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selenityshiroi · 10 months

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FFXVI 13 hours in:

My answer to Clive having an angst attack is to make him pet the dog after because he obviously needs the free serotonin

I also get free serotonin from petting the dog so win win

Lady Hanna MVP. She gave me new drip.

I'm assuming (as I have done since awkward teenage 'not sure if I should hug her to warm her' moment) that Clive and Jill are intended. They aren't being TOO subtle about it but it's got that typical 'chaste but yearning' thing FF tends to do in their main pairings.

Which is hilarious because this game has also given us three scenes where people had extremely unchaste intentions and also naked Clive scene so the whole typical FF romance seems both wildly out of sync with the rest of the games tone but also quite charming BECAUSE it's against the rest of the game's tone.

Margrace=Joshua seems confirmed with the hood of the cloak coming down so called it (unless it's a deliberate red herring but doubtful...which I am very grateful for because one less guilt on Clive's shoulders eventually)

I am loving this game but SE level design is still prominently their weakness

And on that note: EVERYONE PRAISING THIS GAME WHO BLASTS FFXIII FOR BEING A CORRIDOR SIMULATOR OWES FFXIII AN APOLOGY. The only difference is a) you can actually go back to the corridors in this game and b) XIII at least had actual items at the end of their corridors and not just crafting materials and 5 gil

Combat is still surprising possible for someone like me who doesn't play many action RPGs. I've died and few times but the single reset with full potions has gotten me through each bit of content I struggled with (three times, I think?)

The only 'assist' accessory I'm using is pet assist. Because otherwise I will 100% forget to tell Torgal what to do. Otherwise I'm on action mode still

The times when I've managed parrys and precision dodge/counters make me think I'm actually good at video games lol but mostly it's probably luck as I spam combos and dodges

But it's getting me through

But, seriously, this game is the baby of FFXIII Trilogy and FFXIV so it's hilarious to me that this is getting so much love when XIII trilogy gets so much hate

The combat is basically LR combat. Right down to Eikons being paradigm shifts. The level design is pretty much the same as XIII but with the freedom to go back on yourself (so...like XIII-2). The UI and quest system is all FFXIV. The Active Lore is the XIII data log but presented easier. Staggering obviously started with XIII and had been a staple since.

And the plot...oh boy is there a nice sprinkling of XIII plot dressed up in XIV medieval fantasy dressing. It's still its own thing but this is clearly CLEARLY more XIII/XIV spiritual successor than anything else in the series

Again...as a FFXIII fan I'm super amused by this because, again, XIII is hated so much but there is so much praise for this and its not actually all that different! It's just tidier and adjusted to fix a few errors of the past which is pretty typical from a progression point.

The beginning was super cutscene heavy and then everything up until getting Jill to join us was very 'story/cutscene heavy broken up by minor fetch quests and take down a small batch of monsters'. It's only really opened up now Jill is here and we actually are out in the world on a mission.

Since I AM only 13 hours in I assume I'm still quite early in the game, though. So I'm assuming this sort of exploration is going to be more the standard going forward.

So, yeah, for all my 'I'm not sure if I'll enjoy the gameplay or the grimdark 'appeal to Western Audiences' bullshit that doesn't actually appeal to me in general' concerns, I'm enjoying the gameplay and the grimdark story is not as grimdark as I expected

Clive, in particular, pleasantly surprised me because he isn't a typical gruff angst machine as some of the promotional images implied

He's still kind and polite and careful with people and has a lot of compassion (which is also why he's hurt by what happened and is dwelling on it) but he's also letting himself be driven forward into looking for answers instead of JUST dwelling on it

Him taking plates around the Inn for people doesn't feel out of place because he does indeed seem like the good sort of boy who will just help out because he's been asked

So, yeah, much more my sort of character!

(Also if anyone wants to tell me 'but XIII was actually just a bad game' then don't. Because it isn't. It had a bad start (where you weren't even introduced to the actual battle system until like 3 hours in) and it required you to actually pay attention to the people around you and the things you heard and read in order to understand the plot fully. Which was novel at the time and is now kind of expected. THIS GAME even does it (no way would you understand half the background of the nations without the datalog active time lore). There is a reason a lot of people replay XIII nowadays and go 'wait...it's actually a pretty good game'...seriously, there are a crapload of people who replayed during the pandemic or when it went on sale on steam who are like 'why is this so hated???'.)

#ffxvi #spoilers #although still relatively early spoilers i guess #but with some plot twists mentioned

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yoiku · 9 months

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next expac for ffxiv is looking like it could be really fun and refreshing, but at the same time i am worried about them choosing the new world as the location. I'm hoping they would've learned from past mistakes on cultural stuff, but given their attitude towards all of that and the feedback... yeah I can't help but be worried. I do plan on getting back into the game a month or two before the expansion drops, to trot through the 2 years of content i've missed by then, before 7.0 drops. But I see myself doing the same thing i did with endwalker; play through the story and unsub until 8.0. As much as I love the game, I don't love the community anymore. I like the connections i've made through it in the past, but whenever i peek into what's going on in the community at large these days, it's either modding(which i have nothing against, it's just not in my interests with ffxiv) or some angry discourse or drama about whatever. I dunno. I constantly feel like i'd still like to play the game regularly, but at the same time it's so tiring. And i'm still not well enough in the head to play with random people, gives me too much anxiety about performing well enough. and running with npc's only is fun a few times, but not in the long run.

#maybe i just have to accept it as it is and stop dreaming about getting back into the game as a regular hobby to do #i can enjoy it from afar like i've been doing but it's not the same #shut up yoi #it's probably just a problem i have with my own head - being unable to just detach from feeling this or that way and just playing not giving #a shit

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oathofpromises · 10 months

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Beep boop! Portrayal check!

I very much enjoy the depth you put into your characters, especially Stella. It's clear you have a lot thought into who she is! I also appreciate how you write the thoughts/persective around your muse's dialogue; it gives a good glimpse of how your muse is feeling, which allows your partner to fil in the gaps without you having to explicitly describe every little detail. It makes me excited to write with all your other ff14 muses!

As for feedback for Muses I've a little more experience writing with --

I sent a whole spiel about writing teenagers to Mystel which I'd just copy-paste here for you writing Alphinaud, Alisaie, Ryne, and Gaia. So I don't repeat all that, I'll point to that ask whenever they post it! Essentially though, I always want to give the advice that when writing a teenager you have to find a balance between the maturity required of them for the plot (tm) vs. how a teenager would believably act. And also keep in mind that even if 16/17 is a baby to the mun personally (like me) we have to remember not to write them younger than anticipated! Although I believe with Ryne's circumstances I read somewhere that her being holed up in Eulmore did lag her development behind a bit, too. So obviously, circumstances adjust accordingly!

And since I don't just want to point to Mystel's answer -- another thing I always want to say about writing villains, i.e Yotsuyu. This is not specific to any of your threads or your portrayal but more a general advice thing: beware muns who cannot properly surrender up 'control' against your villain!

Personal Example: My friend writes a villain character in another fandom. They tried to get interactions, but every time they did, the opposing Mun would not let their Muse "lose" against the Villain in anything they did. If Villain threw a punch, the other Muse HAD to block it perfectly. If Villain sprung a trap, the other Muse TOTALLY KNEW about the trap and was just playing along. It is so fricking exhausting playing a back-and-forth of one-upping each other and, for the most part, has discouraged me from playing similar characters. If you ever find yourself in that sort of situation, try and reach out to give a little bit of direction, or at least try and get them to agree who "wins" the "fight" and work toward that. Otherwise you will be driven insane!

Thank you for all of this, I do try and put love into each of my muses. As a writer, I have always strived to give details. I've been in situations where I feel like I am the only one trying to write enough to keep the thread going, and this can be tiring. I am not the type ask people to match my writing length but at least put in some effort. I have had experiences where I would write this super detailed intro and only get back a few sentences...yeah it makes it difficult keep anything going when you barely have anything to work off of.

I admit that I was nervous write for 14 but this series has me in a grip hold ever since I first started playing almost a year ago now. I did attempt to start the game before but due to reasons stopped for a bit before making a new account and starting from there. I just am the type who wants to make sure I portray canon characters the best I can. I want people to hear their voices in my writing..that's at least the goal. I do keep adding to my ffxiv muse list, still need update my carrd but I keep thinking about a few job quest npcs that I really do love and could see myself writing too.

As for the advice, I do appreciate it and feel the same when writing any of my characters. A good example is Alphinaud, he is mature for his age but still a young boy and can be very naïve. He also started out only getting involved in everything due to his own reason, to discover what happened to his grandfather and finish what he started to prove his own worth. We of course see he does truly want to help after, but as we can see throughout the main story he does have faults. He also isn't good with money, we can assume this is based on growing up in rich household. He does posses a good heart, but it's important show all sides to his character. It's how he developed throughout the game and grown up a bit since first expansion.

Ryne, I do head canon that her development was slowed a bit during her time in Eulmore simply because of how she was treated and how caged she felt there. The girl didn't get to interact with people her age and is a huge reason that she tends to rely on others at first. It was how she survived..I am getting emotional thinking about all the stuff she did have to go through some in canon and others based on my own headcanons for her character. Ryne even admits that she doesn't know a lot about the world. I do want to expand on this in a future headcanon post for her because honestly there is a lot to dig into with her time spent in Eulmore and how that did affect her today.

I also appreciate the Villain advice, as it is true that I have had people in the past that would never let my Villain characters get any attacks on their muse. It's why I dislike god-modding in writing and has turned my off from writing with people before just simply because they act like their character can do nothing wrong and would never get defeated in a fight. A good example is even the Warrior of Light has failed..the first time they were defeated by Zenos, it broke them because that was first time they had suffered such a overwhelming defeat. Did it shake their pride, yeah a bit because for so long they were used to winning their fights. For last second mentioning to overcome the darkness but this was different. My point is, no hero is perfect and like you stated the hero can't predict every single attack. It's just tiring have a thread go like that. Communication is certainly the best thing for fighting threads..please everyone communicate

Villains are sometimes hard to write for because honestly I have had experiences where people associated actions of my muse to me, the writer. I am going to state this that muse=mun. Just because someone character says or does something in writing isn't how they would act or say in real life. I just want to mention this with the Villain part since I have had this happen to me writing for evil characters in the past.

#— ❛❛ // HEART OF A PRINCESS ¦ Answered Memes・#Thank you for all this <3 it means a lot #— ❛❛ // MISSION REPORT ¦ QUEUE・

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lowhowl · 1 year

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𝐆𝐄𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐑.

𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞. Spiders.

𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐬. she/her

𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐟𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐮𝐧𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧. do not perceive me (discord)

𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐞(𝐬). It's just Whisper right now. I've been on-and-off trying to clean up and restart my Tangle's blog but it hasn't really worked out,,

𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞/𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠 (𝐦𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐡𝐬/𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐬?). If I count like. The very, very start? Something like 11 years now.

𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐦𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮’𝐯𝐞 𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐝. lbp (oh yeah we're diggin Deep) skype, ffxiv, discord, and tumblr.

𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞. I remember when the Homestuck RPC was at its most active and I was like. The only Vriska that actually stuck around for longer than a month without abandoning their blog, so if anyone needed a spiderbitch they went to Me and idk it just felt nice; Vriska is one of my most developed muses for a reason lmao

𝐫𝐩 𝐩𝐞𝐭 𝐩𝐞𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐬 / 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐛𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐫𝐬. the list has gotten longer and longer over the past few months but y'know what. It really bothers me when people flood the dash with ooc reblogs of stuff for their muses. Like- please queue all of it so its spread out, it makes scrolling around much less of a pain. (to be clear, none of my mutuals atm do this, ya'll are good)

𝐟𝐥𝐮𝐟𝐟, 𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐬𝐭, 𝐨𝐫 𝐬𝐦𝐮𝐭. my preferences change depending on if I've done one specific thread type a Bunch, i.e. if I've had nothing but angst recently, I'd like to have some fluff to sorta reignite whisper's spirits, and so on

𝐩𝐥𝐨𝐭𝐬 𝐨𝐫 𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐬. I get the most mileage out of memes. I love to plot! but my brain just turns off after a while.

𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐫 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐫𝐭 𝐫𝐞𝐩𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐬. I can do either, depends on the overall density of the thread, i.e. how active it is. I'll need to write multi-para over fights of any kind, but if muses are just standing there and talking, it's probably gonna be less than 3 paras, unless it's a very dense subject. best example of that would be my recently started thread with aaron's tails.

𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞. nighttime. i hit my second wind at 3AM.

𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐞(𝐬). I admittedly put a lot of myself into Whisper (we're both transfem, into alt fashion, have social troubles but have grown to be pretty jaded and Angry) but I also did the same with my Vriska and at this point it just kinda Happens without planning.

tagged by: a hedgehog gave me a sinister look tagging: steal it you coward

#also i've folded and started using vriska for ooc stuff #i love android 21 but ehhehhhh she doesn't really fit Me #🐺 ✧ 🗲 𝗲𝘆𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗲𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗳𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗻𝗲𝘁𝘀 ▬ OOC #🐺 ✧ 🗲 𝗝𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗳𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁 𝗶𝘁 - 𝗦𝗼𝗹𝗱𝗶𝗲𝗿 𝗼𝗳 𝗺𝗲𝘁𝗮𝗹 . ▬ DASH MEME

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hirazuki · 2 years

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I’ve been feeling less and less into FFXIV since experiencing EW, and the more time that passes, the more I think my honeymoon phase with it is over lmao.

Thoughts under the cut!

I haven’t been excited or even curious about the new patch content dropping at all. I did just watch a playthrough of it, out of boredom being stuck in bed feeling too unwell to get up and do anything constructive but also being unable to nap -- and yeah... not currently a fan.

Idk, I guess it’s just a combination of the bad taste in my mouth from how my fave ended up being treated plus nothing really interesting in the plot to grab my attention anymore? I suppose I’m at a point in my life where if my fave dies or is done dirty by the narrative, I just don’t feel the incentive to continue ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

The new patch content was especially disappointing, as not only did we kick the dead man while he’s, well, dead (which was so upsetting, it felt so much like Lotor all over again, ugh) -- multiple times, too! yay -- but we got a nice replacement for him too (: The new character who tags along (who is also the one who keeps bringing him up/speaking disparagingly of him) is literally exactly the same as him but like. Sanitized™. Idk it just irritated the hell out of me. Maybe I would have liked her more if they’d kept her original design? It was super cool looking. And while I do love her outfit (it’s very Bloodborne-y, how could I not?), she’s become very generic-looking.

(Varshahn’s new design is ++++ tho!)

But yeah, overall the magic is gone :/ It’s always a bummer when this happens, especially when I used to enjoy it so much. It may redeem itself and return to my good graces in the future, in which case it will be a lovely surprise, but currently it holds no interest for me. I had a feeling this was coming, as my engagement with related content has been declining over the past couple of months and I haven’t touched the actual game itself since May, but it was kind of disheartening to confirm with the new released content.

Oh well. I’ll just view this as an indefinite break and hope that, come the next few patches or the next installment, there will be something to draw me back again.

(And clutch Naruto and Fairy Tail tighter than ever in the meantime, lmao; Kishimoto and Mashima have spoiled me big time, it seems XD).

#i'm still going to continue making my own content for it up through EW #but yeah Altan's story ends with EW. at least for now #i guess on the bright side this means i have time free up to create stuff for my other fandoms #my standards are just too high y'all and i have no patience for compromising anymore XD #his.oka's right; treasure to trash indeed #in times of trouble he comes to me speaking words of wisdom lmao

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griffinblogsgw2 · 3 years

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What Killed The GW2 Tumblr Fandom?

(And I do just mean the tumblr fandom. I’ve not really noticed the fandom as a whole having this problem.)

So full disclosure before I talk about what I’ve noticed personally and why I think this jazz is happening: I’ve never been the most active in this fandom. I’ve tried to be in the past but even at my peak I’ve always felt a lil outside of everything? I’ve been playing GW2 since launch and I’ve been making a Gw2 comic at @torasteals for the fandom for almost 5 years at this point. For most of that time I’ve felt like some weirdo tossing shit into the void and only vaguely being aware of what else was going on in the tumblr fandom beyond the few blogs I followed. I want y’all to keep this in mind cause it does paint my perception of what I’ve seen as different from someone who may have been far more involved in the fandom than me.

Okay with that in mind...

Here’s what I’ve noticed:

The death of engagement within the GW2 fandom as I’ve noticed it seems tied to at least three things: Tumblrpocalypse of 2018, the migration to FFXIV, and the Pandemic of 2020.

Tumblrpocalypse of 2018

Does anyone else remember this shit? Tumblr had that change of policy around nsfw art and changed how they treat links that basically murdered a bunch of creators on tumblr? Everyone remember the mass exodus of artists and creators leaving tumblr for twitter? Yeah tumblr has definitely chugged along alive since, somehow miraculously, but the effects of this can still be felt to this day. We lost a large chunk of creators for the fandom during this. I wouldn’t be surprised if a large chunk of fans, who don’t create fan works, left for this reason as well.

Personally, tumblr’s changes in policy and algorithm during this time nearly killed my comic. I lost a lot of readers and a lot of engagement with my work. I wouldn’t be surprised if other artists went through something similar here.

Even so, I do recall there still being a lot of creators that held on during this time and who persisted to create works on tumblr. But then...

The Migration to FFXIV

From what I’ve seen, a lot of people, creators and just fans alike, have simply moved on from GW2 to FFXIV. Like, a LOT of them. Nearly every artist that I used to follow for GW2 content just doesn’t do that anymore. Nearly all of them have moved onto FFXIV (and sometimes some other game entirely, but it’s usually FFXIV). I don’t know what this says about the state of the game itself right now, but I’m not sure we’re getting as many new fans as we’re losing right now. That might change when End of Dragons is released, since expansions have always historically brought in an influx of new blood, but I’m no fortune-teller.

As it currently stands, I legitimately don’t know how many of us are left in this fandom. Hell, I still regularly make content for this fandom weekly and I can tell you I’ve been burned out on the game and needing a break from it for awhile now. I wouldn’t be surprised if this isn’t a common feeling.

Pandemic of 2020

I would honestly argue that this is what put the nails in the coffin for the fandom at present. I couldn’t begin to tell you exact reasons why, but I can tell you that as soon as shit really hit the fan last year, engagement in this fandom basically died. My posts that used to get a handful of reblogs, have turned to nearly zero over the course of this crisis.

My dashboard used to be littered in GW2 posts. So much so that even if I didn’t directly follow them, I could tell you who the big names in the tumblr fandom were. I can’t do that anymore. I have no idea who is big and popular on here anymore. It’s not just that people have stopped engaging, it’s that people have stopped creating as well. I’ve seen honest to god radio silence from creators who used to dominate the GW2 tag.

Again I’ve got nothing but guesses as to why this is? COVID has done a number on all of us I think. It’s harder to create and it’s harder to engage. It’s incredibly depressing on a number of fronts.

So is this it then?

I’d like to hope it isn’t?

I don’t really want to end this on such a doom and gloom note, and I’m sorry for that. I don’t think the fandom will straight up die forever but I do think we’re havin’ it rough right now. And there’s no guarantee of when shit’ll pick back up again as far as I’m aware.

If anyone else has thoughts on this, I’d love to hear it. I’m sure my picture of what I’ve been seeing is incomplete, so if anyone has stuff to add or has noticed things I’ve straight up been blind to, I’d be very curious to know.

#gw2 #Guild Wars 2 #guildwars2 #fandom #thoughts

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noxtivagus · 1 year

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SHADOWBRINGERS.... listening to the song again n oh god i love the lyrics so so much we r ignoring the fact that i have to wake up in like less than 4 hours

#🌙.vent #i just have 1 assignment due tmrrw n i don't want to do it :') like yeah i'm definitely still going to but. it's a letter to ourselves....#i write a lot to myself that is very much evident but it's so hard to actually organize it. & fuck too bcs it's due 10 pm later today #i hate doing things for the sake of academics. says me w my grades lmfao but despite how well i manage i really do hate the school system #i wanted to ramble abt ffxiv oh no i get so distracted when i start writing. but. god my mind rn i don't understand #🥹 this stupid mental block ???? w the break nearly ending there's sm more i have to do but i need to sleep . but not having this started is #messing me up sm rn. i want to put a lot of effort into it but i'm at a loss for words. i wrote some ideas days back but i've changed a bit #this moment ideally right now where i'm in a better mood than i have been for the past few days but not as brain empty #a balance of fiction and reality. enough to keep me not sad but enough to keep me stressed?#i would like to get it started now. i know i want to. but i can't. i just can't seem to. it's not lack of motivation right now. it's.#....maybe a fear? a fear that gives me some sort of mental block. because i really really want to at least start writing something but #i can't start. & goddamn this is not what i meant to write about i wanted to write of shadowbringers & maybe a little of today #but i guess this just has been. bothering me for a while. buried somewhere in my mind #i've been this age for like. more than a week now huh. it's daunting it's scary but i've always loved & sought the thrill of challenges. bu #alright i wasn't able to read anything i wanted to. nor did i watch as much as i would've liked. & i didn't really bond with my friends #save for texts here n then. talking in ffxiv w that one too. & that very one call on bday yh. & tumblr too ofc c: but i didn't do the schoo #stuff i wanted to do this break. but my rank in pjsekai's lowering. nor playing arknights/nier again yet. & fixing my sleep. but....#i didn't wake up any later than 4 pm. i went out for a walk earlier with apollo. i wrote asks to a friend here on tumblr. new books.#new game. plans to make an fc in ffxiv. i ate what i could. i got up even when it hurt. i'm playing gbf again. i'm rlly happy abt that #perhaps it's not enough for me. i can't get rid of my heavy regrets so easily. but acknowledging what i have done that was good enough #trying my best to be kind to myself in this moment even though i feel like crying. acknowledging my pain. maybe. maybe that's #i'm listening to ashes of dreams rn fuck i'm actually going to cry i think bulbel is next in my queue i #it hurts yes n i feel like crying right now but there's. this ache in my chest that replaced the cold emptiness earlier #maybe that's not a good thing uhh but the warmth. that warmth. i'm alive i'm real n there's a tomorrow n that's enough hope #it has to be. it fucking has to be. just. little steps. guide my own self slowly n softly like i do for others. i deserve that too.#i'll give it to myself. surely i must owe myself at least that much. being human comes with its many burdens but i don't need to be #so harsh to myself right? ironic saying that right now while i know there's something so dear to me i'm denying right now #it's like i'm a wilting flower fighting against time to stay alive. but the petals slowly decay n it gets colder the longer the dark night #would an outside light help the blossom find its own light? or would it make it disappear. i wonder #did the flower grow to be meant to be undeserving of such kindness? or are there thorns on its petals that serve as an unbeknownst barrier?

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theimperialnuisance · 3 years

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What makes you want to make and keep up your blog?

So let me take you back a bit to the golden age of "do you love the color of the sky?" and other classic memes this website harbors. Yeah, I have been on tumblr since about 2012 running my main blog, and my Disney college program blog (which is uh, a little dead right now but hopefully will pick up!) I had a few character blogs in the past but the fandom was really small and it never really took off so I just stuck with what I knew best.

I really love roleplaying/writing and taking screenshots and for the longest time I just shared that stuff with my core group of friends that I play with and then one of them mentioned she had a tumblr for her wol and that the ffxiv community was alive and well on tumblr and twitter and I figured, why not? Let me try my hand at a character blog again but it's even better this time because it's one of my oc's and the sky is practically the limit with what I can do instead of being stuck to a manga that said character barely appears in. And plus, I really wanted to see what other people did with their wol's and tumblr (and twitter too!) has been a great place to read about ffxiv lore and see all the wonderful art of my favorite characters (and the other wols!) and read all the awesome headcanons!

And what makes me keep up with my blog? All of you! c: I have met so many wonderful people in my short time since beginning this blog and even if we barely talk and it's just through asks or tags, I am grateful for those interactions! Every ask, tag, reblog, like, and comment makes my day so much brighter and it feels validating to know there are people out there who like what I post and follow me and even stick around when half the time I think I'm being silly and I worry about posting too much or too little. Regardless, keeping this blog has been a great creative outlet for me and it's been fun to share Kien's story with you all! I hope to keep going for as long as I can with this and I hope you stick around too! c: (especially if 6.1 takes us to Meracydia. I will literally scream with happiness as Kien sinks to the ground with dread. We love angst in this house. XD)

Thank you so much for the ask @adeat This got way too long so I apologize but you are one of the wonderful people I enjoy seeing and it keeps me motivated to continue this blog, so thank you for being you! c:

#ooc #shy mun #I ramble a loooot #I got really passionate with this one XD #thank you for the ask!

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illegiblewords · 3 years

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Fic Writer Meme

Swiped this because it looked like fun!

Name

Fandoms

Most popular multichapter

Actual worst part of writing

How you choose your titles

Do you outline

Ideas I probably won’t get around to, but wouldn’t it be nice?

Callouts @ Me

Best writing traits

Spicy Tangential Opinion

Tagging: @nilim, @azwoodbomb, @wouldyouliketoseemymask, @parvus-pica, @peregrineroad, @spiral-seeker, @frostmantle, @autumnslance, @strangefellows, @redbud-tree, @maccaroni-eh, @entropytea, @prettyparadoxes, @ivalane, @kunstpause, @fogfens

Name: Illegible or Illegiblewords lately. I’ve switched it in the past a few times.

Fandoms: I’ve been in Final Fantasy XIV for the past couple of years now. Passively I might be in Pathologic fandom and Dragon Age fandom? Maybe others too on and off. I was in comic fandoms for a long time but honestly that spiraled into a hot mess of epic proportions so I’ve mostly peaced out of there. Still love stories, characters, and buddies from there though.

Most Popular Oneshot: Ironically it’s Ideation for Bladerunner 2049 haha. I did exactly one fic there right after seeing the movie and didn’t go back, but I thought it was very good and I had a specific story I wanted to tell. It’s one of my most popular fics, and given it’s gen too I’m actually kind of happy about that.

Most Popular Multichapter: The Immortal Wound for FFXIV fandom! I had only just started writing for the fandom, and the series leading up to this fic was my first time writing NPC shipping in FFXIV. I was seriously, SERIOUSLY nervous at first! I wrote the first fic, Posturing, as a personal challenge to do an ambiguous protagonist/NPC since I saw other people doing that and wanted to see if I could pull it off. Posted it at around 4 in the morning then deleted within a few minutes out of anxiety lol. A week went by before I read it again, realized I still liked it, and put it back up for good. That being well-received helped encourage me to keep trying, and by The Immortal Wound it was getting solid attention. The experience really meant a lot to me!

Actual Worst Part of Writing: Probably chapter maps within the outlining process for me. It’s needed for how I approach things, but shit is anxiety-inducing and stressful af lol. I basically plan each event out in high detail before actually writing the fic, so when the time comes for me to legit write I’m more or less following a plan I can trust. Making that plan is the tough part.

How Do You Choose Your Titles: Often titles are the last things I figure out before starting the fic itself. I know I like punchy stuff if I can manage. Sometimes it’ll be one word, sometimes it’ll be a quote or song lyric, sometimes it’ll be a saying, sometimes it’ll be a phrase that feels fitting. I go fast and loose usually, and tbh I’ve tried to tell myself not to overthink it too hard. I do try title related works in ways that have some thematic link when I can.

Do You Outline: HahahahahaHAHAHAHAhaha yeah. Straight up my outlines are eldritch terrors for their detail, length, and complexity. I don’t mean that as a brag at all, seriously--I tend to get frozen a bit if I don’t have an outline by and large because it’s hard for me to keep track of what’s in my head and plan accordingly. Just end up with too many moving parts + revision and pacing get wonky otherwise.

Depending on the project I might have sections tied to setting, characters, magic systems, religions, etc. at the top. Fanfic this is less likely but does crop up sometimes.

To give an example of the first bullet of the first chapter of an ongoing fic:

Post-Shinryu, the Warrior of Light lingers in the Royal Menagerie alone at his own insistence to search for the Eye of Nidhogg. In the process he remembers the fight against Zenos and Shinryu. Note he was overcome by an almost feral rage at Zenos’ assumption that he was the target of anything resembling lust. Those attentions (“bite down upon my jugular”) belong to another, but note similarities of two pale-eyed, long-haired blondes. Seeing Shinryu, the Warrior had no idea whether Lahabrea survived within. The fusion was horrifying to see and as he fought he didn’t hold back because besides obvious dangers, he was also ready to mercy kill if needed. Also note Warrior wanted to intervene against Thordan for Lahabrea but wasn’t fast enough, questions a little privately how far he’d have gone against him. It might not have mattered even if he’d managed since he knows Lahabrea was going crazy and unable to listen. Locating and examining the Eye, he recognizes how drained it is. Certainly not enough to threaten him when dealing with post-battle exhaustion. So he reaches inside with his own aether, relentless in pushing aside every foreign element—Nidhogg, Thordan, the corrupted Rhalgr, the places Zenos caged them all under his own will. Zodiark’s tempering is what helps him ultimately find Lahabrea, who is barely alive. Zodiark’s tempering has preserved what it could but has a much more tenuous grip in consequence. When the Warrior finds him Lahabrea isn’t even aware, functionally unconscious. The tempering flares against him defensively and this time the Warrior focuses on it. This is all that has allowed Lahabrea to stay alive. He could force himself closer but there is no vessel. Besides, the process of separating a fragile soul so deficient in aether is too great a risk. So he keeps the Eye.

It’s not the only bullet of comparable size for that chapter. The overall piece has at least 40 total chapters, but probably more.

Ideas I Probably Won’t Get Around To, But Wouldn’t It Be Nice: Tbh probably some of the earlier WIPs I have that aren’t finished already. Not just FFXIV (Dead Language, With Good Intentions) but other fandoms. I could end up circling back in the future one day but who knows.

Callouts @ Me: “NO MORE WIPS HOLY SHIT YOU HAVE OVER 20″, “RELEARN HOW TO DO DRABBLES”, “GET UR PRESENTS DONE”, “REVIEW OTHERS MORE THE STAGE FRIGHT IS RIDICULOUS”.

Best Writing Traits: I try to write any character as the hero of their own story/with the capacity to be someone’s favorite. I do my research and prioritize telling a good story first and foremost. I can change my writing style according to need and am good at capturing the cadence and word choices of different characters.

Spicy Tangential Opinion: If no transaction has been made (esp. monetary), no one owes you shit online. Not reviews, not hits, not praise, not agreement, not content of any sort. It sucks to feel like you’re creating to a void. It sucks to be passionately in love with a rarepair when other ships are drowning in art and stories.

People still don’t owe you.

If you don’t like someone else’s content, create something exploring what you do like... or even why you don’t like that content. Tell a story. Create art. Make photosets and playlists and analyses. If it is not a literal crime (as opposed to portraying fictional crime), don’t discourage other creators no matter how awful you might find their stuff. Lend your own voice to an alternative as convincingly as you can. And if that doesn’t persuade others, you need to keep honing your own skills.

If you want more of something to exist, spread inspiration. Again this can be in storytelling, art, photosets, playlists, analysis, you name it. Give form to your passion. And if others disagree or don’t respond, keep working at it. This is a skill too, and it takes practice.

I’ve found it shows when work is created out of a sense of guilt, fear, or obligation. The quality is much lower and no one latches on to keep building in-turn. And IMO it is essential to build up rather than tearing down.

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dumb-hat · 3 years

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Characteristics: Evander Winsome

He’s almost always sporting at least some scruff. Sometimes he lets it grow out into an actual beard, depending on his whim.

♦ BODY FEATURES:

Evander has a fairly normal collection of scars for a man his age that gets up to the odd bit of adventuring, mischief and thrill chasing. Most notably, there’s a dueling scar near his left collarbone, an old, faded, nearly invisible scar running from his left elbow to the palm of his hand, and what looks like a scar from an old gunshot on his hip.

As a kid, Evander’s studies were really erratic, as his education mostly came from whatever books his brother could scrounge for him. Later in life, his adoptive family enrolled him in the best education their considerable wealth could afford. While he’s not currently much of a scholar, he’s prone to wheeling off in wild directions when something catches his attention, so there’s a lot of subjects that he knows an odd amount about, and a smaller number of really weird subjects that he’s studied at length. ♦ LIVING SITUATION: Lives alone | Lives with parents/guardian | Lives with significant other | Lives with a friend | Lives with a group of people (Free Company) | Drifter | Homeless | Other (…)

He kind of tends to just float from place to place, flitting between crashing on a friend’s couch or bed, or renting an inn room somewhere. He has an apartment, but given how he’s prone to wander, if he sticks around too long, he gets kind of itchy. When that happens, it’s not too uncommon for him to let a friend apartment sit or crash there semi-long term if they need a place to stay. His room at his Free Company headquarters is a ramshackle thing, mostly full of unpacked boxes, so he’ll stay there from time to time, but not usually for too long of a stretch. ♦ PARENTS/GUARDIAN: Mother | Father | Adoptive | Foster | Grandparents | Family friend | Other (…)

Evander throws himself into things, often without a lot of thought toward consequences. This has been a big problem in the past, so he’s trying to be smarter about it and... it seems to be working, which has him a little worried. Nothing’s collapsing around him. People seem happy. He seems happy.

Honestly, it makes him a little nervous, but being nervous isn’t going to help anyone. He’d much rather be happy than nervous, so he’ll stick with that.

He doesn’t usually spend much time talking about any of this to people who aren’t involved. It all makes sense in his head, but people tend to make faces, ask questions and suddenly it seems a lot more complicated than it actually is.

♦ I’VE BEEN: In Love | Hurt | Sick | Abused | Other (…) I mean, yeah. Like, this covers a lot of ground, right? He’s been all kinds of stuff. ♦ I HAVE A(N): Learning Disorder | Personality Disorder | Mental Disorder | Anxiety Disorder | Eating Disorder | Substance-related Disorder | Other (…) Though he lacks the language to really discuss it, Evander suffers from attention deficit hyperactivity disorder and executive dysfunction. I mentioned that a while ago in this ask (skip midway down to question 36, if that’s all you’re interested in) and dug into what it’s like for him here, in this post for the FFXIVWrite 2020 Challenge.

Evander drinks a lot. He’s actually kind of toned it down over the last few months, but it’s still a whole thing. I’m not inclined to say that he needs to go to meetings or anything, but it probably wouldn’t hurt to cut back and maybe find some more constructive ways to deal with problems.

Rules: BOLD what applies to your muse, ITALICIZE what applies under specific circumstances. Remember to REPOST. Feel free to add to the list. Tagged by: @kittkaleen, @thefreelanceangel, @luck-and-larceny, @twin-moons-ffxiv. I think that’s everyone. Sorry if I missed anyone! Tagging: So, uh... It took me a while to get to this one. I’m not gonna tag anyone specific because I’ll be honest, at this point, I don’t know who all had done it and hasn’t. Still though, if you haven’t done it yet, feel free to do it and tag me back so I can see your answers!

#meme #thing #i'll tag it better later #haha just kidding no I probably won't #I'm so bad at tags.

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warriorofsapph · 3 years

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Layers Upon Layers: Elegant

LAYER ONE: THE OUTSIDE

Name: “Elegant Estrelaint! Nice to meet you ♥️”

Eye Color: “Dark pink? Light red?”

Hair Style/Color: “For style, I usually wear my hair long and loose, but the color? That depends on my mood and/or outfit.”

Height: 6′2

Clothing Style: “Depends on the week! Usually something stylish, with gold accents.”

Best Physical Feature: “My smile!”

LAYER TWO: THE INSIDE

Your Fears: “The specter of death that haunts my every nightmare ♥️ ”

Your Guilty Pleasure: "I! Love! Changing my hair color for absolutely no reason. Jandelaine is so fun to complain to and he has infinite patience. We’ve really become quite close since I’ve started giving him 2000 gil per week.”

Your Biggest Pet Peeve: “I very much dislike people who mistreat those who have no power to respond in kind. Whether a servant or a waitress or a king - everyone is deserving of a basic level of respect and decency!”

Your Ambition for the Future: “A stage...a stage of my own, that helps to light a small part of the world.”

LAYER THREE: THOUGHTS

Your First Thoughts Waking Up: “Ah!! I’ve lived to see another day! How wonderful ♥️ ”

What You Think About the Most: “Dying! & fashion.”

What You Think About Before Bed: “My family, far away in Ishgard.”

You Think Your Best Quality Is: “My voice!”

LAYER FOUR: WHAT’S BETTER?

Single or Group Dates: “Group dates are so! Fun! But single dates are more romantic...it’s hard to choose!”

To be Loved or Respected: “I’d rather be loved! With respect comes responsibility - but I don’t want to live weighed down.”

Beauty or Brains: “Beauty! Not only external, but internal! Anyone can gain more knowledge, but kindness is hard to learn.”

Dogs or Cats: “I love all animals but honestly? Neither. Birds are my favorite!”

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?

Lie: “Oh yeah, aaaaaaall the time!”

Believe in Yourself: “Of course! It’s hard to be a performer without some level of self-confidence.”

Believe in Love: “Yes! I’d like to. Romance can’t just be for the songs, right?”

Want Someone: “Hmm...yeah!”

LAYER SIX: EVER?

Been on Stage: “I practically live there!”

Done Drugs: “Yeah, a few.”

Changed Who You Were to Fit In: “Oh, all the time! It’s a matter of survival, plain and simple.”

LAYER SEVEN: FAVORITES

Favorite Color: “I have so many! But I always come back to blue...”

Favorite Animal: “Bluebirds! They always remind me of happy days!”

Favorite Food: “I love biscuits of all kind, but my favorite are coffee biscuits! They pair really well with - hot...chocolate.”

Favorite Game: “Cuff-a-cur! I’m stronger than I look, y’know ♥️ ”

LAYER EIGHT: AGE

Day Your Next Birthday Will Be: 26th Sun of the 2nd Umbral Moon

How Old Will You Be: “22!”

Age You Lost Your Virginity: “17...”

Does Age Matter: “Yes!! There is a such thing as too young!”

LAYER NINE: IN A PERSON

Best Personality: “Hmm...kind, gentle, and good-humored! Someone who likes to laugh!”

Best Eye Color: “Aaa, so many colors are pretty! I think any is fine!”

Best Hair Color: “Something that matches mine, of course!”

Best thing to do with a Partner: “Talk! Laugh! Eat! Anything, really!”

LAYER TEN: FINISH THE SENTENCE

I love: “putting on a show ♥️ ”

I feel: “great!”

I hide: “from my past, everything that’s behind me”

I miss: “my family, most of whom have gone where I can’t follow.”

I wish: “to live without looking over my shoulder.”

Tagged by: @ffxiv-sunderedsouls & thank you so much!! This was super fun!

I’ll taaaaaag @windupraubahn, @themadchemist, @voidsentprinces, @ancientechos, @trishelle, @shroudkeeper, & @elfyourmother! Also anyone who hasn’t done it yet but sees this - feel free to tag me & talk about your OCs!! ♥️

#elegant estrelaint #i do love the girl #my little bluebird #ffxiv

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kittkaleen · 4 years

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FFxivWrite 2020 - Prompt #18 Panglossian [https://ffxiv-write.carrd.co/]

She’s thinking about something her Gran once said, “There is a point where optimism crosses to stupidity and you’ll find that point without looking for it.” Today is that day, now is the moment, and she’s not the offender. A man by the name of “Master Jax” has requested her services and he hasn’t shut up since the moment she met him. Kitt’s trying her level best to get basic information to decide whether she’ll accept the job. It’s not going well.

“Miss Kaleen, I coulda been anythin’. Smarts run in me family and I’m smart as anythin’.” He’s grinning and winks at her slyly. “Now lotsa people say they’re smart, but I really am! I gotta brother who’s a big-time magistrate in Limsa, and another who’s some hotshot alchemist in Ul’dah. Me sister, Jemma, married this Gridanian fella who’s kinda like a farmer, but he owns stuff everywhere. They got one of the biggest places ‘round here” He pauses thoughtfully. “Oh! I didn’t tell ya yet. I’m a thief, and me name is Jaret. I’d tell ya I’m at yer service, like the fancy folk does, but truly, I’m only ever at me own service.”

Kitt tilts her head, taking in his family history, which she did not ask for and considers the wiry Miqo’te man, not much taller than she is. A slick, fast talking thief.

“I was telling ya I coulda been anythin’, and I coulda but thievin’ is tailor made for someone like me. I’m not a big fella, as ye can see, and I’m not too strong. But then, I don’t haf to be. Me fingers are nimble and quicker than a virgin in a whorehouse.” He’s grinning again and it’s a little disconcerting.

He hooks his fingers into his belt, rocking back on his heels. “You might be thinkin’ I’m a flashy fella, what with me silk blouse, scarves and these trousers. Flamboyant. Jemma says I’m flamboyant. Only she says it kinda like a cuss word and she screws up her face when she says it.” He takes a quick breath and continues. “I dunno but that she never got over I stole her weddin’ ring and sold it. Sheesh, accidents happen, ya know? These silk scarves I acquired from a spice trader down way from Amh Araeng. His caravan was full up with salt peter and dimythrite, but what do I need that fer? Preferred the scarves. I like to dress like this but when I need to, I can vanish in a crowd so’s even me own mum couldn’t find me.”

Kitt interjected, “You were saying you require a healer?” He keeps right on talking.

“Speakin’ of mums, I must say for all some people would have ya believe thieves are without conscience, it’s me that supports me mum. Both me brothers, and sister too, got lotsa gil, but they rarely part with any of it. Me mum woulda been a beggar if not fer me. As is, she’s got a nice little cottage in the Lavender Beds and even a cow of her own. She’s happier than a pig in a puddle, and the only one in me family that lets me visit. That’s where I was when Reggie the Lunatic’s men found me.” He stops to inhale deeply.

“Are we getting to the healer part now, Master Jax?” Kitt’s voice drips with sarcasm, which is completely wasted on the man.

“Miss Kaleen, believe me when I say me mum is the worst cook in Eorzea, no contest. Me Fa ustta say if he’d married her fer her cookin’ he’d been mighty disappointed indeed. But he married her ‘cause she is the sweetest woman ya can imagine. She loves everyone and everyone loves her.” He’s beaming as he speaks. Kitt finds it exceedingly difficult to disregard any man who loves and respects his mother, so she listens. “This day, I’m telling ya about, I was over at her cottage. I was sittin’ at this little wooden table she has under the window. The shutters were open and I was watching her cow, name of Daisy, eatin’ the buttercups outta the window box, listenin’ to me mum sing. Suddenly these fellas come strollin’ up the walk, casual like, I recognized Maddog Wharton, and quick as that, I was looking fer the back door. I bolted past me mum, whose eyes were like saucers, but then the back door opened, and two other fellas were there. I was caught like a rabbit in a snare trap. This fella asks if I’m Jaret Jax and me Mum says to them, yes I is, at the same time I’m sayin’ no I ain’t. I felt the noose tighten around me throat sure. The bigger fella says Reggie is givin’ me a invitation like, to go with these fellas and visit him at the Reaper.”

Somehow she’s still tracking this story, so she asks, “The Reaper?” “Yeah Miss Kaleen, little underground pub out Thanalan way, but anyway, like I says to you earlier, I’m a smart fella, and I added two and three together and made six, quick as could be, knowing that invitation was not a good thing at all.” He’s shaking his head and she snorts softly. “I says, “no thank ye” – and they just grab me by me arms, and me mum was worried as ever. I didn’t like they was takin’ me out like a prisoner, but I liked it less they was givin’ me mum a fright. She was sayin’ t’ let me go and they didn’t pay her no heed at all! I was feelin’ pretty sad fer me mum on account that when you are a thief sometimes these things just happen. But hey, I’m like a cat, 29 lives and always landin’ on me feet, ya see? I says to me Mum not to fret, that I’m curious and gotta go and see Reggie. I says it like I mean it, and as I’m bein’ bullied down the path, I see she’s more relaxed, but frowning.

So off we go to Thanalan. The Reaper’s is not inside the town. You gotta ride fer a ways to get there and lemme tell you, it was a quiet ride. I was attemptin’ to make some nice social conversin’ and these fellas were shut up as tight as a princess’ chastity belt. Not a word the whole way. When we rode into the yard I was impressed. Now I been a lot of nice pubs on account me trade allows me to move in some elegant circles. Still I was dazzled when we got to the door and it was gold. The door was made of gold! I admit I was thinkin’ on how to thief that door, not to sell or nothin’, cause you never could sell something like that easy. Just to keep it and look on it cause it were so pretty. That’s what I was thinkin’ when I walked into the bar.

Strangest pub I ever saw. A long bar with a few stools and that were it. On the other side o’ the room a fancy chair was sat upon a dais, I knew from experience it weren’t fer me to sit in. The fellas left the room and I was standin’ there. Some time goes by and I was gettin’ fidgety. I don’t like standin’ around. It makes me nervous. I was wanderin’ around lookin’ to see what I could thief to make up fer the inconvenience of waitin’ and all. But there weren’t nothin’ in that room that I cared anything fer. Then a door banged open and the hugest man I ever saw comes in bellowing Reggie’s name, as if I didn’t know who I was supposed to see. Still I wasn’t sayin’ nothin’ cause all that fella woulda haf t’ do is sit on me and that’d be it, life over! So I looked on polite like as Reggie came into the room.” Jaret shakes his head, whistling through his teeth. She rolls her eyes.

Reggie is old. Older than me Mum even. He had all these fancy clothes on and his pants were terrible tight, big belly showed that he’s real well fed. When he sat on that chair I was waitin’ to hear those pants split. But they didn't. He was wearing more jewelry than a magistrate’s wife, and I know cause me brother’s a magistrate, he has a wife and I had a chance a coupl’a times to look in her jewelry box. Anyway, he had this one ruby ring t'was near big as his head and it was damn tough fer me to pay attention since I was lookin’ so hard at the gem.”

Kitt sighs. “Can we please get to the point?”

Jaret looks at her with a wounded expression. “Course Miss Kaleen. Reggie said, “Get over here!” So I did. I walked up to the chair and stood by him, quiet and waitin’. When he started talkin’, he had my attention like right sharp! So I can tell ya about it accurate like here.” “He says to me he hears I’m a thief. Well likes I been tellin’ you, I’m a smart fella so I says I certainly ain’t a thief. Then he waves his hand all angry like and tells me to shut up. So I did. He says I got a reputation as a thief of extraordinary talents. Well, I thought that was a right nice compliment, so I relaxed a little. Then he says he has a employment opportunity for me on account I’m so good at what I do. Well sure I was all ears then, what would Reggie the Lunatic want with me?”

Kitt’s tail is twitching, back and forth, back and forth, sharp little movements, manicured fingernails lightly drumming against the table top. “Okay okay, I’m gettin’ to it now, Miss Kaleen. Reggie tells me he wants a wife, and it can’t be just anyone. So I’m thinkin’ what’s the problem and what does he want with a thief? He says the lady he wants is rich as a princess and lives in Kholusia. Her name is Leylah and she’s engaged, apparently even likes the fella she’s s’posed to marry. Reggie says he wants me go there and steal him a heart. A heart I says? He nods ever slow like and says, yes, I am to go and steal this Leylah lady’s heart and bring it to him.”

So I’m scratchin’ at me head wonderin’ a little about all this. I asks him, “you want me to steal the girl fer you?” He says no, that’s not what he wants. He doesn’t only just want the girl; he wants the girl’s heart. Like he wants the girl to love him.” Kitt scowls. I’m with you Miss Kaleen. Dirty dealings. I’m thinkin’ about all these implications, and Reggie is tellin’ me if I can do it, he’s gonna make me a very wealthy man and I’ll never have t’ steal nothin’ again. He doesn’t understand I’m a thief because It’s me passion not ‘cause I’m poor. Sheesh. He’s tellin’ me I’m goin’ t’ have the best equipment and all to help me, and can even hire a healer t’ protect me.” She sighs with relief, surely this is the end point. But no. “Well like I been tellin’ you, I’m a smart fella. So I says I think he’s got his-self the wrong man. What he’s askin’ fer is a serious warrior fer the kidnapping and a mage type for a love spell or somethin’. I says this ‘cause I am considerin’ the whole thing. A woman already in love isn’t gonna wanna marry some old ugly fart, even if he is a rich crime boss. Her husband t’ be ain’t gonna just let me take her away without some interference. So that’s a bit of trouble I wouldn’t want t’ be borrowing neither. Stealing a heart ain’t somethin’ I ever did fer hire. I had me share of the ladies; they love me fer some reason. I love ‘em too. I dunno but I think ladies’ hearts should just be left alone. So I tell Reggie, Eorzea’s a big sea with a lotta eager fishes, and he hollers at me to shut up. I’m a smart fella. So I did.” “For the love of the almighty Twelve”, Kitt’s patience finally snaps. “You have 20 seconds to wrap this story up and get to the point.”

He gestures for her to calm down, shaking his head. “Yer a lil impatient for a healer, aint’cha?” Kitt growls, low and quiet in the back of her throat. “Okay okay, I’m near done. See Reggie’s face was getting damn red and seeing him mad didn’t make him any better lookin’. I almost felt sorry fer him. He’s like me nephew, Willy, who is the worst spoilt kid I ever met. He wants somethin’ and there ain’t no sayin’ no to the brat. It ain’t even worth tryin’ to reason with him. I could see Reggie is a lot just that way. So I was thinkin’ what I was goin’ t’ do when Reggie snarls at me sayin’ it ain’t really a choice. I HAVE t’ do it else he’s gonna remove me head from me shoulders. So that was that. I had a new job. None too happy about it either. But then I’m a smart fella so I smiled and nodded.” Kitt is not smiling and not nodding. “Let me see if I have followed you. You are being coerced to steal a woman and her heart, under the threat of death and you think I’m going to join you in this deranged adventure?”

Jaret blinks, “Deranged adventure? Weren’t ya listening? I’m a smart man and an excellent thief. If ya stick with me it’ll be the heist of the century!”

#FFxivWrite2020 #FFxivWrite #Prompt 18 Panglossian #Long af cuz Saturday #Kitt Kaleen #White Mage

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Do you have a vlog? If not, have you ever considered starting a vlog? >> I don’t have a vlog and I’ve only considered it as a humorous thought exercise, not seriously. My own mannerisms and facial tics embarrass me when I’m aware of them or can see them on video, so I’d rather not put myself through that.

Did you go to AM or PM kindergarten? >> I don’t remember. Edit: I think at one point I was going to pre-K in the morning and kindergarten in the afternoon, because they realised I was precocious or whatever, but they didn’t want to just fully skip me to kindergarten (idfk, man, teachers are weird). So I went to both at the same time, and graduated from both at the end of the year.

What are your favorite youtube channels to watch? >> Wisecrack, Overly Sarcastic Productions, The Take, Philosophy Tube, ContraPoints, Ethys Asher, MTQCapture (just for FFXIV dungeon guides, but hers are the best), Final Fantasy Union, Implicitly Pretentious, NakeyJakey, Ask a Mortician... those are all the ones I can remember off the top of my head. I’m always looking for new channels, but it’s hard to find consistently interesting and well-made content that isn’t about things I just don’t particularly care about.

Which relative(s) do you look the most like? >> ---

Have you ever watched a live birth video? >> No.

Have you ever given birth? >> Heavens, no.

Do you remember when the Internet was a new thing? >> I vaguely remember when Internet for the casual at-home user became a thing. The Internet as a whole is a bit older than me, and I was very young when things like IRC came out.

Do you remember Y2K? >> Yes!

How old were you when the year changed to 2000? >> I was 12.

What was your favorite childhood vacation? >> ---

Have you ever wished you were born the opposite gender? >> I did think I was binary trans for a few years. Now I’m completely off the gender axis and floating in todash space somewhere. As intended.

What’s your birth order: oldest, middle, or youngest? >> I am the youngest of my father’s offspring.

Do you fit the stereotype for whatever birth order you are? >> I think if there’s any stereotype I’d be liable to fit, it’d be only-child stereotypes, since that’s how I was raised (my father’s other children were decades older than me and I barely knew them).

Have you ever worn overalls? >> Yeah.

If you’re a girl, how old were you when you started your period? >> I’m not a girl, but I was 11 or so.

Do you get cramps? >> I did. Awful ones, too, the kind that would incapacitate me (sometimes in public...). Which is the primary reason why I started taking the Pill -- I didn’t dare to hope that it would get rid of periods altogether, but I was very relieved and happy when it did.

Is your mom mentally stable? >> ---

Is your dad a complete jerk to you? >> ---

Where do you want to go on vacation next? >> I would love to go on a vacation to anywhere, but that’s not feasible right now.

What is one place you want to visit before you die? >> *shrug*

Has anyone ever committed suicide in your town, that you know of? >> I mean, I’m sure someone has, but I don’t know anything about it.

What’s your favorite type of crackers? >> Oh, god, I forgot what they’re called. But they’re long and thin and rectangular and they come in flavours like garlic and rosemary. Also, matzo. Love matzo, particularly the egg and onion kind.

What’s your favorite spice? >> I really couldn’t say.

Are you sensitive? >> Way more so than I’d thought I was. Turns out a complex system of protections and defense mechanisms was shielding a very soft core. (Thank god. As much as they can and do backfire and cause their own problems, can you imagine how much worse off I would have been without those mechanisms?)

Are you intuitive? >> I don’t know, really. How does one measure that?

Are you spiritual? >> Maybe. I don’t really know what people mean when they use that word, so I’m hesitant to say one way or the other.

Do you wish your life were easier? >> My life isn’t particularly difficult at this juncture. I just have... a very small window of tolerance and take things a lot harder as a result. I don’t wish my life was easier, I wish my brain was less on fire.

What color hair did your first crush have? >> ---

What was the name of your first crush? >> ---

Did you ever play on Mamamedia.com? >> No.

Do you remember your first email address? >> Yeah, it was [email protected].

Did you name your lego characters? >> I didn’t have LEGO. I had Tinker Toys and an Erector set, neither of which came with little people iirc.

What was/is your high school’s mascot? >> ---

What is/was your favorite class in high school? >> ---

Is college an adventure? >> ---

Do you take medication for anxiety or depression? If so, does it work? Does it help you? Or does it make you feel worse? >> I do not.

If applicable, what form of birth control do you use? >> The Pill. Not for the birth-control function, though... not having sex covers that pretty well.

Who is your favorite cousin? >> ---

Do you look your age? >> According to other people, who apparently care about that sort of thing, no.

What’s your favorite flavor of frosting? >> ---

Do you like toe socks? >> No.

Muffins or cupcakes? >> Cupcakes, but rarely. I just don’t like muffins period.

Have you ever had a bag stolen? >> Probably.

How old were you when you got your first phone? >> Seventeen.

Are you ready for summer?!?! >> I will be in a couple of months, you can guarantee that.

Is winter your favorite season? >> No.

How many people do you know who’ve said winter is their favorite season? >> Quite a few, actually. I feel like I’ve encountered far more winter people than summer people. I see people complaining about warm weather constantly. I will never understand (even as a person who runs hot, I will still never understand). Even with the side effect of getting SAD in the winter, I love being solar powered.

Are you unique in any way? >> I mean, probably.

Do you have any hidden talents? >> No.

Has anyone said you and your mom look like sisters? >> ---

Who was your best friend in high school? >> ---

What book or movie gave you nightmares as a child? >> None.

What song makes you cry? >> Plenty, but I can’t think of one right now.

Does anyone know who your first crush was besides you? >> ---

How many teachers have you had crushes on? >> I was thinking about this last night. Calling the obsession I had with that one teacher a “crush” is erroneous because... the reason why I felt the way I felt about him is because he was nice to me. Literally, that was it. I was freshly traumatised (and being in and out of the hospital was just re-traumatising me), had an attachment disorder and was emotionally neglected, and was used to being treated poorly. When I told That One Teacher that I cut myself, he gave me a hug. Like... groundbreaking! No one else had responded that way! Of course I was attached to him, he actually treated me like someone who deserved kindness and care. It’s really hard not to feel crushingly sad for teenage!me (and, as an extension, current!me, who is still bearing the effects of the past) when I think about that.

Did you make your Barbie dolls get crushes on each other? >> I don’t really remember what I did with Barbie dolls.

Did your Barbie dolls go on dates? >> ^

How old were you when you had your first kiss? >> ---

Do you like church? >> Eh. Depends on the church, I guess. I’ll always have affection for Black Church(tm).

Do you have scars from self-harm? >> Yep.

Do you have cellulite? >> A little, I think.

How old were you when you started getting zits? >> I had them through my teenage years.

Did your hair change at all when you went through puberty? >> I don’t think so.

Are you taller, shorter, or the same height as your mom? >> I’ve been taller than that woman since I was 12.

Would you ever consider adopting a child? >> If I was ever going to raise a child, this would be the only way it’d happen.

Who was your first roommate? >> ---

Have you ever had a teacher who was rude? >> Yup.

Is your mom paranoid? >> ---

Do you trim your own hair? >> I buzz my own head, yeah.

Did your mom read you bedtime stories as a child? >> I was not read bedtime stories as a child. I made up my own in my head instead.

What are all the things you remember being for Halloween? >> ---

What was the name of the first pet that you loved? >> Roxie.

Did you have your own room as a child? >> I did.

What color was your nursery? >> ---

Did your parents know your gender before you were born? >> I don’t know.

What is your name (first and middle)? >> Mordred Shadow.

What would you have been named if you had been born the opposite gender? >> My name isn’t related to what my parent named me, and I have no idea what he would have named me if I was born the opposite sex.

Do you like your name? >> I like the one I gave myself, yes.

What would you name your children? >> ---

Do you exercise regularly? >> I’m again trying to do the take-a-daily-walk thing. Again. I fail every time, but I keep trying. Can Calah says there’s something good about that, better than failing and giving up on ever doing it again. I don’t know, but I’ll trust him on it.

Do you have a healthy BMI? >> I don’t know.

What is your favorite season? >> Spring.

Do you look like your mom? >> ---

What is the origin of your last name? >> I have no idea. I assumed that in this world, Stephen King made it up, but maybe he didn’t. The “canonical” origin of my last name is Gilead-That-Was.

What is the meaning of your first name? >> It’s unclear.

What month were you born in? >> May.

Do you share a birthday with anyone in your family? >> ---

Do you have a sweet tooth? >> Nope.

What photo editing software do you use? >> I either use Paint to just resize or crop an image, or Pixlr if I need extra editing tools.

Where do you buy most of your clothes? >> There is no place where I buy the majority of my clothes. They come from all over.

#surveys #survey #random survey #not for reblogging *glare*

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GET TO KNOW THE BLOGGER.

can be used for rp & non-rp blogs to get to know a bit about the person behind the screen !

1. FIRST NAME: Stephanie, but call me Bishy <3

2. STRANGE FACT ABOUT YOURSELF: If you were to walk into my apartment, you’d find medieval weaponry hanging up on the walls all over the place. I also was always compared to Iron Man, only because my entire left arm is almost all metal.

3. TOP THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU FIND ATTRACTIVE ON A PERSON: Their eyes are the first thing I look at. When I saw my wife first, I looked at her eyes and just. Yes. The next observation I really look at is the smile. Each smile holds part of their personality. Then I tend to notice their height. Luckily for me, my wifey is taller than me. <3

4. A FOOD YOU COULD EAT FOREVER AND NOT GET BORED OF: Ooooof. If I had to choose just ONE dish, I would have to choose Lemon Pepper fish. While I love sushi, and Alfredo, the lemon pepper fish is absolutely amazing and I finally learned how to make it myself. So I won’t starve if my wife leaves for a night or two. xD

5. A FOOD YOU HATE: Spinach. Just. Yuck.

6. GUILTY PLEASURE: Okay so I have a few guilty pleasures. First and foremost is making characters with character creators in games. I just love making them. I also have a huge guilty pleasure for shipping. I’m actually going to copy a statement that someone else made because they describe it incredibly well.

I love healthy ships and unhealthy ships (but like, don’t glorify them. Recognize they are unhealthy and should not be idealized for RL) I just love love, and I love the butterflies and coyness and excited uncertain that leads up to the very first time a ship admits their feelings most of all.

But yeah. More guilty pleasures. I also love editing screenshots of characters. I love playing around with the colors and shadows.

7. WHAT DO YOU SLEEP IN: Pajama pants. It’s rare for me to sleep with a top on, only because my wife is a massive heater and I’ll overheat if I wear too much.

8. SERIOUS RELATIONSHIPS OR FLINGS: Hah, well I’m married soooo. In October it’ll be 2 years, but we’ve been together for almost 5 years. Longest relationship I’ve ever had! <3 We have our difficulties, yes, but we work through it and keep on trucking.

9. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN THE PAST AND CHANGE ONE THING ABOUT YOUR LIFE, WOULD YOU AND WHAT WOULD IT BE: If I could go back, I’d tell my boss to fuck off and stay in Texas with my dad for an additional 3 weeks. That was really the last time I got to spend time with my dad, seeing as the next time I saw him, he passed away.

10. ARE YOU AN AFFECTIONATE PERSON: I didn’t grow up around affection. So it took a long time for me to open up and actually showcase affection to people willingly. I’m finally getting better at it though! I want to say yes, I am an affectionate person, but I still struggle at times on whether it’s appropriate or not.

11. A MOVIE YOU COULD WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN: This will forever be “Sweeney Todd”. I absolutely adore that movie. Or any of the “Pirates of the Caribbean” just because of the aesthetic.

12. FAVORITE BOOK: Oh gosh. This is extremely hard to choose, only because I love reading. Call of Cthulhu, Lord of the Rings, Game of Thrones; anything from Stephen King; I read anything and everything, so choosing one as a favorite is nearly impossible.

13. YOU HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO KEEP ANY ANIMAL AS A PET, WHAT DO YOU CHOOSE: A skunk <3

14. TOP FIVE FICTIONAL SHIPS [IF YOU ARE AN RP BLOG, YOU CAN USE YOUR OWN SHIPS AS WELL]: Ooooof. I have too many to share. So like, it’s a very toxic ship, but Tsumi ( @tivtastic) and Syat’a are a huge toxic ship that I cannot wait to dive into. Another good ship that I’m kinda adoring is the friendship between Shoto ( @chooseyourmuse) with Astrid. Their closeness just brings me massive feels, and I adore them. Okay, so that’s only two. Let me think. I also am really interested to see the development between Denki ( @persona-de-interes) with Astrid.

Oh! Another super big ship of mine is Caspian with Roselyn ( @sky-gryphon) on discord. Their raw connection just. Mmph. I love it. I also am really in love with the connection between Colette and Zegnes ( @sky-gryphon) on discord as well. While she’s this big bad predator, he’s so soft towards her and I just. He makes her feel things, which results in me feeling wonderful things for them. Now another- OH MY GOSH HOW COULD I FORGET.

How could I ever forget Arron ( @-tiviani-)??? He with ANYONE of my kids. FUCKING ANYONE. Give me that GORY SHIP. So fricken toxic, but YESSSS.

EDIT: HOW COULD I FORGET THIS ADORABLE SHIP. OMG SOMEONE HIT ME FOR FORGETTING. Jupiter with Niel ( @softvorenoms). LEGIT GUYS. This ship is SO SUPER ADORABLE. Every time I think of canon relationships for Jupy, I immediately think of Niel. When I finally sit down to write the actual books for Jupiter and her siblings, Niel will either show up in it somewhere or be mentioned. Because these two. <3 <3 <3

15. PIE OR CAKE: Pie! <3

16. FAVORITE SCENT: I’m more towards vanilla, but I also am really liking cinnamon (even if I can’t say the damn word)

17. CELEBRITY CRUSH: Ooooof! Hmm. Okay, so I don’t really keep tabs on celebrity life, so give me a moment to really think. The actress that plays as Scarlet Witch. Yep, she’s real pretty. I also really adore Felicia Day. She’s just perfection. Then there’s Tom Hiddleston. He’s gorgeous.

18. IF YOU COULD TRAVEL ANYWHERE, WHERE WOULD YOU GO: Mm... Probably Italy ( seeing as I’m Italian and have yet to see where my family came from ) or Scotland ( because who doesn’t love their accent?? )

19. INTROVERT OR EXTROVERT: Technically, I’m classified as an “Extroverted Introvert”, but I just like to call myself an Introvert and leave it at that.

20. DO YOU SCARE EASILY: Hah! I don’t think I scare easily, but I jump super easily.

21. IPHONE OR ANDROID: Android

22. DO YOU PLAY ANY VIDEO GAMES: ...Do I play video games?? OOOOOF. Yes, lmao! I bounce between PS4 and PC. From Mortal Kombat, Dragon Age series, FFXIV, and soooo many others; I play pretty much anything.

23. DREAM JOB: I’m actually doing my dream job! I work at a museum; I’m a tour guide. I adore learning new things, and retelling history to others.

24. WHAT WOULD YOU DO WITH A MILLION DOLLARS: I would first and foremost pay off any dept that my wife has. Then I’d put half of my cash to the side for saving. The rest would be put into paying off my wife’s vehicle (since mine is already paid off) and helping us settle down in an actual house somewhere we want to live for good. Currently we’re living in an apartment, and it’s comfortable yes, but it’s not forever.

25. FICTIONAL CHARACTER YOU HATE: A fictional character I hate? Hmm. Oh, oh! I know so many others really adore this character and find him “oh so attractive”, but I cannot stand Zenos yae Galvus from ffxiv. Just no. I can’t. At all.

26. FANDOM THAT YOU WERE ONCE A PART OF BUT AREN’T ANY LONGER: I used to be big into Inuyasha. In fact, that was the first fandom I actually got into! But I’m not into it any more, only because finding tons of people that still want to write that fandom is almost impossible. Shout out to @nioiidamaa for pulling me back into the fandom because they write AMAZING.

STOLEN FROM: @bagwormmulti TAGGING: everyone that I already tagged in earlier, soooo @chooseyourmuse, @persona-de-interes, @sky-gryphon, @tivtastic, @nioiidamaa, @softvorenoms. I also welcome anyone else! If you do it and you weren’t tagged, you’re tagged now!! :D

#bishy rambles #i had to make a edit #it was very important

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