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spyfei · 1 year

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Hanbin Lyrics, dealing with public pressure, stress, loneliness & anxiety

Climax, WIN WHO IS NEXT (2013):

“Giving up my youth, I ran barefoot for three years, after saying a heartless goodbye to my family and friends. Living each day, always nervous about tomorrow. I told them to trust me, that we will succeed for sure. With the weight of not just my life but six others on my shoulders, looking for chances. I had no choice but to throw away the pressure and failures Now I want to see the light so I put my future on the line.”

Long Time No See, Mix & Match (2014):

“I was trying to overcome this pain that God gave me. I was protecting my brothers who I shared blood and flesh. I tried to empty out my already empty inside, as I kept trying to fulfill my dreams that were getting bigger. It was hard to set broken dreams back up again.”

Let it go cover, Mix & Match (2014):

“Wall, that people trapped me in. Your eyes on me are a burden but I pretend to be okay. I fell and learned how to walk on my own. Have you ever had a feeling like everyday is a walking on thin ice? I want to break free.”

BE I, Show me the Money 3 (2014):

“The show has started and the music is playing. The pressure makes me break out in a cold sweat. Can’t pretend to be calm and review my lyrics over and over again Losing a battle of the nerves with the rhythm, even the air feels heavy The harsh eyes and pointing fingers of the public, I know what they ganna say shit about me. The kid who got popular by luck, the kid who came alive by his company.”

M.U.P, Welcome Back Half Album (2015):

“In my downtrodden life I saw the one light that lit my life up. When it was hard to live 10 minutes more, you whispered in my ear about a glorious happiness. A confession of a 20 year old I’ll live new tomorrow despite what yesterday was like I had a fence to avoid people and a wall in my mind.”

Friends cover, The Remix (2016):

“What are we working so hard for? What do we find so funny? We are still young and naive. We are still eager to be happy. Countless moments of feelings of regrets. The wine glass that’s empty along with our hearts. With the people and music that I like, this should be a satisfactory life.”

A Better Tomorrow cover, The Remix (2016):

“Happiness, hope, sorrow, anger, desire, love. They are merely emotions that you feel for a moment, so what is the meaning for those? This filthy world that is full of deception of greatness. The reason why I can’t run away when the gun is pointing at me? Huh? The reason why I can’t sleep in peace during the night after dark? What am I living for? I’m living for my fam, for my fan, do this thing for my team, for myself.”

One and Only, RETURN (2018):

“This isn’t a song where I’ll pretend to be strong and act tough, I’m not strong. I’m standing right at rock bottom, so if you’re going to stare, then lower your eyes first. What do you know to be judging me like that, I’m just me. They tell me to follow the path my well-off sunbaes have laid out. But I don’t exactly agree because from down here, It doesn’t look all that great up there.”

Killing Me, New kids: Continue (2018):

“Freedom and new relationships but behind that is an empty heart. On this dark night, I’m alone again. This isn’t right.”

I’M OK, New Kids: Repackage (2019):

“Don’t comfort me, don’t pity me. You don’t need to be by my side cause I’m OK. Don’t worry, don’t concern yourself cause I’m used to being alone anyway. Everyone in the world has their back against me. My pitiful self is growing endlessly smaller. When the loneliness pierces through me, If you see my tears, please act like you didn’t.”

Me Too, unreleased Demo (2018):

“I guess I’m not human to other people. Stop doing it, judging and rating and deciding. It’s youth, is it a crime to date a little? Worked like a dog, have a problem with the money that was made? Because life was dreadful, so I had a little cigarette, are you feeling good for treating me like trash? When I come on television you guys point fingers, to be honest it’s not easy to handle that.”

Mirror, unreleased Demo (2019):

“No matter what, you should take a break, your face has become thinner. You should sleep a little, your eyes have lost focus. You should meet some people, you looked really lonely. You look like you’re living, just because you aren’t dead. Life is all like that isn’t it, There is no other way, isn’t it? Reduce the amount of cigarettes, the body is hurt, but it’s only easy to say it. Feeling frustrated but I don’t know what’s the reason. It feels dark no matter how hard I tired to open my eyes. When time passes it will be okay, don’t get entangled into the fate that’s just passing by. Who else knows about you more than me? I’m worried, so hey please visit the hospital, Isn’t it painful? If to be exaggerating it feels as much as dying. Forget it, let’s smoke, take a deep breath, stop sighing. Talking to the man in the mirror.”

No title, unreleased Demo (2019):

“I didn’t block anybody who came and I didn’t stop anybody who left. After letting go another, I now feel what it means to be thrown away. In the world that I live in, sadly the only thing left is a weird guy called me, him alone. Where has everybody gone.”

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spyfei · 1 year

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