#''its not fear of Fire thats just how it manifests!'' ''its not fear or spiders thats just how it Manifests!'' ''its not fear of mud''

[haemosexuality]

thinking in depth ab the fears after finishing the podcast has just been an endless loop of "ooooh its not literal"

#''its not fear of Fire thats just how it manifests!'' ''its not fear or spiders thats just how it Manifests!'' ''its not fear of mud'' #''its not fear of weird corridors'' etc #the fears but explained more easily: #fear of being watched and judged #fear of being unclean‚ of disease and rot #fear of the dark #fear of losing the things/people you love‚ of your life suddenly being destroyed #fear of death or dying #fear of being trapped‚ either literally or metaphorically #fear of your body not being good? not having value or worth? and ig body horror? this ones weird to explain #fear of being hunted down‚ again either literally or metaphorically #fear of being alone #fear of senseless violence #fear of losing your mind #fear of others‚ of people you dont know #fear of being insignificant on the grand scale of things (or of the grand scale itself) #fear of being manipulated‚ of not having control over yourself #i think i got it pretty well now? idl #theres also the extinction which is just ''fear of extinction/apocalypse''. very self explanatory. also im an extinction truther #the magnus archives #anyways i wish we had proper buried and slaughter avatars #we met avatars of ALL the fears except those????? like CMON #melanie doesnt count cuz she was never avatar level #and the closest thing we have to a buried avatar is??? rhe coffin ig? so unfair #i want to see what a slaughter avatar would be like so bad

[rebellious-roleplays]

The odd questions for Alex

QUESTIONS FOR YOUR OCs Today’s victim, Alex Cardenas

What’s the maximum amount of time your character can sit still with nothing to do? Around maybe 3 minutes.

How easy is it for your character to laugh? Extremely easy.

How do they put themselves to bed at night (reading, singing, thinking?) Crime fighting until 4 am usually does the trick.

How easy is it to earn their trust? Pretty easily.

How easy is it to earn their mistrust? You would have to do something pretty bad…

Do they consider laws flexible, or immovable? Depends on the law, really.

What triggers nostalgia for them, most often? Do they enjoy that feeling? Cooking and watching Spanish Soap Operas. And yes he does.

What were they told to stop/start doing most often as a child To stay off the fire escape thats right out his window.

Do they swear? Do they remember their first swear word? Yes. It was Mierda, Spanish for shit.

What lie do they most frequently remember telling? Does it haunt them? Telling his family that he’s fine and that there’s nothing to worry about, even though thats never the case. Sometimes, but unfortunately its for the best.

How do they cope with confusion (seek clarification, pretend they understand, etc)? Pretends he knows, but asks a friend later.

How do they deal with an itch found in a place they can’t quite reach? Well, he’s very flexible so thats usually never the case anymore.

What color do they think they look best in? Do they actually look best in that color? Red, and yes.

What animal do they fear most? Bees

How do they speak? Is what they say usually thought of on the spot, or do they rehearse it in their mind first? He has been known to let his mouth run before his brain.

What makes their stomach turn? Graphic gore.

Are they easily embarrassed? Not really, he usually has no shame.

What embarrasses them? I guess embarrassing baby photos, the usual.

What is their favorite number? 35

If they were asked to explain the difference between romantic and platonic or familial love, how would they do so? “Well…romantic love I guess is when you want to spend your entire life with someone, platonic is how you feel about your best friend, and familial is how you feel about your mom…don’t quote me here.” - Alex Cardenas

Why do they get up in the morning? To maintain a visage of normalcy. 

How does jealousy manifest itself in them (they become possessive, they become aloof, etc)? He becomes closed off and petty.

How does envy manifest itself in them (they take what they want, they become resentful, etc)? He becomes resentful but not blatantly. Again, petty.

Is sex something that they’re comfortable speaking about? To whom? God no. If held at gunpoint, probably someone he trusts that isn’t his family.

What are their thoughts on marriage? He’s happy for those who do marry, but being only 16 its not really at the forefront for his thoughts.

What is their preferred mode of transportation? By web.

What causes them to feel dread? Not being able to compare to Peter.

Would they prefer a lie over an unpleasant truth? It would be hard, but an unpleasant truth.

Do they usually live up to their own ideals? He certainly does his damn hardest to. 

Who do they most regret meeting? Douglas Givers

Who are they the most glad to have met? Hawkeye. (Francis Barton)

Do they have a go-to story in conversation? Or a joke? Pinches Tacos.

Could they be considered lazy? To anyone who doesn’t know about his alter ego. 

How hard is it for them to shake a sense of guilt? Depending on what he’s feeling guilty about, at most it can linger for weeks.

How do they treat the things their friends come to them excited about? Are they supportive? It very least, he will act excited.

Do they actively seek romance, or do they wait for it to fall into their lap? He’ll just wait. Standing back and silently pining.

Do they have a system for remembering names, long lists of numbers, things that need to go in a certain order (like anagrams, putting things to melodies, etc)? He actually has a pretty good memory, and that stuff just kinda sticks, except when he’s tired then all of that goes out the window  

What memory do they revisit the most often? Witnessing the original Spider-Man getting killed.

How easy is it for them to ignore flaws in other people? He for the most part can overlook them, unless the person is an asshole.

How sensitive are they to their own flaws? Don’t talk to him or his flaws ever again…

How do they feel about children? Actually loves kids.

How badly do they want to reach their end goal? He wants to be on the same level that Peter was, so very badly.

If someone asked them to explain their sexuality, how would they do so? He just says that he swings both ways and leaves it at that.

#alex cardenas #memes #questions