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for the systems who are struggling with body dysmorphia and dysphoria recently, be kind to yourselves. Your body isn't wrong, or gross, and you are deserving of love. Be gentle and kind with yourselves, you deserve it 🌱✨

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…I fixed it.

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i know so many of us have been trained since a young age to be so accommodating as to fear ever expressing an opinion, but as we get older we need to understand that being “accommodating” to the point of total indecisiveness is a very uncomfortable way to go through life, for you AND those around you. it’s ok to have an opinion on something. it’s ok to make a decision. your friends won’t hate you if you’re the one to end the “where do you want to eat” “oh anywhere is fine with me” discussion by suggesting a restaurant. you’re not high maintenance if you say, “noon is more convenient for me” when someone asks you what time you want to hang out. make decisions, have opinions, be part of the planning process, understand that you’re not being inconvenient, you’re just contributing. 

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Maybe you shouldn’t be focused on trying to be who you were before trauma, or if your trauma happened as a child… trying to figure out who you could have been.

Maybe your energy is better spent on figuring out who you are now and accepting that you’ve changed and that it’s okay to have changed.

You’re still as worthy and valuable as you would have been without trauma. You’re still important and worth loving. I promise.

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Living with chronic illness is like looking both ways before crossing the street and then being hit by an airplane.

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I’m tired of missing me 

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If you need permission to do nothing today, this is it. You need to rest to be at your best! 🔋😴

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me -Jamie

This one alter who fronts while listening to music and disappears right after that is everything 

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If you think that having DID is fun or cool in any way get the fuck off of my blog. There are people who actually have that and it makes every day of their lives a living hell. Having DID isn't a quirky little thing where you can cosplay as your favourite mcyt character and make some cute little tiktok where you show off all of your "alters". It's having gone through such extreme trauma in your early childhood that your personality literally splits into fragments in order to detach yourself from what you've been through. You forget entire parts of your life and entire parts of who you are as a person.

Dissociative episodes aren't just a thing where you stare off into the camera and suddenly a new alter is smiling and introducing themselves, it's a terrifying experience that so many people suffer through.

And you know what's worse? Some people are so attached to what they see on tiktok that I'm most likely going to be labelled as ableist for calling these people out, as if they're not treating a serious condition as a quirky personality trait, debilitating those who have it in the process.

70% of people with DID have stated that they have attempted suicide because if the impact the disorder has had on them, and that's just the ones who survived. And you're making tiktoks claiming to have it and acting as though it's cute.

And whilst I'm at it, nice to see that we've also managed to revitalize the anti-recovery movement again. Spoiler alert: alter integration is what people do in therapy. It's how they recover and it's a process they go to so they have a fighting chance at living a normal life. And now its being called ableist. I am so done with this shit istfg.

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Does anyone else get mad when someone without DID talks about the host as if they are the “real person”?

I am the host and I’m tired of everyone treating the rest of us like they are less then me, it’s not because I front the most that I am better then them.

I understand it’s hard to understand that there is more then one person in our head but we all are people and deserve respect.

_ Lucas

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In case anyone is having a bad night:

Here is the fudgiest brownie in a mug recipe I’ve found

Here are some fun sites

Here is a master post of Adventure Time episodes and comics

Here is a master post of movies including Disney and Studio Ghibli

Here is a master post of other master posts to TV shows and movies

*tucks you in with fuzzy blanket* *pats your head*

You’ll be okay, friend <3

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Future reference for certain alters

One alter has a big fat crush, and everyone else just wants him to tell the person, but he won’t. Am I an asshole if I just do it for him? I’m tired of hearing him think and worry about it, but I can’t really talk directly to him and I just want him to get it over with.

yes thats overstepping. dont do it for him it is not your place

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Me: I'm not comfortable with talking to anyone about did/osdd anymore

Also me: *makes a blog to talk about my experience with did/osdd*

-Ash✨

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Don’t diagnose your friend

I am concerned to see how many people post that they have diagnosed their friends with DID/OSDD so I wanted to warn you and explain few things.

OSDD/DID- this disorder is difficult to detect for many reasons. 

one of these reasons is the defense of the host. You should not know that your are a system. Why? 

OSDD / DID is a disorder that has its roots in childhood trauma. In fact, many people don’t know they’ve had a childhood trauma and shouldn’t know until they’re ready for it. Everyone reacts in their own way and sometimes when people are realizing that their childhood was not as wonderful as they thought, they are going through a breakdown. Some of them want to kill themselves even after long therapy process. 

Don’t forget- DID/OSDD is not only about having alters. First of all, it shows that we experienced something that a child should never experiences.

Don’t diagnose your friends but of course educate them. Tell them about this disorder, tell them symptoms, discuss, explain, but do not diagnose. 

If someone asks for details, because the symptoms seem strangely familiar to him, do not recommend YouTube videos, choose a reliable source of knowledge. I don’t think that everyone has to run to therapy as soon as they discover symptoms, some aren’t ready for it, but instead of watching videos, recommend them to read scientific articles, books.

The beginning is the most important. I encourage you to watch the video only when we get any outline of knowledge. Remember that the internet is a source of both lies and true information. for someone who does not know the subject it is difficult to distinguish one from the other.

We also make mistakes, we do not know everything, so do not take responsibility for the mental state of another person (unless you are a specialist), you do not know how this person will react and what you should do with it. I know you want to help, but sometimes patience and support have to be enough at the moment.

DID/OSDD is not a game for you and your friends. It is a serious disorder. Don’t forget about it. Stay safe. 

- Cornell (primary protector)

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Why has having DID/ being some sort of system become a trend

Like this shit sucks but all we see is people being happy about it, nobody is showing how hard it actually is

Cos it is a super hard thing to live with, having trauma is not fun, dissociation isn't fun

-Jamie

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