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bikini inspo 🌊👙☀️

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I feel a little silly for this but I feel proud of myself for not letting my after dinner sweet turn into a binge 😅

Honestly after-holiday sales really get me, so the Easter clearance candy has been on my counter. Specifically this 1 type of gummy candy which is just so satisfying to me, but not truly satisfying. It’s the kind of satisfying that makes me want to have an entire pile of it.

Anyways, I’m good at portioning out candy/sweets to take to work with me, but when I have them sitting around at home it’s just easy for me to eat a lot, and the past few days really got away from me. But after dinner tonight I had the small bowl of cereal that I planned and a portion of candy and then I stopped.

It feels so good to eat foods that would normally trigger a binge and I can just eat within my planned limit and then stop 😇

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Czesław Miłosz, from “Body.”

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I’ve gained 3 pounds and it sounds like such a small thing but it’s killing me 😭 I know some of it is water weight/food weight, but some is actual fat, because I’ve been overeating for more than a week now. I think it’s partially the holidays and partially stress because my partner goes back to his home state in just a couple of days and will be gone for 2 months 😓

But it’s not an excuse, I need to get back on track. Today is a new week, new month, and it marks exactly 2 months until I’ll see my partner again, and I can make some serious progress by then. I just have to start today

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I was at a family gathering yesterday and my grandmother is one of those people who loves to over-compliment and also tear herself down at the same time. She’s always been that type of person. She also loves to comment on people’s weight and exaggerate about it. Yesterday she said I have gotten So Skinny and I thanked her. Then, I guess because I didn’t act humble enough she was like, you’re getting Too Skinny. Tbh I’m still a very healthy weight for my height/body type, I’m really not underweight at all. I still have extra fat and I still think I would be considered on the Thicc side. She just says stuff like that, it’s in her nature. It’s just weird, it’s like people flip flop SO quickly when it comes to weight. Most people are saying I look great rn and then my grandma has to come and neg me about it

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I’m going to try not counting calories in fruit and see what happens. Reason being because I’m so hungry lately and keep going very slightly over my calorie goal and it makes me feel like shit. Fruit probably won’t hurt me anyways and if I exclude it from my count I could probably be within my goal. Just trying it, I know it’s controversial.

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By the way, I got this situation under control. My weight isn’t really down but I undid the damage I did in the time period I posted this

My weight is slowly moving up again, and it’s all my fault. I’ve had no self control lately. I’m eating like I’m working out, but then not working out. My partner used to be a major gym rat, but now they don’t feel like it so much anymore. They worked too hard and got injuries from it (plus their body just stays amazing with workout or without, so there’s less pressure). I didn’t even get injuries because I never lift heavy. I’m just using my partner’s lack of wanting to go to the gym to justify my own laziness. If I was working out, at least I’d be losing fat. At least I’d eat more protein instead of having so many carbs everyday. Instead, if I’m not at work I’m usually sitting on my ass. And as a consequence, my weight has been going up pound by pound 😞 I need to get it together

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My bf is so perfect for me, the other day he was looking at the nutrition facts on the cheese puffs he was eating and got out his phone and eventually was like “They’re 2.25 calories each.” Recently he’s been packing my lunch and he will calculate the calories for me and send it in a text so I don’t have to second guess my own math later. Not in a toxic way, he doesn’t control my weight or try to control my food intake. He just is super interested in this sort of stuff too and also pays close attention to nutrition, and he knows I always want to know exact calories in everything. It’s really perfect 🥰

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My weight is slowly moving up again, and it’s all my fault. I’ve had no self control lately. I’m eating like I’m working out, but then not working out. My partner used to be a major gym rat, but now they don’t feel like it so much anymore. They worked too hard and got injuries from it (plus their body just stays amazing with workout or without, so there’s less pressure). I didn’t even get injuries because I never lift heavy. I’m just using my partner’s lack of wanting to go to the gym to justify my own laziness. If I was working out, at least I’d be losing fat. At least I’d eat more protein instead of having so many carbs everyday. Instead, if I’m not at work I’m usually sitting on my ass. And as a consequence, my weight has been going up pound by pound 😞 I need to get it together

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I had a nice little break from working on my goals, now I’m ready to get back on track ((: my boyfriend came home for a few days for thanksgiving and we ate so much junk food. We did go to the gym once, but we were mostly lazy. I’m sure I had 3,000/day the entire time he was here. But it’s okay, it was a holiday and I don’t get to see my boyfriend often. It’s nice to enjoy food while he’s here, and I don’t want him to worry. But now he’s away again and I won’t see him until mid-December. I can spend the few weeks between now and then getting in even better shape, so I can impress him in December. And I can take another break then

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It would be nice if my body issues didn’t fuck with my relationship.

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My boss at my second job is Asian and idk if y’all have heard this stereotype but I think it’s common in Asian culture to comment on people’s weight, and it’s not considered rude to call someone chubby or fat (if it’s true.) Anyways, my boss has lived in the US for many many years, so she knows that most Americans don’t love our weight commented on, especially if we’re on the fatter size and not the thin side. Thin is a compliment but we don’t usually make comments on fatness. So yesterday she noticed my weight loss and asked if I had been trying (very sweet of her, since some people lose weight from being physically sick or just not on purpose, it was nice of her to make sure it was intentional) and when I told her “Yeah I’ve lost about 25lbs in 6 months” she said “Oh yeah, I noticed you got chubby a while back, but I didn’t say anything because I didn’t want to hurt your feelings. But you were looking really round. Now you look good, good job.” Like okay queen of meanspo and then right away flipping to sweetspo 😭 I know she meant it in a nice way, but I just hate when people confirm they noticed me gaining weight before. I hate when people keep tabs on other people’s bodies. I want to be skinny and no one even remember that I was ever fat 😿

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To be like that ✨🧚‍♀️

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Had a family reunion yesterday and multiple people complimented my weight loss 😇 it was pretty nice, even though it makes me pretty self conscious when people point it out. I have such a love hate relationship with people noticing, but I gotta admit it’s validating af

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