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Weight check list

53 🔓🐷

52 🔒😭

51 🔒🙄

50 🔒😔

49 🔒🥵

48 🔒🤤

47 🔒🥰

46 🔒😍

45 🔒💕

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My old account skinnymelanin got terminated :( soo reblog if ANY of these apply to you:

You’re tall

You’re 17+

You have a higher sw 180+

You want to interact :)

You have an ed

You like fashion thinspo

and I’ll follow you!!

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Doctors: how are you losing so much weight?

Mom: how are you losing so much weight?

Friends: how are you losing so much weight

Me: *hasn’t eaten in two days*

Me: .... dunno ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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me: **weighs myself**

scale: 105lbs

me: whAt buT I WAS 101 yestERDAY wtF wTF WTF

me: **spends 10 minutes crying into my pillow**

me: ** weighs self again**

scale: 100 lbs

me:

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Me crying: *a single tear rolls down my cheek*

Me: oh fuck, I'm in pain but that's aesthetic as fuck

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my ed at 2am: omg i can't believe it, you're so fucking fat, you deserve nothing but to starve, you're not allowed to eat for the next four days, and on top of that you have to exercise at least two hours a day, i don't care if you feel like shit, just get skinny ffs!

me:

me: sir this is a mcdonald's drive thru

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it's really fucking homophobic that i have an eating disorder

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Me: OK so let’s eat 1500 calories a day, it’s enough to lose weight but stay nourished!

My fucking idiot ED brain: but what if,,,, less calories makes us lose weight faster

Me, pleading: But we don’t need to lose weight quickly, otherwise we’ll gain it back!

Ed brain: but, want to be thin N O W

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AnaBuddy/ Group

Thinking of starting a kik group. (4-10 members).

At the start We can all plan a calorie plan for each day, then we all follow.

Inactive = kicked

Body checks & weigh ins will be welcome but don’t feel pressured.

Dm me your kik names and we can start one 💕

#anabuddy #anagroup #anorexia #thin #ana #annabuddy #annagroup #rexie #thinspo #bonespo #wanttobethin #skinny

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reasons to be thin

•bony aesthetic fingers •to be easily picked up •looking good good in anything •the ability to drive without feeling my fat bounce at every pothole •to not be the “fat friend” •to hear “you’re so skinny!” and not “you’re not fat” •to not be judged when eating something unhealthy •feeling full after one small meal •waking up in the morning and not hating my body

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•𝓢𝓽𝓪𝓻𝓽•

𝓗𝓮𝔂, 𝓼𝓽𝓪𝓻𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓼 𝓫𝓵𝓸𝓰 𝓽𝓸 𝓿𝓮𝓷𝓽. 𝓣𝓻𝔂𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓽𝓸 𝓻𝓮𝓬𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓵𝓶𝓪𝓸

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Being thin will give me:

🌸 drinking tea for warmth and looking adorable

🌸 not having to work so hard to get a good photo

🌸 messy morning hair over thin shoulders

🌸 longer looking legs (finally!)

🌸 pretty collarbones

🌸 being able to wear leggings and oversized jumpers

🌸 all jumpers being a little oversized

🌸 looking frail and fairy-like walking in the countryside

🌸 smaller appetite

🌸 tiny hands clutching at hardback books

🌸 boys being protective!

🌸 being able to say ‘I’m a dancer’ without the double take

🌸 sharper, elegant jawline

🌸 seeing a number on the scale that doesn’t make me want to cry