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themis... this cute little guy... him having, like, the deepest voice known to mankind is. the best thing ever.

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #themis my dear ..... he is everything #i love both his en and jp voices !! okay but ngl his voice in my head is a bit softer but GOD i love his voice being like That. deep #it contradicts his baby face and i think that's so poggers yk #⋯ ꒰ა ffxiv ໒꒱ *·˚ #themis #elidibus

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if i do "?" in text i'm genuinely tilting my head like a dog if i do "!!" my eyes are sparkling and i am figuratively wagging my tail if i am IN ALL CAPS i'm screaming from the top of a mountain with all the power i can with love and the strength of RAGHHH within me

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #sorry guys. i will not shut up. #honestly i really miss it here on tumblr SNIFFS ..... i say this sm tho but damn real/offline life has really been fun <33 #anyway. meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow me #very good day ty to those who greeted me anywhere or even just liked a post as a little hi hbd or just acknowledgement ya know arghhh arghhh #I'M SO TIRED NOW ACTUALLY i'm on 5 battery but watch me keep talking (writing) some more #i'm insane btw i went out w friends earlier this tuesday (love them sm) and then. they pitched in to buy me the origin of species bcs i've #been wanting the book LMFAO AS A BDAY GIFT IDK IT'S SO FUNNY TO ME BUT GENUINELY I'M SO HAPPY (NERD) <333 #and today i've talked a lot again w one best friend and another of my dearest friends and another too and idk fun day fr #okay i shut up now #that's a lie btw who knows when i will shut up #i might shut up now actually actually #actually i like rambling it's so fun teehee #BUT YEAH TY AGAIN ... genuinely makes me so happy i feel so giddy i was scared today would turn out bad and hey it isn't perfect but to me #it kinda is. in its own way. imperfectly perfect ^_^ <3 yeehaw!!

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just graduated hs today what the fuck man

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #i will be off here ^_^ just for now LOL going to jp really excited and also. i'm still not processing i literally just graduated. #college... later this year... i will await u <3 LMFAO. goddamn!

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i will return on tumblr soon bcs i'm graduating hs soon and acads r done so i have a Lot of time on my hands for now Anyway can i just say am very proud of myself. got into the Top 1 school in my country, top campus, and a vv competitive stem course. yay 😁💝💘❤️‍🔥✨

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #it's hilarious bcs i got waitlisted for compsci #which i'm actually rlly proud of bcs i didn't take the exams that seriously and most of jhs was online #compsci competitive af man #but i prove my worth both online & onsite ^_^ always straight As baby! even this gr 12 LOL <3 #i got into my 3rd choice (2nd choice was psych i am So glad i didn't get in i ended up not wanting it anymore. also competitive asf so i'm #ok w that) WHICH IS the best possible outcome actually bcs it Is my dream course. #i will reveal more another time tho ... >:)) Anyway am just super proud hehe. also of my twin (we both passed & all that <3) ^___^ #also my friends !! barely any passed actually and even then i know only like 10-15 of ppl in my whole school who Did pass #and less so for their first choice/dream course or their preferred campus #MWHAHAHAHAHA >:))) ok i'm not shitting on anyone tho i'm just so so so proud and happy #gbye i am busy tho relaxing LMFAO i've been getting 12 hours of sleep the last 3 days. god. school was tiring af #but i'm a weirdo so it's fun B) Amen. i like saying amen despite being this rlly agnostic/atheist person LMFAOOO #upcat i love u. ty for loving me LMFAOOAOAOAOAOAOAO #so proud idk ig. i knew i'd make it (i hope thsi doesn't come off as pretentious) but i didn't know exactly Where #but the universe did its thing and i got into my dream school dream campus dream course #unsure abt dream school really but it's upd or not up. and also def my dream course ^_^

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MOOTS WHEN IS YOUR BDAY !!!!! please tell me & comment or wtvr asap 👍💗

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #wna giv u all gifties when i can but it is very dependent & i am busy but i Still want to try ^_^ #AND IN GENERAL i want to greet you all ya know ... yeah ..... #any mutuals reply tbh. idc how long we've known each other for or how close we are. yeehaw.

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i love final fantasy so much i might go insane

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #urgggfhfgfh listening to distant worlds 6 ... battle theme medley. i heard the ff1 and started Crying already oh fuck this #i can listen to cosmo canyon (i loveu red) and then just start cryying it's insane actually. what reason do i have to cry from that #i am Ignoring the #. the uhm. #the eternal wind one bcs i will be uncontrollable (in sobbing) ..... Man! #idk man i missed this :( haven't been self-indulgent w any interests aside from acads for the past months (which is cool but also) !!!!! #ff1 to 16 and then the spin-offs and sequels and prequels and other games i love you all #will always rmbr my super cool adoptive-tito (he is. american LMFAO gay friend of my super cool aunt so he kinda got adopted into the family #when he went w her on vacation here) who is insane w the piano and played. mario and ff songs for us. #aerith's theme.... oughhh....... rufus' welcoming ceremony and esp uh #the battle theme i forgpt the name of atm. Insane! amazing

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dear gods i adore horror tbh but i am way too sensitive to it

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #idk how to describe 'sensitive' rn i'm dying in the head i should be asleep but Man!!!!! #i search up tons of horror stuff for funsies. movies uhh creepypastas stories real life events etc. fun! #BUT it freaks me out wayyy too much. bcs i really don't deal well w Those feelings of paranoia. #my imagination too good i was scared at night going to sleep bcs i'd imagine what to do if an intruder came in from the bedroom door #or bathroom door and think of how i'd escape Death......... #Did Not Help my area before was kinda yk. chillax. chillax meaning grassy tree-sy backyard overgrown trees #old-ish in a filipino chill neighborhood that isn't very fancy ?????? idk. #and the fact one time my dad almost died and someone standing close to him Did die so. haha. traumatized from that. #I WASN'T THERE..... but i rmbr my dad coming home and the news absolutely terrified me. anyway! #wow... rambling on tumblr at 3 and a half am... Nostalgic. #anyway yeah i love love love horror stuff but i am !!! so bad w them !!! like jesus christ i adore resident evil and bloodborne #is my whole bloodline. or something. but i can't even watch my twin kill 1 zombie in a re game Demo (she can't do it either) #and i can only make it to killing the first monster in bloodborne and explore a tiny bit where there are still no enemies. god. #AAAGGGGHHHhhhh ... and the first point of horror in omori then i stop playing for months...... even tho i rlly wna play more :(( #2024 ........ cmon... i will try to overcome my fears more. #i've improved somewhat at least! ...from when i was younger. like. man. i could never stay in night-time in games ever. #ffxv? nah i always have to travel at morning. only when i got strong enough that daemons were nothing to me did i stop #getting scared. ouuughhh... and i always try to be stealthy in games........... for many reasons ofc but 1. Scared #okay i shut up now. apollo rambles of tonight: done and over!

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hi guys please wish me luck for my college entrance exam tomorrow for one of my dream schools xoxo

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #LET'S GOOO MGA PAREH 💙🦅💙🦅💙🦅💙🦅 #i'm so chill for some reason even if ik i will never forgive myself if i don't get in. anyway. manifesting!!! i will pass with flying colors #IT'S REAL DAMN STRESSFUL FOR ME bcs i am aiming for honors courses which means i have to be top 15%... i am top 15% (and higher) in my batch #in school anyway but... urgh... #so. yeah. give me all your best wishes thankyousomuchxoxo AHHEHEHWHSHFJAH sobbing (but fr. if you do. i really appreciate it!!) #i believe in myself :] mostly. the time limit scares me and math and abstract reasoning bcs 5 minutes for 30 items but yeah. okay. #i am Smart ..... bro i literally got perfect on my physics exam and got 100 in statistics (i am really proud of these in particular) #my extracurriculars are good !! all my math scores are insane (cue a math nerd) and science (science nerd) english (god. no explanation #needed) honestly every subject is slay and so is my essay-making but ERGH. honors course... top 15%... #i will try to be chill! honestly i am already lol the nerves aren't getting to me somehow. gl to me and all that i know and do not know. #both here and irl :3 also to fellow ph kids (who are most likely younger than me if they aren't older and yk not worrying abt cets anymore #LMFAO) err idk if . okay idk what i was going to say LMFAO anyway i'm busy af and idk if i'm good with teaching others #but if you ever want any tips from me (honestly i don't really have tips. i do what i do and just make it. but there's a lot involved there) #feel free to come to me for anything ^_^ anything at all tbh. doesn't have to be acads idk i like helping others in general. BUT IT DEPENDS. #but yeah just hmu whatever i will have you know i am genuinely a smart & responsible kid and i am proud of that bcs my family is amazing w #smarts but also the Hard Work is there so :3 !! english is my forte science is my forte math is my forte. also socsci and whatever tbh. #i'm probably insane but i genuinely love all those topics and what we learn in school FISHFK so yeah !!! okay i shut up now #will do my best... zzz... and then i will work on myself. to be better than i already am and even better than i could possibly be. ya. fun! #the mga pareh is a joke btw i like imitating filipino kids like that. like yooo mga pareh let's goooooo wahee!!!!!

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merry christmas btw i kinda forgot to say it ere at all oopsies >_< i hope you all had/have a wonderful holiday season or week or day or month regardless of your religion and if you celebrate christmas !!!!!

i got 'the end of everything' by katie mack for xmas (i begged my parents lol) bcs i finally saw it in a bookstore after months of looking for it that i just Fell to the ground ..... i love astrophysics i love space i love science. i also love u all

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #:3 :3 :3 meow #urgh. tired! i wish to ignore my responsibilities but i should not cannot #i actually got genshin again yesterday which sounds unreal. i just want pretty blonde girl navia LMFAOOO #but also i've actually been making progress w quests and shit so yay ^_^ also playing again bcs i lov my friends. nini u will not see this #but ily. also u berry even tho we are on wholly different servers bcs i'm on na haha despite the fact i am literally asian & in asia but ok #i miss ffxiv ... :(( i meant to make my theme vincent valentine and reference hit song valentine by hit band mäneskin #but i was like i do not think i can live long w this. and then thought hard. and then. ryne/gaia... my darlings <3 #also idk if i've said but i'm finally. heading and delving more into dnd finally !! tis meant to be lmfao i love my friends wow #and also my dad had his own dnd set back in the day he never used unfortunately and doesnt hav anymore but Yes <333 #bg3 ocs are tasty! you have apollo erebus and thanatos there is an obvious theme in names going on! #funny there is one silly bard (my guy ever. obviously) and then the other two are durges on opposite ends #pretty boy draconic sorcerer who tries to be good but honestly he's romancing astarion too so he's kinda Yeah #and then you have than who is. what a pretty enby he/she ladyman! romancing minthara ofc <3 they are my evil girlie #evil girlies more like. Two of them yay!!! w opposite color schemes (quite intentional but also i Just Love Red) #haven't watched pjotvseries bcs i will cry throughout the whole thing (probably not an exaggeration) so i am obviously not ready #yeah. ^_^ <3

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show me this and i'll be ruined immediately every time :")

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #⋯ ꒰ა ffxiv ໒꒱ *·˚ #themis #!!!?!?!?!?!?!?! #okay so look. pandaemonium tier. i have NOT done the latest one yet but ever since the start the whole thing has been my favorite #and it rose themis to being my 2nd favorite character just below raha which is saying a lot. and for a second i was even willing to say he #was the first. but raha is just different sorry themis. but YEAH #these lines live on in me forever oh my god everything w themis is just so holy fuck. oh my GOD #i think themis. deserves the world #LOOK okay wolthemis and all and and and and and then the fact that ?? the whole fallen star nickname thing ??? that Say My Name scene ???? #and the moment he was revealed to be yk. finally. the fucking SCREAM i let out holy shit i have a voice recording of that. amazing #i am scared to do the last tier and by scared i mean terribly excited in a terrible way #i do not want pandaemonium story to end but i really wonder what the hell happens at the end... of it all. AAAAAAAAA

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btw to filipino moots im gna be an arenean B) or iskolar ng bayan who knows!

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #my only choices for college r the big 4 personally i'm so sorrey ... but minus ust tbh bcs i rlly dont want to be a thomasian LOL #IT'S JUST REALLY PERSONAL i don't like the culture of ust & etc . i have my reasons. dlsu is ok but ateneo or up is my Dream #may be a surprise but i've always been a straight a student and real smart :3 even in anything to do w filipino #but that is the one thing that drags my grades (slightly) down ..... but my math is so exemplary and i get perfect computer anything always #bs cs future major hereee but since i want ateneo i'm going for dual degree cs bs-dgdd #yeehaw i never talk abt really real life stuff like this but this is still okey #one day u might get a face revea but only for my eyes bcs im sorta obsessed w and unfortunately think im really cute. so #ANYWAY !!!!! excited for college tbh. scared. but yes! #i havent finished my admu app but it is due friday i am so crazy LMFAOOOOOOO but i have recos alr <3 yay <33 #rlly confident in myself but i want to be careful and really get what i desevre. gna do my best and try to get top 15% AND MAYBE even 200 #but that one specifically is sorta crazy but tbf i could achieve it if i study a bit more :P so ya #it's amazing bcs ... english is literally second nature to me BUT i am and have always been amazing at math & sci #always been a math kid and sci kid AND art kid AND eng kid and music too and computer #idk. just proud of myself. i love me lol #there's a lot to it but no need to get into specifics :3 im just happy w myself yay!

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did the ffxvi event in ffxiv and i will just say i was going crazy the Whole time it was so Cool :(( literally genuinely So Cool man!!

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #⋯ ꒰ა ffxiv ໒꒱ *·˚ #meow . good noon <33 #we r so back... (me & my twin) mr Clive being in the same vicinity as my dearest wol Astria has done something to me!!!!! #also unrelated but i want to comm all my friends for art somehow lol. i do not have money but 1. I Need Art... 2. support besties :3 <3 #anyway WOW. clive. the man that you are! #i still haven't played ffxvi even tho i bought it alr bcs i am Scared. so getting spoiled was kinda funny but i had a feeling it was Like #That anyway so yippee! anyway . uergh. finished side quests in crystarium thinkin of exarch again and shb cries sobs dies #wow. i love you final fantasy fourteen.

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sorry to ffxivlovepost always anyway Man the way the devs & game did so good in making an mc that is Basically a blank-slate for the players, and there's so many opportunities to make your oc However you like but. the game itself adds so much story and character to that blank-slate guy. amazing

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #⋯ ꒰ა ffxiv ໒꒱ *·˚ #i think abt this a lot. and also a lot of other ffxiv stuff LMFAO #it's amazing ..... drk is a huge example of this i think #bcs it plays into the guilt and whatnot the wol feels and all that. spectacular #endwalker !!!!! shadowbringers!!! the way the game uses the concept of hope is just always so beautiful and fascinating to me #and yeah bunch of games may have like. mc you create & design but not always can you like. ehvejfhsjf idk how to explain LOL #it is 4 pm i woke up 2 hours ago but priorly woke at 7 am after havingn a rlly. weird sleep. #to which my twin told me 'i wont tell u what time it is' as we went to sleep so it def was Really late #bcs we were going thru re2 and she was also playing games on steam i've been telling her to play #(to which i got her fav characters right and knew fr how'd she'd like the game LMFAO. twins amiright.) #actually that is also smth so fascinating to me bcs. i always have had someone w me in my life. i am literally never alone. #to which what i'm getting at here is Wow... it's like having a sleepover every single day. and i was a kid always sad never to have #sleepovers bcs my parents were strict (they r cool tho!) but i was a kid who wanted to experience all the kid things #but i didn't rlly but that's fine :P i am a grateful person LOL anyway back on track back on black #ffxiv... the game that u are..... #it's the 1st game that rlly actually made me invested in the ocs of others and also make a fully fledged oc that wasn't just originally mine #but for a fandom or something. and also it got me back into writing and Into making poetry and prose so. yeah. #it's amazing how much. oc x canon ???? yeah. ffxiv is so Wow #like eveyrhhting w themis or graha and how u can AAGGGHHH shit w your oc . so many possibilities #and that character. those possibilities. are already in game but also expanded by the player and the fanbade and #idk it's so beautiful to me WHAGHSGDJDH. and yes me saying themis or graha up there is self-indukgent bcs #both of them are so Insane it's so. insane!!!!! i will never forget what happened in abyssos in particular that Broke me #and anabaseios... :)) i cried so much it is almost embarrassing. and wow. asphodelos. wverything w themis just. yeah #anyway graha... self-explanatory if u know..... idk he's the character of all time to me. simply said. but themis is crazy bcs going thru ab #yssos made me think for a bit 'hey themis might be my fav character in ffxiv now' but No but also Wow. wow #kinda cute bcs me and my twin have a thing where she has a certain type of chara she likes and me too #so sometimes. most times. all times. we have our own characters we like anyway but sometimes they overlap but either the case we kinda #lowkey 'segregate???' idk if that is a good word but we do that w our fav characters. so like emet is her fav elidibus is mine. #and that was all the way in arrr alr and we barely knew spoilers so that's kinda crazy! anyway

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hi i'm trying to be normal but it's so hard when you're so crazy over evangelion... and kawoshin.....

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #gusygusygusygusy. guys. didya know neon genesis evangelion is actually everything to me #it was my childhood that never was my childhood !!! it has stuff w sci-fi and science and ANGELS !!!!! AND RELIGOUS REFERENCESHWGWGAYAUDHGOE #AN ODE TO JOY !!!!!! kaworu. and. god. i know that piece okay i loved doing it as a kid it was one of my favorites. still is #ANGELS !!!! ASUKA !!!!!! REI WJEHWHSGDKSJ SHINJI . kaworu. oh my GODDDJHRJEHEJDHS #okay so my aunt ABSOLUTELY ADORES evangelion and my dad too. so. as a kid my dad made me and arti watch an episode but idk if we ever did #i still rmbr that time clearly tho. oh my god. #it also doesn't help that evangelion means so much to me in a similar way to kh. Also because of my aunt. #AND HIKARU UTADA RAGHHhhhhh good gods my guys #so as you can see. i am severely unwell. #:)) GOOOOOOOOD. oh my god #went to jp too years ago and went on the evangelion ride in one of those theme parks i forgor which one uhh universal studios? #w my aunt and dad and twin! so that was insane. i was so young but i still rmbr that. i loved it #evangelion and kingdom hearts... fullmetal alchemist and final fantasy... can you tell my family has really good taste #so many games so many animangas so many media all bcs of my family i adore my family (generally) guyshehehahshsbfjbskcbsk #rvangehwliognhrwh kaworhsingnfhegshddh good gods. kaworu...

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my favorite teacher plays dnd and bg3 do you know how crazy that is to me

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #LOTS OF THOUGHTS HII GOOD NOON TODAY WAS A REAL FUN DAY #I ALMOST BROKE DOWN AND ALSO I KINDA VENTED AND G #UH. WHY IS TUMBLR WEIRD AND CLOSING MY POST. ANYWAY! #i did vent to my friends abt annoying classmates (aka annoying ppl who are irresponsible) that bring me and my friends and groups grades #down. and yeah. but i bonded a lot w various frienda and and and fun day and and and I LEARN ^^ AND #things are quite bad sometimes but sometimes they aren't actually that bad and idk school is just really fun i'm almost sad #just really happy with where i am rn and my friends are noticing too sniffs ..... noticing how i'm talking more or whatnot #and more comfy and whatnot and hey it did take like. quite a while. but still! just. really happy #bcs this Quite A While was either basically immediate but in the making (two friends) or gradual but always getting there (group in class) #and etc !!! like hey maybe some friends online or irl i am not talking to as much atm but there's the comfort that we still greatly care #for wach other. and whatnot. and there's just a lot and damn if i gave up this wouldn't be happening lol my point is things do get better #and a lot of it tbh is on how you improve and see things (???) idk but damn i'm just rlly proud of myself #I COULD STILL DO BETTER mbut idk all of this is me and im just rlly secure in that and i have been since the longest time ngl. im amazing #yeehaw ANYWAYYYYFGEGKR BG3 I STARTED A DARK URGE RUN LAST NIGHT YE GODS ITS A BIT SCARY TO ME BUT I LOVE THE BLOOD #im trying to fight against it bcs im using my main tav but boom make him a durge guy so ^_^

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we ball 👍

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #Thinking Thoughts. #anyway so one of my irl friends i met just this january. !!!!! idk she is vv sweet lol and loves giving gifts :(( <3 #it is her bday today so YAY :3 !!!!! and to give back for the gifts she gave me & my twin i made her a rlly nice letter w doodles and then #stuff and etc and yea :( :) <3 reminds me of Back then i think in the pandemic #when i was more online on tumblr (old acct & this one!) + when i made a video for my friend's bday <3 #since then as much as i love being sweet and giftgiving i haven't been able to do it much since... but some ppl like certain moots or irl #friends ig r sort of indirectly inspiring me again to Be like that again :3 <333 #hashtag wna be more ideal self. but i rlly need to start w my sleep sched and routines T_T !!!!! #college is vv exciting for me aaaghhh scary ofc but exciting. i also want to fall in love so Maybe i'll get some of that!?!?? #i still wna be active here tho. >:)) i will manage my time fr.