#🥺 im emotional i love ffxiv so much

[noxtivagus]

DEATH UNTO DAWN ON SPOTIFY 🥹🫶🏼

#🌙.rambles #[ ffxiv. ] #pls. listen. it has the tea ost n the nier collab n sorrow of werlyt n eden. #it has so many osts dear to me uwahh i've been waiting. so long 😭😭 #looking at the album properly now that i'm back home from feeding the cats. help one of them even followed me from the #lower ground lvl to. 2nd floor HFLAKSJFLKSD. those cats. r very dear to me :< #back to ffxiv though. not only w ^^ but there's also hearthward.. ishgard my home. oh my god #n then. danshig naadam iirc? the 'a __ air __' around the start. my fav frontlines map hehe. i miss frontlines honestly #oh my god the scions & sinners stuff too 🥺 #spotify wrapped w to the edge at the top fr. OH MY GOD THIS MONTH #W KH FINALLY. YK ON SPOTIFY 😭 riku n dearly beloved those osts mean so much to me hehe n then #FFXIV NOW TOO 🥹 #so weird listening to these on spotify. this means i can remove a lot of my mp3s now that i downloaded from yt hdkfajsdkfl #i remember yk? IM GNA CRY SO BADLY I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY ANYMORE #I MISS. EDEN SO BAD IT HURTS. i miss raiding w my friends i miss laughing w them i miss calling n then. clearing. together. #i miss meeting new ppl. n. oh that one silly friend i still rmb those compliments man he made me attached for a bit i can't deny that but #IT'S JUST. FOND FOR ME TO LOOK BACK ON NOW. #n then. with this is just. endless small reminders of what i love in life so much. yk these memories these people these emotions n thoughts #all these stories. fuck. i feel like. a kid again n it's. smth i've missed lately. it soothes me so much n comforts my heart n soul n mind #sweet serenity oh how i missed you. yk that. that certain peace even though the world around me may be. yeah #even if the apocalypse wld come to test us all or smth i know that. the love i just have for. life wld. yk always return. #i'll always keep it close no matter how much it'll fucking hurt. #i love ffxiv so much i really do it just. yeah for the past few years has become one of my homes fr. always gives me comfort #always makes me remember myself again yk? hdflasdjflkd.. i miss emet-selch can you tell one reason why he's. rlly special to me #like bro he's. i mean. i find him. oh god how to put this i find him attractive fuck it but uh. his uhm. form as solus is.. he's #ffxiv shb grandpa simulator jokes for a reason 💀 but my bro i loved you ever since i knew you EMET-SELCH HE'S JUST. SO #SO ANNOYING. FUCK. PROMISES TO KEEP RN JUST MAKES ME EMOTIONAL ALL THE TIME. THE ORCHESTRA MAN #i want to write so much but. my mind is such a mess rn. but it. i feel better. i remember again. it. hdlfajsfkdjf :^) 😭 #i. have sm to write. but i just wna cry i'm overwhelmed again but it's bcs i love. ffxiv sm 😭😭 imy n ilysm not just ffxiv but. everything

[noxtivagus]

i love ffxiv so much fr

#🌙.rambles #[ ffxiv. ] #generally i feel very deeply n that's both a good n bad thing #usually i don't really have opportunities to be idk as open or unrestrained abt it as i would be (in regards to affection) #i love fiction.. i forgot the word but yk it helps like. yk let it out healthily bcs i'm also rlly just a creative person at heart #WHY IS WEIGHT OF THE WORLD INSTRUMENTAL PLAYING IN MY HOUSE HAHA WHY R ALL THE LIGHTS OFF WTF #AGHHHHH I'M SHY OH MY GOD FUCK WAIT WHEN IT COMES TO ANY SORT OF LIL STUFF LIKE THIS W ANYONE AT ALL #MY FRIEND PLACED A MESSAGE IN OUR MESSAGE BOOK 🥺 #this was.. oh my god last month 18th i haven't placed ffxiv much at all recently that i've only noticed now #THATS SO CUTE MWAHH i love my friends vv much 😭🫶🏼 ok but wait hermes OH NO I WAS GNA RAMBLE ABOUT HIM AGAIN ^^ #AGHH I CANT CONCENTRATE WHY IS WEIGHT OF THE WORLD PLAYING..... IM CHANGING IT THIS IS TOO EMOTIONAL???? #i love the songs i placed in the orchestrion so much #i might edit it sometime bcs uh 'from the heavens' is too. idk too strong for the rest of the songs i think #1) neath dark waters; 2) your answer; 3) and love you shall find - i love this so goddamn much btw fuck terncliff; 4) from the heavens 💀; #5) voice of no return (guitar) - my fav automata ost; 6) pilgrimage; 7) kaine (final fantasy main theme version) - too ethereal oh my god; #8) radiance!!!! #tbf actually 'your answer' & 'radiance' r battle themes too. along w 'from the heavens' though i'd say they're all rather elegent in a way #i rlly want to put 'apocalypsis noctis' somewhere.. i don't listen to it too often nowadays but it'll always be one of my favs. #& i rlly wna put 'dragonsong' :<< that song is v special to me with heavensward n all. the lyrics r so romantic n beautiful #'he who continues the attack' is so fucking good. i have lovely memories w apollo with the 'the measure of [] reach' songs hehe #'fragments of forever'!! under the stars w alisaie 🤍 oh my god i Need to put 'shadowbringers' n 'tomorrow and tomorrow' somewhere :(( #'a fierce air forceth' & 'a fine air forbiddeth' from my favorite frontlines map. apollo n i always got so many kills n were rlly good ehe #'vamo'alla flamenco' dnc's one of my fav classes n. i love ffix. 'bedlam's brink'.. iconic emet-selch my man. 'the heavens' ward' GRRRR #it's so epic though! 'wind on the plains' n rlly just the other bozja n zadnor related stuff. sm memories. it means a lot to me #'tomorrow and tomorrow - reprise'.. cried the first time it played with alphy in around eulmore. 'dangerous words'; god i love shb #'the queen awakens' i love delubrum reginae so fucking much. n then 'endwalker - footfalls' & 'flow'.. oh fuck . #AGHH THE OTHER NIER SONGS TOO :(( N THE RAIDS. EDEN'S PROMISE AAAAA FUCK FUCK I MISS RAIDING SO MUCH #'hic svnt leones'.. the memories 💀 n the aglaia osts hehe I DONT HAVE. SCREAM FROM PANDAEMONIUM N IN THE BALANCE #THERE'S TOO MUCH SONGS IM EVEN ONLY LOOKING THROUGH THE ROLLS I HAVE HOLY SHIT #shiva n tsukuyomi n endwalker n the auspices n the primals n all the dungeons n the tribes n city states n EVERYTHING FUCK

[noxtivagus]

endwalker 🤍

#🌙.rambles #[ ffxiv. ] #i really like alphinaud's voice. n. hehe endwalker w the moon n then flowers n everything. #the way they built up the story n told it was rlly so good. the way they. build up tension.. the foreshadowing n #despair & hope. it's just so good. HFDKLAJSF OK I'M watching that One scene rn #N ALPHINAUD HEALER MY BELOVED. BUT. FUCKKKKK #WAIT THAT STRIDE!!!!! MR CATBOY. THE VOICE. THE STANCE. HE. HEEEEE. HFLKAJDS OH HE'S SO BEAUTIFUL. PRETTY BOY #THANCRED GNB OH MY GODDDD I SERIOUSLY HAVE A THING FOR GUNBREAKERS. YSHTOLAS SO COOL I LOVE HER SM #🥺 oh my god tho when yk glances to the wol that's my bb boy LMFAOOO APOLLO'S . ykyk how they get w their fav haha <3 #aaaa.. more cutscenes n. looking for flowers w meteion. oh my poor heart. my poor poor heart I AM SO SOFT #MY HEART. HERMES. HIS VOICE. AGHHH METEION LIL BB. HERMES HE'S SO GENTLE I LOVE HIM #I'M NOT OKAY. I'M ACTUALLY NOT OKAY. I'M NOT OKAY. I WISH HERMES WAS REAL FFS GODDAMN IT #hermes is basically good w animals n kids. he's really just so soft n gentle n kind n his voice is so pretty n #it's night n. oh my god. the stars the flowers the sky the.. yeah. hdfkljaldfs meteion cares so much for hermes it makes me so sad #IM GNA CRY WE MAKE THE LFOWERS SAD TOO N HIS REACTION N. #'youre not alone' IM NOT OKAY IM REALLY NOT OKAY IM SO NOT OKAY I'M SO SAD #the song. N HE REMOVES HIS MASK N. HE'S SO PRETTY. HIS EYES HIS SMILE N HIS VOICE N I JUST SCREAMED IM SORRY #i'm emotional i can't he just means so much to me oh no. meteion w the fireflies n the plants.. the animals about n the flowers n stars #he's so. melancholic. pretty. he's just so ethereal wtf n he #'doubt'. being different from the others.. seeking 'acceptance'. finding comfort with knowing that you're not alone #he. he means the world to me. it. it really isn't beautiful. his voice is so.. soft while saying all this. 'yet no one cares. no one' #the despair in his voice. how painful 'blissful ignorance' indeed is. 'always the blossoms shine pure and bright' #but he.. he's different. n it hurts him. but. 'but now i know i'm not alone. not the only one for whom the flowers weep' im so sad #his soft smile while thanking us. 'to know that you too have experienced suffering...is a comfort.' his voice wavering. n looking away too #his voice oh my god he's. 'it's...just the fast that you are here inspite of your suffering gives me heart' marry me #he smiles so tenderly at the wol. n then staring uup at the skies.. the stars. oh how they shine so bright by your side :c #asking questions. seeking answers. sharing in them and opening up in this.. calm night before. before despair #this night w the wol he had. hope. but he left without ever facing the answers he wanted so badly. #'...its getting rather late. we had best find our beds. 'twould not do for both of us to be sleep-deprived on the morrow' hdkfadjsl #THE WAY HE CALLS TO METEION SOBS HE'S SO KIND N GENTLE N. meteion worries. hermes really has a soft n sensitive heart