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my anhedonia is eating me alive so i’m making these mental illness memes to cope

#and then when you seek psych care and get dehumanized mistreated and abused by mental health professionals #itll make your stigmatized mental illness symptoms worse! :D #so the choices are really risk getting worse vs risk getting worse #lol

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"I can say whatever I want about my abuser. If they don't like what I'm saying, they shouldn't have abused me."

Yeah. Your abuser. Not an entire demographic who had nothing to do with it.

Feel free to call your abuser a monster, a douchebag, an asshole, a piece of shit, or any other insult you can think of. You can even wish they would die if their abuse was bad enough.

But when you call your abuser's actions "what narcissists do", you're not just demonizing your abuser. You're demonizing people who never did anything to you.

On top of that, you're giving a free pass to those who have the same patterns as your abuser but have the privilege of being able to do it in a way that society considers normal. For everything your "narcissist" did to you, there are many similar patterns that society normalizes on a regular basis.

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obsessed where stories where it is like. the mistakes are unfixable and the worst thing that could happen happened and nothing can go back to how it was. but there was still love in this and love will continue after this and love endures always.

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instructions for the journey by Pat Schneider

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Trying to learn that it’s not my responsibility to create or maintain harmony in the lives of those I care about. They are allowed to have difficulties in their lives and struggles in their relationships with others and it’s not something that I need to ‘fix.’ I am not responsible for their happiness or peace. Their struggles do not make me a failure. All I can control is how I interact with them.

#people are not problems for you to fix #love them as they are

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Local PSA: invisible disability does NOT mean you can live your life like a "normal person" invisible disability meant that if a stranger looks at you in public they wouldn't know what's going on.

Like if a wheelchair user were to decide to run into a corner store to grab a candy bar because they know that their legs can last that long without, the cashier wouldn't know.

Or someone with "mild" scoliosis walking upright through their shoulder leans slightly to the left. Maybe they just have bad posture. The lady in the next isle thinks to herself.

The person with EDS or POTS or whatever sort of condition wearing compression gloves out and about. Perhaps it's a fashion statement?

Or what about the people with intestinal issues? They can look like "normal people" too.

You never know what someone is going through.

You never know what they might need to survive or if they're on the edge of a flare up or even if they are currently going through one just by one look.

I think both disabled and non disabled need to realize this. You're not "no longer disabled" because you can "live without" disability aids. They're there to help you. To make your life easier. If living without a cane is going to make it more likely you'll fall over and hurt yourself, use the cane.

If you need to sit down to do dishes or cut vegetables because you need to save your legs for taking out the trash, sit down.

If you need a shower chair because you don't know if you'll pass out, use the shower chair.

People are going to judge you regardless for multiple reasons out of your control.

I'd rather they judge you while you're being safe.

You don't need to struggle to be "normal."

You can just be you.

However that looks for you.

Use your disability aids.

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people act like psychopaths are these beasts in society coming to get you, meanwhile in reality i’d rather never have to go near another human being again

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if you *really* want to try and understand psychosis, I always offer the experience of dreaming.

Almost everyone on the planet dreams, and I find it to be a perfect comparison for psychosis... Anything can happen in a dream and you don't question it. This is your reality. If you're suddenly an astronaut, you don't typically question it. If there's suddenly a dragon, you don't typically question it. A monster can crawl out of the bushes or a stranger can appear in your house. Anyone can be someone they're not. Danger can come from anywhere. A pleasant dream can easily become a nightmare.

The only difference is that you wake up in the morning and it's over. And most people don't judge you for it. When you "wake up" from psychosis, there's often shame and people judge you.

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There are tips everywhere about "how to trigger a narcissist".

Imagine if narcissists shared tips on how to trigger people, openly and proudly with no fear of any consequences, and genuinely believed that the people they were triggering were the abusive ones.

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They will never understand the sadness that you can physically feel in your chest

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Being mentally ill is ok. It's not shameful or embarassing. A lot of people have some kind of mental illness and you're allowed to be as private or open about ot as you wish. You're not a criminal for being sick.

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one of the most important things about dissociative identity disorder and generally being a system that i wish people would understand is that it truly isn’t as cut and dry as it may seem for member count.

you’ll see people who say they have “six alters” and then immediately assume it’s six fully fleshed out equal individuals with no confusion or fuzziness regarding identity. that’s simply not true in a majority of cases, as i have seen.

most systems still VERY much deal with confusion regarding potential splits, go through dissociative episodes where they’re unsure of who they are, sometimes feel no attachment towards any identities, feel like they might have split and then suddenly that person is gone, unsure if alters they haven’t heard from often have gone dormant, not sure how to react when alters do come out of dormancy, etc.

it’s not a fun feeling and it’s genuinely unfair in certain situations to force systems to list every single alter to you with full certainty, as if it will never change. because it will. for so many different reasons, systems will grow, they will shrink, they will fuse, they will develop. you can’t expect the person with the dissociative disorder and lack of core identity to be able to keep up a perfected list of forever, it’s simply impossible. you may have alters who stick with you, but that doesn’t mean changes won’t happen.

and systems who may be reading this — please don’t feel bad. you are not a hassle, you are not a headache, and you are not an inconvenience for simply coping with something like this. it’s out of your control and the only thing you can do is continue to cope to find ways to help yourself retrain from these reactions. please don’t allow yourself to be harmed by others who don’t understand what you are going through. there are people who will accept and love you for who you are, all of you.

past, present, and future.

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#ODD is literally only helpful for the potential of identifying children who may be at risk for developing sociopathy/ASPD #this potential is strangled by clinicians insistence on weaponizing it against POC #i really dont love the diagnosis i think its barely helpful if at all #also im p sure kids dx'd ODD dont even get interventions that would be helpful for preventing ASPD #so the potential for any good is double wasted due to cluster B ableism as well as the racism

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"being queer is about love" hmm actually being queer is about defying societal norms about gender and sexuality and does not depend on feeling love at all

#a lot of people dont seem to actually know what the word queer means #in online liberal spaces its used interchangeably with LGBT but they are NOT interchangeable because they are NOT the same #as op said queer specifically refers the defiance of traditional societal gender/sexuality norms #this is why bdsm leather and furry culture are queer even though not inherently LGBT #its why homonormativity is NOT queer either #homonormativity is actually uhh the exact opposite of queerness #its also why youll see people say that blackness and queerness are inseparable concepts #fascinating stuff when you actually learn about your culture and history lol #(edit to add: this is also why you should not use queer as an umbrella term for the LGBT community willy nilly)

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#i care so much about all the things

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we’re all boring to someone, annoying to someone, ugly to someone, but it’s not that deep

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“Many people seem to think it foolish, even superstitious, to believe that the world could still change for the better. And it is true that in winter it is sometimes so bitingly cold that one is tempted to say, ‘What do I care if there is a summer; its warmth is no help to me now.’ Yes, evil often seems to surpass good. But then, in spite of us, and without our permission, there comes at last an end to the bitter frosts. One morning the wind turns, and there is a thaw. And so I must still have hope.”

— Vincent Van Gogh

#i watched that doctor who episode recently #i have feelings about vincent van gogh