anon who told you to kill yourself over mushroom opinions. I'm trying to see a school social worker to get medicated I'm sorry

new favorite ask

#it does yeah

[sadistcatgirl]

recently saw ppl discuss whether they put their medicines in a kitchen cabinet or a bathroom cabinet and i was shocked by the fact that many ppl said kitchen cabinet. so now i need you to reblog this and say where you keep yours

#kitchen shelf

[sadistcatgirl]

hadassa goldvicht, "honey," 2006/2017, plumbing system, honey and shower head

[sadistcatgirl]

this is purposefully referencing The Rules of Attraction, right? the scene where the one guy talks abt his weeklong drug bender in europe? the cadence is immaculately familiar.

[sadistcatgirl]

Hey I saw you use the word "transsexuals" on one of your (gorgeous) pieces. I've been taught that's an outdated term, but I'm cis so it's not my place to say. Could you talk about what that word means to you?

think it has a swagful ring to it

[sadistcatgirl]

sacré bleu...somebody âs deepthreauxted ze eiffel toweur

[sadistcatgirl]

The Coming of the Lord + The Ecstasy - Fabián Cháirez

EDIT: For anyone talking about how they’d like these as prints, you can have them as prints! Also as a t-shirts! And as undies! The artist has a shop right here. You can find him on Instagram, too. Go show him some support!!!

EDIT AGAIN: His shop's prices are listed in pesos, not USD. lol

[sadistcatgirl]

Gladiatorial Match circa 347 AD (Colorized)

[sadistcatgirl]

[sadistcatgirl]

ladies love me, they’re in awe of my 5’4” bisexual guy who wants to be pegged swag, my effete little man who drives a Subaru and goes to farmer’s markets charm, while you guys were studying the blade, I was studying the kombucha isle

#i am so here for the phrase load bearing pussy gripping

[sadistcatgirl]

in complete hysterics over this

#god this is so accurate #my brother and i played a game called under the bridge where he tried to cross his bedroom without me kicking him from atop the furniture

[sadistcatgirl]

putting up “HELL IS FAKE” billboards in ohio to start a dialogue

#ohio