#(still get unreasonably anxious and think i'll be annoying everyone yelling about the ships in any blog)

[yanlei-a]

my toxic trait is i read everything y'all write and i eat it up and i love your ships like even though i probably wouldn't care about them if not for y'all writing i'd read your yelling about them gladly and i'd read 10 page essays about them but then whenever i have brainrot about my own ships i just think i'll be annoying yelling about them 💁‍♂️

#» out of character — ⌜main sup irl.⌟ #i think in part it's #this thing the rpc (in general not league) #always had of 'you actually admit you're interested in shipping? disgusting' #kajsndfkajsnf #because yeah sure shipping isn't all there is to it #it's not all i enjoy writing or that i want in my blogs even #but developing relationships (romantic AND platonic) is literally one of my favorite things about rp #and i /do/ enjoy shipping greatly i love when we mash our little plastic dolls together it's so much fun it makes me feral sometimes #but i do love romance actually. i love complicated romance. i love enemies who have romantic feelings for each other #i love partners in crime and killing machines who get to be soft with each other. i love the idea of love possibly undooming the narrative #i just really enjoy romance (writing it. reading what you all write with it. all the romance) #i'd have hesitated to admit that before but. yeah i'm cringe but i'm free #(still get unreasonably anxious and think i'll be annoying everyone yelling about the ships in any blog)