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just had the realization that if i lose 6 pounds a month i’ll be at my goal weight in a year? like yes that’s a long time away but only 6 pounds in a whole month??? i can fucking do that so easy?? what the fuck?? why am i still fat????

#thinspo #thinspiration #ana #ed #thinspø

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the food you craved for an hour or

the body you wanted your whole life ✨

it’s your choice…

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Imagine how many people look at you. Glad that they aren't as big as you. Glad that they don't have to take extra minutes in the shower to wash underneath fat layers. Glad that they can wear outfits without being uncomfortable. Glad that they don't need to have a personality to be something. Glad that their body is small enough to be something looked at other than a waste of storage for food. Glad that they don't look horrible because of how much foor they eat.

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i’ve been eating nothing but chicken broth and the occasional rice cake but i feel so bloated?? maybe im just not drinking enough water. idfk

#thinspo #thinspiration #ana #ed #thinspø

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imagine all the fat you're eating going on your body. Every bite sticking to your body and staying. Gaining bite by bite until you finish your food. You looking down at your plate seeing that you ate every single peice on the plate without stopping. And all the fat that went through your mouth is now on your body. Your face. Your back. Your legs. Your neck. Making your body expand and make you look like a monster. Is that peice of food worth it now?

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I don't think it's even about the aesthetic anymore. I just don't want to be 211lbs again

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i’m in a good place (my room) but i’m also not in a good place (deep physical and psychological suffering)

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#goalsgoalsgoalsgoalsgoals

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i thought my suicidal late teens were the hardest years of my life but nothing could’ve prepared me for my 20s waking up everyday with no purpose, feeling so lost, unable to keep up with friendships, watching everyone move on with relationships and careers and being unable to catch up. and I’m such a “life is not a race” type of person but damn I’m losing so hard rn

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addicted to that feeling of waking up with absolutely no food in your stomach

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restricting is so easy during day time but as soon as the sun goes down GOSHHH

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old pics of urself being thinspo is a whole new kind of pain 😭

#ana #ed #thinspo #thinspiration

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